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You're Shaking in the night

On your bed you lay

Her words are not meant to obey.

A trouble maker with a bittersweet taste

You sob as tears stream down your face

She said she cries

But her eyes are dry

Your pain she ignores

Why do you care anymore?

There's nothing left here to adore

My arms go sore

Just leave me here

I know you're bored

But just before you go

you should know

I feel so alone

Even if I don't show

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No one's dwelling with fear

It's no fun here!

There so close to death

And yet I don't see a tear.

One even called me dear.

Just old people drinking beer...-

Are they not thinking clear?

This is making me insecure!

There all so dreary

It's making me teary..

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Walking alone
No where to go
But I don't wanna go home

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I want you

But I'll never have you.

And I don't know what to do.

Everything sucks I'm through.

Done with life.

No more hope too carry through.

This isn't a good bye...

More like a silent cry...

You'll never hear...

Because that's life.

Everything good ends.

And it would hurt to just stay friends..

But everything hurts..

So I guess I'll go then...

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Does it hurt to know

That I'm in pain..

Without you on my brain

Everything makes me feel insane.

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Taking my pills a day

To take the gay away

Because they want

For me to be straight

Depression is fake

Your life's a mistake

Anxiety is just an excuse to run away

Avoiding your fate

Dont take your life today

I am ready to be fake

Babies are made

But can't be safe

No parents to help change

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Welcome to hell

You're one of a kind

Prettier than a sapphire dime

Become a devil and serve your time

Stand in line and drink your wine

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Everything's cold

I'm not that bold

I'm reused and old

I sit back and let it unfold.

Cold and shallow

Sit back and stop being foul

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Sorry to bother
But I can't help but wonder
What would you do without me?

Would you worry bout everything ?
Would it just be a sting
Or something you can't believe

Would you wanna see me
Or would you feel free
I can't help but think...

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It's been two months since you left me
My heart feeling heavy
My mind feeling empty
Can't believe you left me..

2 months
Can't make 3
I just can't believe...
I don't know what to think...
You we're my everything...

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Same old shit

Different day

Can't even get sleep

Life's a pain

Everything's so plain

Simple as can be like

Like the dimple on your cheek.

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I am the monster in my head...

I'm the one that wishes i were dead-

I am my worst enemy,

Not my best friend.

I’m like a drug to an addict...

Once you take a hit...

You hate it...!

Because you’re now addicted

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You say you love me one minute

And hate me the next

Pick a side before you invest

In something like me cause i’ll cause you stress

The pain doesn’t go away

It just stays

But you’re my painkiller for my really bad days

Numb me down till i cant breathe

Kill me now or in my sleep

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He’s the right to my wrong

The lyrics to my songs

The place i go when i’m all alone

The one that creeps into my mind

When my rhymes are right on time

He’s The one i love the most

He’s the spirit to my ghost

He’s everything i need

He’s a super duper great salty bean

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A blessing from Hell and a Sin from heaven 

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A blessing from Hell and a Sin from heaven 

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I may be a blessing

But I’m not from heaven

I’m here to help

What i couldn’t do contained in hell

You shine so bright

So i followed the light

Cautious of the dangers

You were just a stranger

Now you’re something more

Something i never had but asked for

You’re the demon from heaven

And I’m your angel from hell ~

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You’ve been working so hard

For so long

And you give it up now

Thats just fucking wrong

Why keep stuff in

LET IT OUT

Don’t try and drown it out

It wont work not now.

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I’m as worried as worried can be

Maybe there just asleep?!

maybe...Maybe...MAYBE?!?!?

Please please please

Let them come back to me

Let them be as safe as they possibly can be

I’m so tired and so beat

But i won’t give up until i know i don’t have to worry

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It’s harder to stop then it seems

Cause everytime something goes wrong

You just wanna feel the sting

The blood pours out

It won’t stop now

Don’t give in to the others around

Because that’s the easy way out...

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We cry ourselves to sleep at night

Tell each other it’ll be alright

Pretend to others that we’re fine

Fake a smile while we’re dying inside

But not everything has to be so bright

Darken the mood and take away the sunshine

But sometimes people just get tired of their lives

And live in secrets beyond our eyes

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Is he mad at me ?

Does he hate me ?

I don’t know what to believe !

I want to be happy !

But my mind won’t let me….

