Before I begin, please be informed that what comes ahead may lack coherence. Hehe!

First of all, I want to tell you how much positive change you've brought to my life so far. I am looking at life a little more positively now and it's all because of you. Thank you for being such a positive energy. I look forward to waking up everyday because I know that I get to talk to you and I get to spend my day with you.

Secondly, thank you for also loving my family. Trust me. They can feel your love for them. You are the personification of love and positivity and I am truly grateful for extending it to my family.

Lastly, before the year ends, I want to tell you how much I love you and how grateful I am that I get to welcome the new year with you albeit the distance. I love you so much and I hope that we get to create more memories together this coming year.

You know the rest, baby. I won't keep it long but please do know that I am grateful and I love you.

Pasasalamat at pagmamahal, mahal ko. Happy New Year! I love you so much!

Love,

Joshua

Ilang batches nanaman ng mga bata, wow, ng students ang matuturuan mo and ma-iinspire mo. Ang cute lang pag nakikita kong excited ka pa rin na magturo and super asikaso ka. Hehe. Sobrang lucky ng mga magiging students mo this semester kasi I know na matururuan mo sila nang maayos and na you’ll treat them well.

Hoping sa maayos and smooth na semester for you and your students. Laban lang lagi kahit minsan nakakapagod. Nandito lang me lagi to support you.

I love you so much 💕. Can’t wait to see you soon 🥹🫶

P.S. Ingatan po ang tablet araw-araw. HAHA

Love,

Arvin 🤓

Makes existence meaningful

I love you so much!

ADDENDUM:

I always say "I love you" but I think I also have to consistently say "Thank you" because of what you do for me. The encouragement I get from you, the updates, the occasional treats, I am grateful for everything. But more than everything, I am grateful for the love I get from you, baby. Nakakatuwa kasi yung pagmamahal mo sa akin, extended hanggang sa family ko, particularly kay Mama. Huhu! Love na love talaga niya mga pasalubong mo palagi.

Napakarami ko pang gustong sabihin sayo tungkol sa kung gaano kita kamahal at kung gaano ako nagpapasalamat sa lahat lahat ng ginagawa mo para sa akin. Pero siguro, mas mahalagang maiparamdam ko na lang sayo dahil super deserve mong mahalin sa sobrang busilak ng puso mo. WAAAH. HAHAHA! Gusto kitang kunin sa screen ngayong habang magka-VC tayo at yakapin nang mahigpit pero limitado tayo ng distance. Hehe! Basta, baby, mahal na mahal kita. Kapag magkasama tayo, hayaan mong pagsilbihan kita. Hehe! Alam mo namang love language ko yun. I always love doing things for you. (Kaya please, maghanda ka ng appetite mo kasi gusto ko lagi kang maraming nakakain kapag nandito ka). Gusto kong maiparamdam sayo, through my acts of service, kung gaano kita kamahal.

Tsaka, baby, please take note of the following pala. Hehe!

1. Kapag luluwas ka, planuhin natin agad lahat prior. Pakiremind na lang po ako na magprepare ng lesson ahead of time para hindi na nababawasan yung time natin together. Hihi! Basta ang key principle is, lahat ng dapat ma-accomplish either lesson, checking, or thesis pa yan, ay ma-accomplish na para dire-diretso na ang ating ✨bebe time✨. Hihi!

2. Kapag nagluluto ako, maging honest ka sa lasa. Hehe! Baka kasi minsan, may feedback ka pero ayaw mo lang sabihin. Don't worry. I take criticisms constructively. Hihi!

3. Magdecide ka rin minsan for us, baby. Huhu! Gusto ko minsan ako naman susunod sayo, baby ko. Although I don't mind naman na ako maglead sa atin sa mga plano natin na lakad, ganyan. Pero promise, gusto kong maging obedient trophy wifey mo lang. HAHAHAHAHAH! EME.

Ayun lang naman, baby. Hehe! Mahal na mahal kita. Happy Valentine's Day, mahal kooo!

Baby, ang weird naman ng start ng message ko kasi magssorry ako. HUHU. Sorry kasi I was super busy and tired yesterday. Actually, sobrang drained and close na ako sa pag-iyak/emote kanina. From happy nung umaga to worried and stressed sa work tapos rush sa freelance. Feel ko kasi part ako ng at fault sa work and first time yun kaya medyo down ako. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, first Valentine’s Day pa naman natin tapos ganito yung emotions ko. Huhu

Pero super happy and nalimutan ko after ng VC natin tonight. Hindi man uunatin ginawa yung typical LDR Vday thingies eh suupeeer happy pa rin ako sa ganap natin. Parang lagi naman tayong ganun, simple,personal kaya super intimate.

