although im not a big fan of the rain now since it made you sick. please take care of yourself and be prepared for your busy schedule, hurts me enough to know that youre sick on your birthday. also, i know that im late to say this properly but happy birthday, ismael halbram! i cherish the cheesy and cringe texts from you. i wish you nothing but joy and love throughout your live. i hope you enjoy your life and live to fullest! you have so much time to explore and do something new. and please say thankyou for your mother from me because she raised such a good companion, a well mannered soft hearted man hahah. im so thankful for bram, ma! 🥰 and for your friends that made you the way that you are right now, im thankful for them too. and for you to making it through another tiring day as a WNI😮‍💨😶‍🌫️ you definitely deserve better bram.. wishing you luck with the 🇯🇵 plan, im rooting for you (and waiting for you to change your name to kento ismael lololol bercanda ya onichan)

i like our light conversation, keeps me wanting more and more to be honest.. gotta say that youre fantastic at this hahah. no critique! youre a 10/10 already :P

11:02, i'm looking back at your very first message in our chat. just to look back and make sure you get the honest review you deserve. ─

hari itu, girlfriend's day dengan ribuan drama (lah, bukannya 1 agustus?) 😂. you seemed kind from the very beginning, and you really are. kamu nawarin aku "lagi mau apa?" supaya kamu bisa ngasih itu ke aku :3. also, hari itu kamu udah berbagi tmi 😭 tmi nya beneran kayak yang aku mention di form (tmi kecil pun gapapa) TAPI, ya... beneran kecil sih, tapi? terlalu besar untuk di bilang kecil, #ytta #hahaha.

aku selalu nulis form yang panjang, tapi tetep aja bawaan dari diri pasti sulit untuk mengikuti, so i never set my expectations high, then i wouldn't be disappointed, but when i'm with you, i'm always surprised, you're just too good to be true.

first, ternyata kamu bisa banget di ajak quality time. engga ada sedetik pun aku ngerasa di tinggal kamu, kecuali pas Smartfren jelek kayak kemarin *fr*, bahkan mungkin aku yang ninggalin kamu kerja terus. menurutku kamu fast respon banget :(, you always keep me updated, bahkan kamu selalu nemenin aku kerja, dengerin keluhanku yang loyo-loyoan itu.

nah, karna dia selalu punya waktu, obrolan kita juga nyambung terus :(. bayangin dalam 24jam sudah punya 900 bubble chat? terus 48jam nya, kami punya 2k bubble chat? i still can't believe it… this is the first time i've had a partner who's so good at spending quality time and who clicks with me in every conversation. (ini lebih ke contoh, 2 manusia yang chronically online).

obrolan? obrolan aku sama mael tuh ada dari yang ringan sampai yang deep :( (maaf, lagi-lagi cannot stop memble). dari yang ibu-ibu berantem di antrian, sampai kemungkinan kita di kehidupan lain :(. sampai bertukar pikiran tentang hal paling abstrak di dunia ini & hal paling kompleks. i really-really enjoy our conversation, mael. aku ga bohong waktu bilang aku mau menghabiskan banyak waktu untuk obrolan-obrolan tanpa akhir bareng kamu.

he pays attention to every detail of me, every little thing, so i never have to repeat myself. sometimes, he even understands the things i can't put into words. ketemu mael tuh, kayak ketemu "the one" #serius. kayak, akhirnya aku ga perlu menjelaskan, akhirnya ada yang bisa menerjemahkan bahasaku dengan cara-cara yang aku mau. aku sudah pernah bilang ini, dan aku pikir, ini penting buat aku kasih tau ke semua orang... he's deeply caring, he'll understands the things u might not even be able to explain.

secondly, his words surpass anyone’s, above anything. he is words of affirmation itself. lagi-lagi aku mau bilang, kalau kalimat-kalimat mael selalu aku baca dari awal sampai akhir, bahkan aku baca berulang kali :(. aku udah bilang di form kalau aku ga suka longtext, tapi kalimat mael tuh, ga peduli seberapa panjang pun, aku akan tetap jatuh di buatnya... kalau biasanya aku baca longtext dengan mimik 😒😌, tapi kalau long text dari mael, aku bacanya sambil 🥹🥺. kerasa, kerasa banget tulusnya... kayak, dari hati pasti sampai ke hati (i'm glad if the affirmations you give me truly come from the bottom of your heart.). aku yang biasanya kalau baca longtext buru-buru biar selesai dan habis itu #yaudahaja, pas baca dari mael... aku rela screenshot, sensor namanya, nyari template untuk pamerin & repeat.

