spring 2023 pdpr by Jordan Gilbertson

spring 2023 pdpr by Jordan Gilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5 en-us 2023-01-10 21:48:08 UTC 2023-04-25 00:04:14 UTC hello@padlet.com recent performance experience jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440039862 at adf this past summer (summer 2022) i performed a work by kimberly bartosik where we searched for the limits of the female body, looking at what it can do and how powerful that is and all the complexities of that

wisdom: pushing the body is powerful yet delicate, so is dreaming, with intensity comes the opposite, whatever that is, DREAMING]]> 2023-01-10 21:55:30 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440039862 what's compelling or moving to you right now jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440041849 honesty, humility and plants, thinking about all that i've experiences (it's more then i realize sometimes, i'm getting to the point where i forget but i don't want to), other art!!! all of it!!! it's hard to pick what kinds or which ones!!! physical activity and my relationship to my body ]]> 2023-01-10 21:58:04 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440041849 what challenges, practical limitations, or concerns are present this semester? how can you honor them or allow them to subside? jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440044362 i hurt my shoulder this summer and i haven't taken care of it but i need to not get scared out of taking care of my body because others don't know my body like i do

i always have a lot of class and when i dance a lot something has to go, i need to rely on what i learned last semester as far as succeeding outside of dance but also give myself grace for the things that don't go as expected if that happens because of something else i am passionate about

i have a lot of anxiety about the future, i need to not let myself just try to forget it but also remember to be so present has there are unknowns but also a lot to know soon]]> 2023-01-10 22:01:45 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440044362 one to three commitments for myself are... jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440047270 - i will journal at least 3 times a week to keep check emotionally
- i will do PT to it's fullest to take care of myself
- i will be as disciplined as i can in my physics work but also try to not keep it so separate and remember the passion it gives me
- i will perform often and accept the full joy of it]]> 2023-01-10 22:05:56 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440047270 what is your dream creative process right now? jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440050054 i want to perform and be pushed outside of what i've done before. i want it to make me excited about the very scary step of moving into the professional dance world. i want it to do what i just said but also keep me SO SO SO present, in the process but also with where i am in life

song: "Come With Me Now" Caamp]]> 2023-01-10 22:09:44 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440050054 my path in pdpr and how i can fulfill my desires jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440052213 i am pretty sure i am going to perform in a new works piece (anna's) which will help me stay present, the people in it are comfortable to me and i have a feeling will be grounding to me. i will get to dance and perform in a carefree happy yet present way.

