Essential The Fault In Our Stars quotes by Cecelia Steenburgh https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es Made with swagger en-us 2018-02-28 14:28:25 UTC 2023-01-29 08:50:27 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-assets.s3.amazonaws.com/icons/Hotsun.png steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236407756 2018-02-28 14:33:26 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236407756 Depression is a side effect of dying . ( Cancer is also a side effect of dying . Almost everything is , really . ) steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236408831 page 3]]> 2018-02-28 14:34:03 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236408831 This Support Group featured a rotating cast of characters in various states of tumor - driven unwellness . Why did the cast rotate ? A side effect of dying . steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236409106 page 4

]]> 2018-02-28 14:34:26 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236409106 Isaac and I communicated almost exclusively through sighs . Each time someone discussed anticancer diets or snorting ground - up shark fin or whatever , he’d glance over at me and sigh ever so slightly . I’d shake my head microscopically and exhale in response . steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236409539 page 6]]> 2018-02-28 14:35:06 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236409539 “ If you want me to be a teenager , don’t send me to Support Group . Buy me a fake ID so I can go to clubs , drink vodka , and take pot . ” steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236411210 page 7]]> 2018-02-28 14:37:23 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236411210 There is only one thing in this world shittier than biting it from cancer when you’re sixteen , and that’s having a kid who bites it from cancer . steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236411579 page 8]]> 2018-02-28 14:37:50 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236411579 Finally , I decided that the proper strategy was to stare back . Boys do not have a monopoly on the Staring Business , after all . steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236411741 page 10]]> 2018-02-28 14:38:04 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236411741 “ I’m on a roller coaster that only goes up , my friend . ” steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236413155 page 11]]> 2018-02-28 14:40:06 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236413155 "Augustus, perhaps you'd like to share your fears with the group." "My fears?" "Yes." "I fear oblivion," steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236413395 page 11]]> 2018-02-28 14:40:23 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236413395 I was a fairly shy person - not the hand-raising type. steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236414338 page 12

]]> 2018-02-28 14:41:43 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236414338 “ There will come a time , ” I said , “ when all of us are dead . All of us . There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything . There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra , let alone you . Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this ” — I gestured encompassingly — “ will have been for naught . Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away , but even if we survive the collapse of our sun , we will not survive forever . There was time before organisms experienced consciousness , and there will be time after . And if the inevitability of human oblivion worries you , I encourage you to ignore it . God knows that’s what everyone else does . ” steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236415081 page 12]]> 2018-02-28 14:42:43 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236415081 "What's your name?" he asked. "Hazel." "No, your full name." "Um, Hazel Grace Lancaster." steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236415232 page 14]]> 2018-02-28 14:42:56 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236415232 “ Why are you looking at me like that ? ” Augustus half smiled . “ Because you’re beautiful . I enjoy looking at beautiful people , and I decided a while ago not to deny myself the simpler pleasures of existence . ” A brief awkward silence ensued . Augustus plowed through : “ I mean , particularly given that , as you so deliciously pointed out , all of this will end in oblivion and everything . ” steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236424031 page 16]]> 2018-02-28 14:54:51 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236424031 "I think he's hurting her boob," I said. "Yes , it's difficult to ascertain whether he is trying to arouse her or preform a breast exam" steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236425280 page 19]]> 2018-02-28 14:55:22 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236425280 “ Are you serious ? ” I asked . “ You think that’s cool ? Oh , my God , you just ruined the whole thing . ” “ Which whole thing ? ” he asked , turning to me . The cigarette dangled unlit from the unsmiling corner of his mouth . steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236430917 page 19]]> 2018-02-28 15:02:54 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236430917 But of course there is always a hamartia and yours is that oh , my God , even though you HAD FREAKING CANCER you give money to a company in exchange for the chance to acquire YET MORE CANCER . Oh , my God . Let me just assure you that not being able to breathe ? SUCKS . Totally disappointing . Totally . ” steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236433086 page 19

