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I have an old name tag from school that inspired me to paint my door today. I also made the decision to hang a ton of impromptu artwork on my door. I went ahead and painted it without any hesitations because I had nothing else to do.

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"But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise" The Duality by Slipknot

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"But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise" The Duality by Slipknot

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January 04, 2023

In addition to being a metal song, Duality has a deep message and is not just a song about screaming or the evil. Like in the song's lyrics, I can still clearly remember how loud the voices in my head used to be when I wasn't using headphones. I can't promise to enjoy it because having a lot of voices in your head isn't really a nice thing. To prevent anxiety and overthinking, I always put on headphones and listen to metal or loud music. But now, I'm happy. If I had to wear headphones, I was just bored and I also fell in love with music because I had been listening to different genres for a long time.

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"It's okay, things happen for reasons that I can't ignore" Bad Habits by Steve Lacy

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"It's okay, things happen for reasons that I can't ignore" Bad Habits by Steve Lacy

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January 05, 2023

There are things that we cannot control.  So, if there is something that cannot be stopped, there are also things that we can control. I always worry a lot but one day I realized it is not worth it to worry over and over again. While adopting a "go with the flow" attitude, let's also keep a watchful eye on circumstances.

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"I can still make the whole place shimmer." Bejeweled by Taylor Swift

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"I can still make the whole place shimmer." Bejeweled by Taylor Swift

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January 06, 2023

I am artistically gifted. I always draw, and it's turned into a hobby. When I first started making money, all I did was draw. Someone has already managed to reach out to me and they want me to draw them. I can still be great and make the entire space sparkle. I used to have little self-confidence, but now I do; my self-esteem has improved.

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My boyfriend and I visited 'tiangge' to eat the local cuisine and eat some street food. We didn't even know what to buy and eat because there was so much food available for purchase. We decided to have a tiangge date because we both missed one another.

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"As long as I got you, yeah I'm not afraid to die" Pretty Boy by The Neighbourhood

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"As long as I got you, yeah I'm not afraid to die" Pretty Boy by The Neighbourhood

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January 10, 2023

The world is already tiring and sometimes I just want to give up, knowing that everyone is also tired and it seems like this world does not even cheer you up at all. But the fact that many people also lift others up in so many ways, you just feel like living again. To have someone who always got your back, is someone I can share my life with.

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"You build me up like building blocks just so you can bring me down." Alphabet Boy by Melanie Martinez

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"You build me up like building blocks just so you can bring me down." Alphabet Boy by Melanie Martinez

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January 11, 2023

I used to know someone who is no longer in my life. I didn't think he could destroy me. Until now, I can't forgive someone like him and I don't know how to get rid of my anger towards him since it's the new year. until now it seems like I will let it be known that I have a grudge against someone.. because I don't know how to forgive anymore.

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Today, we did nothing but fix our research paper! Because our oral defense is tomorrow, we were allowed to prepare the paper.

To be honest, I'm very nervous but I can handle it because I know our paper. I hope tomorrow will be successful! good luck St. Thomas More!

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THESIS DEFENDED!

We successfully defended the paper. We were all nervous because there were a lot of parts to revise, but we could handle it. Maybe I'll celebrate tomorrow because I also did a lot on our paper.

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We celebrated my lola’s birthday! We went to Capas, tarlac for her birthday. Lola and her daughter prepared a lot of ‘handaan’ they were all delicious. Especially the cupcake ones, I truly appreciate the flavor and its moist inside my mouth.

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We had samgyupsal for lunch today, and it was fantastic! affordable as well. But before we got to eat, my boyfriend and I went to Tiangge for a date. We ate a lot of food off the street!

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There is nothing really novel going on at school, but I enjoy getting ready for it, so that is what drives me to be in class.

We visited my friend's home right after school! This house is sorely missed. Fiona gave us ice cream before we arrived, though! It was bitterly cold.

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For at least an hour, my school hosted a mental health program. It claims that because of our age, we are more prone to mental illness. However, SPCF is a very open institution when it comes to these kinds of delicate subjects, which is why everyone can really benefit from this curriculum.

After school, we had dinner at a fast food joint. The food was excellent! Moreover, we visited Krispy Kreme! The coffee was excellent.

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Today we are dealing with the short film on nepo. We went to so many places. My feet hurt from walking. Our leader in the group, he's good at taking angles! May we get high grades! We also ate at Jollibee, we were very hungry!