Sobrang na-appreciate ko na sinamahan mo akong mag-unbox and searched things related sa blind boxes. Sa tutuusin, di mo naman sya interest pero because of me, sinamahan and pinanuod mo ako.

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In general, baby, I want to say na super blessed and swerte ko to call you as my partner. May part pa rin sa akin na hindi makapaniwala na ganyang klaseng tao sayo yung boyfriend ko. HUHU

Sobrang loving and caring mo and na-aamaze ako how well you make me feel those things–verbally man or through actions. Yung acts of service mo pagnandyan ako sa inyo, sobraaang thankful and naaapreciate ko. Ang dami mo na ginagawa for your family tapos nasisingit mo pa ako. Pabalik-balik ka sa 2 houses para lang maasikaso kami. Grabe yung effort and energy na binibigay sa amin.

Sobrang patient mo when it comes to me. Alam kong may shunga moments ako pero di mo ako sinusungitan. Emi. HAHA. Pero ito talaga, alam kong medyo nasshort ako sa mga words and actions pero naiintindihan and naffeel mo pa rin yung mga gusto kong iparating and kaya super thankful ako sayo. Pero syempre iimprove ko pa rin yun, baby, ayaw kong i-abuse ang patience and pag-intindi mo sa akin.

Sobrang mahal na mahal kita, babyyyyyy 😭😭😭. Nasabi ko na sayo before pero sorry if laging ako yung pangalawang nagsasabi ng I love you, yung pangalawang nagssend ng notes, etc., pero baby, walang halong eme, ilang beses ko ata sinabi at nararamdaman sa maghapon na mahal kita, na sobrang thankful ako sayo. Lahat ata ng ginagawa ko naiinvolve kita sa isip ko. Skl, nitong recent luwas ko, nung nauna kang natulog sa akin, nung nakita mo akong nakaupo sa floor (idk if tanda mo pa), I was looking at you tapos kung ano yung nafeel ko when I first said to myself na mahal na kita, ganun pa rin yung feeling ko nung tinitignan kita 🥹.

Marami pa akong pwede sabihin pero baby, gusto kong sabihin na araw-araw po kitang mamahalin, papahalagan at pipiliin. Nandito lang ako lagi para sayo.

(Pag-maga yung mata ko dahil sa pag-iyak, sisihin kita. HAHAHjk)

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Hi, baby, present Arvin here. HAHAHA. Sorry if ilang days late yung valentine’s message ko sayo. HAHA! Actually, may prepared ako during that day kaso di ko sinend kasi ewan, super pagod and stressed talaga ako that day and parang lacking and di ko masabi feelings ko nang maayos. Sana di ka nalungkot na bakit ako walang sinend or sinabing message para sayo 🥹.

Pero ayun, I decided to send it na rin, edited some sabaw parts. HAHAH.

I just want to add na super thankful ako sa pag-intindi mo sa akin everyday lalo na these past few days, alam kong medyo naging short yung interactions natin and pagod lagi. Thank you kasi never mo ako pinressure na piliting makipag-usap sayo and na very rational pa rin yung mga response mo sa akin kahit na feel ko pwede ka naman magtampo or magdemand.

Salamat kasi you always find/look at the good things in me kahit na alam ko lacking ako in some areas. Sorry kasi di ko napapantayan yung physical touch mo lalo na pag nasa labas tayo. Pag nasa bahay naman, gusto ko comfy ka and mas control mo yung positions mo kaya di rin ako laging nakadikit sayo. HUHU.

Also, not sure kung napapansin mo but nung pinagluto mo ako, binigyan mo ako ng gift, and kapag you give/do something sweet yung reactions ko ay baka underwhelming 😭. Ganun talaga akooo (and si mama). HUHU. Idk, sabi ng ate ko parang di raw ako sumasaya or naeexcite pero sobrang happy ko talaga nung pinagluto mo ako and binigyan mo ako ng gift pero di sya lumalabas sa expressions ko. Di ko alam kung nababago ba sya or inate na talaga.

