Journal by Connie Zhao https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n en-us 2022-10-10 06:54:27 UTC 2024-12-17 07:47:22 UTC hello@padlet.com Frank Shotgun 😍 10.24 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352987227 Picture:

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1735 June 5th

If you can see this letter, this probably meant that I am already gone... This letter is to inform you how the darkness and the evilness are hidden in your "generous", "smart" and "friendly" leader - the king of this empire. As some of you may have already known that my beloved man - the commoner, had been killed by choosing the door with the tigers behind it. Admitting the truth, I am the one who made him do so. I told the man using hand gestures letting him choose the side with the tiger behind. I know what I did... And I am sure... absolutely sure to make him do that. I am afraid of his death, he was the only person I put hope and effort into, however, I am jealous about him possibly marrying a woman that he used to communicate with. Why is the woman standing behind the door that woman but not me? I should be the one! As your "dearest" king had said, the woman behind the door should always be the woman that the man loves the most and meant the most value to him. But why the woman is not me? It's because of the king's over-protection and selfishness toward his "baby little princess dear". As most of the citizens may not know what specific crime the man does, I will tell you - the man fell in love with a girl, and the girl was me! What had the innocent man done? Does he create a danger to society? Does he steal anything? Does he commit crimes that are inhumane and unacceptable? The answer is no. What he did is hurting your shrank and closed mind. I am a grown adult, I have the ability and the right to choose how I love and who I should live with for the rest of my life... But at that moment, I don't have to choose, I am full of jealousy and anger about the woman that he might face if he lived, but I want him to die, as a savior to myself, and a warning to the citizens and the king. I know what I did is evil and selfish, I am absolutely guilty and regretful. But actions become history, I cannot change what had already happened. But I warn, if the king still rules the empire like this, using this system, this place will not last for years... I am enough with all the complex feelings in my heart, I will be leaving as soon as I finish this letter, meeting my love in heaven... Or will I not meet him since I am in hell?

Goodbye, the residents and the "dear" king
The Princess

]]> 2022-10-24 04:50:03 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352987227 一只小Henly啊 zekaima2 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352990123 2022-10-24 04:53:11 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352990123 Jonathan https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352991319 2022-10-24 04:54:34 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352991319 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352992282 Princess！！ For you😨😨😨 I become a wear-wolf🐺🐺🐺 For you😱😱😱 I become crazy🤡🤡🤡 For you 😰😰😰 I put on a mask👹👹👹 For you🤗🤗🤗 I change my life💀💀💀 Can we meet again 🥺🥺🥺 I've been begging for thousands of years in front of the Buddha 🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️ Willing to exchange several lifetimes 🥰🥰🥰 for a lifetime of love💞💞💞 Hope to touch the God😭😭😭 But before I step over this Nai-He bridge🎭🎭🎭 Let me kiss your face again😘😘😘

