Better be good to me by Ludmila Bulla https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g by Daniel Ehrenhaft en-us 2017-10-20 19:04:02 UTC 2017-11-04 20:08:59 UTC hello@padlet.com ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199194160 A prisoner of your love
Entangled in your web
Hot whispers in the night
I'm captured by your spell
Oh yes I'm touched by this show of emotion
Should I be fractured by your lack of devotion
Should I, should I]]> 2017-10-20 19:15:28 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199194160 I: Prisoner of your love ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199195124 "Does liking this song make me gay?"
The song at issue is Tina Turner's ´Better Be Good to Me.´
"Yes, D," [...] "Liking this song makes you gay. Very, very gay."]]> 2017-10-20 19:18:51 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199195124 II: Entangled in your web ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199794663 My roommate's name is DePaul Adams. His family controls the entire U.S. shipping industry.
Give him an excuse; he'll drop a tab of acid.
He's also my best friend.]]> 2017-10-23 21:46:42 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199794663 III: Hot whispers in the night ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199794711 "The chicks will be here soon"
I am depressed because DePaul is happier than me and he always will be, even without the LSD.
He is going to Princeton in the fall, whereas I am going to NYU.
DePaul owns his tuxedo, I rented mine. My parents are not billionaires.
I want to have fun. But I can't. I have a secret. I've never even hinted at it. I came close to whispering it [...], late at night, [...] but I stopped myself. Like I'm doing with DePaul right now]]> 2017-10-23 21:46:59 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199794711 IV: I'm captured by your spell ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199794718 “The chicks,” DePaul whispers to his desk lamp.
Every item of clothing suffocates me in some way, down to the rented black shoes and socks.
I shuffle over to our door and open it. The chicks are indeed here. DePaul’s girlfriend and mine.
Marci smiles straight at the zit on my nose and says, “Hey, handsome!”
]]> 2017-10-23 21:47:03 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199794718 V: Captured! ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199835278 I am an asshole.
I am in love with my best friend's girlfriend.
Rebecca and Marci are also roommates. And best friends.
It's empathy. It's feeling. 
For how she laughs so hard that she loses herself. 
Sneaking out has never come up among us. DePaul won't make a move. He seems as bored with Rebecca as I am with Marci. 
I am a virgin. ]]> 2017-10-24 02:40:15 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199835278 VI: Oh yes I'm touched by this show of emotion ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199835777 "I said , hey, handsome," Marci repeats. 
I force a smile.
My eyes meet Rebecca's for a moment. 
If I break up with Marci, I will in all likelihood wind up on Rebecca’s shit list - a place I refuse to be.
She’s pissed because now she’s going to NYU.
Suddenly, I am ecstatic that I didn’t get into Princeton.
“So, D, how do I look?” Rebecca pipes up. “Zack just complimented his girlfriend.”
“You’re shimmering?” he offers with a shrug.
“That’s sweet, D. Much appreciated. Just try to keep it together tonight, all right? The sixties are over.”
]]> 2017-10-24 02:44:37 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199835777 VII: Should I be frightened by your lack of devotion? ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199837402 After a clumsy presentation of corsages, the four of us head to the dining hall. 
Marci was on the Spring Ball decorations committee, and it shows. 
This is not a prom. This is Dorchester’s Spring Ball. This is a fraud.
“This place feels amazing. It’s vibrating. It doesn’t even feel like the dining hall. It feels like a… prom.”
“We should all get up and dance as soon as ―”
“OH MY GOD!” Marci shrieks. “I love this song! (...)” She casts a sidelong glance at me and starts to fidget in time to the music.
I turn away from Marci. I can’t help it. I am that big an asshole.
]]> 2017-10-24 02:56:28 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199837402 VIII: Should I? ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199838420 “Dig Marci’s hoop earrings. Chicks who wear earrings like that… it’s a sign. They’re saying they want to get freaky. That’s why I should bang her.”
“You want to bang my girlfriend because of her hoop earrings?”
“It’s obvious you don’t want to bang her.”
“when Marci and Rebecca first came in tonight, you looked Rebecca from the bottom up. But you looked Marci from the top down ―”
“Can I ask you something?”
“Sure.”
“How did you and Marci get together anyway? I mean, really.”
“(...) she let me know she had a crush on me… I was just flattered.”
“Very romantic, (...) I sit closer to you than Marci does. I sat closer to you yesterday.”
“But you’re going out with DePaul,”
Rebecca doesn’t respond.
“You should either break up with Marci this second, or go out there and cut in on that dance. Because Marci wants something to happen with you tonight.”
]]> 2017-10-24 03:04:57 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199838420 IX: Should I??? ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199839700 Everything freezes. I stop breathing.
"Something to happen? Like what?"
"I just wish DePaul wanted somthing to happen tonight, too. I'm psyched to go to NYU. You're gonna be there."
"Can I ask you something now?"
"Of course"
"What is it that you like about Marci? I mean, why are you guys best friends?"
"That's not a very nice thing to ask about your girlfriend."
"I'm in the mood to be honest."
“What are you thinking?”, Rebecca asks.
“That I’m happy Marci seems to be having fun right now,” (...) “And that I want to get out of here.
“Hey, I’ll come with you if you want. I don’t really feel like hanging out here, either.”
“That leaves the question of Marci, though.”
I jump out of my chair and hurry across the dance floor.
“Marci, I’m sorry I’ve been such an asshole to you,” I confess. “I really am.”
"I want to have fun tonight.I've put too much time and energy into this night not to have fun."
]]> 2017-10-24 03:13:23 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199839700 X: Oh, you better be good to me ludmibulla95 https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199859803 Rebecca tries to console me on the walk by to my dorm.
Rebecca and I [...] open DePaul's
The whole time I'm wondering ´Did Rebecca just agree to come back here because she wants to hook up?´
Rebecca and I open DePaul's desk.
Our eyes come to rest upon the sole contents of DePaul's drawer: an unsealed envelope with Rebecca's name on it.
She opens the envelope as delicately as she can.
´Dear Rebecca,
How to phrase this? [...] I am........shit, this is harder than I thought!
There's something neither of you knows.
When I said it to myself it felt really good.
I think I may be gay.
Nothing would make me happier than you and Zack.
He's just as into you as you are into him.
I love you Rebecca. And I love Zack, too. I'm on your side, both of your sides!
I don't want to lose you. Or Zack. I don't even know if I'm going to give you this letter.
Love, DePaul´
"So, he is gay [...] I thought he was...happy"
"You can't be both?"
"At this school?"
"What bothers me is that he didn't tell me. Why didn't he?"
"He was worried you'd get dreaked out"
She kisses me once, very softly, on the lips.
"You can take your tuxedo off. Tonight can still be amazing. I want it to be amazing. Don't you? It's the Spring Ball."
I know we're done with conversation for the evening. My heart is thumping too hard to do anything but let Rebecca take control.
I can be honest. DePaul is on our side.]]> 2017-10-24 06:14:28 UTC https://padlet.com/ludmibulla95/4a4s0hvu8h7g/wish/199859803