Last na (muna), salamat sa pagpaparamdam sa akin ng warm and peaceful love. Salamat sa pag-aalaga at pagmamahal sa akin. Sobra yung tiwala ko sayo kasi alam ko kung gaano kang kabuting tao. Mahal na mahal kita, baby ko.

I just want to say thank you sa pag-intindi sa akin. Pag-intindi as in pag-understand pag busy ako sa work like ngayon and pag-intindi as in sa pag-aalaga sa akin pag nasa Manila ako. Naalala ko tuloy nung kasama natin relatives mo and nakikita kita kung paano mo sila intindihin, in my mind, naiisip ko kung gaano ako kaswerte na sobrang responsible and caring ng boyfriend ko. Huhu

Gusto ko lang din sabihin na sobrang mahal na mahal kita at sobrang at peace ako sa relationship natin. May mga days na naffeel ko and nagwworry if naeexpress ko ba enough yung love ko sayo pero know na mahal na mahal kita nang sobra everydayy huhu. Pero syempre if there’s something na we can improve pa, gooo.

I cant wait na magkita ulit tayo and mayakap ang isa’t-isa. Parang everyday ko naman nammiss na amoyin at hawakan ka HAHA.

I love you so muchhh 💙

Dear Baby,

First, happy monthsary! Hehe!

Moreover, thank you so much for always making our relationship a calm and peaceful one. Feel ko, nasa iyo ang most of the legwork in keeping this relationship at bay with how you handle and regulate my sometimes problematic emotions and responses. HAHAHA! Napapatiklop mo talaga ako, baby, and I'm thankful for that. Basta for you, I am always willing to adjust and follow your lead.

Also, I am just so happy with how we are growing in this relationship, and as always, I am willing and ready for more points for improvement and opportunities to learn (wow, seminar yarn?) Pero kidding aside, please do know na I feel secure with our relationship and I really like our style of handling things maturely. Pero, baby, huwag ka sana magsawa mag-remind at mag-callout sa akin ah. I mean, I might need some time to fully improve and might need some constant reminders from you kung sakali mang lumalabas ulit ang attitude. HAHAHUHU! Pero again, rest assured I'll take the necessary steps and effort to improve.

And I just want to make a promise na panghahawakan ko and palagi kong tatandaan lahat ng sinabi mo sa akin kagabi. Mas magiging understanding din ako sa mga bagay bagay. Basta ayun, baby. Palagi kong tatandaan at panghahawakan yung mga pinag-usapan natin. I love you so much, baby ko! Thank you for the bliss you bring into my life. Mahal na mahal kita.

Lubos na gumagalang (char)

Nagmamahal,

Joshua

So una, I’m so sorry kung nadownplay ko yung emotions mo. Gusto ko lang talaga na hindi ka mabigatan at mapressure sa mga naffeel mo pero by doing so, di ko napansin yung current emotions mo. Napansin ko na nung una pa lang before call na parang down ka but sa halip na tanungin kita kung okay ka lang and i-comfort ka, nung nakita kong tumawa ka, tinake ko na agad na okay ka lang which was wrong.

Thankful ako kasi we’re giving each other time to grow and iimprove pa yung relationship. Nasabi ko kanina na sana mas maging patience ka pa sa work pero salamat kasi sobrang patience mo rin naman sa akin and sa relationship natin.

Im super hoping na dumating na yung hinahanap mong result kasi super deserve mo naman for your hardwork and perseverance; not to mention na magaling ang passionate ka naman na prof huhu. Cant wait na magkasugar daddy si Channel, Bumbay, and I jk HAHA.

Salamat ulit, baby, sobrang blessed and swerte ko to have you. I know medyo nababawasan pagcchats sa work, pero di ka nawawala sa isip ko, lagi ka pa ring naka-attach or narerelate sa aking everyday ganap.

Di man ganoon ka heavy ang pag-express ko pero know na I love you so so muchhh. Cant wait na makita ulit kita at makiss and hug. Sobrang miss ko na yung warmth mo. I love you so muchhhhhhhh 😭

Currently taking a break from writing. I just got the idea to write this because I've been meaning to do so since last week, when you were very busy, but I also got tied up with my shenanigans, hence the delay. Anyway, here it goes.

On how proud I am of you...

