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Characters: The main character Connor, as well as Harry and Rebecca, are introduced.
Setting: A car driving on a dirt road in the woods
Plot: Connor is kidnapped from his parents' holiday home by "transporters" his parents hired. Harry and Rebecca, the two transporters, drive him into a secluded forest - to the boot camp "Lake Harmony". At first Connor has no idea what all of this is about. Especially Harry behaves very unfriendly and rough towards Connor, calling him "rich boy" all the time.

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Characters: Three men appear. Connor calls two of them "Troll" and "Athlete". A woman called Sabrina, who seems to be close to Connor, gets mentioned.
Setting: A small windowless room
Plot: Connor is able to figure out, that he’s at a boot camp. He gets put in a room similar to a cell - no windows and few furniture. Two men are with him. They just watch him without saying anything, until they order him to stand up. After a few hours of standing another man enters the room. He tells Connor to undress. After Connor does so, he receives his uniform - a shirt, jeans and flip-flops. Now Connor is allowed to sleep.

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Characters: Connor meets Mr Z, the director of Lake Harmony.
Setting: A brick building, that contains a lobby, the director's office and classrooms
Plot: A man wakes up Connor who doesn’t want to get up, but changes his mind after the man tries to pry Connor's shoulder out of joint. By talking to the man, Connor finds out that the boot camp is called "Lake Harmony", supervisors must be addressed with "sir" and his parents have sent  him to Lake Harmony because of his behaviour. Then the man takes him to the director Mr Z. Mr Z hands "the bible", documents filled with information about the boot camp, out to Connor. Connor gets send to an empty classroom. His task is to read the documents and then pass a test about it, which he takes immediately and passes. Afterwards two of the supervisors bring him back to the windowless  room.

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Characters: Connor "gets to know his new family", consisting of 20 other males. It turns out that the three men from chapter 2 are his "father" Joe and the chaperones Mr Gold and Mr Spike. The focus is also on a red-haired boy, a black-haired girl and another boy called Jon.
Setting: A dining hall with long tables
Plot: Connor sits at a table with his "family", which is called "Dignity". The red-haired boy starts talking to him, even though he knows that Connor isn’t allowed to talk because of his level. This attracts Joe's attention - the "father" of Dignity. He takes care of it by confronting Connor but gets angry because he assumes, based on Connor's answers, he doesn’t respect him and Lake Harmony. Joe wants Connor to tell the others why his parents sent him to Lake Harmony. When Connor refuses and asks to talk to Joe about it privately, Joe tells it anyway: Connor is in a relationship with his former teacher, a woman ten years his senior, and ignored his parents' thoughts about it. Connor doesn’t respond to Joe's provocation, but instead acts calmly. This makes Joe so furious that he orders Mr Gold and Mr Sparks to bring Connor to the TI.

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Character: In the beginning Connor is alone, but later he meets all the other Level Ones and Joe again. He doesn’t know most of the names yet, but the redhead turns out to be "Adam". He nicknames three of them "Zitface", "Chubby Girl" and "Unibrow Boy".
Setting: First in the temporary isolation room, then in the "Circle" room of the Level Ones - a small room with plastic chairs set up in a circle.
Plot: The first part of the chapter is about Connor, who got send to the TI - temporary isolation. This means he has to lie on the floor of a room for days without a proper break. This leads him to think about his past, his parents, Sabrina and that there have often been situations in his past in which he didn’t understand what his parents thought was wrong. He thinks his stay in Lake Harmony is such a situation. A few days later all Level Ones meet in the "Circle" and Connor has to report Joe what he learned in TI. When his answers again don’t satisfy Joe, even some of the other Level Ones call him names. They also talk about Connor's "mistake" dating Sabrina and disregarding the prohibition of his parents. Connor has to confirm that he has understood that he will only leave the camp when he has learned to obey his parents unconditionally.