]]> 2022-10-24 04:55:41 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2352992282 tiger https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353391653 2022-10-24 11:12:43 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353391653 Joey https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353447883 I am struggling to make the choice of whether let him die or go with another woman. Why did my father make this stupid rule in the first place? Now, because of my father's foolish rule, I cannot be happy with him. I wished I was an ordinary girl so that I can marry him and be happy for the rest of my life. Why am I the daughter of a king? Because of my father's way of "carrying out justice", I have to make a choice that will make me miserable for the rest of my life. If I told him the door to the lion, I would regret the rest of my life. And I would have nightmares about the scream he will make when the lion tears him apart. On the other hand, if I told him to open the door of the lady. Then he would marry that disgusting woman, leaving me crying for the rest of my life. Watching them have a happy life. What should I do? Let him die and be miserable, or let him marry a woman I hate and cry for the rest of my life. I think I know my answer.]]> 2022-10-24 12:00:20 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353447883 Peter https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353491106 10/24/2022
I now question if really, my father truly love me. If he does, he shouldn't left me in such dilemma. This is not justice anymore. No matter what happens, which door he chooses, we will not be able to be lovers anymore in this world as in one circumstance, he will die while in the other, he will live a happy life with the beautiful women behind the door, well, only beautiful on the outside, but not by heart. Without him, I will not experience cheerfulness anymore, and my life will be like in a world with only black and white, without color. However, as my father is the king, I can't do much about it. Both endings suck to the core. In my opinion, letting him get the woman behind the door is even more worse. He would probably just forget me, my love, and everything we did together before. How dare that dirty woman even talked to him! She has no right to talk to my boy! I hate her! I'm sorry, but I must fail your trust this time, and make you be killed so that we at least have a chance to continue as lovers in the heaven. I can't let that wicked women hold your hands and kiss your lips in front of my eyes. I won't have it. I wish from the bottom of my heart that we are both commoners, with no special titles, just living as ordinary people, and marry as all other ones, live a wonderful life with pleasantness for the rest of our lives. I'm sorry, very sorry for pointing towards the right, and see you at heaven. I am thankful for your faith in me, but I have to do this. I'll be right after you. ]]> 2022-10-24 12:30:54 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353491106 Sophia xiaoyasun1 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353496348 In front of the question about choosing loyalty or life without my love, I stand in front of the two doors, helpless about my life. If I choose the option of survival, it leads to an unhappy life for the next sixty or seventy years. If I choose the option of death, who will take care of my love? What will be the consequences for her? Will she marry another noble or prince, force by her father? I wish that everything was a nightmare and tomorrow as the sun rises, everything would go back in order. But reality is always cruel, I has no option but to choose. The women that is waiting for me at the other side of the door is pretty living with her will be a good choice. But I could not give up my love. Chances of getting killed is 1/2 which means that I won't betray the vows that we've made. Then I saw my princesses, she waved her hand and pointed at the door where the lady is in. She have given me her choice, her sacrifice, I have never thought that she will choose the door of the women. She will never allow me to marry her, just like how i will never allow her to marry another man.Why? Why she chooses the option that is against her thoughts? On the other side, it only takes a few bite for the tiger to kill me. Anyways, she will always be the one i loves. But its such a torture, seeing her fell in love with another man and get married, maybe that man will be the future king! How could i do this, I will never betray the vows we have made. The answer have been made in my mind, I guess I should take a choice now. I choose the loyalty for our love that shaw never ends until we meet again. ]]> 2022-10-24 12:34:19 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353496348 Maggie 10.25 shiyuliu3_2 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353704096 In the choice of getting eaten by a tiger or marrying a beautiful women, I bet you will all chose the second, and now,  here I am in the middle of this. You might think that this is an easy decision to make, yet this is a special situation. A few months ago, I started dating with the princess of this place for power, she had a weird father who made weird rules for the execution. He will make you chose over two doors, one door behind is a hungry tiger that will eat you in one bite, yet the other door will be a beautiful maiden which you will marry. Unfortunately, I'm no royalty, so when my special relationship with the princess got found by the king, I got sent to jail for a few weeks and now I came here. The princess, as the daughter of the king knows which door behind is which, so when I stare at the princess for hint, she quickly pointed right. The princess loved me deeply and I know that she don't want me to marry another beautiful maiden, but I also know that she won't guide me to death. This is the decision I'm talking about. I'm stuck in this decision for half an hour for now, and thinking whether I should trust my love or myself, until I recalled a memory from my mind. "Princess", I asked " If one day, you are forced to get married to a man who is not me, what shall you do?" "My darling, till death do us part, we can never be separated. " She whispered quietly,  eyes straight looking at me. Aha, I guess thats the answer of this complicated love puzzle. I shouted out "left" loudly and confidently. The door opened quietly and led out a loud screeching sound. I was right. Behind the door stood the beautiful maiden. At last, me and my love escaped this horrible kingdom, hoping that the princess won't take any revenge on us, and we lived happily ever after. Or do I? The princess looked disappointedly over the reflection of the mirror. "My dear, why would you betray me? This is for your good!" She weeped. I opened my eyes confusedly, pondering why did I just change location. " My love, why would you betray me in that test? I loved you deeply by heart?" She questioned. "Father just found out the relationship between you and me, and you know your end, come here dear, drink this toxic potion and let us die together, at least we won't be separated!" and without my response, she shove the potion in my mouth, and took a sip out of it too, and before I could do anything, I felt a big wave of dizziness. And we went happily ever after. ]]> 2022-10-24 14:23:17 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2353704096 Doris https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2354488159 114514 Sep 1 windy

