https://padlet.com/stardusk/15O42O18 And Aiden's ugli idiot too. en-us 2018-04-15 10:26:52 UTC 2018-04-16 04:11:59 UTC hello@padlet.com https://padlet-assets.s3.amazonaws.com/icons/File.png stardusk https://padlet.com/stardusk/15O42O18/wish/251868530 When we first met, I never thought I would hate you this much. 
I hate how you make me feel comfortable around you. 
How you make me feel happy when you're around. 
How you talk so sweet it makes me weak. 
How you tell me to do things so I won't get sick. 
How you weirdly seem whipped for me.
How you call me with so many sweet names I don't deserve. 
How you deliberately lose at some games for your sulky boyfriend. 

Basically, I hate everything you do including how you want to be my boyfriend when I'm such a bad girlfriend. 

Being in this kind of relationship sometimes makes me sad when you're not around. It's not like I need you to spend most of hours in a day with me. Just few hours are enough. But the amount of time we interact has been lessening and the process of waiting has gotten harder for me. I'm sorry for being so demanding. Usually when my exes got very busy, I would ask for a break up because I don't wanna become a burden, and I don't wanna spend my time thinking I'm not worth someone's time. It sucks. 

But strangely, when it comes to you, I don't mind waiting. I mean, I surely get upset sometimes because of my overthinking habit, making me sad when it's actually only a small mater. I don't want you to leave me. I'm sorry. 

Sorry for being so weird that I ever got upset over your words when I was supposed to be happy. That time when you said you rather put my happiness in a really high place while yours in the bottom and you're afraid I might hate you if I see the real you, I got upset, I'm so weird, I'm sorry. I wanna know you more, I wanna know the real you. This thought just naturally exists. The moment you said you didn't care if I'm anywhere else as long as I'm yours here, my over thinking habit got in the way and I began to think I don't deserve your jealousy. This sounded stupid, I know. 

I didn't tell you when I was enjoying myself in my ocrp account, I should've told you instead of ignoring your dm. I'm sorry I made you upset. That's like, one of the most stupid decisions I made. 

I hope you don't feel upset when I seem like I don't believe in your words. I don't do it on purpose, I'm just scared. 

Luckily this weirdo's mood could easily change, like one second I am sad and minutes later I could laugh and think how silly my thought was that I shouldn't have felt sad. Thank you for these two months, it's been so great with you here. Sorry these long ass paragraphs are in such a mess. I'm bad at expressing my feeling into words. 

Remember when it's only been days since we dated yet my stupid ass decided to feel sad and I had to tell you using cipher and song? What a problematic person lmao. 

I even had to think many times before really telling some of my concerns like this to you. I'm afraid you'll get mad and hate me which probably would really happen after this.

But I love you.

I love your Mina to my Momo, your Yoongi to my Minkyung and Jungkook, your Jimin to my Suga. 

Mommy's the best. Daddy's the best too. Giggles.  ]]> 2018-04-15 10:30:56 UTC https://padlet.com/stardusk/15O42O18/wish/251868530 https://padlet.com/stardusk/15O42O18/wish/251890624 Mau nangis aja aku ga ngerti aku nulis apaan. ]]> 2018-04-15 14:40:56 UTC https://padlet.com/stardusk/15O42O18/wish/251890624