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I feel overwhelmed when I have to do multiple things within a short amount of time but with a lot of pressure. I am a perfectionist, so I want to do everything perfect. But having to do so many times at once will not allow me to do anything up to my standard. This would let me down.

It feels empty. This home doesn't feel like home without my kids. I don't like the mess, but the cleanliness of the house feels just weird. It's clean, but it doesn't feel right. I never knew that being clean is not always the proper way of being for a house.

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Doing this and that. Worrying things don't work out as planned. Phone rings again and again, messages popped up. People are talking, my head is spinning. Oh... sometimes I feel like going blown up.

It's time to stop and take a deep breath. Turn off my drama, turn on Kdrama. Now, I am feeling a bit better :)

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At school, I felt like the odd one out. All of my friends were getting along just fine but for some reason, I felt like I did not belong. My bag, clothes, and lunch are different from their much nicer ones. I am afraid to talk to them and it seems they are avoiding me too. What can I do to make some friends in this school? - Rendila

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I feel a deep sense of gratitude when I realize that self-love is essential for surviving against the hustle and bustle of the modern world. Loving yourself doesn’t mean that you have to be selfish. You just need to take a good care of yourself first, before you are ready to serve others. You just can’t pour from an empty cup!

~Ni Putu Dewi Ersani

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I feel a deep feeling of being an educator. A long journey with many feelings. Like a book that gives a lot of meaning so that the role of teachers accompanies students is so meaningful

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Ni Wayan Sariani

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It’s Sunday right? I don’t need to wake up early I hope. I take my phone, OMG it's 7. I don't finish my project that I must present this morning on the online webinar. I plan to cook a delicious meal for my family as usual on Sunday. My children uniforms are still in the washing machine. At 8 this morning I promise to help my sister in law to complete the offering. I look at the mirror, I am looking for my sweetest smile that I usually see on Sunday. Whare is my smile? Oh, its time to take a deep breath, just smile, and just do something priorities that I can do.

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I am proud of myself.

I am a teacher, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a daughter in law, a part of sociality. My husband works abroad, we are in distance. I do all of the activity alone. I am a great human being from my point of view

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I was sitting in front of my laptop, attending a workshop from UPI and BGP. My head kept spinning when the speaker asked me to pour some ideas to write on my ms. Word. Kinda hard for me, gaining more good words to knit while seeing my husband was playing happily with my son. It felt hurt when my son eyes starred at me. Oh, thought I heard his sneeze then played with the red balloon bought last night on the side of the street. The dilemma aroused in my heart, wait, deep in my head too for being a mom who supposed to work while taking care of my dearest baby… to be continued.

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Take a deep breath (long sigh) ffffuuuuhhhhh. Thank you universe for always being with me wherever I am. Thank you my body for always understanding me. I let go of all feelings of hurt, disappoinment and sadness. I forgive those who have ever slandered, hated or hurt me. I accept everything as a part of your plan universe, such a beautiful plan. I am happy, i am healthy and abundant. Made Reni Widiartini

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The end of the school year is filled with various additional assignments. School holidays? For me there is no such thing as a holiday at the end of the school year. Running against time and sometimes forgetting my own needs, but it is a task that must be completed.

Wahyundari

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I am proud of you, I know you are not a good mother but you always learn to be a better mother

wahyundari

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Life is just a journey. You chose where to go, Where to stop.

All you have to do is just keep make a choice. Whether it was the right one or wrong.

Ups and downs are always there. So enjoy the journey.

Dwi Omawati

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MORNING

On a crisp morning, the sun embraces the dusty and dry land, shining with a golden yellow light. I feel today is an amazing day, just as I thought last night after having a nightmare that seemed so real. When I woke up, I realized that I was still breathing. It was truly awful, but luckily, God has kept me alive. I thank God for this great moment. Now, standing in front of the mirror, I look at myself and feel grateful for this second to live my life better, both as a wife and a mother.

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Ni Made Wirawati

When I think about that day ,I feel free. In the midst of the hustle and bustle of every life we often and anxiety,However,there are times when we find my serenityin silence especially when sitting alone in the middle of nature.

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A situation that left a lasting impact on me was qualification as English teacher is not suitable with my job. My qualification is English education but I was on duty in elementary school so I can not attend PPG a long time. I attended magister but it is not suitable too. Then I attended S1 again in UT but not finish because the government was built a new school and I got there.

I love teaching - Putu Swardyanti

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I remember the first time we started taking......

You were the reason for all

The reason I got my laugh back.......

The reason I fell asleep with a smile on my face........

The reason, I had motivation to do things again.......

The reason, why my problem didn't seem so bad........

.......You truly have made my life better by just being on it.....

..........Just My Reason.........

I Made Suardana

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Dear myself,

Thank you for being a professional juggler against never-ending tasks and deadlines. You've done great, dear self. You are enough. I love you. Thank you.

~Dewi

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Ni Made Wirawati

Dear Me , I am Proud of you for the experiece.Although time continouses to pass and I grow older,my cilhood memories remain an invalueable treasure.In those memories, i find the strenght to face future challeges and the inspiration.

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Dear Me...., I love myself. You are strong, very strong in any situation. I have done my best. You are better than before. Stay strong and always positive.

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Dear old me

i was first child and grandchild in family. all of family love me.

Now

I enjoy this moment. i love teaching, i love caring my children and family.

