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being ken is like, it's something special cause i legit can tell you, he's different from the people i've been with. by first wowza, i mean the first time i thought 'wow, i really have strong feelings for him' - i don't know when it actually like, happened. but i think it occurred whilst i was chatting to him. i really had that overwhelming and intense feeling that i really couldn't quantify and settled for numerous 'i love you's'. but either way, it's something that i have never really experienced with anyone else and ken is mucho special like that ehe

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Who Knew. i say almost cause we actually never argued - can you believe it, we have not argued ehe. but yes, long story short, i got jealous of a certain individual - and this happened right, during the conference i was in charge of otl. i am totally fine with ken being ken with his friends cause i wouldn't ever want to restrict him right. but this person got me jealous cause it was the same person who he mentioned on his fl bio when we weren't dating and i was beginning to admit my feelings for.

SO. it was the day after the conference, i went on fl, saw the individual, Got Jealous, and when ken messaged me, i was being off. i wasn't as chirpy, i called him 'luhan' or 'ken' rather than my usual pet names etc. and usually, me and ken wouldn't want to force each other to talk about our problem, we would wait for the other to open up right. and ken was being 'you know im right here, okay?' so i could tell he was concerned etc. i ended up telling him and he assured me that the individual was just really close friends. i apologised cause oh my gooooooooooooood i almost made my baby upset and :  (.

but yes, in the end, i managed to tell him cause i really cannot keep things away from him yas.

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ken's birthday came first - which was the 13th of february right. being the great person i am, i made a stop-motion video and this was legit, the first time i ever did something like this right. i spent the day before writing the notes, filming and editing - so it took around five hours in total but aye no regrets. ken loved it and i was mucho happy ehe

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our first monthsary was the day after christmas ehe - and although we both agreed to not having to give each other a gift cause of x-maz, we both still gave something anyway : ' ] it was just a greeting and it was really simple but aye, it was something worth keeping.

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do you find it cute how christmas was before our first monthsary as a couple ehe. i greeted ken his time and we gushed how we wanted to spend more christmas together. likewise, god bless ken, he greeted me his time and even set an alarm ehe. he went back to sleep and it made sense cause it was 5am there rip. but on the actual day!!! ! we spent around 4 hours talking to each other and till then, it was the longest time we chatted together ehe. and if i remember well, i think we gave christmas gifts to each other too ehe

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our first event as a couple in mlf was the awards right. and basically, me and ken cuddled in dms while watching tl in amusment. when ken won his award, i pushed him unto the stage and even gave a hug as well. it was really wowza cause we were touchy and skinship-y during the whole awards in our dms, imagine if we were still friends them : ' ]

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so this is more or less my response to sim's question! ! ! !

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so this is more or less my response to sim's question! ! ! !

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as you can tell, i have very elongated responses but it's fun reading them right?? ? ? i might add more who knows ehe. but i hope you'd enjoy reminiscing my numerous firsts with ken ehe

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i suppose it would make sense to explain what my first gift was to ken. after the amazing gift i received on the 2nd monthsary, i decided to Step Up My Game. so long story short, i made a daily blog and i did it everyday for about a month. i never missed a day at all. even though i had conferences i think and was really knackered at times. but even then, i started to introduce stuff like songs i would recommend or songs that reminded me of him, random thoughts, throwbacks etc. and it was completely coincidental that my post i.e. the post i would write on our 3rd monthsary was the 26th blog post. earth ships kenrus i know. and yes, ken was completely wowza-ed and his first reply was 'I HATE YOU' - thanks for that my love ehe

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okay real talk i don't exactly remember when we had our first nap- but it was an endearing experience cause we were legit napping at the same time and it was my first time actually doing it with someone?? ? that and i am not the type of person to take naps so this was something new to me!

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i completely forgot which way it went but i am 70% sure it was ken staying up. but either way, it was really wowza cause ken then, admitted that he wasn't the type to stay up since he usually falls asleep (sidenote: am i the only person in the planet who doesn't mind people falling asleep on me?? ? ? like if you're tired then sleep i don't want to be the reason why you're more tired otl), so this was an amazing feat right ehe. we talked about a lot of things such as the idea of happiness, ken talked about his relationships, i talked about my ex and past relationships and lots of other topics ehe. i think by now it's obvious me and ken love talking to each other, no matter what the subject ehe. but throwback to the time where i stayed up till 6am cause i was talking to ken!!! !!

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wowza kenrus actually being angsty ? ? ? ????  ? what??

okay it's not a favourite moment but it is significant so here's how it went. it was a friday and to those who don't know, my weekend was from friday-saturday whilst ken's saturday-sunday - so our free day was saturday. on friday we decided, saturday will be our free day as i didn't have much work to do and all. come saturday and ken was really upset about this , , , ,  guy right. and i tried comforting him cause that's what friends do right. it was october and back then, i had this fear of people in our rp knowing there was something between us so i asked what our relationship was. but i didn't want to imply anything and gave suggestions such as 'hyung' and 'dongsaeng' etc. and i asked cause i really did not want ken getting into trouble with me, so in a way, this was my 'way' of trying to look out for him.