It just repeats the same things-

That make me feel he’s left me…-

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I want to hate him

But i can’t-

Cause every chance i get

I want to hold his hand-

Feel his hugs

And enjoy his love

But instead i sit and watch

As others are happy with his love-

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When he left everything got sad-

When she vanished everything got bad

And when he didn't reply i wanted to cry

I really hope those three are alright

If not i might just die-

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I stole my own soul-
A thief of my own heart
The one that crushes my feelings
And puts myself in the dark
Im the one that hopes i'll die
I am not one of a kind.
I am just not the best guy...

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You still give me butterflies

I can't believe you're really mine

this feels like a dream

after I've cried myself to sleep at night

I love you so much

Sometimes I don't wanna die

you will always be forever mine ~

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This is absered  !

Haven’t you heard ?

There is no cure.

For what's broken cannot be served...

Served right or served wrong-

There is no tomorrow,

And there is no bright happy song.

So let's all sing along !!

Before we all crash and fall ~

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Did you forget about the deal?

Ik It's hard to conceal it...

And try not to feel it...

You try hard not to reveal it.

But it ends up spilling out!

With each day you count-

But please don’t give up now!

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My mind's where it shouldn't be

thinking of possibilities

Situations that already happened

I dont want to repeat

But what happens if you really do leave me

Rip me apart piece by piece

Break me till im forever broken

Leave me to die in defeat

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You’re so sweet

I think of you before defeat

I try harder so no one has to save me.

I don't like locking doors to shut people out...

Especially people like you who just want to help out !

But it’s just something I do…

I feel I must keep everyone out.

But I'm unlocking these doors and I’ll try my best to let it all out.

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There’s no possibility

You’d ever think of me the same

Because she’s in the way

Wish you were gay ~

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Dear Mr.Sweets

I hope you know

I will never leave

No matter what emotion I may receive

I will stay, As long as you believe!

Trust me, I'm not someone that deceives.

I love you and I promise,

To always keep you with me!

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I used to like the silence

But now even that is too loud-

What's wrong with me?

Why am I always so down..?

What's happening?!

The darkness it surrounds

Around and around....

I might just drown.

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I don't want to talk

I just want to walk

Just walk away

The pain everyone caused me stays.

I wish I could just abandon this place!

What's up with that face..

I don't want space!

But that's all you give me to taste !

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Oh dear diary I met a boy

He makes me feel joy

Oh dear diary

I said I'd stay

And I'm gonna keep it that way ~

(inspired by a verse in Bubble gum bitch)

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Behind bars...

With nothing to warm my heart

But food and water

But I don't wanna eat !

I'd rather starve.

Someone take me out

And take me somewhere far

Save me now or I might not be here tomorrow

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My life is a dream..

But not a dream come true.

The thoughts they seep

The monsters they creep

The water is deep

And everyone's blue

And soon I will be too!

But I'm not yet through

And neither are you.

So don't ever give up.

You have to stay strong enough!

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Are you ever just so tired

You can't sleep

You're just mentally drained

From every single thing

But no matter how hard you try

To close your eyes

They just lay open

As you're dying inside

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Oh my dear shu

One day I will save you !

I know I might have this out of the blue

But I mean it !

I really do...

One day every place will be safe for you.

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what if I died

I wouldn't get to say goodbye

or maybe I could I would

It all depends on if I should

Should I die?

should I take my own life ?

I guess there is no better time

But I don't wanna say goodbye

So I'll stay until I decide it's really time

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I’m fine is just a lie.

A disguise to hide what's really inside ~

The blade of a knife cuts deeper when you try-

The more time flies the lesser the chance I get to say goodbye.

Please stop trying to die….

At least until i'm not alive

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Let me be brave
So you can be safe

Let me be strong
So i can sing along

To this song called life
Where nothings truly that bright

Let me be dark
So others can shine

Let me die
So others can thrive

Let me keep biting
So nothing keeps dividing

Shut me out
So i don’t hold you down

Let me keep quiet
So you don't have to keep lying

Let me be whatever makes you the most happy !

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In and out

But never down

To stay around

So i just sit back and drown

You watch and stare

As i repeat it's not fair

But do any of you even care?

I really don't think i should even be here

I dont belong.

Just sing your song,

i'll try and follow along

In my own little world

made for two

That should be enough but there's no room for you.

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Laugh now

But then you'll frown

Cause i wont mess around.

Oh how i adore

That body of yours ~

Taking your clothes off

To further explore..

I want more~

What's that look for ~?

Am i your chore ~ ?