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Characters: Connor is among the 19 other males of his "family” and Joe. Adam, David (Zitface) and Unibrow Boy (Robert) also appear, as they are part of Dignity. The two teen guards Ron and Jon and Pauly are introduced.
Setting: The dorm of Dignity - a windowless room with metal cots and mattresses.
Plot: Joe scolds Connor for standing up in the night. Then Joe walks up to Pauly, a delicate boy, as he notices a rash on his face. He suspects that the rash was produced by Pauly, but Pauly claims it came from food. After Joe leaves, Adam, David and Robert follow Pauly to the bathroom. Connor also goes into the bathroom, because he heard a scream. He sees Adam pointing a pointed toothbrush at Pauly, but Connor is able to stop him from hurting Pauly. When Adam walks past Connor, he threatens to kill him.

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Characters: Mainly Connor, Jon, Ron and Joe.
Setting: The TI room from chapter 5
Plot: Connor has to go back to TI because he defended Pauly. Jon and Ron visit him daily to beat him up. But only in such way that you wouldn’t notice it in the next day - this is Joe's rule. All alone again, when Ron and Jon have left, Connor thinks about his past again. He remembers a trip to the Colorado River with his father and the time he spent with Sabrina, but also an argument he had with his father when he was younger, because he didn’t go to school regularly. Connor thought it was superfluous, because he learned so much faster than older children anyway and could spend the time differently.

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Characters: Connor meets Joe, Pauly, David, Robert and the others again. The black-haired girl whose name is Sarah acts for the first time.
Setting: The Circle room
Plot: Connor is allowed to leave the TI and is led to the Circle by Mr Sparks. On the way there he asks Mr Sparks a question. He disregards the rule that says that one must not speak without being asked. And yet he gets an answer. The topic of the Circle is Sarah, because - after two and a half years - she still hasn’t "improved". Robert tries to annoy her by saying that he's almost a Level Four and she’s still a Level One, but she counters this is only because Robert is just doing everything as Joe wants him to. She calls him "a part of Joe's Gestapo".

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Characters: First only Connor, six more from Dignity (Pauly, David, Stu, Robert, ...) and Ron, Jon and Joe as chaperones
Setting: A gravel area near the parking lot, later the hall outside of the dorm
Plot: While washing their clothes outside, the seven boys are unattended for the first time. Pauly uses this to talk to Connor. He says there’s no point in pretending to understand everything they tell you. You really have to believe it to leave Lake Harmony. Pauly also suggest an escape attempt, as this is their only way to get out. But while Connor is still thinking, Joe comes. Jon told him about Pauly's rule break and he receives a painful punishment. This makes Connor realize that Pauly is serious about escaping Lake Harmony. Later Joe orders Connor to pick up a gum wrapper that Joe threw on the floor of the hall outside of the dorm. Again and again. But one time Connor picks up the wrapper even though Joe doesn’t order him to do so. Joe kicks him in the face to punish him. Connor has to continue, but he faints because of his blood loss. When he regains consciousness, the wrapper sticks to him with bloodstains on it. He wants to give it back to Joe, but Joe is suddenly scared and Connor realizes that Joe is afraid of the blood on the wrapper. Connor thinks about chasing Joe around the hall with his "gained power", but stops himself, since this is probably what Joe expects him to do. Instead, he becomes polite again and asks if he should clean the floor.

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Characters: In the beginning it’s only Connor, Joe and Mr Z, but later also Sarah, David, Robert and Adam
Setting: First in Mr Z's office in the old administration building, then the food hall and the bathroom of Dignity.
Plot: Joe leads Connor to Mr Z‘s office. The blood incident stays unmentioned. Connor is allowed to ask Mr Z a few questions. He only doesn’t get an answer to the question why Connor is one of the few people who visit Mr Z so often and talk to him like that. After dinner there is the possibility to write letters to your parents, but Connor doesn’t feel like it’s necessary. He thinks about how his parents told him to end his relationship with Sabrina and how worried they were about his future. Connor couldn’t understand this, because he mainly lived the life they wanted him to live. He knew that his parents only said such thing, because they didn’t want to be embarrassed in front of their friends. He starts writing a letter almost automatically. When Joe notices this, he first reads the letter in front of everyone and than tears it apart. Later that day Connor is in the bathroom. Suddenly Adam stands behind him with the pointed toothbrush. He cuts Connor in the back with it as a punishment for not letting him have Connor‘s hotdog.

