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After having a chat with Laurie about my project we came to the conclusion that this needs to be something I absolutely love doing to keep myself focused and my initial idea was something I loved. I want to continue documenting myself living and dealing 2020/2021 problems and showcase it to the world. The idea that we are all so curious gives me hope that people will want to see this project. To see how others deal with situations. Although I want to keep taking analog artistic photos, I want to show the BTS of it all. The mundane, the repetitive cycle that is lockdown and my day to day life. How I inspire myself, What keeps me sane, what makes me sad. I want to document it all. Like a vblog or diary.

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A Self Care 'Box" comes with an interactive book/journal, and two decks of cards "Create" and "mindful". Cards will be illustrated, and on the flip-side will contain prompts which will either be a creative project, or a mindful, self love project. The game is designed to be played alone, on days when you're bored or overwhelmed or need a distraction from everything.
Maybe golden "dare" cards which aim to take you out of your comfort zone and challenge you to make an effort, such as reaching out to a friend you've not spoken to in over a month etc.

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After Spending a few weeks away from uni and the stress of life as we now know it, I finally managed to break through my creative block one sunny Christmas morning. I was looking at ways to spark my creativity in a calm and relaxed way, which was fun and engaging, looking at online prompts and easy self care tips, I suddenly thought about combining the two into a unique personal game which could be played by yourself, or with one other to prompt creative thought while advocating self care in the crazy times we live in today. I did some research on subscription boxes and self care boxes, one of which, I really loved the idea of. The Game was called 'We're Not Totally Strangers', a card game which you play with anyone; family, friends, significant other total strangers. The idea behind this game is to connect emotionally over prompts given by different cards. I want to incorporate that into my own project by creating a "game" based on finding self love and creative prompts.

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I've had a solid week of avoiding this project. I'm no longer sure on what direction I need to take to make this worthy of a good grade. It's no longer something I love.
I'm struggling to grasp an idea to hold, feeling so uninspired. Where do our minds go when we're so bored? when we're so stressed?
I know that I need to produce work but I just don't know what to do. I'm at a standstill.

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Using everyday objects around the flat, i’ll create a messy situation on my bed, which depicts a few everyday items that have helped me through lockdown and such. Laid out in a mess on the bed with myself adorning them. I’ll shoot digitally first to get an idea of how it’ll look - then i’ll shoot in 35mm for a nostalgic aesthetic.

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As much as I would love to create a photobook of my life through lockdown, the more I think about it, the less I feel anyone would actually want to read it. There is no selling point, there is no audience. It's too niche and I'm certainly not well known enough or good enough to be able to get away with creating something so bold.

Instead I've started looking at mindfulness and interactive books. Almost a glorified journal in a sense. This was I could possibly still use my images and my style of photography, just on a smaller scale.

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Honestly, I struggled with this. So much so that I had to take myself away and calm myself down. It was a bit of a disaster. I couldn't control my emotions and I need to learn how to take constructive criticism positively, rather than just seeing it as a negative. Although I panicked and couldn't answer any of his questions, It has made me rethink about the direction this project is going. It's almost a lovechild of my own creations of lockdown, with personal emotive feelings flowing through the pages it doesn't have a reason for being, and as Kieron said, using poetry makes it incredibly niché, and so it would be even harder to find a target audience. I also need to think about how it'll be presented. He said that it should be an invite only event, one that people must be brought to, as you wouldn't usually go out of your way to find it.

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Again by the bedside we sit
Just lost in thought and seemingly taken by the silence; So loud and colourless it left floating in our wake.

Another evening lost to the countless hours we clung to each other trying not to break. 

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Again by the bedside we sit

Just lost in thought and seemingly taken by the silence; So loud and colourless it left floating in our wake.

Another evening lost to the countless hours we clung to each other trying not to break.

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It's becoming harder to tell when I'm awake and when I'm asleep

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It's becoming harder to tell when I'm awake and when I'm asleep

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I'm so Afraid that worlds will not do my thoughts justice and so I just stay silent

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No more than two different typefaces in a publication UNLESS YOU CAN JUSTIFY IT. - Please.
Otherwise it'll turn into type soup.

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For the last week or so I've just felt like i'm backed up against a corner, unable to find a way of escape. Struggling to come up with innovative ideas related to my project, I just feel so stuck.

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Loosely inspired by the poem Grey room, to create an illustrated photographic series to highlight mundane life during the lockdown. To create curated and art directed images which can be relatable but also beautiful, showing us the beauty in all things.

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I find myself making noodle soup It's become a weekly ritual now
So comforting and familiar
From a red packet, I add the water and crack the noodles in half
they soften, as I soften

I find myself making noodle soup so often
it reminds me of times when I didn't have time to make a meal from scratch
It reminds me of times before.

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During lockdown, fighting to keep our minds afloat against the negative current of news and misfortune to which we are constantly bombarded with. We reward ourselves with simple tasks, the art of making, moulding, doing. We create loafs of bread, rolls of sushi or massive pots of soup. It's small comforts in finding the time to let your mind focus on creating the mundane. A sense of normality washes over, just for a little while.

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Using Gray Room as inspiration for my fmp. Steven's poem creates a playground for visualisation and relates to my original concept and statement of intent. The poem itself is centred around a bored woman, stuck in her grey room, which could be a metaphor for depression. I want to explore creating imagery for this poem and carrying on the narrative in my own way.

