Then I ask my dad, “Where is mom at?” 

“Oh what ever could you mean.”

“You know.”

“Ok fine today is the day i promised that i would kiss her.”

 

We was walking and  it was dark outside we got to the party it was mega girls in there the music was jumping people was  turning up and more. I walked to the back to text my uncle to pick us up at 1:00 am  then i hear ´´omm wtw in here´´ i instantly peep gang nem finna hit so i slide from the back and asked my cousin whats finna go down  i see my brother punch on somebody so i follow up and start crushing people from left to right . Then the opps start running out the door so we take it outside i square up like ´´wtw what yall on´’ he start talking soon as he said something i mouthed em in his jaw he dropped then i sticked his boy went in his pockets then we left. So peep the yees was tryna come with us so we said come on but whole time the opps told on us and the police pulled up we got low jumping fences allat . we got away but when we got home i  turned on the tv and the news was on they was talking about big riots and the fight we had

My mom likes to move around alot go outside and garden,swim and sit on the porch. Recently she's been throwing up, doing nothing but laying in bed and not eating much. I've started to worry about her alot and tell her to go to the doctors and she doesnt go. Not because she doesn't want to but because she thinks she's fine and will get better. It's been a few more days and she's not better but she's also not worse. She just stayed the same over the past couple days.

She decides to go to the doctor.  I was at school worried about her all day like I have been for the past week. She's in the doctor's office and they check on her and do all the normal doctor check up things. They ended up saying she is okay. But then a doctor came to her and said go get a cat scan now. My mom didn't think that she needed one but she said that the doctor was kind of forcing her too. My mom texted me and told me how her doctors appointment went and how she is now going to the hospital.

She went and got a cat scan and they told her that her appendix had ruptured. When I got that text I was so scared. I didn't really know what it meant or anything but i was told she was going to have to go to the hospital. I got home as fast as I could and I was with my friend marin. My mom was scared at the time she just didn't want to show it. She was in alot of pain and felt really sick. We were at home and my mom was packing her hospital bag. She was so moody and scared and she started getting mad because my grandma wasn't there to take her to the hospital yet. She was crying one minute and fine the other. 

My mom cried and said ¨Josie where's my chapstick?¨

¨I don't know mom it is probably in your car.

¨Where the heck is grandma? She probably stopped to get greaters¨

My grandma finally got there and my mom went outside to go get into her car. My grandma came inside to go to the bathroom. My mom was sort of mad about that because she wanted to be at the hospital because she was scared for her life. My grandma came back outside and they finally left.

She got to the hospital and had to go into the emergency room. She said that they gave her medicine and then all they did was stick something in her stomach and drained out all of the gunk. The gunk in her was what almost killed her. When she was settled in she called me so i knew she was okay. 

¨Grandma was driving like a maniac. I thought I was gonna die for something other than my appendix¨ We talked for a while and then she told me that she wanted to get some rest. She was in the hospital for around 3 or 4 days. I visited her the second day she was in there. We talked for a while, I brought her panera and I walked  down into the gift shop and got her some snacks and chapsticks. She stayed at the hospital for 2 more days and then finally got to come home.She was fine for the most part did not feel sick or anything. One night my mom and I were watching a movie and eating dinner. She told me that she felt sick but just thought it was something that she ate. The next day she still felt sick so i told her to call her doctor and she didn't and i kept asking her too. She threw up and then she realized that she needed to call her doctor. She did and they told her that she needs to go to the hospital. She went to the hospital again and they found out that she needs to have her appendix removed. They make her get a corona test and tell her that if she tests negative her surgery will be in a week. 

It was the next week. We could not visit my mom either because of corona. She finally came home and felt good but had a tube coming out of her stomach. It was a long cord connected to something kind of like a baggy. It's gross but it was getting all of whatever was coming out of her. She couldn't lift anything over about 10 pounds and she couldn't drive for a week. But we had plans to go to Michigan next week. I had to take care of her all week. I had to help her with her bandages and get her food and water all the time for a week.She was in alot more pain than she's ever been, she told me she would rather give birth again. She stayed in bed doing whatever she could to get better fast so she could heal and drive 

us to michigan. She finally got better and made a full recovery. Make sure you're hanging out with your mom or parents as much as you can because one day could be too late. Don't take advantage of them

Anyway, we knew somebody that worked at the convention so we got treated kind of like VIPs, I was so happy. We got all weekend tickets for free and we didn't have to wait in line to get in, we actually got let in early and got to see everything being set up. Since Gaten was so famous that year you had to get a ticket for a time frame to wait in his line and I was the first one to get the ticket. I was so excited I couldn't even think straight. I had been wanting to go to this convention ever since I was little. I also got to see around the whole building so we knew where everything was and where to go. While I was in one of the rooms where some actors are, I saw Chris Sullivan. I was pretty excited to see him but if I had to be totally honest I was there to meet Gaten. Chris Sullivan ended up being one of my favorite people there. Since he wasn't as famous compared to some of the others his line was very short, therefore I saw him about ten times that day. 

Excitement is important to us nerds and weirdos. And here I was, getting an autograph and pictures with Chris Sullivan.

I remember thinking that we wouldn't be able to meet everyone or the lines would be too long. I also remember worrying that some of the actors I looked up to wouldn't be who they seemed, or would be mean. I also remember fantasizing that me and Gaten could be friends after the convention, I am really not sure why because there were hundreds of people there to meet him. Honestly I tried to not think about that because I knew that it wouldn't come true deep down. Before we went to go meet Gaten we ate lunch. There were a lot of places to eat there, but we ended up eating hotdogs. It was called Zombie Dogs, my friend and I were waiting in line to order and then Chris Sullievan walked up to us! 

He said ”Is there anything good to eat here?” My best friend and I were baffled that he walked up to us. I was nervous and surprised so I said ”We are getting hotdogs but there's..” and I started listing off the names of the food places. He then asked us if we were having fun and what all we have done. We told him what we had been doing all day and then he went to go get his lunch.

After we ate, my dad and I headed over to Gatens line and my friend went somewhere else since she had a different time slot. The line to meet him was a lot longer than we thought it would be. Originally he had a whole room to himself and there was a wrap around line inside. The line grew to come outside of the room and go around the entire hallway. They had to turn people around and some people didn't get to meet him. I was so grateful I was able to stay in line to meet him. In all the line took three and a half hours but it wasn't as bad as you think it would be. When we got into the room we could see Gaten interacting with his fans and the people with him. When we got about half way through the room line his dad was there. My dad and I got to talk to him for a while and he was super nice and friendly. We were almost there!

There I was next in line to meet one of my favorite actors, my heart was beating so fast and I was so nervous. We got up there and I got a picture and autograph. I asked him a few questions and got to talk to him for a couple of minutes as well. He was so incredibly nice and you could tell he really appreciated his fans. He even stayed an hour after the convention was over so he could get as many people who had been waiting in line in, the rest got tickets to meet him first thing the next morning. 

So, here is the promise I made to myself back then: since I will most likely only see these actors that I love once in my lifetime I need to be myself and not shy away. I shouldn't be awkward or tense because these are once in a lifetime opportunities. I will never be awkward or shy again. Then I will have my true excitement with me again.