Due to my other directors' refusal to include me in their vision, I felt like I was no longer a director but instead I was pushed aside to only contribute to set changes and assist the directors. When I would contribute my ideas I was met with rejection or I was just blatantly ignored. I felt like the other directors viewed me as incompetent because I did not have as many ideas as they did. I assume that part of their rejection towards my contributions arose because it was a very stressful time for the three of us. Not only were we facing struggles as directors but also as students and people. We struggled to motivate the cast members to study their lines and blocking but we also struggled to complete large portions of our capstone projects, oodles of tests, and personal troubles as they created an excess of stress so I really do not blame either of them or hold any resentment toward Kyla or Georgia. The three of us are quite good friends. I just need to work on my tendency to avoid conflict by staying silent because I feel like that was the reason I slowly disappeared as we carried on in the process.

Aside from my struggle to assert myself, I found the process very enriching. It gave me a chance to produce a product I was proud of and build a show from the ground up. Like the preview, I was able to learn new skills as a director that I would not be able to learn otherwise. It was fun blocking the show and taking control over the piece despite the fact I may have been apprehensive originally. All in all I am very proud of work and the work of my classmates.