Life by Metry(mostly inactive account)

AHHHH IM SO FUCKING HAPPY

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-04 14:22:30 UTC

HAWK IS THE GREATEST PERSON EVER!THEY ARE SO LOVING AND SWEET AND LOYAL!I WISH I MET THEM BEFORE!BUT I'M GLAD WE MET NOW!

Yesterday so much happened

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-04 14:25:34 UTC

I got a boyfriend. I got my phone back. I'm not in drama. I haven't had suicidal thoughts. I think it's because I'm with people I vibe with now. I'm so glad I'm with the friends I'm with.

Color scheme

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-04 14:26:33 UTC

Purple-idk

Orange-Serious(kinda)

Blue-Mixed

Red-Pissed

Green-Happy

Black-Updates on Life

5/4/2023

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-04 15:01:01 UTC

ME & MY LOVELY BOY MAKING PLANS TO HAVE HIM KIDNAP ME!HEHEHE!

OKAY SO

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-04 16:47:35 UTC

THERE'S CARNIVAL THAT HAPPENS EVERY YEAR IN MY CITY,AND I WANT TO GO WITH MY BOYFRIEND BECAUSE IT'D BE AWESOME AND FUN!

AHHH MY CUTE GUY DOING VOICE ACTING IS CUTEEEE

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-04 18:07:43 UTC

AGGRESSIVELY SAVING

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-04 18:15:23 UTC

I miss Hawk

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-05 17:20:37 UTC

Fuck am I a clingy girlfriend?Holy shit I might be a clingy girlfriend.

i cant hes so loving and kind im going to stop existing

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-05 17:38:22 UTC

I'm going to say this right now.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-05 17:58:24 UTC

If you try to flirt with Hawk with romantic intentions, I will not be merciful if I find you. I don't intend on my boyfriend being taken from me when I just got the courage to ask him out. So if you want to test this bitch right here go ahead.

DIES FROM HAPPINESS

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-05 19:21:12 UTC

To those who hate Hawk

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-08 14:22:02 UTC

Sincerely fuck all of you who hate my boyfriend. He's done nothing wrong to anyone and has only done good. If you hate him, your a sheep that only believes things at face
value.

From, Hawk's GF

So like there was a shooting in a mall from my city

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-08 18:28:04 UTC

and the youngest was 5

Hawk is the one person I'd die for.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-08 19:00:00 UTC

<3 him so fucking much!

I just realized I'm a clingy gf towards Hawk ;-;

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-08 20:29:34 UTC

So something I want to say.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-09 15:57:05 UTC

Please don't try to ask me to do things I might not like. Especially if it's ERP,as I want to not go behind my boy's back doing that shit. He's already going through enough shit,and I don't want to add heartbreak to that list. I'd legit give up on life if I hurt him like that.

I'm so done with Killua. He is a jerk and a manipulator who mistreats everyone who used to be his friend.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-09 19:42:45 UTC

He even mentally and emotionally abused one of my best friends to the point of quitting pad.

Me when Hawky is online

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-10 14:26:10 UTC

I'm proud that I'm protective & clingy for my lovely boy. It lets him know I want him safe and happy

Pick the right people to be friends with.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-10 16:45:29 UTC

I say this as there are groups of people who will treat you like a friend until they have no desire to keep you around. Me and Hawk have learned this truth the hard way. I am in a good friend group now,but it took me a while to find them,but I'm glad I met the real friends.

Sometimes I feel bad for people I've hurt even if they hurt me more,but then I remember that I got homies like Spazz&Artie and a boyfriend like Hawky,so I don't need to beg for people to possibly tolerate me.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-11 14:36:07 UTC

RANTING TIMEEEEE!

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-11 15:10:42 UTC

SO APPARENTLY,I SHOULD LEAVE PEDOPHILES ALONE IF SOMEONE DEFENDS THEM!LIKE I FUCKING CARE IF IT STARTS DRAMA WITH THE PEDO!HE SHOULDN'T HAVE COME BACK IN THE FIRST PLACE!I DON'T CARE IF I'M THE BAD GUY!THAT GUY GROOMED 10 MINORS!

If you hate me that's cool. I don't care enough to change your mind. Just gonna tell you to live your best life.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-11 16:50:59 UTC

I'm just here to be with Hawky and my homies.

WORSHIP HER!

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-12 17:15:52 UTC

DO IT!

imma kiss hawk so hard on monday

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-12 19:29:57 UTC

AHHHH I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THE MOD PROGRESS!

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-18 17:06:21 UTC

now we just need to work on the sheets SOBS

Hawk got caught...

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-18 19:50:18 UTC

SO I JUST GOTTA WAIT FOR A WHILE!YOU THINK I'D ABANDON HIM?!

Sometimes I have dreams of Hawk being injured while I'm holding him.It's not nightmares because he's always okay before I wake up,but I always wake up crying and worrying about him.I get so anxious and worried about him,but it scares me more because of his parents...I miss him so much.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-18 21:01:41 UTC

I want him to be safe,and I want to be there for him because it scares me how much pain he receives because of transphobic and homophobic family.

