The Wall of Resistance - Spring 2023 Writing Retreat by Nic Weststrate https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue "Resistance" is what keeps us from writing. It typically manifests as procrastination or avoidance. Resistance is normal and universal. This Padlet embraces the principle that "you gotta name it to tame it." The more we learn about our patterns of resistance, the better able we are to manage it. Track your resistance throughout the writing retreat and post about it here. Feel free to encourage each other by commenting. en-us 2023-05-07 21:00:07 UTC 2023-11-17 17:54:55 UTC hello@padlet.com 40 words too many! nicwest1 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2581080084 I can't seem to edit this abstract down to 250 words and it makes me want to scream. I just want to check my email.]]> 2023-05-07 21:03:33 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2581080084 No hope for this paper... why even bother? nicwest1 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2581087571 This paper will never get accepted into a good journal. Makes me want to give up and stop wasting my time. ]]> 2023-05-07 21:21:28 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2581087571 Not enough https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2583980348 I keep feeling like I am not enough to write my prelims (or do anything else, honestly) and I'm fuckin' tired of feeling like I'm not enough to finish this PhD. UGHSDLFKJSLDKFJ.]]> 2023-05-09 15:07:51 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2583980348 GRRR lsicil2 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584015258 I'm really angry that I worked for MONTHS on my dissertation proposal, and I didn't even get an email acknowledgment from my advisors saying they received it. ]]> 2023-05-09 15:31:33 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584015258 Moving soooo sloooow eobert3 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584090428 I'm so tired today. Only ~2 hrs sleep last night. I set an ambitious goal and will be lucky to get half-way through it. Goal for the week seems way far away now.]]> 2023-05-09 16:25:15 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584090428 work emails are like a drug. https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584133227 already off task after checking into work stuff over lunch. Damn.

]]> 2023-05-09 16:56:42 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584133227 almost there! https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584155280 anyone else struggling to stay focused for the last 10 min or so before lunch? trying to keep my commitment to myself and stick with it even though restlessness is setting in]]> 2023-05-09 17:13:22 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584155280 I look at the work of others as models of the kind of writing I want to do when I feel “stuck” with my own writing tasks. But I sometimes spend more time analyzing their work instead of writing. It leaves me feeling like “god, I wish I could write like that. Can I even do that? How did I make it this far not knowing how to write? Like, GIRL (inner critic) shut up!” https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584216237 2023-05-09 17:58:23 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584216237 Fading.... eobert3 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584272854 Ok, got to power through. Just...one...more...writing...block. Does 50 minutes suddenly seem like a really long time?]]> 2023-05-09 18:43:39 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584272854 Flitting https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584275255 Once I started flitting, I cannot get back on track. The things I'm checking off are important, timely, but not writing. I am trying to make a plan for my week but I am just daunted by how many punctures there are to my week, when I make efforts to preserve the writing time (like how do I turn away a research interview?!?!... I don't...)

So I am feeling productive but in the wrong arena.]]> 2023-05-09 18:45:39 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584275255 Rabbit hole! 🙃 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584310374 2023-05-09 19:16:27 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2584310374 IRB work today. Pray for me https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585659782 2023-05-10 15:00:31 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585659782 IRB lsicil2 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585691236 I have been avoiding writing up consent forms because I'm just unclear on what to write for the student assent and guardian consent forms. They are not the focus of my study, and yet...???]]> 2023-05-10 15:21:36 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585691236 Confused eobert3 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585913045 I'm so confused with trying to analyze transcript data. I feel like don't know what I'm doing. (I'm not totally convinced that any of us do.) What is this thing where I'm taking people's words and extracting some kind of knowledge from them? ]]> 2023-05-10 18:04:08 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585913045 So Forgetful https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585945537 I keep forgetting things. Then I feel scattered, distracted, mad at myself. I never used to be this way until I went to grad school. ;) Then it's hard to get centered and start writing, but that's my practice, eh?]]> 2023-05-10 18:30:41 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2585945537 CAN I DO THIS? https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587386801 Can I do it? Should I even try? I need to push all these negative thoughts AWAY and just freaking. write. ]]> 2023-05-11 15:24:44 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587386801 Co-authoring https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587445900 Do other people like co-authoring articles and papers? I usually write alone and right now the idea that other people are going to look at this while it's still in progress is making me second guess everything I write and stressing me oooouuuuttttttt.]]> 2023-05-11 16:06:35 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587445900 Productive procrastination https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587502497 I'm so drawn to productive procrastination and just want to read more articles, or search for more literature, or try making another outline. It's not NOT useful, but it is distracting me heavily from actually doing the writing. ]]> 2023-05-11 16:46:59 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587502497 IRB Update https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587655439 I managed to write up almost my entire interview guide today (6+ pages!!). Prayers answered. ~ Sara


]]> 2023-05-11 18:47:32 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2587655439 OVERWHELMED! https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2588916165 I have too many things to do and I am so overwhelmed that I can't attack any of them! ]]> 2023-05-12 16:11:30 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2588916165 Dropping balls in the air https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2588955281 I fear (and know) that if I do not flit between work emails and my writing, my brain is swiss cheese and I will drop the ball on something. That worry/anxiety keeps me away of dedicating time to a solely writing task and gives me an excuse to not focus and face the hard writing parts. Because I keep my inbox read, then if I don't read things right away, there's an issue with never getting back to them. [Cue Nic's voice in my head: you need to make a plan.]]]> 2023-05-12 16:45:23 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2588955281 Nic for President! https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2589145391 Thanks for providing amazing structure and support for our writing this week! I appreciate you Nic! ]]> 2023-05-12 20:35:17 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2589145391 https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2589583886 SOOOO.. Doing this writing retreat has actually been a good way to reconnect with my work and to feel excited again about why I am doing this work.  I must remember - give myself GRACE- that I will not just jump right in with loads of writing.  BUTTT I did and AM writing.  Its far from ready but its on a page now.  So I will just keep on trucking.

Congrats to all who are making strides and to those who like me maybe showing up was the first big step!

SI SE PUEDE!]]> 2023-05-13 15:00:18 UTC https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2589583886 Resistance Rejected https://padlet.com/nicwest1/5bu6x6uhqng82aue/wish/2589650767 I’m so not focused so much of the time.
Procrastination is the thief never charged with this crime.
This week was the opposite. I am reaching my goal.
Production is the heroine that recharged my control.


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