the true story:

yugyeom — 2014-06-13 23:16:00 UTC

back in hml, about two months into the roleplay, a roleplayer came in contact with one of the admins. this roleplayer had previously dated me back in december in another roleplay and they had spent from january until april trying to find me. the admin told them i was in hml and they joined the roleplay as jaehyun. now, apparently this jaehyun still had feelings for me. but i wasn't skeptical about the whole situation. i kind of liked him, but i wasn't really ready to jump into a relationship after getting my heart broken earlier. and really, him and i ( jaehyun and i ) had a lot of conflicting differences and i just was a bit uncomfortable with him. so one day, i was feeling a bit down and i asked someone to cuddle with me on the tl. jungshin did, but it was just innocent. we did not kiss, nor do anything inappropriate. it was simply hugging. but then zico ( who was baro here ) started to complain indirectly about how i was unloyal to jaehyun, whom i WAS NOT in a relationship with. jaehyun saw this, got upset with me and told me that we should just be friends, which was what i was going to tell him anyways. but things continued to get worst. for the next few day,s zico complained about me daily. he trash talked about me constantly. and i kept quiet. jaehyun said that he didn't care about me anymore, so i moved on. seemed like the right thing to do, eh? apparently not to zico. he continued to say how jaehyun was smart to leave me. and him and jaehyun became close friends from this incident. it got to the point that he said some things that made me very angry. so i confronted him. not with anger, but maturely. i did not curse, nor did i fight. i just simply explained myself and told him that i was not happy with what he was doing. of course, he did nag me to talk to jaehyun for some time. but i simply told him that jaehyun said he wanted nothing to do with me. so i respected that and i was not going to talk to jaehyun. zico eventually became inactive. jaehyun left the roleplay and the roleplay got quiet. we then revamped and zico did not come along with us because he was inactive. and yesterday, that same jaehyun sent me an apology letter for what HE did. and he also mentioned zico in his letter. now to what happened today. zico, who secretly joined as baro, dmed me. of course, i thought it weird that he was asking for sex. and i told him that i liked you a lot. but he kept insisting. he was acting very suspicious to me. but to my horrible nature, i gave in. regrettable. i know. this occurred about a day ago. now i woke up to see people leaving. i backtracked a bit and saw that baro had revealed himself and he said some awful things about me. mostly exaggerated. i felt as if he was very melodramatic about the whole thing and that posting it on the timeline was unnecessary. but i guess he loved the feedback it received. he kept saying that karma was a " bitch" and that i deserved this for what i did previously to him in hml. which made no sense, because i did nothing to him. it was not his place in jump into what was happening between jaehyun and i and act as some kind of savior. it was him that insulted and bullied me daily on the timeline. but i remained quiet. so what i am trying to say here is that he returned to get revenge for something i never did to him. if he really had a problem with this, he could have addressed you via dm and not cause havoc on the timeline. but instead, he proved that he was only here for the sole purpose of exposing me as some kind of " slut ". it it could also be seen in the fact that did not post the beginning of our conversation, which was deleted apparently. he wanted everyone to think i was a whore and not worth anyone's time. and he was successful. he also exaggerated on some things that i did to make me seem more like a villain rather than a girl that committed a horrible mistake. and he used the fact that i was sleeping to his advantage. this is the full story.

the apology

yugyeom — 2014-06-13 23:33:57 UTC

himchan. you deserve this more than anyone in the world. i cannot explain how horrible i feel that i have committed adultery. i know that we weren't together. but still in the pit of my gut i felt terrible for going along with this. i know i should have not responded. i know i should have came to you and told you that he was harassing me by asking me to partake in such an action. but i didn't. i have always been independent. i never rely on anyone because no one really asks to help me and such. i do things on my own because i feel if i do things by myself, i can't avoid any drama or occurrences that could spark something terrible. but on that day. i sadly did not do the correct thing. i completely disregarded the right thing to do and did this with him. sure, it was physically pleasurably. but inside i was hurting. i could not bring myself to stop. i really wanted to-- i did. but i keep seeing his messages and it irked me. i told myself " delete the dms. don't reply. you'll make things worse. " and i tried so hard to resist. but i just continued. and eventually i was overwhelmed. i knew he was going to say something. i braced myself for what was going to occur. i want you to know something. i truly love you. this happened because of me. please don't blame yourself for any of this. i have acknowledged my mistake and i am accepting the consequences. i know it will take time for you to fully trust me again. and i am surprised that you asked me out today. but i am willing to do anything to help you forget about this and to prove that i love you and that you can trust me. i am even willing to give my password to my account so that you can monitor me. you mean more than the world to me. i wish i could express it. and i know. i know it is so hard to believe with what happened today. i just want to stab myself and beat myself for doing this to you. i know you are hurting. i would be hurting also if someone did something like this to me. i broke your trust and my loyalty towards you. that is the worst thing a person could do to you. i'm sorry. from the bottom of my heart i am sorry. this is not a lie. i am sorry. the remorse i feel is enough to torment me, and knowing that i hurt others as well is bad too, even though this had nothing to do with them. i want to scream on the top of my lungs that i love you and that i am so so so sorry. all i could say is sorry. below is the full story and i of course it seems as if i am trying to attack baro. but i just want to tell you want happened completely so you understand why today happened. take your time to forgive me completely. i don't want us to break up. especially since we just got together. you're the best. i treasure our moments together and i don't want to lose you or the memories. your confession was the greatest thing anyone has ever done for me and i keep rereading it and i keep smiling like the dummy i am. we can work this out. but i need you by my side. i have come to terms with the fact that i cannot do everything by myself. and as of now, i feel as if you're the only person i can fully trust with anything. so if you can help me and support me, i would be happy. i promise to do the same for you. this will NEVER happen again. that is a promise. you're the only man i want in my life. no one else. i hope you understand. i love you.

an apology. by genesis

the true story:

the apology