KEN REPLIED WITH A 'you'll always be my dongsaeng, and i'll always be your hyung' AND HOLY CRAP I WAS REALLY HEARTBROKEN AND SO WAS KEN THIS WAS SO SAD I WAS DONGSAENG-ZONED OTL. and in return i hyung-zoned him otl. but seriously this was such a sad moment, ken disappeared for hours. HOURS AND THIS SATURDAY WAS MEANT TO BE OUR DAY. OUR. DAY. BUT NO I RUINED IT CAUSE I ASKED THIS QUESTION AND I JUST SPAMMED HIM EVERY NOW AND THEN CAUSE I REALLY MISSED HIM OTL

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if yalls don't know, how our monthsary started was actually something ken kind of conjured ehe. basically, we met on the 26th of july right. and on the 27th of august, ken messaged me saying he forgot to tell me something yesterday. apparently, yesterday, the 26th of august, marked our first month of us being friends ehe - so that's how our monthsary came to be yas, it initially was the date of when we first met aye

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holy crap, on our first monthsary, ken and i just exchanged greetings right. when ken gave me the tumblr on our second, aka his first gift for me, i was blown away. LITERALLY. i was speechless, honestly and i didn't know what to say cause i really didn't think much of our monthsary but something between us as friends right. so when i read this super long ass message, which was very atypical of him - ken claims, i felt wowza. like really reaaaaaaally wowza i was speechless and shocked and aa aaa a aa aa a i love ken

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i called him baobei and he liked it cause i'm referred to as baobei when i talked to his friends ehe. eventually i called him babe, and now, baby. p.s i really did not like 'baby' now i do ehe

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our essays back in the old dayz were basically replies to different conversations - and these replies would increase as we talked otl. so in total, we had roughly 34-36 replies, and the first two replies were roughly 100-150 words legit. i had to resort to pasting his replies on word cause i couldn't keep track ehe. FUN FACT I EXCEEDED THE WORD LIMIT IN THE DMS NOT ONCE BUT THREE TIMES LMAO. so yah, our essays were really special cause here, we really became close cause we would talk about ourselves - we talked about the things we'd do, our perspective on relationships and love etc. our first essay was wowza cause we really were excited in replying to each other, and i remember that we first started off with 7 replies ehe

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okay you don't have to read this rip. but actually, how our first time started was a bit funny cause it started out as a joke rip. we were sending replies such as *kisses u*, *kisses u back*, *makes out w u? ? ??* and things escalated when i pinned him against the wall and ken was a homo virgin rip. actually, we kept that reply as we call it and called it 'The Thing' because we had no idea how to name it.

now the first time was wowza cause after we did it, it was only then i realised i was ken's first and i was 'oH MY GOD I HAVE DEFILED HIM' cause i already, , , , ,, , had my experience and all. but if anything, this really was a special moment cause it was something that did take time and i would not trade this memory for anything

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actually, what progressed our friendshipz was the fact that i broke down and ken was the first person i talked to. and it was a wowza experience cause back then, i really vowed not to tell anyone my problems cause i got over this horrible relationship right. but for some reason, i had this need to tell ken and ended up telling ken my problems. ken being the cutie he was spammed me and all, and he gave me this music box piece for me to listen to which really made me feel better. when he told me he had problems, i gave him the same piece as well

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i don't remember the date but it was like a december 17 ish? ? ? basically, i was told my chemistry buddy to watch interstellar. and on that december 17, it was the start of our winter holidays so me and ken decided to have our first rabbit date and watched interstellar! by the way, it was great and both of us really enjoyed it ehe

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okay kenrus' love story is really peculiar cause we bonded over chess. chess out all things otl. but it happened cause ken didn't know how to play chess right, and i remember this day exactly cause it was a sunday. after church, i legit went straight in downloading images to explain chess, i was spamming him and explaining what the role was per chess piece etc. heck, i even took a screenshot of this text in wikipedia. the next day, ken 'awwwWW'ed me and bam! kenrus happened ehe

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by the way, the first moment was embarrassing cause this actually happened p.s. don't do this ok 

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by the way, the first moment was embarrassing cause this actually happened p.s. don't do this ok 

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me: *insert reply* + i love you!
me: (holy shit wHAT HAVE I DONE OTL)
ken: *insert somewhat reply* + i love you too!
me: holy crap hyung i'm so sorry, i didn't mean to say i love you otl

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when i first said 'i love you', it really slipped out of my mouth rip. it was something that came naturally and actually, i said those three words while we were close friends?? ? ? and before then we used to say 'wo ai ni' as our lowkey friendz substitute for our 'i love you'. and i was hell scared cause i knew for a fact that ken didn't like relationships that were a bit too quick, so saying that really made me panic cause i thought 'holy crap it's only been three months i'm going to ruin our friendship'. but believe it or not, ken said those three words back to me and it acted as my silver lining to confessing ehe

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IT WILL BE CRIMINAL IF I DON'T MENTION THIS EHE.

our first occurred on the 26th of november aka the day we actually got together, 22 days after i confessed. it took me two minutes to actually, , , , kiss him and i was really nervous cause what happened if i was being a bit risky?? ? but after we had our first kiss, ken mentioned how one kiss will be a hundred, a hundred will be a thousand and a thousand will be a million. and no joke there cause i really love giving ken kisses ehe

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favourite first moment with ken that's wowza cause i like everything rip

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favourite first moment with ken that's wowza cause i like everything rip

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okay this is a difficult question for me to answer since there's lots of memories we created and it's really hard to recall of them ehe. but i'll try aye!