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Today, I found out that not very many people know what a "violent" pacifist is! I am one. What is a “violent” pacifist? The "violent" pacifist is someone who carries with them a deeper understanding of life, love, war, and combat. The "violent" pacifist is one who could lead a prayer group as easily as they could lead a militia. They are the keepers of peace and the commanders of consciousness.

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I am so excited! I found this yellow knit sweater and a blue dress. So with the black pants, I'm wearing, it makes me look like Ghostbur (Don't know who that is? Look here! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltLfZI-4ZZM ) Also my school is doing a FREE VINTAGE clothing giveaway! SO excited to go and have another look during AD-room today!
(Check out Wilbur Soot's channel! https://www.youtube.com/c/WilburPlays )

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Damn, haven't uploaded daily like it said I would. Nothing much has happened over the time I wasn't on. Although I did listen to both, the Periodic Table Song and the 100 Digits of Pi song. Lmao, I love both songs you should listen to them! I most likely won't be uploading on here on the weekends.

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Hey, so today we talked about what Meth Face was. Damn it was scary, all I could think about was the time I had done the drug and realized I could have gotten addicted! Addiction is not something you can easily get rid of... I now know what my mother is going through and feel terrible for abanding her in a time of need. I wish I could talk with her. If you know ANYONE going through this makes sure you stay by them. Don't give up on them.
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Today there was a terrible crash that caused me to be late to school. Glad no one was hurt but passing by it i got scared because the red tint of the oil made me think it was blood. It also did NOT help that I was up untill 6:00 cause the neighbors were hitting something mental.

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First Monday post! I really have nothing to say today. I ALSO FORGOT FRIDAY'S POST. woops lmao! My hair is now a periwinkle in colour so thats new! (Don't know what the colour periwinkle look at the picture! the flower) That's all love you all!

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Today I am going to discuss something serious. Yesterday around 3:35 a guy that goes to my school told me to k*ll myself. He called me loud and obnoxious. Then he proceeded to talk to his friend saying and quote "It's a good thing that HER ex is pressing charges for assault!" He called me by dead name- in front of some of the bullies on the bus. I'm non-binary and everybody knows this. I just want anybody who is being falsely accused of something they should not hide. I have been sexually and physically assaulted... it is not something to joke about. Please do not accuse people lightly. I am now scared that if I tell people I know that they are going to tell me it doesn't matter and that you shouldn't listen to them but I am not going to sit by idly and ignore the fact that my EX-BOYFRIEND is accusing ME when he was the one who both cheated and messed with my head when he never liked me. In the end, make sure to speak your mind and don't let others choose what is said about you. Find a way to end the lie. ASSAULT IS NOT A JOKE!-

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Hello everyone. Today I am in a very VERY ditructive mood. LMAO- I was in math and my teacher said that if I'm not feeling good that I shouldn't be talking! So I said "This is a free country right?" Then I proceded to say that I have freedom of speach. He told me to get out of class before I left the room I said "Bye bi*ches" and I walked out!! Now I'm sitting in the office waiting to see if I have detention or ISS! Be who you want to be even if it's a trouble maker! Love you all!!! (Don't do anything that will hurt someone as you all know I may be an anorchist but that doesn't mean you should hurt someone. I still am a pasifist so as long as no ones getting hurt you'll be fine!)

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Hey guys guess what I might be getting a job YAY!!! Have a good day

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OMFG-... Sorry... I'm just beyond pissed right now! One very VERY close friend of mine is ASEXUAL and does NOT like being touched and because of them being hurt before I don't trust a lot of people with them. I just found out that someone I HAD TRUSTED with them has been doing things to them... And They have the AUDACITY to come up and ask "Hey, is *insert name* okay?" I wanted to punch them so badly and right now they're sitting in front of me acting like everything is okay... Guys, I don't know what to do?.... I feel so exhausted. Why do I want to hurt them so FUCKING much? They're lucky I don't feel like leaving my friend alone at school. But maybe you guys can tell me what to do?

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-Hello, guys I hope you knwo that you can comment if you want you all should be able to.- Today I had to sign a no contact contract at school meaning the bad person I had talked about yesterday. Meaning I can no longer talk of them but that doesn't mean I'm not going to ruin her life and reputation.

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(Video above is my current favorite song!)

Someone just dead named me- They also keep accusing me of harassing them when I haven't had a full-on conversation with them in almost a year. When I did hang out with them it was when I was dating their best friend... -they will be a whole other post.- I had not been in the right state of mind and still am not. Now he is trying to spread rumors of me and I'm scared that people will start hating me again... this is why I had tried to kill myself, people making comments and spreading lies about me. I even hurt myself yesterday long after my other post. Guys, I'm scared what do I do?

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(UPDATE) Hey everyone... sorry but I wont be posting for the rest of the week hope you understand...

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Macklemore - Same Love (Lyrics + Official Music Video)

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Hello, everyone. I just want to say that I will not be uploading everyday due to my mothers passing... I feel really depressed at the moment.. hope you have a better week than me.

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Hello everyone, as you know my mother has passed... I just wanted to give an update... The police haven't released her body from custody and an ongoing investigation is going on to find her murderers... multiple people hurt her is what I've been overhearing from the adults in my life... kinda wish I could end it and kill myself but I can't leave my family because we just lost our mother...

I hate life...

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Hello, everyone just wanted to update you all my mom's memorial service will be in about two months I will tell you how the process goes when we start. love you all

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Hey best and only friend, if you can read this please tell me you're okay love you bubs...

Hey guys, just wanted to update you... my mom's funeral is on the 30th... and I'm sorry to anyone who has missed my daily updates... Bye guys.

If anyone is going through a loss let me know and we can talk in a private padlet if you want.