2013-07-14 21:57:16 UTC

I know you probably don't want a stranger's offer to help right now after you have already gone through the worst year of your life but I am so glad you did not commit suicide. You have so much to offer to the world and I know that for a fact. When I read in your letter that you wanted to take your own life my mouth literally dropped. You were in such a bad place and I wish that I could have helped you. I am so so so glad that you didn't make a permanent solution for a temporary problem. I am sorry that people in your life did this to you and hurt you so much. I am sorry that you feel empty. I have no idea what it's like to feel or be empty but I wish you didn't either. I am ignorant to all the problems that you have and I'm sorry for that too. I'm that person that thinks depression can be cured with a night out with your friends or by taking a few pills, but I know I'm wrong. I know I've always been wrong about that. It's hard for me to understand what you're going through so I'm not even going to say "I get it. I understand." Because honestly I don't. I just really wish you didn't know the feeling of being empty because I wish I could have made you feel like you weren't. Made you feel complete or something. I'm not sure what I could have done to help you through this year but I'm sure if I did know then I would stop at nothing to do anything. I don't want to sit here and say "you're a great person, you're cute and smart and funny and have a lot to offer" because I know that's not what you need to hear. I'm not sure what you need to hear. I'm sure you don't need to hear any of this and I'm not sure why I'm typing it. I guess I just had something to say and that was it. I don't know how to help you. I don't know what it's like to feel empty. I don't know how it feels to be hurt so bad you want to die. My ignorance is a blessing in disguise and I'm sorry for you. My heart goes out to you and I know you are fighting a tough battle but I really want you to stay strong. Stay strong for the stranger on the internet who gives a shit.

Ruined- Nick Bramante by Terrica