In the format, I had the chance to tell you all my love languages, and I really didn't expect you to be able to fulfill them all. Starting from quality time, which I think is the most important and I really appreciate it, really! You're very responsive, even often after I send a message, you immediately reply. Secondly, receiving gifts, which I also really appreciate. Starting from emojis, your drawings, and your videos, all of which are really cute. Lastly, there are words of affirmation. I swear, you're really an expert at this, because I really feel really appreciated.

for pda, i really appreciate it too! you're really good at it, i didn't even think that you would make a st too, like??? let's just get married again :P you also like to show me off on baseee, it makes me feel really appreciated and valued. last but not least... pay attention to all the details that i explained in your format. starting from you always letting me know before doing anything, appreciating your girlfriend every day, and being really clingy, makes me so adorable. thank you so much sis for all your affection, sorry if i said something wrong to you or sometimes i don't tell you first :( later when i have free time, i will re-rent you again. see you, sahlzan.

Honestly, I'm sad to break up with you, I've been putting this together since last night because I know we're separating today. Parting on good terms like this is really something that can leave a deep impression.. but it's okay, we can meet again later, and I'm sure we'll meet again soon. I'm sure you will always get through everything well and can always do everything smoothly. I want to write and give everything to you, but I'm confused because you really are beyond all the words of praise in this world. You are 100000000000000000/10 or maybe INFINITY. You can't be judged by numbers, because you are indeed the best among the others. Aku sayang kamu. Semoga kamu akan selalu bahagia, ya. See you next time and i love you more than anything.

Adek gak bosan-bosan buat bilang kalau kamu itu sangat keren! Bahkan lebih keren dari sebelumnya!!! You never change, selalu balesin bubble chat aku satu persatu, padahal itu beneran banyak banget (aku khawatir kamu bosan dan capek.. maaf) sahl juga sabar ngadepin aku yang kadang ilang-ilangan, kadang bobo awal, kadang slowrespon. Adek sekarang bingung harus menulis apalagi.. semua hal-hal baik yang aa lakuin kalau ditulis bakalan jadi panjang banget.. definisi sempurna, beneran sempurna banget buat dijadiin pacar dan pendamping hidup (untuk aku). Adek bakal kasih ∞/10, beneran INFINITY karena semua perilaku gak bisa dinilai pakai angka..

Lastly, this is the last serious one. don't ever get bored of meeting you, okay? Maybe we'll meet again, I don't know when, but I hope you won't get bored and never change from the Aa I know. My memories with you have made me think about writing a narrative, after this I will give the narrative to you.. I hope your writing is worth reading, okay? You will always remember me, always remember all the kindness you gave me, so never forget to be a good person, okay? Wherever and whenever you are, being a good person is fun. I'm really sad, really sad because we broke up twice on good terms like this.. I hope we can really meet again. Maybe I'll invite my other partner like in the beginning HAHAHA. See you on top, I love you more than anything.

of course there's no advice and criticism karena kamu selalu memenuhi request aku dengan baik, baik bangeeet malah. kamu bener bener tanggung jawab dan kamu juga selalu kasih kabar kalau ada apa apa!! kamu juga punya pengetahuan yang luas, convobuilder, baik banget(cant stop say this cause you really are) and you also have a good response buat massage akuu, jadi kamu bener bener do the job very very very well!! if you asking for the rate, i'll give you infinity out of ten! please always be the type of man that never hurt any sweet-girls the way you treat me like your pretty queen. I'd love to recommend this adorable man to all of the girls out there! pick him up! dia keren banget and will treat you nicely. ini beneren gak bohong ya! semua request yang aku fill, dia kabulkan dengan sangatt baikk, what a good man...keren. the way we laugh together and create many memories, bener bener deh love banget. five days spent well with you, was a good memories that i will always love and captured in my mind and heart. sama sekali gak nyesel jadi pacar kamu selama 5 hari ini dan gak pernah bikin feeling lonely sama kamuu. pokoknya experience pacaran sama kamu ini really made my romance life. thankyou so much for your love and affection! please always have a happy day everyday, I love you hunny.

Thank you so much sahlsahl for accompanying me for the past 2 days and for accompanying me watching friends & reading too AHAHAHA who even remembers that if I'm off IG, I'll definitely be asked 'I'm watching friends, of course' ehehe anyway, thank you so much for everything you have done and I also want to apologize if I have any words that make you uncomfortable SORRY YEAH t_t I WANT TO GIVE YOU THIS ONE MESSAGE, saahl don't force yourself too much yaaaa?? If you want to take a break, take care of your health, yeah, if there's something that's bothering you or you feel like you want to talk about it to someone, I'm here, I'm here, I'm all ears, I'm open WIDE for this kid whose name is Sahl, if that's why, REMEMBER THE SAY' I AM & THE SONG THAT I AM KSH YOYYYY, JUST A REMINDER THAT YOU'RE NOT ALONEE HERE OKAYY I'LL BE RIGHT THERE FOR YOU!! i think that's all from me deehh, there's no critical, no USH WAIT THE problem is there's no such thing HEHE SEE YOU SOON YAA SAHL HUHU THANKUU SM ONCE AGAINNN OH SM GOOD LUCK BLUBUBLUBUBBB I WILL SUPPORT YOU KOKK DR sinii.