The day finally comes, though it comes sooner than expected, will she show me the correct way? I think so. But, what is the correct way? The tiger? Definitely not. The women? Maybe, but would she really willingly give me to another woman? If she points me the way, should I trust her? I think I should listen to her, at least it proves that I was in love with her. If she cheats on me, I might die willingly, at least I die by her hand, my dear princess. 

Which is more important, love or life?  I remember when I was very young, I once asked my mother, and she replied to me, of course, life, but there is an exception, if you truly love someone, you are willing to give everything for her, then it is a different story. Is she the one?

Princess！！ For you😨😨😨 I become a wear-wolf🐺🐺🐺 For you😱😱😱 I become crazy🤡🤡🤡 For you 😰😰😰 I put on a mask👹👹👹 For you🤗🤗🤗 I change my life💀💀💀 Can we meet again 🥺🥺🥺 I've been begging for thousands of years in front of the Buddha 🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️ Willing to exchange several lifetimes 🥰🥰🥰 for a lifetime of love💞💞💞 Hope to touch the God😭😭😭 But before I step over this Nai-He bridge🎭🎭🎭 Let me kiss your face again😘😘😘



]]> 2022-10-25 00:05:27 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2354488159 Carol yunlushen1_1 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355226454   I have done many multiple-choice questions in my life. When I was young, my mother would ask me whether to eat bananas or apples. Now, I’m facing a question which can change my whole life. Life or the loyalty of love? There’s a woman, that I loved. We together go and see the beautiful landscape of our country. But she’s a princess, I’m a commander, not a member of the royal family. I knew that her father the king will definitely not agree our marriage. We’re just keep dating without letting others to found out. But paper can't hold fire after all, the king was angry and put me in the prison. I know I’m going have a bad ending, because the king of this country made a very cruel rule. There’re two doors, you need to choose one to open. One door behind is a tiger which will eat you, yet the other door will be a beautiful woman which will marry you. But you don’t know which one will be behind the door you choose. Days later, I'm in-front of the two doors. I saw the princess quickly point right. What she points, actually, I know it must be the woman, I know that she wants me to live. But then I need to stick with a woman that I don’t love for the rest of my life, and she will marry another man. If I choose the door left, I will be loyal for my love, but she will have to bear the pain of life, without me. I want to follow my heart and hers, I believe her choice “I choose right!” I shouted out. The door opened, comes out a beautiful woman. Maybe being loyalty to love is not only death. Even if I am forced to marry another woman and she is forced to marry another man, the memories of love have been buried in our heart, which is the real loyalty. It's better for us to just look at each other silently than being together.]]> 2022-10-25 10:50:25 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355226454 Charlotte luotexia1_1 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355304812 October 24th, 2022

She is so beautiful… The first time I saw, she was sitting in the golden horse ride in the middle of the parade and waving at me. My mind went blank for a moment. 
She is the type of girl that’s ideal for most man, and she looks like a fairy to me, too. But…she is the highly honored princess, and I am only a commoner like everyone else living in this town…I don’t have any chance.
…but what I don’t know was that——this is just the start of a tragedy.

Fortunately, I saw again the next day morning. 
I was airing the clothes in the yard and I saw a woman with a white hat coming towards me. She took off her hat and smiled at me. !!THE PRINCESS! How dazzling… I blinked my eyes for several times and I was sure…IT’S REALITY. She really was the princess. But why is she here?
The princess greeted my friendly and asked me to have a tea with her.
My heart pounded so hard that I thought it’s going to jump out of my body. What? The princess…is inviting me to her morning tea? Wow…I…Isn’t this a chance for me?
This is the start of our story


We fell in love. 
We had tea every day. And sometimes we even went out play.
However, our relationship was discovered by the king.


