And thank you for loving me, for being so patient with me, and thank you for accepting every sides and weakness that I've shown you. Thank you for being there for me, it is just the greatest gift that the universe has given me. You make me feel so loved and important. Thank you for accompanying and take care of me despite your busy schedules. Thank you for your words and presence that really lighten up my entire days! 

You've been nothing but sweet and kind throughout the time that you have been with me ♡ You're so attentive, definitely a good listener and you gave the best advices too! Your way of thinking also amazed me with how insightful and wise your opinions are! It is definitely your attractive point on how you treat and appreciate even the little things around you. You really have a beautiful soul, Kak Raphael! 

Please remember to always take care and remember that you are always more than enough. God knows never for once I felt unloved by you. So go pat yourself on the back for me, okay? Your existence itself is a blessing for all the people around you, treasure yourself more! 

And lastly remember that you, Kak Raphael, is so strong! There is no thing in this world and universe that can beat you down! Chin up and face those challenges the world has prepared for you! I know you can do it! Until then, Kak Raphael! 

For you who are currently reading this, go book a slot with Kak Raphael! He surely will not disappoint you and your expectations! He is just the epitome of an ideal boyfriend! 

Kakak, terima kasih sudah hadir dan memberikan kesan yang sangat dalam dan manis. Terima kasih karena telah menunggu (?) dengan sangaaatt lama, dan akhirnya berujung indah.

I really enjoy this session with you. Really. Kakak membangun chemistry yang luar biasa indah dan jujur, itu bikin senyum-senyum sendiri.

Terima kasih sudah menyayangi Shaz secara ugal-ugalan (shaz suka itu), sudah nunjukin kalau ‘oh begini ya rasanya dicintai secara brutal’ head over heels, and down bad for me. Setiap kakak bilang “cantik” atau “yaampun lucunya sayang” begitu, my heart feels like a garden that keeps blooming endlessly because of you.

Kakak, sampai ketemu lagi yaa. Shaz sayang kakak. Sayang sekali <3

Obrolan ringan yang mengalir gitu aja hingga kesukaan yang sedikit demi sedikit terkuak, adek sangat menikmati semua moment bersama mas.

Mas selalu punya cara untuk bikin adek anteng. Entah itu dengan merespon semua celotehan adek, mengabari adek saat mas pergi ataupun dengan memberikan adek hadiah super manis. Terima kasih ya, Mas Hugo. Adek sangat sayang mas dan akan selalu begitu ♥︎

Dari anggrek bulan,

Nayanika Hikaru.

Looking back, I realize that at first I was upset with you because I saw how kind and caring you were to other people. It made me overthink, and I became afraid that maybe you didn’t love me the way you used to. Because of that fear, I misunderstood your actions and let my insecurities get the best of me.

I was scared of losing you. You mean so much to me and sometimes that fear made me see situations differently than they really were. Instead of communicating my feelings clearly, I let my worries grow inside me. But now I understand that relationships are not built on assumptions—they are built on trust, honesty, and communication. We just needed to talk about everything, to be open with each other, and to listen with understanding. Through our conversations, I realized how much you still care and how willing you are to work through things with me.

Thank you for being patient with me and for choosing to make changes not only for me, but for us and for the future we want to build together. I truly appreciate your effort, your understanding, and your willingness to grow alongside me. It means more to me than words can express.

I’m grateful that we didn’t give up on each other. I’m grateful that despite the misunderstandings, we found our way back through communication and love. I hope we continue to choose each other every day, to trust each other more, and to face every challenge together as a team.

I wish you happiness, success, and peace in everything you do. May you always have the wisdom to make the right decisions, the strength to overcome difficulties, and the courage to keep growing into the amazing person you are. I hope all your dreams and goals come true, and I hope our relationship continues to become stronger, healthier, and filled with love. Thank you for staying, for understanding me, and for believing in us. I love you.

Wenn mich eines Tages jemand fragt, wie sich Liebe anfühlt, muss ich nur an dich denken, Kakak.

With love,

Adek.

Sebelumnya, aku minta maaf sekali kalau baru sempat memberi jejak di sini. Ya.... biasa lah, kehidupan dewasa.. banyak hal yang terjadi, banyak hal yang harus dilakukan jadinya belum punya waktu untuk mampir ke sini.

Jujur, 2 hari di akhir bulan Mei kemarin aku senang menghabiskan waktu bersama kamuㅡwalaupun banyak kurangnya, karena aku lumayan hectic, tidak bisa sepenuhnya menjalani hari denganmu. Kamu juga sangat perhatian, sabar dan tidak banyak menuntut. Padahal waktu itu aku sempat overthinking kamu bakalan ilfeel atau gimana.

Aku udah lama nggak ngerasain ini, tapi aku ngerasa nyaman dan senang waktu kita bareng kemarin. Apalagi dengan prompt yang kamu ajukan. Aku jadi punya pengalaman baru yang belum pernah aku jalanin sebelumnya, terima kasih loh!