You do me when you're bored ~~~

Haha now you're sore~

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I don't wanna get up today

Please just let me stay

I don't want you to go away

But this pain is unbearable to take

I don't wanna be awake

I just wish I was ok

Maybe I will be some day

But I don't know what I'll face

I don't wanna get up any day.

Please let this pain just fade

I just wanna take my last breath away

Cause I don't think I can stay..

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He's always on my mind

I forget to watch my time

I think of him till i feel alright

And go to sleep feeling safe at night

Oh my Mr.Right ~

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I miss him so much i could scream

I think about him every night every day and inbetween

I wonder if he thinks about me?

I'm just way too blind to see

I'm way to obsessed

With the thoughts of him and me

But when he's with me I'm as happy as i can be-

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I'm a king of my own journey

Leading the way to where i can be happy

And the place i shall stay

Where memories can be made

In such a positive HAPPY way

A place i can call my home

When i'm all alone

My own little happy place !

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When he left everything got sad

When she vanished everything got bad

And when he didn't reply i wanted to cry

I really hope those three are alright

If not i might just die

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When im all alone

My thoughts just seem to flow

into my mind after the clock hits 9

Shivers go down my spine

As i think of all the ways to die

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He has a lot on his plate

How will he take it all

He doesn't want to fail nor fall

But there's to much stress to take it all

He's not depressed ! Just...Sad is all~

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You cant decide what i am

Or what i'm going to be !

And you don't get to decide

When i'm happy !

And you cant choose my fucking gender.

Cause i am what i want to be

I.Am.A.Boy. And that's me.

So fucking accept me before i fucking leave

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I used to want you to stay

Now i want you to leave

I really dont care what you say about me

Hurt me all you want

I bet you'll have fun ~

I'm so fucking done I'm not even gonna run.

So while you're here !

Let me give you a tour to the door my dear~!

Get out of my life i dont fucking want you here.

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My bitter sweet heart beats

For only the thoughts of you and me

You’re sweeter than a tasty treat ~!

Always keeping me company

When i’m just about to give in to defeat

You show up and save me !

Your words have great meaning...

And just because you can't do something

Doesn’t define you as weak

But please tell me when you’ve reached defeat...

So i can save you like you’ve saved me ...!

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A place to get lost in the waves

To be one with the water

And to move at your own pace

Exploring the ocean.

It’s water and it’s waves.

The home it gives and the stress it takes.

It’s all thanks to the ocean.

I could stay there all day.

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They told me i try hard i could fly

I never tried.

I thought they had lied.

But i can fly !

So I'm gonna climb high

Jump off the roof...

And finally fly.

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The thoughts keep going
The lights getting dim

I'm now drowning
But should i give in

Give up my last breath
And let this be the cause of death

Or should i kick my feet
And hold my breath?

Trying not to sink deep
And drown in stress

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You hurt me with the words you say

And yet i still stay...-

It seems you always find a way ~

To cause me even more pain

I've cried more tears then it's ever rained

But yet i still keep it that way

You act like i dont have a brain !

Bring things up that make me shake.

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In a dark room

Only his thoughts to consume

Everything he's ever been through

Flooding back to him Like it's only been a day or two

He's over everything !

BUT, he's not over you...

Are you through,Are you through,Are you through?!?!

He really doesn't know what to do!

He doesn't even know who he should go to!

Please dont leave him in this dark room!

He doesn't know what to do....

He might not never make it through

He's turning blue..Almost done but not through.

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Something I lack.

Something I keep in.

Something I don't have.

Something I was never given.

Something I don't get.

Something I don't want yet.

Something that keeps me offset.

Something that makes me Sweat.

Confidence is just something i don't get

And haven’t received yet.

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You see a shadow one day

You decide to say hey

It waves at you but stays in place

You walk over to see it’s face

It turns away.

You back up and give it space.

And from then on you and the shadow would always play.

But something changed.

You found more friends, And pushed the shadow away.

The shadow you saw that day

Was me, no place to go and no place to stay.

No one at home and no one who stayed.

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I've known it all my life

It really is one of a kind.

Something i wish was mine..

But that's for another time !

Love is something great.

Something that can but won't change.

I love you and it's gonna stay that way.

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Fuck you for making me feel this way.

Fuck you for saying you would stay.

Fuck you for making me change.

Fuck you for calling me strange.

Fuck you for mixing pleasure with my pain.

Fuck you for always getting YOUR way.

Fuck you for staying another day.

Fuck you i never want to see your face!

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When i'm with you

I convince myself not to be blue

I'll say i'm happy even if it's not true!