JADI, kalau dia bilang "i'm not good with words" jawab aja "kentut". i don't know if you merendah untuk meroket or u really think you're not good with words ya, mael... but, KENTUT!. YOU ARE REALLY GOOD, gue teriakin sini.

11:36, aku di tanya ngetik apa dari tadi... guys.... he... is...watching... me... museowo... jadi aku pindah ngetik ini ke save message :p.

oke, lanjut kali ya... lanjut apa ya sekarang... jadi bingung...

OW, the.... giving services & gifts :3.

he always makes sure to return everything i give him, and even more. he remembered my words when i said, 'kalau aku kecintaan, pasanganku harus lebih kecintaan' and he lives by it. kemarin dia kasih aku gifts lucuuu, video highlight instagram gitu, seakan-akan main bareng aku :3 dan semuanya bener-bener sweet banget, i'm tearing up in my corner. sejujurnya, mael.... kehadiran kamu aja sudah menjadi sebuah hadiah buat aku (anjay)

ah, ini juga harus di mention... HUMOR (eh, apa tadi udah aku mention ya...) POKOKNYA, humor mael perlu di beri applause yang terpisah 👏👏👏. "Shakespeare could never slurping seblak demi pacarnya", " Malaikat x Pacarku", "Dalam dua jam lagi kamu bakal denger berita Bekasi banjir, ini bukti air mataku nangisin kamu".

dia bisa jadi beberapa versi, versi kalem kalau lagi ngomongin hal yang serius, kalau lagi soft-hours... tapi bisa jadi versi yang hiperbola kalau lagi kecintaan sama pacarnya. loh, tapi versi kalem tuh juga versi kecintaan.. dia kecintaan terus.

.... ini aku masih scrolling yang di tanggal 01 Oktober loh, belum sampai tanggal 02...

jadi sebenarnya, sebelum ngetik ini, aku check padlet nya mael. aku sebelum rent dia ga pernah bener-bener merhatiin dan ternyata aku beruntung karna yang aku pilih ini mael. dari kejujuran customer yang lain, dia ini beneran se bagusssssssssss itu... tapi kayaknya belum ada honest review super-panjang kayak gini.

sebagai customer yang aku tuh selalu ngeliat panjang-engga nya testie sebagai "beneran bagus atau engga" aku pikir, ismael halbram pantas untuk testie panjang tiada ujung (meskipun ini tetap ada ujungnya)

so, yeah, none of my criteria, not even the smallest should or shouldn't, was missed. he really did whatever it takes to make me feel loved. i'm trying to explain the 4 days we've been together, but it would take a whole book to tell the story. i think this is… enough, kan?

si mael ini beneran jago banget ngimbangin aku. pokoknya selama sesi, aku terus-terusan di buat kaget. kaget dengan cara berpikirnya, kaget dengan effortnya, kaget dengan humornya, kaget dengan kepribadiannya, kaget... karna dia kayak aku versi kagebunshinojutsu! alias, kayak lagi ketemu aku versi laki-laki. 😔 SoUlMaTe! 😔 i love you.

Let me tell a long storyyyy!! At first I was really scared we could be awkward at our sudden changes of title. Friend to lover they said ... sounds soooo awkward. BUT Ais keep bringing the real me, keep talking to me despite ... maybe his busy schedule? I think I'll be the one to cry today but I'm gonna continue the story. Oh, I just remember that I received 2 .. not one but TWO new nickname from Ais (I won't let anyone call me by it, those two nickname reserved for Ais only). He is so sweet aren't he? NOT ONLY THATTT, Ais was soo precious like ... when can you have a boyfriend who would cry because he thinks you're cute. I just feel loved and safe under Ais presence! Also, I'm grateful because Ais respond to all of my ... random thoughts/saying/rumbling/chats.

I've spend ... 4 days? Or more? Or less ...? I can't even tell the time when I'm with him because I'll always crave more! I want to be on his side every time. I think at this rate when I say I can be a koala, it means I'm clinging to him instead of the tree. 😫 Anyway, in this paragraph I want to tell about how time is meaningless because it can't be counted when I'm with Ais. And that's proof of how safe I feel around him, how he comforted me, how he respond to me (as in my jokes), and how he always spare his day to have quality time with me. This was another thing that I'm really, really grateful about. Ais will always be with me despite my class, or homework, even in game?