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Before presenting I felt so anxious, not knowing what people would think of my idea, thinking whether or not it would get shot down for being so personal. I'm not a good public speaker, especially when talking about my self and my work.
The feedback I received was so kind and encouraging I almost cried. Ricardo told me the project was powerful and had potential. Photography meets Illustration feels like an authorship route that may interest me, while looking at digital publishing to see where the field is going. My key word for now is 'Curation" and I need to explore this aspect of communication, How can I fully immerse myself in the process of curation.
I'm feeling incredibly positive, and I'm looking forward to continuing on my creative journey through these mediums.

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Her personal work is so beautiful. She talks of University as your first job and she's right. This is setting us up for our lives within a creative industry. Take all opportunities. The more projects you take on the more efficient you become.
Seek mentorship.

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Although you sit in a room that is gray,
Except for the silver
Of the straw-paper,
And pick
At your pale white gown;
Or lift one of the green beads
Of your necklace,
To let it fall;
Or gaze at your green fan
Printed with the red branches of a red willow;
Or, with one finger,
Move the leaf in the bowl –
The leaf that has fallen from the branches of the forsythia
Beside you…
What is all this?
I know how furiously your heart is beating.

- Wallace Stevens

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During the lockdown, i spent an extraordinary amount of time scrolling through social media, particularly instagram. Only to find images of beautiful men and women living out their best lives and dealing with their lockdown as if it's a minor inconvenience to their daily lives. I know this is just what they want you to see. We're looking at each others lives through rose tinted glasses, with little realism and relation to what is going on behind the lens. When thinking about my project, everyone went through and dealt with the lockdown differently. some struggled more than others. Some saw it as an opportunity to reset, create, slow down. Others saw it as detrimental to their mental state, small businesses failing to keep afloat. Others a mix of the above. I want to explore the relationships that I, myself have had in the quarantine, and how I managed to keep my head above the surface. But the water was/is rough, and sometimes I'm dragged under.

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Showcasing featured artists every month using different themes. Analogue photography only. The next theme is The Intimate which focuses on Art created during the world wide lockdown this year.

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/ Photography by Gerardo Vizmanos /

/ Fashion by Marco Drammis /

/ MakeUp by Takenaka /

/ Hair by Kanea Kikuchi /

/ Featuring Gabriel at Milk Management London and Yonatan Exss /

/ Casting by Matt Walford /

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Photography by Gerardo Vizmanos / / Fashion by Marco Drammis / / MakeUp by Takenaka / / Hair by Kanea Kikuchi / / Featuring Gabriel at Milk Management London and Yonatan Exss / / Casting by Matt Walford / ...

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Plants have been an ongoing theme within my visual work purely because of the amount of joy they bring me. I invite others to feel that joy too, to be surrounded by flora & fauna when stuck in an urban jungle.

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Something I used to do myself a few years ago, I found a love for expressing myself through lyrical verse. Especially in a time where expressing yourself can be so hard; Poetry can be so personal and emotional and secretive. No one needs to read your hand written scrawls unless you want to share them with the world.
I found Courtney Peppernell's book Pillow Thoughts while burying myself with words in Waterstones. I loved the design of the front cover, and the way the pages smelled. Her work is beautiful and insightful. Each chapter is based on what kind of mood the reader is feeling, and so you can pick what poems to read accordingly.

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More than anything, I'm excited to get my teeth stuck into any project after this summer, I need to wake my mind from its slumber and try to dust off all the skills I've learnt in previous years. The Pitch & Kick campaign has given me so much freedom to explore personal projects which have forever been on the back burner. I'm trying not to dive too deeply straight away with envisioning my outcome as I'd like to give this project time to grow organically from the ideas I procure. I'm looking forward to seeing how I can overcome challenges within the project and also with the current COVID19 state of affairs.

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An archive of images curated during the lockdown of intimate nude photography of normal people getting comfortable in their skin.

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It was March 2020 and London had just locked down as the Covid Pandemic swept the world. Suddenly our freedom was taken away and we were all stuck at home with only our thoughts and fears for company.

The project came about by chance and was totally unplanned. A friend sent me a playful selfie of herself nude and I sent one back. It felt fun and liberating at a time when there wasn't much joy or freedom. We were connected in that moment and it felt good and I wondered if anyone else would like to join in.

Over the following few months I received over 500 photos from people all over the world to my @bonniedoman Instagram account where I shared them. Women, men, grandmothers, sisters, friends and couples sent their nudes in. We all had the same thing in common, we were all locked down at home because of the pandemic and we were all as naked as the day we were born.

It's hard for me to explain just how amazing this project has been for me personally. I was really struggling with a lot of things including the breakdown of my marriage and felt isolated and alone, but through this project I have connected with so many incredible people. It's made me realise that you don't have to be a great photographer or a creative person to make something beautiful. Art is in all of us, because we are the art.
@bonniedoman, July 2020
148 x 220mm, 112 pages. Printed on GalerieArt Matt stock, linen cased cover and Swiss bound with a naked spine. £28 plus p&p. Scroll for sample spreads.

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It was March 2020 and London had just locked down as the Covid Pandemic swept the world. Suddenly our freedom was taken away and we were all stuck at home with only our thoughts and fears for company. The project came about by chance and was totally unplanned.