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Wonderland is a euphoria, something so unrealistic and out of reach yet beautiful. when the term wonderland comes to mind, I instantly connect with drugs, psychedelics. it's where I'm at my peak,  revealing my inner self and discovering a whole new world. For this project, I wanted to touch on something that hits home for me, drugs. Growing up in a small town with lack of activities to do, drugs were the only supplement of happiness, to really feel something ''out of this world''. I was always curious to experiment and the people around me being my heavy influencers.

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When moving to London, i knew it would be a similar experience from back home, only to discover it was a lot more intense. Majority of the people i hung around with were a lot more involved, using every weekend in their flats, to being offered. It wasn't a huge culture shock for me, Until i met Anna.

Anna is 19, from Belfast and has hugely inspired me within this project, to capture her within the moment of consumption. We would sit in the smoking area and talk about our experiences for hours, however it made me realise how deep the rabbit hole of drugs are and no matter how euphoric you feel in the moment, the outcome leads to future problems. Blood clots, mood changes, increase in mental health and a small appetite.

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Nan Goldin. One of the most controversial photographers in photojournalism. Her vision during the Ballad of Sexual Dependency was a self diary of herself, the ones she loved closely, that struggled with drugs. The way she photographed during that project touched me, the fact I could relate to being surrounded by people with self issues and addiction, hugely inspired me to capture others during a weekend of chaos.

The reason i love Nan, is because her work is so raw, not staged. It almost feels like you're there in the moment, reeling you in so much more as a viewer of the photograph. Her shots are often beautifully blurred. Nan has heavily influenced me to produce a blurry haze to make the viewer really feel the emotion, meaning of the image.

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During my theme of drugs and psychedelics, I really wanted to include doodles, not only my own but a documentation of others view on the term wonderland, how they feel when they get introduced to that word, what's the first thing that pops into their heads?

I managed to gather some doodles from others on a weekend who were mostly intoxicated or consuming that night.

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(EDITED USING PS) - CONVERSATION WITH HER DEALER

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(EDITED USING PS) - AROUND THE TABLE MONGING

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(EDITED USING PS) 30 minutes into sniffing Anna quotes ''off my tits''

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(EDITED USING PS) - People that night were labelling themselves ''ket fiends'' - ''ket demon''' so i took that saying,  creating a figure, clutching on to the substance.

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(EDITED USING PS) - 2 HOURS AFTER KET