What should I talk about ya? Ah, probably from your sw about Navia. I agree with you!! She's so gorgeous, pretty, a literal princess!? I want to hype her too in sw but I feel shy, I don't want you to think I was following your action (even though I know you'll never think that way. It just me and my mind).

The second was yes XD you're hot even though you're losing the rank game in Valo BUT STILL!!! IT'S COOL. I want to play it with you too, but I don't have any laptop or computer to install it:( it's nice that you still enjoy the competitive game though, you're so cool when you play it hehe 😼

And the third is about how you seemed fine with your friends, I shouldn't feel like this but I'm sorry I can't help myself not to feel so sad about it.. I'm just, I can't prove to myself that I'm your better friend... That's why I feel so sad about it, that's why I feel so frustrated thay you won't even talk to me again after I answered you.

My friend once said, not to reach you out first after this and I know she's right. I can't keep reaching you out first, I can't keep bothering you with all the clingy side of me. I need to stop bothering you. But it's hard when all the years that I've gone through for four years is taken with you by my side to listen to me, or I just listened to you.

So, tell me, General, will I ever talk to you again? Will our promise to meet and talk be kept?

I love you. For that, I'm sorry.

So today I'm going out with my mom and I finally try this 'keju aroma', it's sweet because of the strawberry sauce and it's really nyummie! Have you tried it? If you haven't, let's try it together. But if you have, let's share the portion (because I'm not sure if I can handle the sweetness with you).

Today I've tried the wonton too, and it's too spicy for me😞 is it because I'm too old? Mom said for young people, the spicy is enough. 🥹

Yes, I want to tryyyy it with you. I hope there's a chance when we meet and try the street food together (probably you have to guide me because I'm not really familiar about the street food!).

p.s.: have you eat today? I hope you do!

p.s.s: the picture isn't one that I take butttt it's still keju aroma so it is what it is.😋

The street food probably will be more delicious when I take them with you.

The flowers must be jealous with how you bloom prettily without you put much effort in it. The stars hide in shame because they can't compare your light in the night. And I hope the moon didn't hide at all, so they can send the words that I keep in my head about how gorgeous you are, how pretty you are.

The world is nothing near beautiful if they don't have you in it. I'm glad you're living till today to make the world still beautiful as they are with you in it.

Rasanya kangen berat, rasanya aku pengen ancurin tembok gengsi ini supaya aku bisa ngobrol lagi sama kamu tapi kayanya kamu juga udah gak mau ya ngobrol sama aku:(

Ody, I miss you. It's almost one year since we didn't talk. How have you been? How's life treating you this far? Do you still smoke? Do you feel more at peace without me? There's so many things I want to catch up with you, about my new hobbies, my new favourite character. There also things I want to know about you while I'm not talking to you.

You're beautiful. Still beautiful just like what I remembered you. The difference is I can't talk about it to you and it ache me.

Would you want to reach me for the first time? It's okay if you're reluctant to.

I'm such a foolish, right? For not seeing through you and your attempt by staying by my side, for not seeing your affection through your every words and actions. I always feel bad about that.. for hurting you even though it's not my intention.

If one day you look through your name on google and found this, I hope you know I always love you and will always welcome you whenever you want to talk :D

Actually, we're such a foolish teenager, I guess. We're making such a good partner, aren't we?

It's saddened me I can't say that to you anymore because I don't want to make you miserable like you did before whenever with me.

Forget the sadness. I always love it when I heard your voice. I really longed to hear your voice again. I longed to text you..

Kalau soal kamu, aku selalu pengen tahu. Tapi, kayanya kamu gak mau aku selalu tahu tentang kamu, ya gak sih?

Kalau lain kali kita ngobrol lagi, aku mau kita gak perlu bicarain masa lalu kita kaya yang kamu mau, aku janji aku jaga jariku supaya gak nyakitin kamu dengan bawa-bawa masa lalu kita.

Masalahnya, lain kali kita ngobrol ini kapan?

Ody, I don't know what happened. I don't even know why am I crying. Is it because I miss you so..? You're the one in my thoughts rn.

Those past months where I was miserable because our friendship just crumbling into dust in one night was such a nightmare for me. I always thought, what was wrong? What am I doing for being such a fool? I've been beating myself just because you leave.

Ody, this time I won't reach you first. If you still thinking it's your fault and you need to avoid me to not hurting me—you are wrong because even with your absence, I still feel hurt. The pain was still linger, added with how much I yearn for you to reach me first. To fix whatever wrong here.

Ody, perhaps it would be my last writing here too. I've waited for more than a year for you to talk to me but you seemed like you didn't even want to know whether I'm alive or not.

If being a stranger is what you want, then I wouldn't force you at all. Thank you for all the memories we've made together. 🤍

Osy, as I write here, my eyes was blinking much so I could stay awake. I miss you. Inmiss you sm.