Dari awal aku udah kagum sama kamu, editan-editan kamu, tulisan kamu. Dan semenjak hari itu, kagumku nambah. Bahkan kayaknya aku semakin kagum! Apalagi dengan tulisan kamu. Aku merasa dicintai sekali, merasa special bisa mendapatkan tulisan dari penulis keren seperti kamu.

Aku yang awalnya sempat ragu apa bisa menjalani romantic sessionㅡkarena aku lagi ngerasa di fase heartless? Tapi entah kenapa aku enjoy banget menghabiskan waktu sama kamu. Apalagi waktu movie time. Aku ngerasa semuanya ngalir gitu aja. Tiba-tiba aku ngerasain hatiku yang dag dig dug, wajahku yang tiba-tiba terukir senyum. Aneh, ya?

Mungkin banyak yang nggak bisa aku ungkapin lewat kata-kata, tapi aku harap kamu bisa merasakan seberapa bahagianya aku bisa mengenal kamu, dan sempat menjadi milikmu, ya?

Bahagia terus, Raphael. Dan semoga one day, kita bisa bertemu lagi. Entah itu melanjutkan prompt yang sudah kita bangun, atau mencoba prompt lain. See you again, soon, maybe?

With love,

Millie.

i'm not lying when i said he really treats his lover as something really special, betul betul aku enggak nyangka bisa bisanya aku blushing sendiri tiap dapet notifnya masa, se sweet itu astaga... asli, harus coba rent kak raphael sih kalau memang kamu belum pernah.

3 days with you make everything feels special, totally worth it! sehat sehat yaaa. jangan lupa jaga kesehatan, kak!

I like it when you're just being you. aku jadi mutual kamu udah lumayan tapi gapernah interact sama kamu karna honestly yes, betul. kamu serem hahahhaahaha. Tapi aku suka. aku suka kamu yang ngomong apa ada nya. yang utarain pendapat kamu tanpa takut apa yang orang lain pikir. yang tweet tanpa liat-liat orang dulu. aku kepo, dan aku suka. makanya aku ngumpulin keberanian dulu h-3 sampe akhirnya actually punya keberanian buat klik icon dm. sampe temen-temen aku pasti udah cape liatin aku bucinin seorang 'raphael' hahahaa. 

terus, pas ngerent kamu juga as expected, kamu unexpected. kamu punya pandangan sendiri, kamu tau harus apa, dan kamu ga jaim jaim gitu kalo emang gatau. once again, aku suka. your cute side, misuh-misuh nya kamu ke atasan, dom nya kamu, dan just you being a true boyfriend. sabar-sabar nya kamu jelasin ini itu ke aku hahahaa aku gemes soalnya makanya nanya-nanya ke kamu mulu. lucu bayangin kamu ilang sabar mikir 'pacar macam apa sih begini' hahahhaa. 

hmm apalagi ya. oh. like I said. the way you see everything. aku suka kamu yang udah dissolve di dunia kamu sendiri, lalu nyoba buat jelasin ke aku apa yang kamu pikirin, pandangan kamu, opini kamu. kata-kata yang kamu pakai is just as ethereal as you are. aku suka kamu cerita banyak banyak soalnya hahaha. 

sama you're mature side, kamu mengayomi gitu(?). no wonder kamu direcokin mulu sama atasan kamu hahaha. kamu apa ya namanya. baik tuh terlalu basic. pokoknya, kamu sabar jawabin pertanyaan aku. aku masih typing, kamu sabar nungguin, aku berisik sana sini kamu nya jadi pihak yang kalem. kamu bisa ngimbangin aku. kebanyakan orang suka agak risih karna aku berisik hahhahaha. but thank you, buat engga gitu. or at least thank you buat ga nunjukin. I really appreciated that. 

And i want to point out the way you carefully pay attention as i convey my ideas. We map it out together and carefully weave the lines and the thread neatly. Consise, clear, yet adjustable. Your way of thinking, the way you able to notice what’s unclear what’s questionable. You actively asking question can tell how you take this project so serious. Jadi ga cuma apa-apa terserah aku just because this is my idea. But you also participate into creating new ideas coming from your vast knowledge about the matter.

You really motivate me more than i originally had been. You exceed my expectation. Can’t wait for our upcoming project! See you around, Raphael!

First of all, I wanna say thank you so much for spending your precious time with me for the past two days. It’s such a pleasure for me to have someone so heartwarming like you around me. Thank you for making me comfortable to show you a little vulnerable side of me without judgment. I apologize for being a little slow response during our time together. I hope we can meet again, in a better situation of me and make more precious memories together. I was kind of afraid that I might be too frankly straightforward as a person to you, since we’re kind of opposite to each other (in a good way!!) but I’m so thankful you can bear with that. 🫣❤️ Hehe. I really have a good time with you, thank you so much for being so heartwarming, sweet and kind to me, Raphael!

With love,

Samudera.