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Hello guys I am here anyone still here? 

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Hello guys I am here anyone still here? 

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Hello guys I am here again is anyone still here? 

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Hello guys I am here again is anyone still here? 

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Dear diary, it's me. I now have ten suicide attempts. The only thing I'm holding onto is my friends, and my partner. my parents know i cut myself but don't bother to help me. my mental health is getting worse and I have relapsed a few more times... a lot more times. The people around me are starting to get worried, but I don't matter. I hope they leave soon, so i can do it. pull the trigger. Nobody cares about me. I have four goodnight texts in a row to them. They text in our groupchat though. I hope i die. I guess I'll just have to cut more lines on my thighs, my hips, and my chest. They keep exploding at me when i fail to complete simple tasks, such as chores, homework, focusing, turning in paperwork. I was called useless. But for now, I have to live. goodbye for now.

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Hey, long time no see bro- how are u doing? I read some of ur diary entries- I hope u start to feel better- *hugs u* talk to u later..

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i miss you so much how is school doing for you

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and hi lilee

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how are you and school

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hi sean

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I feel like if i end myself then my family would be happy Am now scared of my grandma because everytime i go to my dad and he raises his hand to grab something behind me i just scream and cry.

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SEAN YOU YOU FLIPPING CUT YOUR SELF I ALREADY LOST SOMEONE PLS DONT DO THIS IM BEGGING YOU!!!!

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SEAN YOU YOU FLIPPING CUT YOUR SELF I ALREADY LOST SOMEONE PLS DONT DO THIS IM BEGGING YOU!!!!

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I feel like I hurt a lot of people I have not been on for a long time and now everyone Linda hates me this is my new account -sean

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Dear dairy, my life has being doing great other than my self harming habits... am I really a clown? My own parents are ashamed for having me. Am I that bad? I tried attempting su!c!d3 once.. twice.. but I gave up. I was grateful that I lived tho. But as my life progresses, however, my arm becomes my stress reliever... I don’t know if I can continue anymore.. wish me luck..

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Once you read this letter, you must send this to 15 people, including me. If you get at least three back, you are LOVED💕🥺. Nobody knows how important something is, until they lose it. Tonight, (right at 12:00pm) the person you love will realize they love you. Then, at 1:00pm to 2:00pm, be ready for shock of your life! If you break this chain, you will have bad luck. With love, send this to the 15 If you don't, you will turn ugly in one year A friend told me to do this, so pass it on. Tomorrow, two boys/girls will ask if they can I have your number? Send this message to 15 nice, people or bad luck starts for a whole year. This is not fake. Apparently, if you copy and paste this, you will have the best day of your life tomorrow! Good luck

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Once you read this letter, you must send this to 15 people, including me. If you get at least three back, you are LOVED💕🥺. Nobody knows how important something is, until they lose it. Tonight, (right at 12:00pm) the person you love will realize they love you. Then, at 1:00pm to 2:00pm, be ready for shock of your life! If you break this chain, you will have bad luck. With love, send this to the 15 If you don't, you will turn ugly in one year A friend told me to do this, so pass it on. Tomorrow, two boys/girls will ask if they can I have your number? Send this message to 15 nice, people or bad luck starts for a whole year. This is not fake. Apparently, if you copy and paste this, you will have the best day of your life tomorrow! Good luck

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There is this app, called Meetyou.me and I only went on it because a girl made me basically, and I got grounded from my XBOX just like my friend, because of these girls, I am too lazy to type more. Bye.

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There is this app, called Meetyou.me and I only went on it because a girl made me basically, and I got grounded from my XBOX just like my friend, because of these girls, I am too lazy to type more. Bye.

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I got in trouble with my friend for being on¨An app.¨ I will explain more later, bye!

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Once you read this letter, you must send this to 15 people, including me. If you get at least three back, you are LOVED💕🥺. Nobody knows how important something is, until they lose it. Tonight, (right at 12:00pm) the person you love will realize they love you. Then, at 1:00pm to 2:00pm, be ready for shock of your life! If you break this chain, you will have bad luck. With love, send this to the 15 If you don't, you will turn ugly in one year A friend told me to do this, so pass it on. Tomorrow, two boys/girls will ask if they can I have your number? Send this message to 15 nice, people or bad luck starts for a whole year. This is not fake. Apparently, if you copy and paste this, you will have the best day of your life tomorrow! Good luck