Throughout the days you were busy, I understand that communication may be limited. But I want to remind you again that I am fine with that and I am always proud of everything you do and achieve. You also give your heart towards what you are doing and again, I couldn't be any prouder. Grabe ka sa pagka-hardworking to the point na pati weekends mo, compromised. While I do get the point, I just want to remind you na maging selective pa rin sa tinantanggap na trabaho from time to time ah. HAHA! Hindi mo naman yata mamanahin yang Capitol. Kemeee. HAHA!

On how thankful I am sa support...

Ayun, alam mo naman na sineseryoso ko na ang thesis ko kasi ayoko nang patagalin pa ito. I mean, sabi ko nga, I'm not getting any younger. Close to 30 na ako, kaloka. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Skl, dati nung bago ako grumaduate, sabi ko, by 25 tapos na ako ng Master's ko. Nyare na ngayon, diba? HAHAHAHAHA!

I just want to thank you sa support (emotional and financial). HAHAHAHAHA! Yung mga encouragement mo tsaka yung mga palibre mo ng merienda sa akin kahit nahihiya ako minsan kasi ang laki pa ng utang ko sayo (babayaran ko yun kapag nakaluwag-luwag na sa babae huhu), sobrang laking bagay niya, baby. Sobra. I may be writing this thesis individually but I am going through the process with you. Gets ba? I mean, mag-isa ko itong sinusulat pero kasama kita sa process ng pagkompleto rito through your support and guidance. It makes the journey a little bit more bearable kahit ang hirap niya, physically and emotionally, sa totoo lang. Pero dahil nga nandiyan ka, kinakaya ko. At kakayanin ko pa. HAHAHUHU! Kaya super thank you, baby kooo! You don't know how much you are saving me. Kaya thank you so much! And know that I'll do the same for you in a heartbeat. Palagi lang din akong nandito para sayo.

Also, thank you rin sa pakikinig at pagsama mo sa akin sa job hunt journey ko. Sa totoo lang, masakit yung maraming rejection na natanggap ko recently pero again, dahil nandiyan ka, kinakaya ko. Hehe!

Ayun. Thank you talaga, mahal kooo! Can't wait to hug you again. Magsusulat na ulit ako ng thesis. Hehe! I love you so much!

Kakatapos ko lang mag-aral (1 pomodoro lang, haha!) and matutulog na ako but I want to say something first.

Over the past few weeks, I noticed na napapadalas na yung mga usapan natin about your work where you are ranting and borderline complaining. HAHAHUHU! I get it. Work can be toxic and tanggapin na natin that they system where you work is kinda like broken. I just want you to know that with whatever rant you have, I am always here to listen and process things with you. If I may fall short in making you feel that I am listening, I am sorry (in advance) and I don't mean to make you feel that way. And please call me out on that one, okay? Pasensiya ka na rin kung yung mga pieces of advice ko sayo ay very Joshua at hindi magwowork for Arvin. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Kasi nasanay lang ako maging mataray, sorry na. Bottomline is, nandito lang ako sayo, okay?

About sa papalapit mong pagreresign at paglaya. If I'm being honest, I'm kinda worried. (Wow!) Kasi alam mo yun, marami kang pagpapaliwanagan and all kung bakit ka nagresign pero for sure kaya mo naman yan. HAHA! Overthinker lang talaga ako minsan, pasensiya na. HAHA! Tsaka worried din ako kasi parang medyo makahinayang yung tenure, baby. As someone na contractual, for the past 3 academic years, nakakamiss maging permanent. Yung walang kinatatakutan. Eme. HAHA! Pero ayun nga, kung mental health mo na ang at stake, time to let go na rin kaya support ako riyan! HAHA!

About naman sa business plans mo, mas worried din ako, to be honest, kasi big step and big risk yan that involves money. Kumbaga, susugal ka talaga riyan pero alam mo, I am hoping for the best for you, baby, para sa itatayo mong business empire. (Ready na po maging trophy wife. HAHA! JK.) Pero again, support lang ako sayo, baby. Itong mga qualms ko, normal na lang naman sa akin ito as an overthinker nga. Pero bottomline, natatakot lang din ako na baka maging source of stress mo rin yung uncertainty nitong next step mo sa life pero ayun nga, uncertainties are inevitable kaya with every step of the way, nandito lang ako, gagabay sayo. (Wow, panginoon yarn? Eme. HAHA!) Pero seryoso. We're in this together. Kung paano mo ako sinuportahan sa thesis ko, susuportahan din kita rito sa plano mo. Here lang ako palagi for you. I love you so much, baby!

P.S.

