PURSUIT OF CATHARSIS by Ma. Andrea Lauren Tugas https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi ca·​thar·​sis | \ kə-ˈthär-səs — purification or purgation of the emotions (such as pity and fear) primarily through art and other medium of self-expression. en-us 2020-07-08 04:06:15 UTC 2020-11-04 09:25:26 UTC hello@padlet.com RE 2: I am Mulan. malctugas https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi/wish/654908786 Throughout my life, it was always a question of who I truly am. I was confused, rattled, baffled by what I should do to fit in what my environment requires me to, and that confusion only increased when I came to the realization that I liked girls as much (or more) as I do with boys. The song in the module struck me because since then, I had to play a role — a second face to wear for my family to see and accept me, despite my internal clamor and resentment towards myself. I want to be liberated, to feel nothing holding me back.

My relationship with God has always been blurry, kind of fluctuating throughout my life — currently, I am an agnostic. I believe that as perfectly imperfect humans are, we cannot and will never be able to justify or rectify God's existence. Having grown up in a devout Christian family influenced the resentment I stored inside me as they frequently express their disdain towards people like me. A part of me believes that God does not accept me as His daughter.

As of the moment, I find no logical action to do but for me to continue playing the role of a perfect, heterosexual daughter until I find myself not relying on them for my basic needs.


]]> 2020-07-15 07:16:19 UTC https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi/wish/654908786 RE 3: "Who am I?" malctugas https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi/wish/865102888 1. God is my creator. I am created in his image, I, in turn, am the creator of gifts.
  • I am created without any predetermined purposes. God created me to exist, but to give definition to that existence is up to me. 
2. I am responsible for my gifts.
  • Gifts aren’t of any use when they are left stagnant and unused. Just like the shiniest piece of metal alloy can rust with time, and eventually become obsolete,
3. A gift is not a gift until it is defined, developed and shared with all people. How would I define a gift?
  • I would define a gift as something that we give to ourselves, to culture, to define, and to improve — only then when we craft something that is unique to us, that screams YOU, that’s when we are encouraged to share it with others.
4.When I think of myself, what is one gift I possess?
  • When I think of myself, the gift that I possess is the gift of words. As a writer by heart, I am bound to tell no lies with the words that leave my mouth and my fingers that lay on either paper or screen. I try to pour out a piece of my soul within every piece of writing I make, with hopes for one of it to resonate with anyone.
]]> 2020-10-27 10:20:45 UTC https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi/wish/865102888 RE 4: Principles and Foundation malctugas https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi/wish/865107416 1. The thought that struck me the most in the Principles and Foundation was the passage "Beloved, let us love one another, because love is from God; everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, for God is love." because we were made in God's image, and that we were "good" therefore, we must be loving, welcome to receive and to give and I have never looked at life that way before.

2. The things I realized about myself is that I am full of rage and hate. I lived a life of repression and needing to only act something, at a certain amount of intensity as not to enrage my father. It made me realize that I grew up with so much self hindrance that it continued even when I moved out from the house.]]> 2020-10-27 10:23:03 UTC https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi/wish/865107416 A Pilgrim's Portrait. malctugas https://padlet.com/malctugas/2xx3vrcrylh600mi/wish/865110036 Ignatius was a proud, young man in his 20s. Coming from a line of wealth and excellence — he was a 4th year medical student, aiming to work in the most prestigious of hospitals, and make the most money he can in his lifetime. That was the ultimate essence of life, he thought, to accumulate as much money as one can, find beautiful women, and have fun as a bachelor.

Unfortunately, the Coronavirus pandemic broke out, affecting most if not all of his relatives, and soon enough, him as well.

At the height of his illness, he was visited by a bright light, and he knew exactly right then and there — that this was God calling out to him. He never really paid attention to the religious teachings of his peers, but now, it all made sense.

By God’s grace, he was healed from his sickness, and dedicated his now skill in medicine to remote locations of the world, at no cost — might he add, lending his hand to heal others, in the Name of God.


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