“ well this isn’t a funeral that you see everyday.” Dad said

“ no it sure isn’t” I replied back

I placed my bouquet of bright yellow flowers on the casket. Yellow was Susie's favorite, they reminded her of the sun and being happy. As everyone put their own flowers on top of the casket, I went somewhere to be alone. I went to a little patch of bright green grass away from the funeral and began to cry. I cried and cried but then a little white  bunny with a grey nose hopped over to me and rubbed it's soft head onto my hands. Susie would love this little rabbit I thought. 

The next morning me and my dad went down to the pet store and bought me a little white bunny with a grey nose. I named it Susie.

“No thank you”

i got over all of it later but at the end everyone has to go at one point.

“Thank you all for coming…” Max said with water filling up in his eyes then streaming down his cheek like a river.

“Suzie was such a great kid….She always knew what to say. She did not deserve what she went through!”

“We all love her from the bottom of our hearts. She will never be forgotten, Max.” Said my dad, choking up. Things will never be the same.

When we had just started calling each other, I thought that it would be annoying, but now I realize how wrong I was. She taught me so many amazing things. She helped me and gave me so much, it would be impossible to repay her. I can remember her saying "I can't wait to see you again!" and me replying, "Me too, we'll see each other soon!" But we never did see each other again. I don’t think I’m ever gonna forget her, or our talks. I realize now that I shouldn’t take things for granted. My ability to be alive and to be healthy is enough for me. 

                                                     

As the end of the year progressed, I fought against the thoughts of him. I lucky improved as a human being just by putting other things first. I got into a college and that is my main focus, until… 

“Oh hey did we go to the same high school!”

 It was him, that same boy. And at that moment, I realized. I'm back at that same old junior year... crush.

Everyone started to clap for me and I don’t know why. I felt like I didn’t do anything differently from the rest of the speakers but apparently I did. 

“That was amazing, Elizabeth, thank you for speaking.” her mother said before the next speaker walked up

“It was my pleasure. And we all need to make sure we all enjoy the gift of life.”

The red flag is basically waving right in front of my face at this point, and it’s disappointing that I didn’t notice sooner.

If this guy seriously spends his time looking at other girls and trying to claim them as his boyfriend just so his ego rises, I should probably look for someone else, especially if I can't even communicate with him. I mean I have never talked to this guy, I don’t even know what his interests are. His favorite food, color, and girls are unknown to me, so who should I fall for instead?

Well, I have an idea.

“Hey watch it..! Wait, are you that one girl who I bumped into two days ago?”

Please don’t remind me. I seriously remembered this guy's entire schedule in the span of just TWO DAYS. Don’t ask me how it happened.

“Well yeah, and I’m really sorry for messing up your lipstick. That shade of dark neon red looked really good on you!” (No it didn’t).

“Oh thank you! Gosh, you don’t have a single inch of your face covered in makeup! Come over here, I’ll help ya out!”

Bingo, as this girl I had practically just met dragged me out I had my perfect opportunity to see that man who I swooned over in just 48 hours. The look on his face was priceless. His jaw was wide open, I had stolen this girl from him in the span of just exactly 57 seconds. Even though yes, I do still partially love this man, I know that I can do MUCH better than him.

Yes I might have a face covered in acne, and a horrible fashion sense, but I know that if I did become his love interest, he would probably use me as an ego booster because oh boy am I UGLY. Spell it out like we are in kindergarten, U. G. L. Y.

But this girl is gonna give me the largest makeover the world has ever seen. And while he is looking in the girls bathroom (ew), he will start wondering, why not me? Why couldn’t she love me? As I looked over the memories of trying to talk to this guy while he pretended I didn’t exist, and doing backflips for his girl he just met, my pride went higher while his ego skyrocketed-down.

Maybe next time, don’t love a girl just because of her large thighs and gorgeous face.

         “Hi Ash..” I said quietly. 

“How are you doing? Could I do anything for you?” I asked. 

 She responds, “No. I hate that guy. What did I ever even see in him? He is such a jerk.”

 My plan is working. Now I just have to ask her the question and get out of here. 

          “So, Ash, is it okay if I talk to Chad?” I asked nervously. 

          “Sure, it’s not like we are a thing anymore” she mumbled angrily. 

So the next morning at school, I went to class and I couldn't stop thinking about Blue Eyes. I would stare into those eyes for days on end if I could. I knew I had to talk to him. I’ll be fine.  After class I went to his locker and found him getting his books for next class. I got this. Just believe. 

        I start to sweat. “Hey Chad! How’s it going?”

       He responded. “Oh hey! You’re Ashley’s friend right?”

       “Yep, that’s me.” I said. “I was wondering if you would want to go get a milkshake with me after school?”

        “Sure. That would be nice. See you there!” he responded. 

I was so excited I started skipping down the hall to my next class. I could not stop thinking about him. Ding. Dong. School’s out! I start walking to the Shake Shack, I start to get nervous. What am I going to say? What is going to happen? Will we hug? I get there and he's already there waiting for me. I sit down and it just goes up from there. From that day on, we always have lunch together, go on car rides together. I knew that he was the one for me. 

 

 

 

“She got what she wished for”, says max

Suzie fought hard and long and she had now accepted her fate, to die. She had hoped to wake up in a new body and we could only hope she got what she had wanted. Weeks have passed since the death and we have gotten over it, but suzie will forever have a place in our family.

 On a cold winter afternoon just after school when we were all waiting for the bus he came over to me, i was shivering.

“Do you want my jacket?” he asked.

Time seemed to freeze. “Yes! thank you” I replied. for a moment i thought i was going to black out.

“I've been wanting to ask you for a while now but…”

I knew exactly what he was going to say and waited anxiously

“Will you go to prom with me?”

“Of course I will!” I respond with joy.

I hadn't realized it  but a small group of people began to crowd around us. one of them being miss popularity. she began to pout. I looked over to her  and she stuck her tongue out at me. that when I realized she wasn’t a true friend. We didn't talk much after that but  I wasn't really that sad about it. Real friends are rude to you because of your relationships. I found new friends who love me for me, and me and the boy with John Travolta eyes started dating.

“Dad,” I ran up to my dad.

“Yes?” he answered somberly.

“Can you help me put in these flowers?” I asked.

“Yes?” He smiled a little.

I passed the bouquet I got from a local market I passed and he gently put it in. I realized how real this finally felt and sat alone emo in the corner in a chair. I will never take advantage of having a friend this close.

“Hey,” I recognized that voice. It was Blue Eyes, and he was towering over me like a skyscraper. “You know, I only dated your friend because I knew she would make a huge scene if I rejected her. She’s really not my type.” 

“Oh,” I responded. “She’s so pretty, though! If she’s not your type, then who is?”

“I’m actually gay.” He explained.

I stood there, speechless. I was shocked.