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Once you read this letter, you must send this to 15 people, including me. If you get at least three back, you are LOVED💕🥺. Nobody knows how important something is, until they lose it. Tonight, (right at 12:00pm) the person you love will realize they love you. Then, at 1:00pm to 2:00pm, be ready for shock of your life! If you break this chain, you will have bad luck. With love, send this to the 15 If you don't, you will turn ugly in one year A friend told me to do this, so pass it on. Tomorrow, two boys/girls will ask if they can I have your number? Send this message to 15 nice, people or bad luck starts for a whole year. This is not fake. Apparently, if you copy and paste this, you will have the best day of your life tomorrow! Good luck

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Dear Diary, new year, new you. HA! thats a joke. all your problems in the past follow you in the future. Your nightmares of you on the operating table as a 3 year old awake on the operating table in the middle of your own surgery cuz some idiot dident give enough anestsha. You think of how you are alive even with all the times you have code blued. Why? Why am I still alive? The answer is: Does one ask how the fish finds the light or how a mouse finds the way out of a black sewer? Because when there is nessacity, nessacity finds a way.

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Dear Diary, I still hate that fucking brat that stole my nintendo switch v2 on 12/23/2020 11:21 a.m. I remember it like it was yesterday and i still cant get over how his mom did not see it in his right hand when they left at 11:22 a.m, i dont know where they live and they are goddamn lucky that i dont because i have a lot to say to them. My mind is full of things to say in cocktail script in my notepad. THIS IS A CRIME HE DESERVES TO BE IN JUVENILE DETENTION. 

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Dear Diary, I still hate that fucking brat that stole my nintendo switch v2 on 12/23/2020 11:21 a.m. I remember it like it was yesterday and i still cant get over how his mom did not see it in his right hand when they left at 11:22 a.m, i dont know where they live and they are goddamn lucky that i dont because i have a lot to say to them. My mind is full of things to say in cocktail script in my notepad. THIS IS A CRIME HE DESERVES TO BE IN JUVENILE DETENTION. 

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-Truly yours Sincere Barnette <3

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I am hurt, because 2 days ago, I was playing video games on my XBOX, and SOME guy reported me saying I said ¨Fuck you¨ To him, and he was cussing at me, I went please stop! And he reported me! Now I can not talk or even text to people on XBOX nor the VIDEO GAMES! HELP PLEASE! PLUS MY NANA AND PAPA DO NOT BELIEVE I DID NOTHING! UGH!

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I am hurt, because 2 days ago, I was playing video games on my XBOX, and SOME guy reported me saying I said ¨Fuck you¨ To him, and he was cussing at me, I went please stop! And he reported me! Now I can not talk or even text to people on XBOX nor the VIDEO GAMES! HELP PLEASE! PLUS MY NANA AND PAPA DO NOT BELIEVE I DID NOTHING! UGH!

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So.. I REALLY want to play the games today, and it is HARD, because I ALWAYS get grounded, I am too lazy to type more.

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So.. I REALLY want to play the games today, and it is HARD, because I ALWAYS get grounded, I am too lazy to type more.

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i am really here to vent because my mom hasn't gotten me a therapist yet. my dad and my mom just got divorced because my dad was really physicly and emotionally abusive. my mom just tied the knot and got a divorce with him, and frankly now its worse than when they were married, now he blames all the abusive actions on her and a stupid medicine. he has all these excuses and he never just apoligizing. its dumb and my mom says she is ok but ik shes not, she can't be. it hurts alot that the person that said he would keep her safe told her she stressed him out and thats why he hit us but thats bullshit. it hurts that he won't ever think he did something wrong. it sucks and i can't do it , i wanna scream at the top of my lungs that hes wrong but i cant it bad. he tells me that my mom is the reason of all of this but she tells me he has full control which i belive but  i don't wanna chose sides i don't want to hurt my dad but i will. my mom is right. idk what to doooo. please helpppp idk how but ... idk

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Dear Diary, “when your at the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on” ~FRD. This quote helped me through some tough times