The king thought I'm not worthy of his daughter…because I am not any member of a loyal family…I'm not good enough.
But Why? Why aren’t I a loyal member? I love the princess…and now you are telling me to give her up? NO…no, I won’t.


However, the next instruction made me chill and feel like I was in an ice cellar——he is putting to the arena!
I’ve heard of the rules of the arena. There are 2 doors for you to choose from: one is with tiger (you’ll die), another is with a lady for you to marry. And it’s actually cruel in some way. …I don’t like it.


I was put into jail before the day of decision. Then the day had come.
I was lead to the middle of the yard…under the crowd of people’s eyes.
Jesus…I became anxious and nervous about my fate.
Am I going to die if I am so unlucky to open the door with tiger? Ah…it’s torturing…
I looked up and saw the princess.
She was staring at me too.
From her eyes, I then knew, she already knows which door contains with answer.
I slightly gave her a glance. And she got my signal.
Right. She is telling me to open the door on the right. …should I trust her? Yes, I admit that I love her. But what if she’s being jealous and  want me dead instead of marrying another woman? Should I open the door on the left? But…what if she is correct? Then it will be award if she sees my distrust if I open the opposite door. I’ll lose her heart that sets on me no matter if I live or die. However, above all, I might die here! Which, I would say no one would prefer in my situation.


