https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n This interview questions a person affected by a mental disorder (depression) and whether or not they think nature or nurture affected them. en-us 2017-03-24 15:59:50 UTC 2017-05-04 21:28:54 UTC hello@padlet.com https://d13yacurqjgara.cloudfront.net/users/386061/screenshots/1255538/brain_dribbble-01.jpg laurenj1215 https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162593090 Living with a disability that's not physical is in some ways more difficult to deal with than visible disabilities; people don't understand what you're really going through. Waking up and realizing that the sadness that kept you up all night is still there makes it extremely hard to get out of bed; that's the first hurdle. Once enough mental strength is mustered up to get ready and leave the house, you have to put on a fake smile so that others don't constantly ask what's wrong -  because you don't want to burden them with what is really happening in your mind (Corrigan). Motivation is hard to obtain, so no work really gets done; and when you don't work you sleep, so nothing ever happens in general. But when it's bedtime and you really have to sleep, all you think about is how sad you are and it keeps you up all night, continuing the cycle. It's the most difficult thing to deal with. ]]> 2017-03-26 01:24:49 UTC https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162593090 laurenj1215 https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162594015 Growing up in my house was pretty normal, I'd like to believe I had a nice childhood. Many people in my family have at least one mental illness, if not more, so I definitely believe I obtained the disorder from genes more than environment. However, environment continues to affect my illness in some small ways; when I'm having a "good" mental day, some things people say or do can trigger a memory or a feeling I was repressing and make me feel horrible again. Reading up on how these mental disorders work interest me, and what I've learned is that the fault is not just my genes - environment continues to tamper with my mental health every day (Frances). ]]> 2017-03-26 01:47:40 UTC https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162594015 laurenj1215 https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162594645 In some ways, yes it has - I repressed what I was feeling for years out of fear of what my family and friends would think and denied myself help for so long, it made living with depression so much worse. Even when I felt ready enough to tell people, my family did not believe me and brushed it off, saying that everyone gets sad and it was just a moody teen phase. What I was and still am feeling is real and brought me to tears and mental destruction far too many times; once my family realized this wasn't an act, I finally got some help and felt like I could be a normal person again. However, I am still afraid to tell some people what I'm truly feeling because of how they might react, it just goes to show how much the stigma surrounding these illnesses affects people negatively. ]]> 2017-03-26 02:01:21 UTC https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162594645 laurenj1215 https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162594934 It depends on how bad of an episode I'm going through is, some days I wish I did have a physical disease so that it could be easily treated and gone; but on some days I feel like I can handle it and am grateful that I don't have something physical holding me back. At times I wish I could see what life would be like if I did not have to see things through the lenses of depression, and whether or not I would actually enjoy life. Seeing people with extreme physical disabilities makes me glad I just have one mentally, but I just wish people could understand that what I have is real and not something I made up for attention, it would make coping so much easier. I think to some degree mental illnesses are just as hard to deal with as physical ones, if not harder. Mental illnesses do not have just one quick fix, and people don't tell patients with physical disabilties to "get over it." Overall, the answer to this question depends on multiple variables and it very much relies on how I feel that day. ]]> 2017-03-26 02:13:02 UTC https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162594934 laurenj1215 https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162595293 The most obvious answer would be yes, of course I would fix myself. But I would like to keep the knowledge I have on what it's like to have a mental illness, just to be able to see things on a different perspective and help others who struggle as well. Living with depression has opened my eyes to so many things about life in general and how much a certain situation can affect a person, it is both a curse and a learning experience. The physical ache one gets from being so sad has got to be one of the worst things to ever feel, and if I could make it all go away, I would in a heartbeat. I would be able to get things done and work towards what I love and get out of the house, life would be fulfilling; but if I could keep the memories of what I went through it would make me appreciate life so much more in the circumstance that I was "cured." I think if anyone was asked this question about any illness/disability the answer would be yes, it's natural to want to live a normal life with nothing holding you back - but the unfortunate part of life is that absolutely no one gets that luxury, just some are more fortunate than others. ]]> 2017-03-26 02:28:36 UTC https://padlet.com/laurenj1215/17q2ldnpy75n/wish/162595293