i’m at peace knowing i got to be a big part of your life, i made you smile i held you when you needed it the most.

you taught me a lot of things about love and being at ease with the thought that i can fully depend on a once stranger.

it was surreal to play house with you, and experience the life of being married to now being your bride, i’m sorry, if i made you fall asleep wondering where you went wrong, to the times i made you cry and i wasn’t around, to the times i chose my work over you, even when i promised you’d be my priority, you are so precious and i’m the luckiest woman in the whole solar system i have a husband who seems intimidating at first but a huge baby, my baby.

I’ll never find a love like you, and i’ll keep seeing you in the little things whenever we’re apart, I look at the woman I am right now compared to before we started talking, I am at my best version my love, it’s all because of you.

It wasn’t hard at all to love you, it’s so easy to fall in love with you especially when we first slept together and you were at your most vulnerable beside me, I wanted to kiss you in a way wherein I can indirectly say you are loved, and even if at the time I thought that will be the last time i’ll see you, I felt my heart ache in the best way.

I knew I wanted to be your friend still, watch your smile that could light up a room, but how lucky was I that i’m the one you chose to pour all your heart to, it was strange to me, it was a new feeling, I couldn’t quite wrap my head around that concept of someone actually seeing me as someone they can keep, and despite my attempts at pushing you away as I didn’t want you to regret choosing me, today i’m the woman who will always fight my place to still be chosen by you, even on the bad days.

I remember when I was up onstage, I couldn’t see from all the lights, and I saw you from afar. It wasn’t that hard to, you are physically so perfect I could spot you from a mile away, I fell in love all over again, you were wearing something different than usual and it made me want to jump on you then and there, I love you so much and I could go on about how much you make my heart hurt from beating so much.

I’ll be with you forever, as long as we can both muster up, even if you don’t want me anymore, a part of me is still yours.

I love you.

🤍 Mrs. Lopez

eto theme song ko sayo eh :P add ko na sa kantot playlist natin hehe HDHSHAHAHAHAH JOKE BABY THIS LETTER IS WHOLESOME PO HNNGG GISING KA NA XAVIER KO MISS KO NA

baby, my love, the love of my life, you are the most gentle, soft spoken man i’ve ever met and that is such a big turn on for me, then you get so daldal when we’re alone and you always remind me na i’m loved, kaya ive physically and emotionally changed exponentially because everything you touch turns into gold and i am at my best self.

Kai, always remember na kahit magaway tayo in the future, I will never ever break up with you okay? I will bear your last name until the very end, and even at the end I am holding your hand and staring into your beautiful eyes, I love when they disappear whenever you smile, and I love how your whole face lights up whenever you do, kahit you’re always resting bitch face not until I get to have you alone.

I am beyond blessed to be married to you, you basically dedicated your life to me and I will do the same, no sorry’s for this letter as I am soooo happy this year and you were a big part of that, notice how i barely have breakdowns every night like I usually did? you’re the main reason, Kai, I love you in every lifetime.

this month, naprove ko how lucky I am, no exaggeration, I really want to focus on you and not me, pero let me just say how much you comforted me that one night and it permanently made me see myself differently, you always reprimand me when I talk negatively about myself, it felt so alone realizing na somehow no one had my back, but you were an angel and don ko lang narealize na it’s okay to be weak and need someone sometimes, you know all the right words to say, and it feels so empowering to say na I have a husband like you, not for the clout lang sa timeline, not for show, but because we have this mutual obsession with each other that transcends even at the darkest moments of our lives.

I hope I can be that person for you too, my love, because you are mine, you save my life over and over and I wish I can be that ray of sunshine at the end of the dark tunnel, like you are in my world.

You are everything good in my life, even if it feels like it’s suffocating, I just think, I still have my kaikai and somehow I can pick myself up from there, never ever lose that smile of yours okay? I love you, no matter what happens sating dalawa i’ll never stop loving you.

loveeeee,

your nabi 🦋

I want to make this letter all about you and less about what you’ve done for me, but I have to give credit where credit is due, you are so beautiful inside and out (given na yung out no, lag lag panty talaga when I see your face palang)

You always reprimand me whenever I talk negatively about myself, you’ve been the best husband anyone could ever ask for, even if everything feels like it’s falling apart, laging may angel sa shoulder ko assuring me na better days are coming, and i’m not as bad as I think I am (you are the angel)

That night, naiyak ako kasi, you were the only one who was there for me, and I felt so lucky, you make me feel less alone, and whenever I’m sad, you get sad too, hindi ko alam ilang pamilya sinalba ko in a fire nung past life ko, pero grabe, kulang pa yon sa kung gaano ako ka blessed sa mapapangasawa ko, you are insanely intelligent, kind-hearted, and you make heads turn whenever you pass by, but you only have your eyes on me and i’m so honored to be your wife.

