https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc Contribute at least two moments you found in the reading that show Melinda's emotions. Write the feeling, the quote and page number, and then explain why you think she is feeling that way. Be sure to have your name on each note you make. en-us 2021-01-11 03:24:39 UTC 2021-01-12 02:16:28 UTC hello@padlet.com sjanssen9 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1072612327 "I put my head in my hands and scream to let out the animal noice and some of that night. No one hears" (Anderson 28). 

I think Melinda is feeling this way because she hates being targeted about the party. Also, she hasn't told anyone about what happened, and so she has a lot of anger pent up inside her. She's dying inside because she wants to share, but also cannot, so she screams.]]> 2021-01-11 03:32:01 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1072612327 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075574640 "I pull my lower lip all the way in between my teeth" (Anderson 39)

I  believe that Melinda is feeling anxious because she constantly bites her lips in situations where things seem to make her anxious. In that quote she bites her lips because she's near he old friend Rachelle and that makes her anxious, this happens many times when she's by her old friends.]]> 2021-01-11 18:32:16 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075574640 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075578074 "my throat squeezes shut, as if two hands of black fingernails are clamped on my windpipe "  
Ozlo]]> 2021-01-11 18:32:52 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075578074 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075579511 "I hide in the bathroom  until i know Heathers bus has left. The salt in my tears feel good when it stings me lips. I wash my face in the sink until there is nothing left of it, no eyes, no nose, no mouth. A slick nothing. " (Anderson 45)

I think that Melinda is feeling sad because she over heard some girls saying some really rude things about her. I think that she feels betrayed by Heather because she did not stand up for her and I think that on top of everything that is going on in her life, this moment really pushes her over the edge. ]]> 2021-01-11 18:33:05 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075579511 thori24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075580095 "It takes more now. I look Mom square in the eye, then rinse my plate and retreat to my room" (Anderson 36).

In this moment Melinda is being snarky because her parents are giving her a hard time about her grades in school. Apparently she used to be a top student so her grades are a shock to her parents. She retaliates in my opinion so that she can sort of brush off what happened because she doesn't want this to become another thing she has to worry about all the time.]]> 2021-01-11 18:33:11 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075580095 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075582226 "the girl pokes me harder. Aren't You the one who called the cops at Kyle Roger's party"    Ozlo]]> 2021-01-11 18:33:33 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075582226 kapana24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075583612 "'Aren't you the one who called the cops at Kyle Rodger's party at the end of the summer?' A block of ice freeze our section of the bleachers. Heads snap in my direction with the sound of a hundred paparazzi cameras. I can't feel my fingers. I shake my head" (Anderson 27-28).

I think Melinda is feeling embarrassed because she caused an end to a party by calling the police, which probably ruined every friend and connection she has ever had. Now that she has been singled out in the crowd, everyone knows that she's the girl that called the cops to shut down the party. ]]> 2021-01-11 18:33:49 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075583612 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075586364 "You get those grades up or your name is mud" (Anderson 36)

This shows that Melinda is overwhelmed and it it affecting her grades.]]> 2021-01-11 18:34:19 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075586364 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075592056 "I just thought of a great theory that explains everything. When I went to that party, I was abducted by aliens...The aliens have a sick sense of humor."m( Anderson 42)

In this moment when Melinda is talking about her theory of what happened you can see her feelings of sadness that she is over it and think her life is terrible.]]> 2021-01-11 18:35:19 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075592056 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075593096 "You dont understand, my headvoice answers. Too bad she cant hear it. My throat squeezes shut, as if two hands of black nails are clamped on my windpipe."

I think she is feeling overwhelmed because she doesnt know what to do. No one understands or defends her.]]> 2021-01-11 18:35:31 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075593096 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075594876 "The salt in my tears fells good when it stings my lips. I wash my face in the sink until there is nothing left of it, no eyes, no nose, no mouth. A slick nothing" (Anderson 45)  

Melinda has just finished crying after over hearing the "marthas" say mean things about her and it hurts her feelings. At the end she says "a slick nothing" which indicates she feels numb or lonely to a certain extent as well  ]]> 2021-01-11 18:35:48 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075594876 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075594903 "calm down, calm down. Its ok,  don't get upset" (Anderson 24).