makasih juga udah bikin suprise kecil kecilan dihari ulang tahun aku <8 i'm SO HAPPYYY HAPPY HAPPYYY yeayyy iloveyousomuch sahl, you know how to be a good man for me sayangg, kamu lebih dari cukupp, kalo kamu mikirnya kamu kurang baik buat aku itu salah besar besar bangett yaa sahl, aku sukaa kamuu, suka sama afeksi kamuu, cara kamu komunikasi sama aku aduh...aku kaya lagi disayang bangett tuhh??? pokonyaa kamu lebih dari yang aku harapinn, bisa terus bikin salting, bikin aku kegemesan sendiri sama kamu, bahkan sampe kebawa ke real life tuh senyum senyumnyaa>< pokonyaa terimakasiii 8 harinya yaa bebee, you did such a great job, semangat terus kerja dan kuliahnya yaa, istirahat yang cukupp kamunya jangan sampe sakitt jugaa, aku selalu happy teruss sama kamuu, see you saahl! nice to know you.

Thank you, so much for letting me know how does it feel to be cared for, ya. NOT FORGOT TO MENTION, to the managers, THANK YOU to not ignore my silly questions, thank you for the corporation and kind answer to my questions. THANK YOU too for the services you done to me.

Love you all,

and once again, sorry I wasn't online much during our session ga (for which I sincerely apologize...) makasih banyak udah temani aku selama beberapa hari kebelakang ini yaa. I really don't know how to thank you enough t_t by the way, I'm already looking forward to our next get-together (nanti kalau aku bisa pastiin aku udah beneran ga sibuk, I hope we can have some time together lagi!). and while we're waiting for that day to roll around, I hope you take plenty of moments to just relax and whatever floats your boat. and now it's time to recharge those batteries! take care, stay fabulous, and just know, I will always be grateful for the time we spent together. sampai nanti sahl! <3

terima kasih ya sudah mau aku ajakin ngehype mereka bareng <3 oh iya aku minta maaf juga kalau selama sesi akunya sering ngilang atau bikin aku kecewa juga, terima kasih yaa sudah nyariin aku terus dan make sure aku selalu tau kabar kamu gimanaaa :p no ones perfect in this world, but you already did your best for me

anyway, for the last! i'll take the gift you gave to me, i'll appreciate it so much! thankyou for your great handwriting, sahlzan!

You have this rare way of making ordinary moments feel calm. I can tell how thoughtful and passionate you are about everything you do. I admire that side of you, and I feel lucky to have shared these little pieces of time with you. Even though it’s only been three days, it felt meaningful. You gave your attention wholeheartedly, and that kind of presence is something not everyone can offer. So, thank you for being you, for letting me know a version of you that’s kind, curious, and so real. 🤍🌷

Your prayers blemished me onto the wound I long for. It hurts, it’ll always hurt. Your teeth tethered as my woe widens to let your prayers drew your name on it. I come back bleeding howling your name, let my saliva tidal onto the ground where I plea your mortal to ripen into my raw birth. Sahl, you’ve declared a bloodshed war to my anguish against the madness of perseverance–the way you sacred me on your tooth gap, vowed to let me rotten on your canine. Say my name in your prayers, wound me deep while I let my blood mourn your name.

And the grave is where your teeth shattered when your tongue spoke my name only.

I love you.

Even no death pull us apart.

I don’t quite know how else to begin… except with a thank you one that’s big and still nowhere near enough. You have been nothing less that the best love I could have asked for. And being with you feels like standing in the middle of a sun drenched field… like pages of an old book turning effortlessly… like a late-night drive with the windows down, the air just right and a song playing neither of us wants to end. 😞

Have you ever known? I never quite know how to respond to your messages… they always make my mornings so much warmer (I catch myself smiling big and long after I’ve read them) Aku bahkan bisa janji atas nama dunia yang kecil ini bahwa aku selalu senyum tanpa sadar tiap lihat notifikasi kamu muncul!

Thank you, thank you, and thank you for being my reason for smilling! Spending time with you has been nothing short of a gift, a moment I’ll always treasure. We shall meet when everything is well, Sahl. :]

Aku nggak bisa tulis banyak banyak Ayl… But, you truly are one of a kind. Sometimes I wonder why you feel so familiar, like my soul has known yours from the very beginning 🥹. You knew exactly how to handle me, even with my endless talking and all the random questions I threw your way. You’re that kind of man with so much love in his heart that it overflows and I’m grateful to receive some of it. :]

Huhuhu you always notice the little shifts in me, when my energy is low, or something’s off, being with you makes me feel genuinely seen and cared for. I have to say… I LIVE FOR YOUR PRAISES! Timuuci Ayl for always coming up with those funny, over-the-top compliments (aku tetap suka). Believe me, I’ve never read a message from you without a wide smile forming on my face!