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Characters: Almost every important character appears in this chapter (Sarah, Joe, Jon, Ron, Pauly, ...). I new character appears: Megan, a new Level One.
Setting: The dorm, outside of the dorm, a classroom and the Circle room
Plot: Connor found a nub of a pencil and used it to leave a note for Sarah under her table top. That’s how they started to communicate. Pauly asks Connor how he thinks about escaping to Canada. He also wants to take Sarah with them. In the Circle Connor is forced to talk about Sabrina again. Joe tries to convince Connor that Sabrina probably already dates someone new. The others in the Circle agree. A few days later Sarah mentions Pauly's plan in one of her message to Connor and that she thinks it’s good. At the next Circle they talk about Sarah. Connor notices that Sarah is getting thinner and paler and that she fights with her "mother" while dinner. At another Circle Megan is introduced. But she immediately attacks Joe and flees. Connor, Pauly and Sarah use the situation to talk about the escape. Sarah and Pauly already made up the plan to set a fire, but Connor is still unsure about everything regarding the escape. Connor sees Megan, wearing a straight jacket, lying on the floor when he goes back to his dorm.

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Characters: Connor and Sarah, as well as Adam, Joe, Rachel ("Chubby Girl") and Ted, a new character.
Setting: First at the infirmary, then in the food hall and then again at the Circle.
Plot: Sarah and Connor agree to meet at the infirmary. Connor uses a headache as an excuse to leave class. Sarah is already lying there on a cot. Ted, the doctor and supervisor, gives Connor some medicine and leaves the room for a while. They end up talking about why Sarah’s is here: She disagreed with her parents‘ religion and she couldn’t live with anybody else. So she is trapped in Lake Harmony until she’s of age. At lunch Adam tries to get Connor to give him some of his food again and even blackmails with a note from Connor to Sarah, which he found. He even shows it to Joe. However, Connor’s handwriting cannot be identified because he wrote it with left hand. By the next circle, Connor has reached Level Two. He starts an argument with Adam, but regrets it as soon as he realizes that he walked into a trap set by Adam and Joe. He needs to get back in TI.

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Characters: Connor, Ron, Jon, Joe, Mr Sparks and Pauly
Setting: In one half of the chapter the TI room and in the other a football field
Plot: Connor loses track of how long he has been in TI. All he notices is that fall has arrived. But the worst torture for him is to be all alone with his thoughts. He even thinks about whether his relationship with Sabrina is worth all this. After a few weeks in TI, Connor is tested to see if he’s "ready" to come out of isolation. Joe wants him to write a letter to Sabrina. But Joe isn’t satisfied with the result and tears the letter apart, because Connor doesn’t admit in it that he’s to blame for everything. He’s still allowed to leave the TI and play soccer with the others. Pauly talks to him during the game and explains his and Sarah’s plan. Connor has to admit that it’s risky but well thought out. Before Connor continues to play, Pauly tells him that they’ll have to leave in two weeks - at new moon when the night is at it’s darkest.

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Characters: Connor, Mr Gold, Adam and "his Gestapo" (David and Robert) and Pauly
Setting: Connor’s carrel
Plot: Connor has to transport a new TV to one of the TV rooms of the upper Levels. Adam drops the box with the TV in it on Connor on purpose but pretends to be innocent. Pauly, who has observed everything, comes up to Connor to see how he’s doing. He tells him they only have five days left until the outbreak. But Connor is still unsure wether to join him and Sarah and doesn’t react to this.

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Characters: Connor, Joe and, for the first time, Mr Durrell - Connor’s father - appears.
Setting: everywhere in Lake Harmony
Plot: Since Connor is already six months at Lake Harmony, his parents are allowed to visit him. Joe prepares Connor and the others to make sure Connor’s father will have a good impression of Lake Harmony. The night before the visit, Connor thinks about how to convince his parents that it was a mistake to send him to Lake Harmony. The next day only Connor’s father shows up because his mother has some work to do. Joe leads Mr Durrell and Connor through Lake Harmony without ever leaving their side. Before Connor’s father leaves, he tells Connor that he thinks Lake Harmony was the right choice and Connor will come out as soon as he’s "mature". Connor has to hold back his tears of frustration as his father leaves.

