My visit to Olivia went quite different than what I had expected. Sir Toby seemed to be completely drunk and insulted me at the gate. Olivia seemed to be quite embarrassed by that but received me well. It is slightly odd though that she is in mourning for seven years for the death of her brother. However, she took off her veil the second I asked her to do so. I just really wanted to see what she really is in reality that made the duke fall in love with her this much. She seemed quite curious about me and kept on asking me questions. 

However, all things considered, my task went far smoother than I had expected! I was expecting to stand outside Olivia’s residence through storm and shine, through night and day. However, after a brief bout of stubbornness, they brought me up to her. And to my surprise, Olivia unveiled herself after nothing but a polite request. While she seemed cold at first, I think she ended up warming up to me, even saying that if I came bearing news of Orsino’s reply, I should be permitted to see her again.

On the flipside, every word I spoke was of Orsino’s undying love for Olivia, but with each word I felt more and more conflicted. I was forced to speak of Orsino’s love for this noble lady, but all the while, I wished to profess my love to Orsino.  My heart hurt at the thought of Olivia stealing away Orsino’s love, but alas, I could do nothing about it. If I were to reveal myself as a woman, who knows how I might be manipulated and used. For now, I’m going to keep myself hidden and continue working under Orsino. How I hope he notices me.