My future.

Dear me i am proud of you for be strong and get pleasure and enjoyment with belove family

Stay strong - Putu Swardyanti

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The wind blew my hair as if whispering to me.

Be patient, be strong, you are not alone.

The universe is always with you.

Be sure everything will be beautiful in time.

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The wind blew at night

Cover all my fatigue

Anxious, worry in the dark of night

No one cares

No one come close

No one wants to be with me

There is only disappointment

Hope for happiness forever

And sweet dream come true

Poetry - Putu Swardyanti

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Hi…. proud of you

Keep going and stay happy

Although your energy is not as young as you hope

With your bone creaking when you rose

And the back always wants the bed

Keep going and happy

Confront kids’ questions and amazing behavior

Battle with kitchen set and unfold clothes

Dealing with husband’s needed

Keep going and happy

Coz your happiness is a family bliss

Dwi Omawati.

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Watch the clocks move quietly

Slowly from the dark night to the bright morning.

Today the wind storm is roaring fiercely, tomorrow it will be replaced by rainbow, warm sunshine and birdsong that seems to laugh at the fear that exists.

Don't be discouraged or doubtful, hope will always be there for people who always learn to be patient.

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I felt overwhelmed when the demands as a teacher leading to feeling exhaustion but there's an immense sense of pride and satisfaction when students achieve their goals, knowing that I am shaping young lives and contributing to society is incredibly fulfilling.

-Oka Sutrisna-

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My Childhood was atime full of color and wonder, I grow up in a small village on the outskirt of the city. where everyday felt like a new adventure .From dawn until sunset ,each day was filled with playing outside,exploring nature and interacting with peers. We opten gathered in the field near our house to play hide and seek ,run arround,or simply joke while enjoying snack we bougt from warung nearest from house.We were happy together.

Ni Made Wirawati

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Tick Tock Tick Tock

The clock is ticking

Counting hurriedly

Dragging the ages

They run here and there

They cry loud and laugh

They are taken care

They are up and high

Tick Tock Tick Tock

The clock is ticking

Counting hurriedly

Dragging the ages

They sit and sleep

They talk and go

They watch too deep

They raise to glow

Tick Tock Tick Tock

The clock is ticking

Sadly but happily

Release them to grow

-Andro

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Dear future me

It’s 44 years more now. Of course I am not young anymore. So graceful for the healthy, complete, and cheerful family. I always feel my husband always love me deeply. No hesitation. I can see my oldest son run many bussiness ; big barbershops, nice garments, and many more. He has many foreigners as the relation of bussiness. I smile for proud to my daughter known for her skill as programmer. She has many costumers. My youngest son is really skillful to run his bussiness as a mechanic. I believe my dream will come true.

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What feelings should I write about?

There are many feelings that I can sense in just one time. Sounds a bit crazy. 😊 So I choose just on some happy feelings. Happy feelings come from the smell of balado udang that my husband is having in front of me right now. The smell gives a sense of contentment and I can feel happinedd to see him chewing his meals away. It makes me happy and hungry. I should’ve taken a picture of him having lunch.

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All my life

The concept of self-love is strange

I never know that I deserve one

But now, I realize I need to change

I’ve been too hard on myself and now I’m done!

From now on

I’m learning to open my heart

To love myself more

To give more time to myself

To take better care of me

I wear clothes I’m comfortable wearing

I eat food that I’ve been craving for

I sing my heart out loud, even my voice is out of tune

I sleep in, whenever I feel tired

I am not pushing my limits anymore

I’ve done well, I deserve the best for myself

I am enough

~Dewi Ersani

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Dear me

I am an old with wrinkle face

with so many stories etch in my mind,

My back is bent , my hair is turning white,

Through years of toil and endless strife

I walk in path , then build a life

For those I love , I give all I have

To see them rise, to watch them stand tall and happy

From early morning till late at night

I work and fight with all mine

No burden is heavy and no task is small

for family I endure it all,

For Family , I live to fight in strugling

I've got so many lesson in every step on mine , so I realize that life needs suport and motivation

( Bu Handayani )

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Last Wednesday until Friday I spent three days and two nights working fully on my dissertation proposal. It was quite a challenge because I had to solely focus on my research and nothing else. I decided to stay near campus during those days so I could focus.  I spent my time mostly reading every time I returned to the hotel and wrote for around 8 hours every day for three days. After three days, it was proven that the intensive writing class was fruitful since I was able to map out my research better, revise a lot of things, ask my lecturers directly, and grasp concepts I had been struggling with better. It felt like all of my efforts meant something even though I still have so many parts that I have to revise and elaborate. My lecturer said that this intensive class will be held once again in a couple of months and I am looking forward to it. - Rendila

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Often silent in silence

The wind blows coldly

silently while taking a deep breath

and asking myself

what is being pursued in this life

why so tired

sometimes happy sometimes sad

taking a moment to reflect

looking inside myself

remembering what brings this life to life

until a smile blossoms

Ni Wayan Sariani

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Staring the square thing in front of me

Many parts of life are flying in my head

Sun shines so brightly outside

Make me light up the day

Once the power glance to the right

Then glance to the left

And push me ….I’m so confused

Which one can be hold

I wish to catch them all

With all my love and strength

Cause I really love them

All the happiness come from your side

Keep smile!

Keep spirit!

“Patmawati”