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Characters: Connor, Adam, Joe, Pauly and a new boy named Miles
Setting: The dining hall, after the time skip outside
Plot: During dinner Connor has to go to the bathroom. In the hall, he notices Joe whispering something into Adam’s ear. Back at dinner, Adam provokes Connor. Even though Connor knows it’s a set up, he attacks Adam. But since Joe hasn’t noticed what happened, Connor doesn’t get punished. Some time passes. The new boy Miles becomes Adam's new victim. While jogging, Pauly tries to talk to Connor about the outbreak again. He says the escape should have happened three days ago, now they’ll have to wait twenty-seven days for the next new moon. Pauly and Sarah want to go
to Sarah’s aunt in Canada - with it without Connor. Connor thinks about their plan again and notices that he doesn’t even has to manage to escape in order to leave Lake Harmony. The fire that is part of the plan would probably be enough for his parent to have a reason to get him out.

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Characters: Connor, Joe, Adam, Miles, Mr Sparks, Robert, David
Setting: The TI room, the Circle room, later the gym and the bathroom
Plot: Joe wants Connor to try writing another letter to Sabrina. Connor doesn’t really want to, but Joe is threatening him with TI. When Connor can’t manage to write down the things Joe wants him to write down, he has to go to TI anyway. This time he can’t even distract himself with his thoughts. He hears Joe’s voice in his head. When he is out auf TI, he writes a new letter which Joe reads out loud in Circle. Joe then asks the others for their opinion on the letter and if Connor truly believes what he wrote down. Joe also asks if Connor has already learned his lesson and is prepared to return to his family. Adam is the only one who answers: He doubts it. Mr Sparks allows Connor to enter the gym because they need one more person to play basketball. After the game Mr Sparks encourages Connor and tries to cheer him up. He would tell him a lot more, but wants to keep his job. Later in the bathroom, Adam and "his Gestapo" approach Connor, who already suspects that they’ll attack him. They throw burning powder in his face and start kicking, punching and cutting him with the pointed toothbrush. Just before he faints, Connor hears Joe telling them to stop.

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Characters: Connor, Mr Sparks, Joe, Pauly, Adam and his "gang"
Setting: The infirmary, the dining hall and the hall
Plot: Connor wakes up in the infirmary. Mr Sparks is with him, checking on Connor’s condition. Connor asks him some questions and finds out that Joe didn’t order Adam to beat him up. Mr Sparks also tells him that the rumor about a kid dying in Lake Harmony is true. Connor stays in the infirmary for four days. On the day of the escape - it’s new moon -, the males are lining up as usual to go back to the dorms. Pauly causes a chaos by pushing Miles, Adam and Connor on top of each other. While Joe takes care of it, Pauly quickly goes to the breaker panel. But Joe notices this and rushes to Pauly to prevent him from shutting down the power. Connor has to decide wether he helps Sarah and Pauly by stopping Joe or just leaves them to their fate.

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Characters: Connor, Sarah, the driver who lets them into his car, and Joe
Setting: Outside, in the woods and next to a road to Canada
Plot: Connor decides to stop Joe and Pauly manages to turn of the electricity and lock the breaker box. Connor quickly gets food from the food hall and then meets Pauly and Sarah outside. There are people running around everywhere. The group leaders and chaperones have gathered to catch escapees. Pauly knows that the gate has to be opened and a path cleared when the fire truck come because of the triggered fire alarm. They use this knowledge to run trough the gate in the right moment. However, Joe has noticed them and now chases Sarah. He gets her, but Connor attacks him and Sarah is able to get away from him. They tie Joe up with duct tape and hide him behind a tree. Then they leave. After a few miles of walking they take a break. Pauly’s plan is to hitchhike to Canada. They position themselves at a nearby road. A man stops and agrees to take them with him. When he asks them what they’re up to, Pauly’s comes up with a lie, but it’s quickly revealed. By now the man has also noticed the identical clothes of Connor and Pauly. Thereupon he mentions Lake Harmony and that a friend of him works there.