]]> 2018-02-28 15:05:51 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236433086 "A hamartia?" he asked, The cigarette still in his mouth. It tightened his jaw. He had a hell of a jawline, unfortunately. "A fatal flaw," steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236436954 page 20

]]> 2018-02-28 15:11:06 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236436954 “ They don’t kill you unless you light them , ” he said as Mom arrived at the curb . “ And I’ve never lit one . It’s a metaphor , see : You put the killing thing right between your teeth , but you don’t give it the power to do its killing . ” steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236438626 page 20]]> 2018-02-28 15:13:29 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236438626 "It's a metaphor," I said, dubious. Mom was just idling. "It's a metaphor," he said steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236438795 page 20]]> 2018-02-28 15:13:41 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236438795 "I failed the driving test three times." "You don't say." steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236439759 page 20]]> 2018-02-28 15:15:00 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236439759 "Anyway , I go in for my fourth driving test , and it goes about like this is going . ” A half mile in front of us , a light turned red . Augustus slammed on the brakes , tossing me into the triangular embrace of the seat belt . “ Sorry . I swear to God I am trying to be gentle . Right , so anyway , at the end of the test , I totally thought I’d failed again , but the instructor was like , ‘ Your driving is unpleasant , but it isn’t technically unsafe . ’ ” “ I’m not sure I agree , ” I said . “ I suspect Cancer Perk . ” Cancer Perks are the little things cancer kids get that regular kids don’t : basketballs signed by sports heroes , free passes on late homework , unearned driver’s licenses , etc . “ Yeah , ” he said . The light turned green . I braced myself . Augustus slammed the gas . steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236440190 page 23]]> 2018-02-28 15:15:35 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236440190 I told Augustus the broad outline of my miracle : diagnosed with Stage IV thyroid cancer when I was thirteen . ( I didn’t tell him that the diagnosis came three months after I got my first period . Like : Congratulations ! You’re a woman . Now die . ) It was , we were told , incurable . I had a surgery called radical neck dissection , which is about as pleasant as it sounds . Then radiation . Then they tried some chemo for my lung tumors . The tumors shrank , then grew . By then , I was fourteen . My lungs started to fill up with water . I was looking pretty dead — my hands and feet ballooned ; my skin cracked ; my lips were perpetually blue . They’ve got this drug that makes you not feel so completely terrified about the fact that you can’t breathe , and I had a lot of it flowing into me through a PICC line , and more than a dozen other drugs besides . But even so , there’s a certain unpleasantness to drowning , particularly when it occurs over the course of several months . I finally ended up in the ICU with pneumonia , and my mom knelt by the side of my bed and said , “ Are you ready , sweetie ? ” and I told her I was ready , and my dad just kept telling me he loved me in this voice that was not breaking so much as already broken , and I kept telling him that I loved him , too , and everyone was holding hands , and I couldn’t catch my breath , and my lungs were acting desperate , gasping , pulling me out of the bed trying to find a position that could get them air , and I was embarrassed by their desperation , disgusted that they wouldn’t just let go , and I remember my mom telling me it was okay , that I was okay , that I would be okay , and my father was trying so hard not to sob that when he did , which was regularly , it was an earthquake . And I remember wanting not to be awake . Everyone figured I was finished , but my Cancer Doctor Maria managed to get some of the fluid out of my lungs , and shortly thereafter the antibiotics they’d given me for the pneumonia kicked in . I woke up and soon got into one of those experimental trials that are famous in the Republic of Cancervania for Not Working . The drug was Phalanxifor , this molecule designed to attach itself to cancer cells and slow their growth . It didn’t work in about 70 percent of people . But it worked in me . The tumors shrank . And they stayed shrunk . Huzzah , Phalanxifor ! In the past eighteen months , my mets have hardly grown , leaving me with lungs that suck at being lungs but could , conceivably , struggle along indefinitely with the assistance of drizzled oxygen and daily Phalanxifor . steenb642 https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236440616 page 24]]> 2018-02-28 15:16:07 UTC https://padlet.com/steenb642/23eiy6rb28es/wish/236440616