Fuck this stupid site sometimes man.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-19 20:06:35 UTC

mostly everyone is toxic except for the friends i have,and its just become stupid petty drama at this point.Once Hawk gets something other than this stupid fucking website full of drama,I'm taking him with me when I quit.

When I ask you to not say or call me something that makes me feel uncomfortable,that's your only warning.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-22 19:29:11 UTC

I'm not going to be tolerating people calling me weird things or calling me mommy or shit like that unless its for a joke or making fun of someone else. Just calling me "Mommy Dooble~" makes me feel weird and uncomfy.

LOOK AT THIS!

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-22 19:38:28 UTC

SOMEONE DREW GIZMO IN THIS ARTSTYLE FOR ME AND I LOVE IT!

Why should I accept such a half assed apology after how many times I've been lied and made uncomfortable by Darko?

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 15:04:21 UTC

He literally lied about his parents died,and ignored me asking politely to stop calling me something I was uncomfy being called.I shouldn't accept some fake apology just so it can happen again.I don't care if people want me to accept it.

It's hard staying on pad until Hawk gets back.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 15:46:13 UTC

I wanna just leave already,but I'm not leaving without Hawk(even if I gotta drag him).He's my love and my life,I can't leave him behind.

People don't have to like me. People don't have to be my friend. We can talk if they want,but if they don't want to call me a friend or any similar words,I don't have to get depressed over it. As long as we can be nice to each other without drama,I can live with not being someone's friend.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 17:01:37 UTC

I learned this from Hawk and Spazz. They have helped me learn so much,and I thank Spazz for being a homie and Hawk for being my boyfriend.

Is this a Vent Pad?(This gets privated when I'm off because of trolls and anons.)

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 17:03:52 UTC

Not really. I use it to say random things,but I will vent about some things.

song

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 17:52:31 UTC

I think I developed attachment problems. I don't like not being able to see Hawk,nor do I like not goofing around with Spazz.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 18:46:37 UTC

It's weird because I don't remember(or know) being like this before.

I used to hate seeing people happy when they weren't my friend anymore. Recently,I've become happy that people who dumped me from a group are happy.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 19:27:47 UTC

for peeps who want to talk to me

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 19:37:43 UTC

If people don't want to forgive you,they have reasons to. Forgiveness is a privilege not a right. You shouldn't force someone to forgive you,but you should understand that rejection is also an option.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 20:23:23 UTC

I've burned bridges.I fucked up.I lost friends that treated me right,but it's on me not them.I have to live with what I've done,whether I want to or not.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 20:26:05 UTC

And while I'd love to rebuild the bridges burned,it's too late for that.Those are consequences of my actions.

Honest to god,I wish I met Hawk and Spazz sooner.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 21:35:48 UTC

My life has been so fun and enjoyable with them in it.Especially Hawk.I fucking love him to death.

Tomorrow...

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 21:54:05 UTC

It's hopefully the last day I have to wait to see Hawk again.I have gotten so scared that he's hurt so hopefully he's able to get on without his parents getting mad.He'll be 18 on Friday,so that gives me more hope he'll be coming back soon.

I hate not seeing Hawk.I get too worried about him because of his stupid parents.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 22:22:01 UTC

FUCKING HATE HOW I CAN'T JUST HOLD HIM TIGHT OR GIVE HIM KISSES!I FEEL SO WEAK KNOWING HE'S PROBABLY BEING HURT WHILE I TYPE THIS!STUPID FUCKING PARENTS!I HOPE THEY GET WHAT THEY FUCKING DESERVE

I just want to hold him Hawk like this...even if it's only virtually...

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-24 22:23:41 UTC

I probably won't be back for a little because of graduation.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-25 14:53:54 UTC

Hey everyone. This is probs gonna be my last post in this pad. and once hawk comes back,it may be my last post ever.

mariokart1101 — 2023-05-26 20:29:17 UTC

I'm going to miss seeing most of you guys.Even though I've fucked up some friendships and made some enemies,I want to thank them for helping me realize how I was a terrible person. Shiki,thank you for being my sister and dealing with my bullshit. I'm sorry for everything I put you through,and I hope your life has gotten better since we've stopped being friends. Tino,thank you for being harsh and honest,even when others were being kind about how they felt about me;even though we aren't friends,I have a ton of respect for you. Reaper and Issac,I thank you both for introducing me to some of my friends(I hope you both get arrested as a reward). Haylin Nini and Shino,I thank y'all for helping me expose people like Rengoku and Andrew.

-Sincerely,Gabrielle(Dooble)

P.S, If I do end up coming back,it's probably only to get mod dialogue/character sheets from my pads. I'll only drop a quick hi before doing what I need to.

Hoo-fucking-ray.

mariokart1101 — 2023-12-05 21:45:10 UTC

Y'all are so terrible. I don't want to be here! Why do you people cause funny drama though?! It makes me want to come back!