Melinda has a lot going on but keeps her cool and keeps her anger in.]]> 2021-01-11 18:35:48 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075594903 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075596832 My throat squeezes shut, as if two hands of black fingernails are clamped on my windpipe" (Anderson 28).

I think she feels this way because she tried so hard to forget about what happend but people keep bringing it up.

]]> 2021-01-11 18:36:10 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075596832 thori24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075609976 "My head explodes with the noise of fire trucks leaving the station"(Anderson 39).

Here Melinda gets panicked because she has been asked to solve a math problem with her ex best-friend Rachelle. After whatever happened between the two girls, their relationship has gone extremely downhill with Rachelle sort of bullying Melinda so her reaction of dread and panic is only natural.]]> 2021-01-11 18:38:31 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075609976 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075611414 "I knew I wouldn't get an invitation. I would be lucky to get an invitation to my own funeral."(Anderson 41)

She's sad and we can assume that she puts her own self worth lower that what she is worth. She bases her thought process off of her getting invited or not as validation. She also bases her self worth on what her friends think in this quote. She bases her self worth off of how they won't inviter her instead of making self worth about herself.]]> 2021-01-11 18:38:47 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075611414 TyHagan https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075614897 For a minute she looks like she'll defend me. no, no, she won't. It might interfere with her Plan" (Anderson 28).

This moment shows how Melinda is let down by her friends which probably makes her sad. Even her best friend won't stick up for her.]]> 2021-01-11 18:39:26 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075614897 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075619009 "She thinks we should try out together. I think she has been breathing too much hairspray."

I think she is feeling sarcastic/ snarky because she does not want to try out for it, and she thinks that Heather is crazy for even considering it]]> 2021-01-11 18:40:12 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075619009 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075619321 "I can't feel my fingers. I shake my head" 

Melinda becomes very anxious when someone asks her if she's the person who called the cops at the party over summer. She gets scared and nervous because she does not want to talk about the true events that happened to her at the party. All she has left to do is feel small and ignore the rude remarks being thrown at her]]> 2021-01-11 18:40:16 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075619321 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075623969 "I am the victim... you get those grades up or your names is mud"(Anderson 35-36)

I think she feels this way because her parents are coming at her for not having good grades.]]> 2021-01-11 18:41:07 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075623969 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075625914 "We fall into clans: Jocks, Country Clobbers, Idiot Savants, Cheerleaders, Human Waste Eurotrash, Future Facists of America, Big Hair Chix, the Marthas, suffering artists ..."

She seems to resent almost everyone at her school]]> 2021-01-11 18:41:28 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075625914 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075628528 "The musical would be easy for me, I am a good actor." (Anderson 33)

She is annoyed that she has to fake her smiles and annoyed with Heather]]> 2021-01-11 18:41:57 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075628528 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075629405 ¨I hide in the bathroom until I know Heather’s bus has left¨
(Anderson 27).

in this moment i think she is feeling scared because she resorted to fleeing to the bathroom to avoid futher contact with heather and her friends.]]> 2021-01-11 18:42:07 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075629405 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075631001 "My head explodes with the noise of fire trucks leaving the station. " (Anderson 39)
This part gives us a look into how Melinda is feeling. I think that in this moment she is feeling overwhelmed by everything happening in her life. ]]> 2021-01-11 18:42:25 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075631001 kapana24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075631261 "Rachelle's mouth moves and her hand glides over the board, drawing funny shapes and numbers. I pull my lower lip all the way in between my teeth. If I try hard enough, maybe I can gobble my whole self this way" (Anderson 39).