Are you that way too?

I really don't have a clue..

I just hope you'll make it through.

At least get saved before i do !

That way i can come and be with you

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Cotton candy skies

Always running out of time

Don't even know what's mine

They think I'm through

I'm turning blue

Nothing's even fair

Do you even care?

Always in despair

Just lying here

Waiting for my luck

To get me unstuck

(This poem was inspired by the song)

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Poems don't have to rhyme..

So i'ma say what's really on my mind.

I think about this all the time.

Am i out of line?-

Everyone says I'm just fine..

I don't like girls and i don't know why.

But that's just fine

It's perfectly alright

But what am i?

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Emotions are one big headache

And i have no meds to take

I think i might break..

I guess I'll just have to wait

Go to bed and hope to wake

You'll have to give me a little shake ~

One shove is enough my love.

And they say i'm sent from "Above".

I feel like giving up..

But i haven't had enough.

So i guess i still have some luck

Now take away my headache and get me unstuck.

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Something i don't give but you still take.

I shouldn't have to wait.

Wait for the turn i yern.

It's not like you deserve !!!

Why do i have to be so absurd ?

Ha haven't you heard ~ ?

There really is not cure.

I'm done now! I don't care if i'm a "Jerk"

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Hot and heavy

Why have they left me ?

I'm not ready !

I can't breathe steady...

I'm such a mess to plead.

Why can't they ever see...

When something's wrong with me!

There's no such thing as Jealousy.

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Everything I want

Gets taken away from me

But when it comes to you

You get everything.

Why can't I get what I want?

Instead of Sitting back

And having "Fun"

No wonder I'm always on the run

I can't take it here

And I'm speaking up

Just this once.

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It pains me that I can't save the day

But anyway

I promised I would stay

And I'm keeping it that way !

Who knows what we may face

I may seem like a disgrace

But I can do anything..

If you just don't look away

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I want to close my eyes and be alright

The thoughts are overflowing

So many at one time

All stuck in my mind…

So much time to think so little to rhyme

But in the end nothing will ever be alright

And i’ll never truly be “fine”

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Theres a lot of things i want to say

But dont get them out

It's like someone's put tape over my mouth

I wanna speak my mind but it doesn't even rhyme

I'll just sit back and watch my time

I'll watch the clock until it strikes 9

That's when i have to go night nights

But i'll stay up till 10 my dear

I wanna die on time this year

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When the lights go off

i feel so small

but when the lights are bright

i feel like i’m high

i have no reason to live but many to die

so don’t mind me if i don’t care if you cry-

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I’m so dead

I’m so weak

I just wanna die in peace

You won’t let me cut no more

That’s so sad

I’m so fudging sore

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Why cant i hate anyone?

Break their heart just for fun !

Make them feel the same ~

Make them want to die in the worst way….

Cause them stress in pain

But at the end of the day they’ll still say “I’m ok”

So my question is why do you make me feel that way…?

You hate me and that’s...Ok!

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You're a hoe

You get with everyone you know

At least you try to

I'll never get that part of you

But all I know...

I'll never love you the way I used to show

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I stopped telling Mr.Right What happens at home at night

I’ve been dying to cry into his arms

But i think me and him have grown apart

But that's ok

I’ll just bother him day by day

He cant get rid of me

I’ll forever stay

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Do you think of me?
Like I think of you
Tell me Is it true
What are you going through
I wanna be there for you
Please help me I'm turning blue
Thinking bout you
Maybe you're through...
Tell me is it true
Are you turning blue ?...
Tell me how are you..

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My sweet baby boy
Never treats me like a toy
He brings me lotta joy
Oh my sweet baby boy ~

My sweet baby boy
He gives me butterflies
I never wanna die
When he's by my side ~

My sweet baby boy
I wait for his replies
He's always by my side
I'll stay till I die ~!

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My anxiety hits the roof

What do I do ?

I don't want to lose...

Somebody give me some booze

What's your issue?-

Can I really trust you?!

Ik we'll never be through.

Even if you do what you do...

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I'm out of breath

No air to take..

Why does no one ever tell me,

When they break?!

My head aches

No meds to take..

I was born a mistake!

My wall's they shake..

Nowhere to escape...

Why does everything have to be so..

Damn fake?...

Your words are a steak-

for god sake...

Why can't i never catch a break.

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Bandaids everywhere
Cause there needed for my care
I refuse to share
So you just sit there

Bleed out if you like
I promise I won't bite
Well actually I might
But let's not fight