Motherhood by Kayla Satterfield

Before motherhood

k_satterfield1 — 2025-02-06 14:09:40 UTC

Living my best life, going out, drinking, partying, and smoking. Without a care in the world I didn't want my life to change. Nobody could tell me anything. Until one day everything changed.

Unexpected twist

k_satterfield1 — 2025-02-06 14:09:43 UTC

A positive pregnancy test changed my life. I was nowhere near wanting to be a mother. As I sat in my bathroom looking at the white stick I went through different emotions and fears. Many thoughts roamed my mind, bad, sad, confused, and some happy thoughts. But in the end I decided to stick with my pregnancy and start a new journey.

Growth

k_satterfield1 — 2025-02-06 14:09:47 UTC

As time passed by, I accepted my pregnancy. It was time to grow up and take responsibility. I got rid of bad habits. Nights I use to spend out drinking, smoking and partying turned into nights at home sober, relaxing and watching TV. Taking care of myself physically, also helped me mentally.

Changing locations

k_satterfield1 — 2025-02-06 14:09:50 UTC

I moved out of my grandparents home to my first apartment in Raleigh, North Carolina. Still working full time job and facing this new challenge to set up a home for my child.

Its Time...

k_satterfield1 — 2025-02-06 14:09:53 UTC

Next thing I know the scariest event to date experiencing the birth of my beautiful daughter. The moment they laid my child on my chest reassured me that all the hard work I put in bettering myself was all worth it. Looking down into her brown eyes all I could think about is how I want to be the best version of myself for this tiny human. It's a feeling that is unimaginable unless you are in the moment.

After birth

k_satterfield1 — 2025-02-06 14:09:56 UTC

I was introduced to an entirely different world. Becoming a mother was scary. Taking home a new life and having to take care of it yourself is life changing. Seriously they should have more classes on this stuff. Going from partying, drinking, and sleeping however long I want to the complete opposite. Exchanging the sleep for bottle feeds every two hours and all the poopy diapers. Waking up out of my sleep to make sure my child is still breathing. As scary as it is at first all I can do is fall in love with her. Bringing home a child is not easy it is an alternating experience but a great one at that.

Motherhood

k_satterfield1 — 2025-02-06 14:10:00 UTC

Some things in life happen unexpectedly, but I could either take charge and grow from it or let it defeat me. Motherhood is something I embrace now; it was scary at first not knowing how to be a mother or how to take care of a child, but everything came so natural once we got settled. I love being a mother and I am so happy I was able to drop bad habits and grow from this experience. I am now a mother who works full time, goes to school and on a journey to having a great career. The old me is gone. A new stronger me has taken charge.