Melinda is very jealous of Rachelle here because she can't understand math, which she has been able to be successful at for the past years. Now seeing an ex-friend/enemy being better than her in a subject she normally excels in causes her to feel angry and jealous because she can do something better than her.]]> 2021-01-11 18:42:28 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075631261 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075669980 "Her eyes meet mine for a second. 'I hate you,' she mouths silently. She turns her
back to me and laughs with her friends. I bite my lip. I am not going to think
about it. It was ugly, but it’s over, and I’m not going to think about it. My lip
bleeds a little. It tastes like metal. I need to sit down."

She bites her lip to the point where it starts to bleed which can be caused by anxiety.]]> 2021-01-11 18:49:08 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075669980 TyHagan https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075728560 The Basketball Pole apologizes and says something else, but four hundred people explode in laughter and I can't read lips. I ditch my tray and bolt for the door" (Anderson 8).

This moment shows Melinda's dread and embarrassment while she becomes the laughing stock for the whole high school.]]> 2021-01-11 18:59:41 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1075728560 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076320711 "We are nobody" (Anderson 34).

When Melinda says this in the book she feels alone and like everyone does not need her as a friend. She holds onto the fact that she does not have anyone except Heather and that makes her feel more alone.

]]> 2021-01-11 21:27:50 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076320711 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076321585 "I see IT in the hallway. IT goes to Merryweather. IT is walking with Aubrey Cheerleader. IT is my nightmare and I can't wake up. IT sees me. IT smiles and winks. Good thing my lips are stitched together or I'd throw up." (Anderson 45).

As we see in this passage she is scared of something as if she is horrified by someone or something. It makes me scared for her. As if "IT" is a predator that is going to kill Melinda (the prey).]]> 2021-01-11 21:28:11 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076321585 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076327159 "My throat squeezes shut, as if two hands of black fingernails are clamped on my windpipe" (Anderson 28).

I think that when Melinda says this she is scared that more people are going to ask about what happened at the party.]]> 2021-01-11 21:30:17 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076327159 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076330202 "The salt in my tears feels good when it stings my lips. I wash my face in the sink until there is nothing left of it, no eyes, ne nose, no mouth. A slick nothing."(Anderson 45)

In this section of text it shows how Melina is sad and need to release steam after all the hate she is getting and how she cry's and she like how there is pain and it is almost as if she is enjoying the pain. It also seems like she feels like she is very empty because when she washes her face off it says she feels like everything is just disappearing and this shows how she feels that everything she is is slipping and fading away.]]> 2021-01-11 21:31:25 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076330202 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076332870 "For a minute she looks like she'll defend me. No, no, she won't. It might interfere with her plan."
I think she is sad because no one tries to defend her not even heather. ]]> 2021-01-11 21:32:26 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076332870 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076333548 "my head explodes with the noise of fire trucks leaving the station. this is a real disaster. rachel/rachelle clogs up to the board, dressed in an outrageous dutch/scandinavian ensemble. she looks half-cute, half sophisticated. she has red laser eyes that burn my forehead. i wear basic dumpster togs- smelly gray turtleneck and jeans. i just this minute remember that i need to wash my hair" (39).

we can see how she feels inferior here by the way she compares herself to rachel. she sees her clothes are boring and gross while rachel is attractive.]]> 2021-01-11 21:32:42 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076333548 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076334882 "i Hide in the bathroom until i know Heather's bus has left" (Anderson 27)

I believe that she is frightened to face heather and has to hide so she does not give her the satisfaction. 

"get those grades up or your name is mud" (Anderson 36)

She is feeling sad and lesser about herself than she should because her parents are babbling on to her about how her grades are not so good. And making it out to seem that grades are the only thing that matter. ]]> 2021-01-11 21:33:12 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076334882 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076335088 "Heather has found a clan-the Marthas. She is a freshman member on probation. I have no idea how she did it"(Anderson 42).
In this quote, Melinda finds out that Heather, who she thought would stay alone like her, had found a "clan". She is so surprised that she even thinks to herself that money may have been involved.