You see the beauty in everything and you contributed a lot to who I am, I wish you are also happy with me, let’s be together forever, okay, KAIKAI???

I love you forever and ever.

<3

your nabi 🦋

ang sarap ipagmayabang how nice you treat me, and i tell my friends that all the time, i remember i was talking to a friend about my situation recently and they asked me how my husband reacted and i said he’s been nothing but supportive and i’m so lucky, kasi you’re my number one support system.

there are times wherein i feel so alone and yet you always remind me to not speak ill of myself, and yet sometimes you do that to yourself, love, i hope that’ll never happen again, if only you saw yourself through my eyes then you’ll know.

i am so happy your friends are around narin, it feels nice having your best friend tell me na nawawalan ka ng internet and all, it feels so nice to be involved in your life like that, i love how shy you get when i drag you to my ganaps, and yet you sit pretty on the side and support me still, has it ever dawned on you na you don’t even have to do much to be perfect? perfection is impossible to attain and yet you make it look so effortless.

something in me realized how truly lucky i am, especially during that time na i was self-destructing, i cried alot, i felt so at ease when i allow myself to cry and let everything out, it doesn’t feel so bad when you’re there comforting me, i feel so at peace.

i love being intimate with you because you’re so beautiful and i can’t take my hands off you, it’s also an excuse to look into your eyes a bit more and feel your warmth inside me and upon my skin, i am not the horned up girl i was a year from now, but i wish i can get fucked by my beautiful husband forever.

no hands are able to touch me and no other eyes are able to see me that bare unless it’s you, i only have my eyes on you and i love it the most when you let me baby you, thank you for trusting me to see you at your most vulnerable, i wouldn’t trade you for anything or anyone else in the world.

i love you, kai, it’s so nice to see how we grew into each other day by day and learned how to love each other the way we want to be loved, i’m glad my letter flopped two times because now i can make it as long and heartfelt such as this.

marriage doesn’t feel as suffocating nor does it induce my claustrophobia like it did thinking about it before, you’re such a man who’s sure of what you want and meanwhile i’m not, i envy you for that. thank you for making me feel on top of the clouds, just by having your eyes on me only, i love you forever.

with you by my side it makes decisions much easier, with you by my side this world isn’t too hard to navigate like i thought it was, and despite everything i am so glad to be called your wife, from filling out forms to having my name in random pubmats, it feels so nice to fill them out using your last name.

this last part is to assure you that i am so in love with you every single second passed by, it’s always going to be you, there’s so many men in the world and yet you’re so beautiful inside and out, it’s so cute to allot a bit of our times just to talk to each other, i’m so in love with you.

🤍,

your nabi 🦋

I don’t think arguments are necessarily a bad thing, I think it is a privilege to be able to be as open as I am to you, and lovie, please don’t think you annoy me, in fact, I feel closer to you more than ever now na we have a way to call each other as a little alert, I think it’s the cutest thing and thank you baby for thinking of that.

The day my Kaikai stops double triple quadruple texting me, I will get extremely sad okay? you are not my hubby anymore if di na ikaw ganon.

I am beyond lucky nga na kahit ilang months na tayo and we live together see each other everyday eh you don’t get tired of me, in fact mas naging clingy pa ang baby ko, although walang tatalo sa nagbeach ka magisa kasi i didnt talk to you the whole day HAHAHAHAHAH i love you xavier kai, always remember that okay?

<3 your nabi 🦋

Thank you for sticking with me throughout and for navigating our relationship with me despites the hardships that we have endured throughout our busy days and our misunderstandings that stem from just missing each other so much, but I’d rather argue with you forever than lose you forever.

I’m the happiest girl in the world and none of my feelings faded but rather it deepened as our relationship and marriage got more serious, seeing our early pictures vs our pictures now, i’m at peace, we’re growing old together and we just produced something so magical that will grace everyone’s lives besides us.

Thank you for being so hands on and for being a shoulder I can cry on and allowing me to be soft when things get hard, thank you for calming me down and being the ray of light whenever I’m feeling disoriented and lost.

No one is like you, and our marriage is forever. I LOVE YOU KAIKAI KO! You made me kinder, softer and more than anything you shaped me to become a great mom to our little Hachi.