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Dear Diary, I think its time to explain a little about my other school, the little school of horrors. Well, mabiy I should go to the beginning before I go there so everything makes more sense. So when I was being created in the womb (i am a rape baby btw) I was making my body parts and whatnot and wait a sec! Soemthings not right! I got to go pee and i cant! Well, this was because I was making the skin for the you know what down there, I did ent stop growing skin for some reason. So what happen is the tip of my penis was covered by skin, then tissue was being made underneath it causing my penis to be compleaty blocked off. This caused urine that was supposed to be relised to go back up into my bladder and damanged my bladder, then so much urine acomulated that it started going up the tube to my kidneys and swish around there damanging my kidneys forever. The latter found out (my doctors) that my brain dident tell myself to stop growing skin down at my penius, and they have only seen this a few times. So when I was in the womb, i was in a lot of pain (just imagene needing to pee and not being able to and then felling the pee going back into your body and then your bladder and kidneys being damaged. So I was kicking and screaming in the womb "HEY SOMEBODY HELP ME I GOT TO GO FUCKING PEE." When I was born, the doctors wanted to take me to surgery right away, but my mom wanted to hold me first. I think this is what helped me get thorugh what happens next. Her holding me let me forget the pee for a sec and let me feel my mothers love. Then, I was sent straight to the operating room. The would have to slice the skin to my bladder and suck out the pee. The then would have to do the same for my kidneys. After, I was in the hosiptal for the next 9 months under scrict supervision as they were pretty much studing me and seeing what caused this. I think I will take a break cuz theres a lot more to be said. Thanks for listing.

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you no how i showed a picture this is him alone 

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you no how i showed a picture this is him alone 

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he is so cute

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2 cats

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hey want to see my dog and you seem very nice and you are very kind and thanks i love my cat midnight she is only 6 years old and i love how you write what you think here is my dog 

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hey want to see my dog and you seem very nice and you are very kind and thanks i love my cat midnight she is only 6 years old and i love how you write what you think here is my dog 

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Dear Diary, I am seeing just how much life is worth waiting for. We all have a purpose and today I am seeing that. People I have never met in real life are talking to me and they are soooo nice. From the girl named London who lives in the next town over, Windham, to Krissy, who has an adorable cat. I can now add these people to my friend list as people I can go to and talk with. Sometimes I am so caught up in my own life that I never see the true goodness in strangers. And I never realize that there is so much to understand about humans that I just bury myself in a deep deep dark hole and these people I have met this past month and a half, are something to really appreciate.

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um want to see my  cat and hope you feel better sean it is always good to let what you want out that is cool when you do because you do not have to keep it inside letting it out is always good hope your day is going great and everbody else day and also it is good to have a friend and your girlfriend to be nice and i can tell they are realley good people 

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um want to see my  cat and hope you feel better sean it is always good to let what you want out that is cool when you do because you do not have to keep it inside letting it out is always good hope your day is going great and everbody else day and also it is good to have a friend and your girlfriend to be nice and i can tell they are realley good people 

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UHM HI I'M SORRY... AM I SUPPOSED TO BE IN HERE? THIS JUST SHOWED UP IN MY RECENTS AND IM NOT EVEN CLOSE WITH SEAN SO IDK HOW HE CAN TRUST ME LIKE THAT SO I AM CONFUSED ON HOW I GOT IN THIS PADLET? IF IM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE IN HERE CAN I BE REMOVED BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE AN INVASION OF PRIVACY!!! THANK YOU <3

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UHM HI I'M SORRY... AM I SUPPOSED TO BE IN HERE? THIS JUST SHOWED UP IN MY RECENTS AND IM NOT EVEN CLOSE WITH SEAN SO IDK HOW HE CAN TRUST ME LIKE THAT SO I AM CONFUSED ON HOW I GOT IN THIS PADLET? IF IM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE IN HERE CAN I BE REMOVED BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE AN INVASION OF PRIVACY!!! THANK YOU <3

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Dear Diary, I used to write in you remember? In that black journal I had that used to be my science journal when I was like 5 or 7 or something? But then my mom read it and well, ripped out the pages and went ballistic cuz, well you remember the things I wrote. So here I am again, writing in this diary and complaining bought my life even though there are kids in Africa starving right now. But you know what? I dont care cuz i am not in Africa i am in Salem New Hampshire in america suffering in complete anguish. I have a bipolar mother and a fucked up dad. But at least i have two peeps that i care for deeply. The first one is named lilee and shes my girlfriend. Were did i meet her you ask? oh online. Yep and it gets better - I met her on brainly, the cheating website. Crazy right? But shes awesome and I tell more bought her later. The second is Hailey Lee and she is a kind person. The type of person you would expect to teach yoga cuz she is just so calm and peaceful and stands by you no matter what. But she also stands up for herself which is a strong aspect of humans.