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1.Throughout my growing up I have been surrounded by many amazing people who supported me through thick and thin and for that I am forever grateful, but most significantly my grandma. My grandma was my rock and I could go to her with everything, every issue, every worry, every little insignificant thing I could go to her with and she would always have a solution. My grandma was the one person who truly understood me and she shaped me into the person that I am today.

Early during 2017 my grandma became really ill but nobody in my family noticed until it was at the point where she collapsed and had to be rushed into hospital. We were later given the news that she had had a brain aneurism that had led to her having a stroke. I will never forget the day that I walked into ICU to see her for the first time since her operation. I was so accustomed to her being lively and looking after us instead of the other way around. During the beginning she had over 50 tubes running throughout her body keeping her alive, but closer to the end she only had two, one that breathed for her and one that provided her nutrients.

On the 21stof April 2017 my grandma passed away from an infection that spread throughout her body while she was in hospital. On her last day it was an overly warm day for April and the sun was out. My mum had drove to hospital early in the morning and had offered to take me with her but I had said no because I just assumed that she would still be alive and on the mend in the afternoon. That is the biggest mistake I have ever made in my life and if I could go back I would have gone with mum in an instant.

Finding out that the person that you love most in the world has passed away causes the biggest pain imaginable and the passing of my Granny tore me apart. To this day I am still at a point where I blame myself because I feel I should have realised how ill she was and I should have been with her in her last moments but I didn't realise and I wasn't there when I should have been.

I understand that this is not exactly the significant hurt you were aiming to receive but this is the most hurt I have ever felt and still feel to this day. I feel that I am still in the process of forgiving myself for not noticing and not being there in the moment that Grandma need me the most.

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2. In reflecting upon the situation I am now able to recognise that I did apply two of the four stages of forgiveness. I was able to express the emotion of heartbreak and understand why what happened did but I still feel as if I am rebuilding my safety and letting go. As a whole my family has come together and supported one another in ways which are so loving and kind. This loss as a whole has drawn my family closer together than ever before but I believe that there will always be a feeling of emptiness where grandma used to be. Also in letting go, I think that part of me will never be able to because a day has not gone by where I have not missed her and I think a part of me does not want to let go because I do not want to forget her ever.

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3. The Vampire Diaries season 5 episode 16

a-    In this scenario Damon and Elena are in a dispute over an accident that occurred previous to this scene. The two characters are deeply in love with one another but struggle to be together as it affects their friends and family greatly. They continually have been fighting throughout several of the other episodes and have reached breaking point with one another. They fight until they are both in tears and feeling more alone than ever. The scene ends with Damon bluntly ending the relationship.

b-   Their relationship has affected many once positive relationships with surrounding family and friends. Elena has had to push away many of her friends in order to get closer to Damon, leaving once positive friendships in tatters. In the conflict scene Elena claims that she has put her own interests on the line in order for Damon and her to be together. She wishes to go back and change the past to which Damon decides to break up with her for her own benefit.

c-    The conflict is resolved when Damon confesses he made all of his horrible choices so that Elena would push him away. He claims to have done it for her own benefit so that she would eventually push him away and rekindle her lost friendships. Elena responds in saying she wants him and that she is in love with him and only him. This scene and resolution expresses the commitment that love comes with and the losses but in all positive things there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

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.  The Night We Met – Lord Huron

a-   Within the song the artist is talking about how he has lost someone that he loves and he wishes to go back to a time where there was no divergence within their relationship. He sings of his sorrows and while saying “I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you, take me back to the night we met, I don't know what I'm supposed to do, haunted by the ghost of you”, these lyrics express his regret over decisions that he may have made within the relationship. He wishes that he could go back to the night that they met so that he can start the relationship again. He is seeking forgiveness through expressing that he is ready to make a change for the better.

b-   The singer is at the point of understanding what mistake was made and he is wishing he could go back in time and change his ways. He has recognised that he may have been wrong during the situation and now he is desperately trying to right his wrongs in ways which aren’t possible. The singer needs to gain acceptance that he can’t change past decisions he can only move forward and make new and beneficial ones.

c-    Forgiveness would be beneficial for the singer as he would be able to move past his current situation and to a point of acceptance of the new and current state. Instead of continuing to be hung up upon fixing the past he would be able to move forward and on with his life, gaining new and positive relationships with others instead of being hung up upon the past. Within his situation he needs to move forward to letting go as staying within his current state of mind