Talking about game. I'M ... SPEACHLESS. Ais ... thank you for giving me princess treatment in game. 😭❤️ What can I say, my man was really a gentleman. That he told me to just watch him defeat all that hilichurl. Everytime we do daily commision he'd go first and then defeat the enemy for me???? 💐 And that one time when I can't even reach the top of some stonny photoshot place ... he come back so I don't feel alone when it's me and my noob skill is the problem and he might have to wait for long. He is so patient that I think I grow bigger love for him. 😫

Ais also ... always gift me something special like sending menfess after we playing? Putting my face all over his account?? SKSKSK when he ask me why I love him this dearly much ... now I could confidently tell him it's because he also love me a little too much that I feel comfortable in showing it—try to give it back double or even much more that he give me. ^^

I just hope that as much as I enjoy these days. Ais would also enjoy my presence too, I hope that everything I do can genuinely become a good memory on you too. Ais, if somehow I was the one who's different from when I told you how I was—or how I could behave, I'm sorry 'kay?

This long, long paragraph is an appreciation because Ais always do his best. And I'm sure everyone around you can feel how genuine you are on everything you do. Thank you for giving me a chance to be your special one. I love you infinitely, can't express my feeling at this point because it's unmeasureable. Ais thank you for being an existence that could brighten my days. I never regret meeting you even one second.

I think I should ... end it here? I mean this long letter .... Over all, Ais really tried his best to fulfill my wishes on the form that I write. And he nailed it. Every single little tiny details. He might even exceed my expectation! I would love to spend more days with Ais but maybe we should make some time when both of us free? So we could have the time in the world for us ;] ANYWAAYY, I also wanted to say that Ais' service troughout the duration was exceptional! I'm so happy to found someone who could match me the best way possible. Now that I write it all ...

Jadi, aku sedih karena it's finally our end again for this session. Jujurly, kali ini berasa banget singkatnya apa kah boleh kalau aku mau kita stuck di time loop aja biar bareng tiap hari? .jk Apa, ya, aku beneran ngga sadar we spent 4 days already? HUHUHUHU. Lately, aku ada trace our chats back using the search button right, and aku langsung kayak every time spent with Ais was the best of my days. Sampai-sampai aku lupa udah berapa lama we're spending it.

Selain itu, aku juga sedih karena I want to prepare more gifts to you tapi: 1). Seller-nya udah seen a month ago(?); 2). AKU MAU KASIH CHIBI JUGA TAPI AKU GA PD SAMA SKILL MENGGAMBARKU; 3). Aku juga mau kasihin another gambaran ke Ais yg kemarin aku bilang mau jadiin kita each other's obat(?) https://t.me/Damascenas/220 cuma aku blm ada mood buat gambar. Sedihhh banget and now I know how frustrated you are on our last session. :[

But, on the other side aku juga seneng. I was so happy to spend more time with Ais! Aku juga seneng karena antara sesi sebelumnya dan sesi sekarang Ais tidak pernah berubah ke aku. Bahkan klo boleh jujur, kata aku Ais improved so much! And I'm happy to see that improvement or maybe be part of it, xixixi.

Kata aku yak, Ais sekarang juga PDA-nya makin gacor aku dugun-dugun setiap hari karena kayak antisipasi dan persiapan mental cowok gantengku ini lagi nyiapin gebrakan apa. Wkwkwkwkwk, Ais juga selalu punya topik buat dibicarain!

Oh, and I love how you are always letting me take your time. Maaf, ya, pacarmu ini agak maruk. Aku suka ga enak karena bikin Ais begadang atau bangun sampai jam 12-an? Karena kita lupa waktu. I just don't want you to mengorbankan waktu istirahat kamu. But, if you ask me, obviously aku seneng dan juga thankful for that!

Aku udah pernah bilang sih ini kalau nulisin soal Ais bisa panjang dan juga banyak! Karena aku ngerasa nyaman sama Ais. Di sesi yang lalu mau pun sekarang perasaan aku ngga berubah ke Ais. Bahkan klo aku bisa mengekspresikannya perasaan aku kali ini semakin membuncah kayak kembang api, aku makin sayang sama Ais, makin cinta sama Ais, dan juga as much as Ais always bring comfort in my life aku juga berharap banget klo sesi sama aku brings comfort in yours.