]]> 2021-01-11 21:33:19 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076335088 lsteffen24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076335261 "I try to paint them so they are nearly dead, but not totally"  (Anderson 31) 

Though it may seem like Melinda is just referring to her artwork in this quote, a reader can get the indication that this is actually a direct representation of how she is feeling. She expresses that the trees are almost dead, but they are still "hanging" on, this shows the reader that Melinda is mentally exhausted, and feels mentally dead, but is still physically alive. ]]> 2021-01-11 21:33:23 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076335261 lmckuin24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076335385 "I put my head in my hands and scream to let out the animal noise" (Anderson 28). 

she is sad or upset that she is seeing girls that seem perfect to her and she thinks she is not. 

]]> 2021-01-11 21:33:26 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076335385 srajesh24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076336480 "I hide in the bathroom until I know Heather’s bus has left" 

this shows that she is scared because she resorts to hiding in the bathroom instead of facing her problems. ]]> 2021-01-11 21:33:52 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076336480 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076337749 "My throat squeezes shut, as if two hands of black fingernails are clamped on my windpipe. I have worked so hard to forget every second of that stupid party, and here I am in the middle of a hostile crowd that hates me for what I had to do."
(Anderson 28)

In this moment she's incredibly stressed because of people bringing up a moment that occurred that she would prefer to forget and it is stressing her out to the point where she's getting all clammed up.]]> 2021-01-11 21:34:20 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076337749 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076339849 I wash my face in the sink until there is nothing left of it, no eyes, no nose, no mouth. A slick nothing. (Anderson)
I think Melinda feels this way because she is left alone with no one to turn to and nothing to look forward to. This feeling of emptiness is portrayed by showing how she feels as if nothing is left of her.

]]> 2021-01-11 21:35:10 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076339849 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076340921 "I smile and try to choke out a 'thank you,' but can't say anything" (Anderson 25)

I think she is super nervous or scared because she can barley say thank you or speak.]]> 2021-01-11 21:35:38 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076340921 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076342338 "A block of ice freezes our section of the bleachers. Heads snap in my direction with the sound of a hundred paparazzi cameras. I can’t feel my fingers. I shake my head." (Idk what page cause I'm reading it online)]]> 2021-01-11 21:35:49 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076342338 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076350264 "My head explodes with the noise of fire trucks leaving the station."
I think she feels panicked because she is asked to solve a math problem with her ex-best friend Rochelle and Rochelle doesn't like Melinda. ]]> 2021-01-11 21:38:57 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076350264 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076352322 "Not only is the Homecoming pep really going to spring me from algebra, it will be a great time to clean up my closet"(Anderson 26).

Melinda is actually finding something positive in her day to day life for once. The abandoned closet that she found has been good for her.]]> 2021-01-11 21:39:48 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076352322 bng24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076352593 "My throat squeezes shut, as if two hands of black fingernails are clamped on my windpipe."
"I pull my lower lip all the way in between my teeth."]]> 2021-01-11 21:39:55 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076352593 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076353505 "IT is my nightmare and I can’t wake up. IT sees me. IT smiles and winks. Good thing my lips are stitched together or I’d throw up."

]]> 2021-01-11 21:40:20 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076353505 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076355476  It looks so flat, a cheap, cruddy drawing. I
have no idea how to make it come alive 
I think that Melinda is using the tree is her artwork as a symbol for herself and she is explaining how she frustrated with the fact that she cant feel and connect with people the way she wants to.]]> 2021-01-11 21:41:14 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076355476 srajesh24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076358925 "The salt in my tears
feels good when it stings my lips. I wash my face in the sink until there is
nothing left of it, no eyes, no nose, no mouth"

she feels alone and sad like she has no hope ]]> 2021-01-11 21:42:38 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076358925 lsteffen24 https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076804538 "It is the most hopeless idea I've ever heard, but I nod and pour the remover on the carpet" (Anderson 35)

Though Melinda is uninterested in Heathers idea to join a "group" and participate in the musical, she is still supportive, and remains a good friend. Melinda is very sad and stressed in general, however, she is still a good and caring friend to Melinda, particularly when she helps her get the nail polish out of the carpet. ]]> 2021-01-12 02:12:11 UTC https://padlet.com/sjanssen9/6iwr455kft0f4emc/wish/1076804538