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It's been a tiring day. I can imagine our exam this coming wednesday to friday; It's tiring to think about because there are tons of reviews. Good thing I have someone to review with! But I hope we can pass the exam and the short film will be successful!

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“But lately, you've been actin' like you hardly know me”  Shut up my mom’s calling by Hotel Ugly

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“But lately, you've been actin' like you hardly know me”  Shut up my mom’s calling by Hotel Ugly

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December 06, 2022

I remember a lot of people treating me like crap when they don’t need something from me. It sucks and I felt humiliated. Sometimes, I really blame myself for being kind. I just want to help people because I know we are something personal, but making me feel like an option or no choice is just a no for me. I’ve learned my lesson though, I kept everything balance.

ps. We also practiced our Lapay Bantigue today!

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"She wants to go home, but nobody's home."

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"She wants to go home, but nobody's home."

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November 08, 2022

Everyone is around you, but you feel alone. You feel like there’s no one there; Everyone feels invisible. Even in my own home, it seems like I am all alone.

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It was the first day of school and it’s my first time to try my eyeliner! Everything went well, we also have our new temporary classroom and I am also not used to it! l ate and laugh with my friends too!

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Today was great! We just finished our lesson today and talked about our year-end party. Our plan was still tentative but majority of my classmates are okay with the celebration!

I also had meal with my friends and my boyfriend! 💕 We talked about our plans on Christmas and how we need to manage our time on our studies!

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“You're my favorite pain that could make me feel again”

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“You're my favorite pain that could make me feel again”

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December 12, 2022

It was a torture for everyone to suffer from the same pain again, or should I say the same person. I know a lot of people who are martyr for someone and it just really exhausting to see them hurting on the same person again and again. We should not romanticize this kind of set up in a relationship.

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“When you and I collide, I fall into an ocean of you”

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“When you and I collide, I fall into an ocean of you”

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December 13, 2022

The lyrics was indeed meaningful. My interpretation of this part “When you and I collide, I fall into an ocean of you” since the ocean is very deep, it means that when you talk or collide with someone you like, you really get to know them deeper. You start to talk some deep talks with each other. As someone who is tired of small talks, I enjoy deep talks because you consume a meaningful thought to someone.

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Today, we had our quiz in DIASS and philosophy! Luckily I studied last night. It was not a tough quiz to DIASS since I studied last night, but for philo, it was indeed a tough quiz; we wrote essays about our opinion related to the lesson!

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We had our year end party today!! I was chosen as the most stunning ootd and I won a tumbler! I joined a loooot of games! I also went to Jungle Base cafe and I had a ‘chikahan’ to SFDS and stem! They are amazing!

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“In the dark right now Feeling lost, but I like it”

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“In the dark right now Feeling lost, but I like it”

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December 16, 2022

I remember the time were darkness and isolation was my comfort. I never wanted to go out on my comfort zone. I felt safe but at the same time I never grow; I did not grow as a person. I was imprisoned by my fear and I will not do that again.

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“She always seems to be alone, but the diamonds make it better”

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“She always seems to be alone, but the diamonds make it better”

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December 17, 2022

I’ve been chilling here in my room listening to this song. The lyrics hits so hard especially the lyrics that was mentioned above. I’ve always like to be alone and I can spend my day by just doing my favorite stuff all day. The diamond represents my hobby, and it makes my day better when I am doing it or practicing it.

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“I was in a dark room, Loud tunes, Lookin’ to make a vow soon”

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“I was in a dark room, Loud tunes, Lookin’ to make a vow soon”

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December 18, 2022

I am an introvert person and I always love to be alone. I like minding my own business but I still communicate.. it’s not just my thing to socialize. Sometimes, I always ask myself if being “mahinhin” is my red flag as a person? I envy those girls who are a social butterfly, who can communicate with other people without the feeling of being overwhelmed by just starting a conversation. I often always think that maybe I am boring to hang out with, that’s why I always invite 2 or more friends at my house so that we can avoid awkwardness. I am also relate to the lyrics that was mentioned above, I love listening to music while I am minding my own business!

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My familly, The Garcia family went to Laguna! It was really cold compare to pampanga! I love the weather, the atmosphere, and the structures of buildings in Laguna! It was so nice!

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We went to University of the Philippines in Los Baños, Laguna with Kristan and his sister. The campus was so big! The UP students was also cool! They have a very unique style!