Dari semua hal, aku mau minta maaf kalau selama sesi ada banyak hal yang bikin Ais uncomfortable atau pun aku ternyata tidak sesuai dengan form yang aku tulisin. Plis jangan kapok, ya, Ais. Selain itu, aku mau minta maaf kalau ada salah ketikan atau perkataan juga saat kita pacayan.

Sekali lagi, terimakasih banyak, ya, Ais. I've had a fun time with you kayak beneran se-fun itu! Aku berharap semoga aja kita punya waktu di bulan depan atau pun in the near future to be together again! Ini aku ngga akan pernah bosen bilang tapi jangan kapok, ya, Ais buat ketemu aku. Xixixi.

Like how we always interact, please keep casual with me. I ... have ... menganggap kamu as my friend the one I will never get tired of to keep in touch whenever we're free. If you don't mind with that!

Maaf, ya, Ais kamu jadi menunggu lama. Actually ini masih bakalan lebih panjang karena I forgot to also explain about our game date. MAIN BARENG AIS TUH SERUUU. Selalu seru, dan bahkan aku bisa lupa waktu karena eksplore Teyvat with a good companion was the best. Over all, please, jangan kapok aku ajak mabar, okay? Udah berapa kali yak aku ngetik gitu tapi beneran.

I love you so much Ais Oreo-Zen. My Ismael Halbram. Semoga kamu selalu sehat, ya. Bobonya juga jangan kemaleman, dan segala urusannya dilancarkan termasuk magangnya minggu depan. Please remember that I'll always be here for you! Semangat Ais. <3

bamie, mayel, mael, ma love, terima kasih banyak sudah kasih aku banyak hadiah, banyak waktu, banyak kalimat manisnyaaa.. jujur aku engga ngarepin banyak hal untuk 2 hari yang aku minta, cuman pengen ngobrol sambil sayang-sayang aja sama kamu, tapi ternyata kamu punya banyak hal untuk diberi ke aku, bukan cuman waktu dan sayang-sayangnyaaa... terima kasih banyak, yaa? kamu tahu aku selalu kalah kalau menulis-menulis begini, tapi aku selalu tulus dengan semua yang aku sampaikan untuk kamu. aku senang, 100000 juta lima ratus triliun senang!! bahagia, 18.800 bahagia!! terima kasih sudah memenuhi dua hariku dengan baik :( menemani aku sedari kerja sampai tidurrr..

terima kasih juga sudah mengajak aku nonton hari lalu. i enjoy it a lott, aku juga samaa, banyak banget ketawanya! aku kasih lala land 7 karna ekspektasi tapi karna nontonnya sama kamu, jadi 10!

ah seperti yang aku bilang, kedepannya kita akan putus nyambung, jadi aku harap kamu gak lelah menjalani hubungan toxic ini bersama aku ;). sekali lagi terima kasih banyak, bamie.

thank you for being my one call away during this best two days. you made my day, you did it so perfectly. please keep the light in every sweetest smile of yours and don't dull the sparkle in your eyes, abang. you look much more gorgeous with a joyful look on your face.

thank you for your letters, the picture of us together, your never-ending sweet words, and for this cute, adorable little teddy as well.. i will never be able to repay all the brightness you bring to my side. :–( terima kasih udah jadi orang yang bener-bener baik, ya, abang!

if you apologize, then i have forgiven all of it, but you must remember that no mistake remains as i enjoyed every moment that we etched. also, there must be words or attitudes of mine that are unpleasant for you, i also convey my apologies since i have no intention of doing so to the person who has sincerely accompanied me so far.

the days spent with you are already firmly embedded in my memory. two days that felt like they lasted a long time. thank you for accepting me, abang. thank you for being my lover, my hamster, my black cat, and my heart. thank you for all of you, suhraward! ♥️ until our path crosses again. 👋🏻 sehat-sehat terus, and please keep going. =)

If there’s one thing I wish for, it’s simply this: please don’t carry the weight of every silence on your own shoulders. Not every quiet moment is caused by something you did or didn’t do. Sometimes it’s just life asking us to slow down, Kakak. As for everything we’ve built together, I treasure it deeply. We’ve created something real, and I don’t take that for granted. I wouldn’t want you to doubt its value just because we’re in a calmer chapter. And maybe …, this is exactly what it means to choose each other, not only on the beautiful, effortless days, but also on the ordinary ones, and especially on the difficult ones?

Thank you for giving me the space to be honest. Your honesty doesn’t push me away. And thank you for your beautiful words. Knowing that I’ve been a part of your happiness is something I’ll always hold close to my heart.