i am also pretty sure i will perform in drt and i think in any of the pieces there is opportunity for comfort to bring presence but also for discomfort and new things to teach me and make me excited for a future in dance]]> 2023-01-10 22:12:36 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2440052213 anna's process jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2459501406 - it's just been a nice way to feel deeply in community with dancers i care a lot about!
- it's also been a nice way to reflect on the future
- i had a lot of complex feelings about this process and at times i felt very connected and other times i didn't which was interesting to note and note why, i learned a lot about myself through it
- it was SUCH a gift to be a part of a work like that and that was easy to forget to i tried to keep reminding myself]]> 2023-01-27 22:04:18 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2459501406 after Ido's residency jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2475727251 - i have a lot of thoughts
- i wish we had more time because to be honest everything felt surface level and i wonder if that would have changed with more time; however in ways this pushed me more to try to get to the place he wanted us quicker and on my own with less coaching
- im interested to see how it reads on stage
- how do you be fully in something when it's not your favorite???
- how do you admire others without comparing them to your self or falling into self criticism, but still learn from them and what they do better then you???
- do we make things too delicate sometimes??? or is it good to be delicate??? do both hold value??
- how do we take this to the next place now that he's gone? im kind of not sure? it feels like there's a lot more but also it feels like the piece has already done it all...
- how do we hold space but also make some for others, it feels against human nature
- this process was surprisingly comfortable and uncomfortable ]]> 2023-02-09 23:07:21 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2475727251 after NWF as a whole jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2555540087 - in general, participating in the festival felt like the rest I had been needing. I had been feeling burnt out and tired and I thought I needed sleep but I really just needed to consume a lot of art and be out of my routine.
- like many people I cried watching a lot of the shows
- I feel like the type of dance we do it meant to be experienced in a small space and this festival made that even more clear
- also just seeing the department support each other and the projects that they really care about was really heart warming
- it was a gift to watch this much art for free! this won't happen again for me! it was so accessible! ]]> 2023-04-16 02:04:12 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2555540087 anna's NWF after jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2555541710 - there were a lot of people i cared a lot about in this piece with me and that was sweet to get to perform for our last time at UT together
- it felt sweet to be so supported by the dance community at UT in this and by my people outside of dance
- wednesday morning's show was so fun for some reason, i think i like performing in the morning haha
- i had a lot of complex emotions doing this dance for multiple reasons but i think one of the reasons was because of the complexity of being sad for my last performance at UT but also so proud of the work i've done ]]> 2023-04-16 02:10:04 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2555541710 after performing Ido's jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2555544434 - after having covid and not being able to do all the performances i was reminded what a gift it is to perform
- it was interesting to see how this piece both changed and didn't change when it was in front of an audience
- i didn't feel as emotionally connected to this dance, was it the fact that we performed it so early or was it that he wasn't here for very long, I am unsure ]]> 2023-04-16 02:20:31 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2555544434 END: What did this process or performance give you? jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564363853 - it gave me a lot of information about myself as a dancers and what i need to work on emotionally
- it gave me a lot of stretching as far as how i perform in something i don't feel fully invested in
- it gave me a lot of variety which i need]]> 2023-04-22 21:04:55 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564363853 END: How has what is compelling to you shifted now versus at the beginning of the semester? jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564363976 - i'll be honest, i don't know what i wrote there at the beginning... im confused haha
- but im sure it has shifted because i think i have learned a lot about myself and what i need to work on
- i am compelled by how i can actually be my full honest self in every space and show up in that way, i think i realized this semester i haven't been doing that... i am not good at showing who i am in a short period of time without being asked ]]> 2023-04-22 21:05:23 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564363976 END: How did you honor those challenges, practical limitations, or concerns or allow them to subside? How have they shifted or changed? jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364136 - i took care of my shoulder! and it's getting better!
- i learned more about balancing dance and school, i was able to kind of successfully take what i learned last semester and apply it to a life with dance tooooo, which is exciting because this was the most balanced in that way i have felt in college
- i am still nervous about the future... and at times it did take over my brain a bit... but there were also moments i gave myself a break]]> 2023-04-22 21:06:07 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364136 END: Were you able to uphold your commitments? Why or why not jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364327 - i journaled a good amount...
- i did my pt most of the time...
- i was good about discipline most of the time...
- i performed a lot :) but emotionally it was more difficult then it had been in the past ]]> 2023-04-22 21:06:54 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364327 END: Artist citizen jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364815 What is one way or moment in which you brought elements of your artist citizen self or full personhood to the final rehearsals, technical rehearsals, or performance experience?

- i was fully present where i was, showing up with what i could give that day

What is one way or moment in which you grew as an artist citizen during the PDPR experience?

- i learned a lot of what it is like to take a win in the arts as a win for all and a win for me! there were times i wish that i had different experiences for one reason or another, but i learned how to value art as a whole

What is one realization you have had about artist citizenship or personhood as a result of your PDPR experience that you’ll take with you?

- i think i am a more compartmentalized person then i realize, and i want that to change and i think it will make me a better artist citizen

]]> 2023-04-22 21:08:43 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364815 END: Were your desires met? How did they shift and or change? What were the pros and cons of the experience? Of being in your specific project? Of being in PDPR? jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364959 - my desires were met! i performed and was pushed as a person and artistically
- Ido's stretched me as far as learning to value what i have, learning to perform something that feels different then usual
- anna's taught me some of how to advocate for myself, it taught me that there are consequences when you have your hand in many different things ]]> 2023-04-22 21:09:15 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564364959 END: PDPR as a whole jordanegilbertson https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564365509 Regarding the new umbrella approach, what worked well, what was a challenge? Hopes, dreams, desires, love notes, well wishes...
- it was hard but really engaging for me as someone who can't do the same thing all the time to have a lot of variety
- i was stressed at times but honestly not that much...
- the hardest part was i felt not as engaged in each project and i think the people there could feel it and i could feel it]]> 2023-04-22 21:11:27 UTC https://padlet.com/jordanegilbertson/47hl87knljf3iqy5/wish/2564365509