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It's Christmas! My siblings and I and mom lit a ‘lusis’ on the balcony! Yesterday we also cooked ube halaya and fruit salad that we ate this Christmas! It was very tasty but it was a simple feast because there were only four of us at home. It's fun and you'll see people outside cheering and laughing because of the fun. Christmas is really special to everyone, you can feel the cold air and love inside the home because of Christmas.

We also went to the Christmas village in Mabalacat and we took my brother's space shuttle. It's very nice there because there's ukay-ukay, there's a live band, and there's a lot of food that you can buy. There are rides that are very addictive to look at. It's worth going to the Christmas village because all the activities you need and want to do are there!

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Today, we went home in Pampanga and I already miss the breeze of Laguna! It was really exhausting but it was fun!

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Happy New Year! I waited for the new year with my boyfriend. My mom and I still celebrated in the afternoons. Mama also made Crema de Fruita last night and I brought my boyfriend some Crema de Fruita. My 2022 class was good and 2023 will definitely be good as well. A lot happened in 2022 and I will take that as a lesson, now I know that in 2023 I will also be grateful because it's new year with new beginnings. I'm making the most of the remaining days that I'll be on vacation because there's a class for that on January 4.

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"Didn't you see she were gorgeous, she was beyond belief."

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"Didn't you see she were gorgeous, she was beyond belief."

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November 09,  2022

A beautiful woman who is beyond belief in her beauty. I, who always get complimented by my outer beauty but never to my inner; They don’t know how perfectly imperfect I am inside.

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"Boys will be boys, then where are the wise men?"

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"Boys will be boys, then where are the wise men?"

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November 10, 2022

Boys nowadays are like viruses, and men are extremely scarce. Everyone requires a gentleman in their lives, yet boys can destroy anyone's mood. Society is a wreck.

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We defended our research title today! It was really challenging! My classmates did their best and the panelist were so kind! However, I was so nervous but I still delivered my part properly!

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We discussed the thesis last week, and while some were relieved, others were disappointed because they were rejected. Nonetheless, we began our regular day at SPCF. Despite the fact that our research was denied, life must carry on.

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We continued our discussion every subject today! I ate with my friends! This day was really exhausting and I don't know why. However, I still cherish every face-to-face class because I love seeing my friends.

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We had our roleplay in DIASS today! my role is the prosecutor. Our roleplay went great and every member did their best to play their role.

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"And I don't know why, but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress."

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"And I don't know why, but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress."

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November 17, 2022

This is very metaphorical type of line/lyrics. It means that she will be with you always no matter how bad the situation is. Taylor Swift is indeed genius!

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November 18, 2022

Happy birthday to me!

It's my birthday today. This song takes me back to my childhood, when my relatives would sing it to me while I stood in the center.

Happiest birthday, Cha!

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“We’ll safety pin the pieces of our broken hearts back together. Patching up all the holes until we both feel much better”

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“We’ll safety pin the pieces of our broken hearts back together. Patching up all the holes until we both feel much better”

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November 21, 2022

Safety pins represents our coping mechanism to everything that broke our heart. To fill the emptiness inside, we do a lot of things, even bad things.

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“I post a picture of myself cause I'm lonely. Everyone knows what I look like, not even one of them knows me.”

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“I post a picture of myself cause I'm lonely. Everyone knows what I look like, not even one of them knows me.”

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November 22, 2022

Taking pictures was my coping mechanism last year. Everything almost fell apart but taking pictures and doing my makeup escaped me from the black void inside my head. It was a tough year.

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"When you see me, will you say I've changed?" 

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"When you see me, will you say I've changed?" 

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November 23, 2022

Years and years I’ve learned a lot. I’ve learned simple things and hard things until I’ve changed to become better. I also noticed that I’ve changed; I don’t talk nonsense to everybody, I just shut my mouth. I’ve I am an introvert; I don’t have the energy when people are everywhere. I learned to put my self first. Everything changed and it was so good.

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We took a short quiz in Creative Writing! whew, thankfully I studied my notes in Creative Writing  but still, It was really tricky! Everything went great today.

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Today was my Creative Writing roleplay! I smacked my buddy across the face! I cried at the scene and my face was so red, especially my nose! My mascara was also ruined because it wasn't waterproof. Fortunately, our roleplay went quite well!

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Today, I was nominated for a good outfit! My classmate was the winner, and she is lovely! I had no idea my outfit had been nominated, but I am confident that my long skirt looks great!