WHAT SHOULD I DO?
]]> 2022-10-25 12:01:39 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355304812 Eric https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355344985 I sat down in the high chair next to my father’s, as he signaled to open the gigantic door, rays of light beamed down from the bright afternoon sun, projecting waves of heat on the ground, forming a tides of fire, exacerbated the temperature in the already crowded arena, making it hotter than ever. Drops of sweat rolled down my face incessantly as I heard the door open with a monstrous yell, and the prisoner, who is my lover, stumbled our of the it. He walked around in the arena examining the two door that will decide whether his journey continues or ends with his cry of despair under the mouth of a tiger. As I look to the door where the tiger is at, images of a tiger that bolts out of the door, with its sharp claws twisting my lover’s body, sinking its dagger like teeth into his flesh, and ending with one last cry of the young prisoner echoing in the turmoil the tiger has made, flashed before my eyes, my hands clinched to the arm of the chair and I almost stood up, I shook my head, and the dizziness pulled me back to reality like a string pulling someone drowning onto the land. Then I looked at the door where behind it is the most marvelous woman in the kingdom, I can see the joy on his face, the joy of not only surviving but also the opportunity to marry a lovely lady, the I see my self, tearing my hair, face bright red and full of rage and jealousy. I shook my head again to shrug of the imagination.
My lover finished examining the door, he looked back at me, asking which door has the tiger and which door has the lady with his sight, at that moment I realized that this was not only a decision for the my lover, but also a conundrum for me. Suddenly I felt like I was inundated in the pool of feelings, a mixture of nervousness, jealousy, and misery. Dark spots emerged out of nowhere, and quickly devouring my sight, and at the last moment of my consciousness, I quickly pointed toward the door on the right then collapsed in my chair. 
]]> 2022-10-25 12:31:01 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355344985 Mario https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355503077 I am in the middle of choosing whether to let my beloved man die or to let him marry another woman. The situation I am facing now is that my beloved man must choose and open one door among the two doors, and I know what is behind which door. Behind one door, there is an extremely dangerous tiger that can tear someone into pieces within seconds. Behind the other door, there is a beautiful lady, and if my beloved man opens that door, he must marry that woman. Obviously, both choices are a negative result to me, and I do not want any of these happen to my beloved man. However, I must choose and point to a door to let him open. What should I do? In that situation, I was really confused. Letting the man to die or to marry another woman seems to be a similar ending because the only idea I have in my mind is that I want to marry that man. Suddenly, an idea just appeared in my mind. I cannot imagine how I produced this idea that was so cruel but also very brave. I am thinking of letting the man to choose the door and marry the woman. Of course, This is just the beginning of my plan. After this man was safe and he married the woman, I am going to secretly kill the woman in a night secretly and marry the man afterwards. If the man was eaten by the tiger, I have no chance to marry the man. On the other hand, if the man marries another woman, at least the man is still alive, and I still got a chance even if my plan failed. You might not believe this, but I really came up with this idea and believed it is the best choice I can make. Therefore, I point to the door with the young and beautiful lady behind the door. They married afterwards and the man I loved is safe now. Tonight, I will secretly murder the woman and burry her in the forest without getting seen. Hopefully, when you see this journal, I am already married with the man that I love, and the woman has already been killed.]]> 2022-10-25 14:00:32 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355503077 Bella qianhanwang1_1 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355575581 A lot of people might think that I’m nervous, but I am actually very calm. I need to admit that I’ve been thinking about this moment for a long time, thinking about the two different situations I might face. I know that the princess has already figured out the mystery behind the gates, so at last, I choose to trust the princes. I know it is hard for her to make the decision, she has to choose whether to watch me die or to watch me marry another woman. Of course, I don’t know what she will choose in the end, but I’m mentally prepared to accept either of them. If she chooses the tiger, I will die on the spot. However, if she chooses the woman and keeps me alive, I decide to kill the woman later and run here to find her. I believe that she is also tired of this unreasonable world, and I hope that I could take her to the deep mountains and live happily after. ]]> 2022-10-25 14:39:15 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2355575581 I am struggling to choose whether he will be eaten by a tiger and whether he will marry a women that i hate, those two option will make me very sad and disappointed.When i choose to let him to get eaten by a tiger, i would see he uttering a heartrending cry while being splitting in to pieces of bloody flesh, I will be very sad if this thing happens .On the other hand if i choose to let him to marry the woman that i hate ,i will be very disappointed and will commit suicide.I made two new plan.Plan a is to choose to let the man marry with the woman, after doing this i will let some body to to assassinate the woman and i will pretend the woman.Plan b is that let some body to assassinate the women before the man choose which door to opens will pretend to be the woman.After thinking for days and nights, I know what I am going to do. I will let some body to assassinate the woman now, if the assassinate failed and the day to choose have arrived, I will choose to let the man to live with the woman at first and I will let some body to assassinate the woman. https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2356317815 2022-10-26 00:13:53 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2356317815 Elsa zhiyanqin1_1 https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2356623068 I am the most handsome and courageous commoner in the kingdom, but I fell in love withe the princess. The princess loved me so much, but I was only jealous with the wealth she had. 
Remembering the first time I saw her, she was running on the street, interested at everything with her curious eyes. I know that she was a princess, since I had saw her the first time I went into the palace.
Suddenly, she stared at me, at that moment, her eyes were full of amazement.
She showed her heart to me, and I promised. She was very happy. She thought I liked him too, but she didn't know that I was only thinking about her possessions.
We started dating soon, and I could felt that she loved me so much that she shared everything she had to me. She know that I was very poor, she gave me a lot of money. She know that I have a mother who was injured, she found the best doctor in the kingdom in order to help me cure her.
I felt very apology for her, but I could not change anything.
However, our secret was soon discovered by the king. He refutes us, and sent me to the prison.
I know that I would be soon went into the room and choose which door to go throw. I was afraid, but I know that the princess will help me.
No other reasons, but I know that she loved me so much.
I don't care if I will marry the girl behind the door. At this moment, I only care about my own life and death. After all, I don't really love the princess. I know it was wrong for me to betray the princess, but I was a selfish person.
The day finally came, I went into the room. I saw two doors in front of me. I stared at the princess with my expected eyes, but I also saw her jealously looking at the girl behind the door.
She gave me a direction, but I suddenly felt indefinite. I didn't know if the princess will help me to choose the girl with her jealous heart, however, I trust her answer.
The foreboding in my heart became stronger and stronger, and when the tiger behind the door suddenly jumped out, my heart became extremely nervous. I wanted to escape crazily, but I still became the tiger's dinner.
At the moment of death, I finally understood, people with selfish and greedy never had a good end.]]> 2022-10-26 04:19:52 UTC https://padlet.com/conniezhao1_1/5nmjdu6kcf1z6c7n/wish/2356623068