I’ve never been good at goodbyes, and putting feelings into words isn’t really my strength… but truly, I’ll miss you!

Thank you, thank you, thank you, for allowing me to reside in your heart. Thank you for appreciating everything I’ve done. You leave such a lasting impression on me that I wish I could recreate each scene, truly. You give me another item to treasure and be grateful for! Aku basah kuyup, dihujani cintamu tiap harinya, Sayang.

I’m so sorry if I’ve made mistakes or if I’ve ever hurt you in any way. Aku suka loyo ndk jelas... Suka ragebaiting km juga! Please believe me when I say, it was never my intention to cause you any pain huhuhu. To spend my time with you has been everything my heart has longed for. Thank you so much, Sahl, once again, for being mine, for being the incredible person you are. Most of all—thank you for just being you. ;]

Take care, eat well, and until the next time I write to you — which is not far if weʼre being honest. But therefore, I shall bid adieu, to let greater things come to us. Farewell, Mi Bebe. 🥹

bebe, i am really thankful that our paths crossed because the time we spent together felt so special and became some of the best days i've had. thank you for wanting to be with me and for making me feel genuinely loved. every little conversation meant a lot since you are such a warm person and a great listener, and i am sorry if there was anything i did wrong while we were together. i may not be able to write a long paragraph, but i still want to give my best for you!

i truly enjoyed every moment with you because you always know how to make me happy and flustered in the sweetest way. talking with you feels easy since you match my energy so well, even when i say random or silly things. you give the kindest responses and so much affection, and you even exceeded my expectations. thank you for making me feel so loved, and if we ever meet again someday i’ll always wish and pray for the best things to come to you. please don't ever forget how deeply i once love you. ich liebe dich, bebe 🤍

He could maintain the fast respond service well enough since I’m as busy as him too, I didn’t feel left out let alone abandoned. He knows well how to be a man. Every text is a sacred beginning and I’m well aware he did it seamlessly and wholeheartedly. Thank you, Sahlzan, for becoming the man of my stubborn, cruel, sometimes extinguish life I have. If only the Dukcapil identified us as a married couple, I know both of us gonna beat that KPR carelessly. I know how hard it was to keep up with me, though he made it so easy to desperately learn me farther. I always be the wordless one when it comes to something like this, but I hope Sahlzan knows how much he did well for us. I loved him and it stays.

I know this might be not enough, but he doesn’t need to worry about his outcome anymore! Semuanya sudah aku spill di sini a of how maliciously you were when you’re with me <tertawa kangen> but that’s all! Semoga lambung dan livermu sehat selalu! Always be the kind king as you should–semoga semuanya diberi jalan dan dilancarkan. ♥︎

honestly kalau disuruh kasih honest review for these six days… i genuinely enjoyed every second of it :( you made everything feel comforting in a way yang susah dijelasin sama diri aku sendiri. aku suka cara kamu ngajak ngobrol aku, cara kamu kasih perhatian lebih ke aku, cara kamu selalu make sure aku ngerasa ditemenin. it never felt awkward or forced for me at all, malah rasanya natural banget and somehow bikin aku selalu nungguin notif dari kamu lagi walaupun aku jarang bisa balas saat itu juga… lagi lagi i’m so sorry for that :( aku juga mau bilang thank you because these past days honestly felt really unreal for me alias aku nggak nyangka bisa ketemu orang sebaik kamuuuu kakak… thank you udah nemenin aku terus dan kasih affection sebanyak itu terus bikin aku ngerasa appreciated!!! little things you did kayaknya bakal nempel banget di aku makanya pas kamu bilang waktunya udah habis, aku jadi sedih sendiri because somehow i’m still thinking about our conversations too. and please don’t feel bad about anything ya. you already did more than enough for me, serius deh kakak. even just spending time together aja udah jadi something precious buat aku jadiiii jangan mikir kamu kurang nemenin atau kurang ngapa-ngapain ya kakaaaak because i really enjoyed every moment of it!!! sampai sekarang rasanya masih belum rela kalau semuanya harus selesai secepat ini huhu… aku nulis ini sambil dengerin playlist dari bubba :3 thank you once again yaaaa kakak, for your effort and your affection!!! i really appreciate you more than you know… 🩷

There are not enough phrases to capture how gently you have treated me, actually. Nothing compares to the way you remained by my side while i struggled to unknot my own mind. When my thoughts were fluttering like loose paper caught in a storm, you were the person who simply sat beside me.

Even though our conversations might not have been endless, and my presence was lacking, strangely enough, there was this undeniable sense of comfort that i found in you. Your presence was exactly what it needed to be and it left a beautiful imprint. You’re just a genuinely lovely human being down to your very core, Sahlzan. The world is just inherently better and warmer because you are in it.

I really owe you another apology for where things fell short on my end. Especially for keeping things up in the air and not getting back to you sooner. You’ve given me so much over these past few days, both in the things you said and the thoughtful little gestures you made. Thank you for leaving me with so many lovely things to hold onto, Sahlzaaaan <3