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Characters: Connor, Pauly, Sarah, the driver and the semi truck driver. Harry and Rebecca appear again
Setting: At a gas station and in the restaurant of a truck stop
Plot: The driver continues talking about Lake Harmony, but leaves it at that. After some time they stop at a gas station and the man leaves the car to buy food and drinks. Pauly immediately tells them to run away because the man would call the police. Sarah and Connor don’t believe him but decide that running away is the better choice. They hide in a corn field next to the road. Pauly’s intuition turns out to be wrong: The driver thinks they've run away and drives away. Now they look for semi trucks, because the drivers are most likely not to be from here. They quickly find someone. After a while they ask the driver to stop so they can use the bathroom. When all three got out of the truck, the man just drives away and leaves them alone. They still go to the bathroom first. Connor notices a man in the bathroom who resembles Harry, and waits until this man has left the toilets. Connor and Pauly go back to Sarah, who is looking for news about Lake Harmony in magazines. Suddenly Rebecca, eyes on the magazines, comes to them without noticing Connor.

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Characters: Connor, Pauly and Sarah. They talk much about Sabrina
Setting: The woods next to the road
Plot: Rebecca disappears after a while. Connor explains to Pauly and Sarah that Rebecca and Harry were his "kidnappers" and that they are probably looking for the three. They realize that they must spend another night homeless. Pauly says they could dumpster dive at night and then continue their walk through the woods. So they hide between trees and leaves. Pauly falls asleep immediately, but Sarah and Connor are still talking about Sabrina: When and how Connor and Sabrina met and how others found out about their relationship. Connor tells that his parents made sure Sabrina was fired and thought everything was settled that way. But Connor and Sabrina continued to meet and he was sent to Lake Harmony. As said, they look through garbage cans in the middle of the night, find food and make clothes out of the garbage bags. Then they walk through the forest near the road. Sarah steps and a sharp piece of wood and Pauly makes a fire so Connor can pull it out. The fire spreads and they manage to stump it out, but now there’s smoke everywhere. They leave quickly and now walk directly along the road. Connor knows they won’t get far because of Sarah’s injury.

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Characters: Connor, Pauly, Sarah and Rebecca again
Setting: In a corn field and a truck depot near the St. Lawrence river
Plot: Since Sarah cannot walk any further, they hide in a corn field. Sarah and Joe are talking again. Sarah is scared but Connor calms her down. The next morning Pauly is sick. Suddenly they hear the loud fog horn of a ship. Pauly thinks about it and then notices that they must be near the St. Lawrence river - the borderline between the US and Canada. When they’ve left it, they see bridge, but they can’t cross it because they don’t have identification. Connor notices a distribution centre and comes up with the idea to sneak into a truck and wait until it crosses the border. He takes a closer look a the centre and walks around the buildings. There’s no one in sight until he finally sees two standing at a corner. One of them raises his head and Connor has to realize that this person is Rebecca.

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Characters: Connor, Sarah, Pauly and Rebecca
Setting: The distribution centre and a boat rental cabin
Plot: Rebecca recognizes Connor He runs away from her and she chases him. He finds a place to crawl under the fence that’s surrounds the centre. When he’s halfway under the fence, Rebecca grabs his feet, but he frees himself and gets to the other side of the fence. Instead of running away, he talks to Rebecca about Lake Harmony, since she can’t get him right now anyway. On his way back to Pauly and Sarah he notices a boat rental cabin and comes up with an idea. He first explains to them that Harry and Rebecca now know their location and then about his plan to cross the river with a stolen boat from the boat rental. They hide near the cabin and wait until they think there’s a chance that no one would notice them.

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Characters: Connor, Pauly, Sarah, Harry and Rebecca
Setting: In a boat on the St. Lawrence river
Plot: Rebecca and Harry have parked near the cabin and notice Connor, Pauly and Sarah. The three of them escape onto the dock. Before they get into one of the boats, they open the screw stoppers of the other boats. Harry and Rebecca are too late. When they arrive, Connor, Pauly and Sarah have already left. They think they’re safe now, but then Harry and Rebecca also get into one of the boats and start chasing them. It seems they haven’t noticed that their boat is about to sink because the stopper has been released. Connor thinks about wether two lives are worth his freedom. On the Canadian side, only Pauly and Sarah get out, because Connor wants to go back to save Rebecca and Harry. He makes a deal with them. He’ll save them if they let him go back to the Canadian side. So he saves them and is about to turn around when a police boat suddenly appears.