Ganda tignan nito oh. HAHA! ⤵️

Arvin Dan Q. Palmero

CEO, (name of your business)

Pasensiya na for writing this late. Alam mo naman na in-between my thesis ganaps ngayong bakasyon, punong-abala. HAHAHA!

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Janury 4, 2:06 AM

Yung nasa taas yung nasulat ko nung December 31. Ngayon lang nabalikan sa dami ng ganap. Sorry. Huhu! Anyway, writing this after losing track of time and missing our nightly video calls. Sorry, baby, if I sound too apologetic.

Anyway, here it goes.

The previous year has been filled with many defining moments for our relationship. From meeting my other side of the family (and immediately warming up with them, yieee. HAHA!), to attending birthdays and weddings of my friends, and to having some things to talk about (mga naging discussion natin) that, I believe, further solidified the ground of our relationship. I'm so glad that we faced it with tact and grace -- a kind of tact and grace that is grounded on love and care for each other. It goes without saying but I know naman na we will do the same this year.

Further, I would also want to take this chance to thank you first, for the material provision. From the simple na pang-kain and/or pang-DQ na binibigay mo when I'm feeling blue (remember nung na-reject ako sa UST and binigyan mo ako ng pangkain at pang-DQ? HAHAHAHAHA!) and yung mga pacake mo nung birthday ko, to the (quite heavy) shouldering of our expenses sa AirBnB tsaka sa food kapag natataon na yung luwas ay petsa de peligro ko. HAHA! Alam mo naman, breadwinner. I don't know if I have thanked you enough but consider this letter as another 'thank you' for everything you have provided me.

Second, sa support sa mga choices ko sa buhay. From enrolling to a Volleyball camp to enrolling back sa thesis, you are supporting me. So again, thank you. I never felt alone in this journey because I know that you are with me. Sana suportahan mo rin ako sa plano kong pagsali sa Bb. Pilipinas. EME. HAHA!

Third, sa understanding mo. There are times na mahirap akong intindihin, and I am aware of that. Case in point? Yung last discussion natin nung December. HAHAHAHA! But still, you dealt with it with understanding so again, thank you. I know that, through your support and understanding, mababago ko naman ang dapat kong baguhin sa ugali ko. HAHA!

Sa dami ng sinabi ko, baby, ang bottomline lang naman is gusto kong magpasalamat -- salamat sa materyal na bagay hanggang sa mga intangibles like support, understanding, and love. I hope that, throughout last year, naparamdam ko rin sayo kung gaano ako ka-thankful at gaano kita kamahal. And again, kung nakukulangan man, sabihin mo lang at mag-aadjust ako. This year, patuloy kitang mamahalin and susuportahan sa mga desisyon mo sa buhay, tulad ng pagmamahal at pagsuporta mo sa akin.

I love you so much, baby! Happy New Year!

Hi, baby, medyo natagalan kasi sabi ko gusto ko syang isulat pag feel na feel ko na HAHAHA. Though naisip ko naman na yung mga points ng sasabihin ko, after reading your note, narealize ko nasobrang daming nangyari sa atin na as a makakalimutin na narealize kong ngayong taon lang pala yun nangyari HAHA.

So ayun, thank you nang madami sayo. For being there always, ramdam na ramdam ko lagi yung support at care mo sa akin. Thank you rin sa lagi mong pag-asikaso sa akin/atin, lalo na pag nasa Manila. Siguro sayo normal na galaw mo lang yun, pero sa akin sobrang special na nya. Sobrang grateful ako sayo, baby, and masasabi kong ang swerte ko na ikaw ang partner ko.

Alam ko naman na may pagkukulang ako on some parts pero thank you for understanding me.  Di man ako super expressive na person pero I want you know na lagi kitang nasa isip and sobra yung love and appreciation ko sayo.

Medyo naging magulo at stressful ang aking life nitong mga last few months ng 2025, HAHA. I’d like to apologize sa mga days na hindi kita narereply-an, mga nights na di tayo nakakapagcall, at mga plans na di nagawa kasi super busy. Pero kahit na ganun, nandyan ka pa rin to support at magpagaan ng aking loob. So thank you talaga nang marami.

Ayun, baby, more ganaps, memories and learnings this 2026. I hope na maging successful tayo not only sa relationship natin but also sa ating career and other ganap sa life. Galingan po this sem sa pagtteach at sa pagtthesis. Thank you and I love you so much, babyyyy. Miss nakita huhu