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Hello, I am Jian Carlos Uy Digan and I am an idiot. I like reading cool stuff like mythology, history, and Warhammer. I'm also an avid gamer—I play way too much, probably to an unhealthy degree. I'm a petty person, and honestly, that pettiness is what drives me. This year, I'm aiming for 2nd honors—not to make my parents proud, but because of a bet I made with my friends. And I'm going to win that bet with the most righteous and holy determination.

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Rts, strategical, and story driven games

Fantasy and grim dark books (40k books)

Food

Going to the gym

Shopping

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good at lying and making excuses

Creative

Lazy yet able to do stuff

Passionate about dumb stuff

Good at making people confused and sometimes also making me confused

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high pitched sound and voices

Annoyance that is not coming from me

Life💀

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“The only rules that really matter are these. What a man can do and what a man can’t do”

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WW1: 16 Personalities Test & Reflection

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WW 2: Stressors and Coping Strategies Worksheet

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WW3: Owning My Emotions

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WW 4: Mind Mapping (My Study Habits)

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A letter to thy future self

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I am currently taking the STEM Pre-Science Academic Track in Ateneo de Davao University Senior High School. Every day feels like a gentle reminder that sleep is optional and stress is inevitable. The workload keeps me wondering why I didn’t choose something peaceful like gardening, but here I am, forcing my brain to understand concepts that look like they were written by aliens. Still, deep down, I’m grateful, because STEM is shaping me into someone stronger, more disciplined, and slightly numb inside, which I guess is useful for the medical field.

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For college, I plan to continue at Ateneo de Davao University to take Bachelor of Science in Nursing. I chose AdDU because it feels like a nice idea to suffer in a familiar environment rather than start fresh somewhere else. Nursing will help me gain real experience in caring for patients while also experiencing emotional damage of my own. I’m looking forward to meeting new people who are also silently screaming inside, forming friendships built on shared panic, and growing both academically and in the skill of pretending everything is fine.

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After graduating from Nursing, I plan to take the Nursing Licensure Examination to become a Registered Nurse. This is the stage where I finally get to apply everything I studied, including the lessons I forgot the moment the exam ended. I hope to work in hospitals or community health centers, serving patients with compassion while trying not to look like I’m dying inside. This phase will teach me professionalism, resilience, and how to survive 12-hour shifts fueled only by coffee and questionable optimism.

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Once I gain enough experience as a nurse, I will enter Davao Medical School Foundation for my Doctor of Medicine. This is where my sleep schedule will completely disappear, and I will learn to accept that textbooks are my new personality. The exams will probably haunt my dreams, and the workload will feel like a punishment I willingly signed up for. Even so, I know this suffering will shape me into the doctor I want to become, slowly but surely… very slowly, actually.

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After graduating and passing the Physician Licensure Exam, I will begin my surgical residency at Davao Medical Center. This is the legendary stage where I spend years training to become a surgeon while constantly questioning why I chose the most exhausting path available. But despite the long nights, overwhelming pressure, and moments of existential crisis, I’ll keep going. One day, all the chaos and emotional damage will finally make sense when I become the surgeon I’ve always dreamed of being.

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After surviving residency with whatever is left of my sanity, I will finally become a full-fledged surgeon. This is the moment where all the years of stress, caffeine dependency, emotional breakdowns, and academic trauma transform into something meaningful. I will officially achieve the dream I started back in senior high school, even though younger me probably had no idea how exhausting this journey would be. Still, despite everything, I’ll stand in the operating room as a real surgeon, ready to save lives, help people, and continue pretending I’m not tired 24/7. And honestly, that will make every difficult step worth it.

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Yes, Personal Development was surprisingly helpful because it forced me to look at myself like a project that constantly needs fixing. I learned more about my habits, my emotions, and all the things I try to ignore until they become a problem. The subject gave me a clearer view of who I am, even if the view is a little bleak sometimes. At least now I understand myself well enough to know why I feel stressed 90 percent of the time.

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My favorite topics were the Triangular Theory of Love, Robert Plutchik’s Wheel of Emotions, and Mind Mapping. The love triangle theory was entertaining because it made relationships look like a simple formula, which is funny because real life is the exact opposite. The Wheel of Emotions helped me understand that my feelings actually have structure, even if I still get overwhelmed by them. Mind mapping was extremely useful for organizing my thoughts, especially on days when my brain feels like it’s buffering.

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One of my main takeaways is that self-awareness is both a blessing and a curse. I realized that personal growth is slow, tiring, and requires effort even on days when I would rather not try at all. I also learned that emotions have actual explanations, which is comforting and concerning at the same time. Overall, the subject taught me that becoming a better person is possible, but definitely not easy.