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Characters: Connor, Rebecca, Harry, Joe and three police officers
Setting: A police station, Harry’s rented car and Lake Harmony again
Plot: The cops arrive at Connor’s boat and arrest him, Rebecca and Harry for taking a boat without permission. Harry explains to the officers why he and Rebecca are chasing Connor. They’re taken to a police station. There Connor and Rebecca are left alone for a while. Connor thinks that the punishment that await him in Lake Harmony can’t be much worse than what he has already experienced. Rebecca’s reaction to this makes him doubt that statement. When they’re allowed to leave the police station after several hours, Connor has to come back to Lake Harmony with Harry and Rebecca. In the car, Rebecca doubts that this is the right thing to do, but Harry doesn’t change his mind. During the drive Connor thinks about Pauly and Sarah and how they’re doing. When they arrive at Lake Harmony, Joe is already waiting for them.

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Characters: Connor, Mr Z, Joe, Mr Gold, Adam and his Gestapo and Mr Shafer - Sarah’s father
Setting: The lobby in the administration building, the TI room, later the food hall and then outside
Plot: Connor lays on the lobby floor. From there he can hear what Mr Z is discussing in his office. He talks to Sarah’s father and explains to him that he cannot bring Sarah back against her will because of the Canadian law. He hangs up and walks into the lobby to see Connor. Mr Z tells him that he’s the first one who was able to escape for so long and has caused a big problem for Lake Harmony. Connor finds out that Pauly and Sarah are both safe: Pauly is in a hospital and his parents won’t send him back to Lake Harmony and Sarah disappeared. Joe and Mr Gold then take Connor to TI and beat him up. They don’t have to worry about leaving marks anymore. When Connor gets back from TI, he has to crawl into the food hall. There Mr Z has an announcement to make: Everyone will take responsibility for the incident, so everyone will be downgraded by one Level. This ensures that everyone has a hatred towards Connor and he’s constantly attacked and hurt over the next few day. When a few days later everyone has to go into the dorms, Joe takes Connor outside. He chains him to a stake and Connor has to spend his night like that.

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Characters: Connor, Joe, Adam, Mr Gold, Mr Sparks
Setting: Outside where Connor is chained to the stake and TI room
Plot: It’s the next morning and Joe wakes Connor up. He orders Connor to get up over and over again, but beats him back on the ground as soon as Connor stands up. Then he starts hitting him with a tree branch. Connor has to crawl back to the TI room but has to kneel down instead of lying down. This time Adam is allowed to beat Connor up while Mr Gold watches him, so that Adam becomes a Level Six again. Connor constantly shifts between being conscious and unconscious. Adam leaves him alone and Mr Sparks brings him food. He allows Connor to lie down and promises not to hurt him. When Adam sees this, he fears he’ll get in trouble, and Connor has to get up again.

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Characters: Connor, Joe, Mr Z, Jason, Rebecca, Mr and Mrs Durrell and an unknown man
Setting: In the food hall and outside
Plot: Several weeks have passed. The others have stopped attacking Connor. He’s now a Level Four and became one of those who are just trying to get to the next Level. He understands Joe’s words and started to believe them. He stays out of trouble and thinks everything’s better that way. After dinner Connor writes a reflection text in which he says that he regrets the escape, has realized his mistakes and is ready to go home. Joe reads the text and likes it. He asks Connor if he wants to lead Dignity to the dorm. This surprises Connor, as this is the job of a teen guard. He accepts, because he wants to quickly become a Level Five, so he can let his hair grow longer and watch TV. A boy named Jason enters the food hall to call Connor outside to see Mr Z. But instead his parents are waiting outside. His mother hugs him and whispers, that they’ll take him out. Behind her are Mr Z, Rebecca and a man. Rebecca told Connor’s parents that he saved her life. His parents didn’t believe that until they were contacted by Sarah, who informed them about the conditions in Lake Harmony. The man wants to know from Connor if he’s ever been hurt by a staff member. His mother tells him to just ignore Mr Z and tell the truth. Connor answers that it’s true, but insists he deserved it and continues to call his father sir, even though his mother said he didn’t have to. Lake Harmony has changed Connor and his answer shows that he’ll probably never again become the person he was a few months ago. He has become what he detested the most.