For English learning, I think the biggest difficulty now is the reaction capacity. I still need to translate lots of words into Chinese first in my mind for understanding even if I know the words. Because of the unfamiliar western means of expression, sometimes the result of translation is confusing for me too. 
 
 In addition, the network problems really waste a lot of time, I don't know whether it's the mistake of my VPN or the school website. I had never wanted to go back to school so badly!

 

In the evening, while watching the introductions of this year's graduation works, I discussed a lot with my future classmates. Although I have always been interested in art since I was little and have done some interesting things, I still feel that I don't know much about contemporary art yet as a student who changed a major. During the conversation, I found that I am not the only one who has these doubts. We had too much restrictions in our schools and instructed to make “correct answers”. Whether the girl who studied printmaking in an art academy, wants to be a social activist, or me, studied interior design in architecture school, wants to make artistic expression with space. The future study is both a challenge and opportunity for us, not only to create new works, but also to find who we are.

Thanks to the language course, I have started this journey.

 

I was unable to fall asleep last night and started to search for the pictures and videos of my kindergarten on internet. I only found a few videos from 2008 to 2010, when many of my teachers had retired. The next day I quickly took out the album to see the photo of my teacher and me. The memories were so sweet.

 

One of the motivations for looking through videos and photos was to recognize my teacher once we meet. Because I don't think she/they will recognize me. (But the teacher recognized my father at the first sight.) However, looked at the photos, I found that the teacher in my memory is no longer the true image of her in those days, let alone 17 years passed. The good news is that we know each other's addresses, and when I get over these days of tearing at the thought of the meeting, maybe I'll be able to visit her.

 

I still felt a little nervous just like taking an IELTS speaking test in the first week when I spoke English. And now, I overcame it. Even if I forget the word I want to say for a while, it's not a big deal for me anymore. I was looking forward to the presentation on Friday because communicating with the creators is one of the intentions of studying in RCA. 

 

I enjoyed the materials which were shared in class, each of them is worth reading/ watching /listening carefully. I finally had the time to read Hannah Black's article this weekend. I was surprised to find that many of the situations and ideas mentioned in the article coincide with my ideas in the group project. I took a lot of reading notes and invite my group members to read it again. Because I saw many students who complained about the difficulty of reading this article in WeChat, I think they may not be patient enough to read it. I can't say that I have fully understood the article, but I was inspired. I think we all have the same language skills. If someone read this article carefully, he/she won't just complain about its difficulty. 

 

Maybe it’s also one of the problems with social networks. For example, many people who haven't finished reading One Hundred Years Of Solitude commented on the book rating apps, saying that the names in the book are too long to be remembered, then the other users see their reviews and miss one of the greatest fictions. (Many people mentioned that the names in the book are too long to be remembered when they talk about this fiction with me, I think most of them just hear about it but never read it yet.)

 

When I realized that I need to focus on only one field or one word, I gradually lost interest in studying this topic. Despite I distaste these words, many people do not care them and even use these words to make fun of themselves. For the moment I didn't know how to fight the tide. Does my idea make sense? I have to think it over.

 

But there is a identity that I think it is a complete joke, Brother A-Zhong. The coinage, whether coined by the netizens or Chinese official medias, has been popular since the summer of 2019, but it has also made many Chinese people, including me, nauseated. Using the fan support mechanism to call on young netizens to endorse the country (or government), let the nation live in the illusion of its fans, just like their imagine of the male stars. I think this is not only an insult to my homeland, but also to most of the Chinese people, including me. According to the propaganda of the official medias, we are all the members of Brother A-Zhong’s 1.4 billion followers.

 

Nevertheless, I will shake off my prejudice and try my best to objectively evaluate the issue through the theory and relevant materials. I am glad for that I can evaluate this objectively, but I'd rather it never happened.

 

*(Older) Brother is a fans' pet name(title) for male celebrities, originated in Korea (Oppa)

 

Art courses rely on being in a space together, students popping in and seeing what one another are doing. Skill-sharing and encouragement happens as students come and go, and I think there’s enormous potential for that to become a model for education more broadly.

 

We also welcomed our new members of group project this week, however, there is no process. Most members felt tired due to the essay and homework, had nothing to share during the meeting. The outcome of our group project is so uncertain……

 

For weekend, I went to the pet market and bought two new goldfish. I named them Cheechee (the one with pink head looks like lychee)and Turtleson (Sichuan slang, because the head tumor on my fish's head looks like a piece of salmon, and the pronounciation of salmon and turtle in Chinese is same) I also saw many cute kittens. When I have my own home, it will definitely be a zoo! (To some extent, my room is already.)

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