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you recently left the group chat and i won't prod and ask as to why. i know that you've been really stressed lately which is why i have come to give you a word of encouragement!!! you're an extremely talented young lady and God has truly blessed you with so many gifts. do not doubt his ability to see and hear everything that you do and think. although times may be tough right now, He is always there for you to lean on. He sends you help in mysterious ways. i understand that the main source of your stress is your wedding at the moment. true happiness does not come from materialistic things. it's the memories and feelings that you feel when you are with your significant other that you are truly happy. you have many people who love you and care for you. never forget that! i love you too <3

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Hey mama. I know you've been feeling really down lately, so I really want to fill this note with as much positivity I can. I've already exhausted my true feelings into my pm with you, so I really hope you can reflect on those and take into consideration the stuff I wrote, because I want you to be as happy as possible. I want to see you smiling all the time.

You know, when I met you for the first time, I was just overjoyed. Without a doubt, you were one of my favorite people I ever met online. Each time I'd get a notification that said "new story comment replies!" on aff, I got so excited I even told one of my friends, "MY FAVORITE AUTHOR REPLIED TO ME!" And oh boy, Bean (her nickname) got excited with me. It may have just started out as just a weird author reader relationship, but it meant so much to me. I've commented on stories before, but ZERO replies. So when you replied to me, I was in shock. Because you as an author had so much respect and gratitude for the readers! It makes the story 100x better when I know that my comments are making others happy. I remember asking you if you had an instagram, and then I found out you had a boyfriend, now fiancé, and I was squealing. It's kinda creepy since I didn't really know you so well back then, but you were my role model. I aspired to be like you. You might ask, why me? What's so special about me? But you know, I think the best kind of love is when you can't exactly explain it. It was natural; it just happened like that. (Like my love for Jangjun ;) (Can't explain it or come up with a reason).

But anyways, my awe and fascination towards you just kept growing. Clicking on that link to The Pig Song may have been one of the best decisions in my life. It became something I never stopped listening to, and I don't know why. Your voice was so soothing to me, and it still is. I showed Bean, "Look at how amazing my online friend is!" and I always talk to her about how happy you make me. Oh but it didn't end there. I found out your covers for the stories were also designed by you, and girl I was blown away. You said they're not so great or whatever, but I wasn't nor will I ever buy that lie. I talked about it in pm, but again, you're so multitalented that I don't even..I'm just amazed at the amount of commitment and time you put into each and everything. You do things so wholeheartedly, and that's what I think made the difference in how much I respect you versus how much I would respect another. I wish you'd appreciate yourself as much as I do, or as much as any of the Winkers do. And I'm telling you all of this without a filter. I may be a nice person, but I'm not someone who overly sugarcoats things, unless it's someone I literally do not know. If you asked Bean, she'd tell you how real this is and how much I care for you. I was a bit sad at school today while messaging you, and she asked me why I was sad, and I told her "My mom is sad, and I just want her to be happy."

Mel, when you're feeling down, remember this: The word passion is when you're completely involved in something. Nothing else matters. I look at you and I SEE your passion for writing, singing, designing, playing instruments. So why should anything else matter? Put your all into what you love, and only look at that. You love Woohyun, right? Even if someone says he's the most terrible person on earth, you'll still love him. It's because it's unconditional love <3 You still invest the same amount of love into him as you would if someone didn't roast him. That's how you should treat your hobbies too (That was such an odd analogy but whatever). The amount of love you put into your hobbies is commendable, I haven't seen anyone else be so dedicated and involved in life. Someone like you is so hard to find these days...there's a reason I made you adopt me. Because out of everyone I value you as my mother figure online. Every time I want to give up, I look at what you've accomplished, and I realize humans have so much potential to grow and learn. This is what helps me get back on my feet. Not a story update, not an incentive, but just the sole FACT that you and the winkers exist in my life. Yeah I haven't been here for more than like 3 ish months, and yeah I wasn't there when others may have had hard times, but know that in these 3 months, I've grown so much as a person, and it's all thanks to that day you asked me on Facebook to create a Line account. Give yourself more credit, please <3

Okay I don't know how much life advice I can even give at this age >.< I already spilled a lot into pm, but hey, I haven't talked about any funny stuff have I? This post has been way too serious for me, and you know that. I'm a fabulous dabbing idiot and I'm talking seriously for once?! (pssst it's cuz i love mama and want her to be happy) I love how much I've changed in front of you, from a reader to a daughter. From the cringingly sweet comments to the now memeful and stupid commentary I so INTELLECTUALLY provide for you heheheheh :D I sincerely thank you for dealing with my weirdness. I was scared to be so memeful in front of new people honestly prawnprawnprawn so everyone thinks I'm just some nice normal person...but then I unleash my extremely odd side and then leave everyone confused ^-^ So thank you for witnessing and accepting it xD I love being like a child with you, it's nice to go back to being childish once in a while, because isn't it the children who are the happiest people~? hmm... Honestly I'm not able to write much dumb stuff right now... I feel like I'm still in the serious mode.. xD But you've first hand witnessed me being weird so do I really need to restate all the stupid stuff I've done like hallucinating that myungsoo is bleeding on my floor...and woohyun making a mess in the library and all that randomness prawnprawnprawn... <-- and that lol (thanks to seol AHAHHAHA) i hope in the future you can continue to appreciate me memeifying everything and turning even your deep quotes and stories into memes huhuhu <3

Tbh I have so much to say, I don't even know how to finish this...I've felt kind of down that I'm kind of clueless about everything because I joined Winkers so late, I felt like I didn't belong in a 3 years worth friendship group chat, but you and everyone else showed so much love I feel so happy that I've joined :)

I hope one day in the future we'll meet, because honestly what will I do without ever seeing my mother? It's crazy to even think about! I WILL meet you one day, it has to happen and I'll somehow, somehowww make it happen. Until later,

Bye mama <3

~ Your so very anonymous daughter that totally doesn't love Jangjun at all and who has threatened to abort herself many times
(Also I didn't curse at all did you notice~? hehehehehe be proud)

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if it weren't for the establishment of lme i would probably have no friends at all. honestly speaking, most of my friends are made in aff with a exception of lynx and a few others. i'm still reaching out of my k-pop comfort zone and although lme is all about kpop, i have learned a lot of other things as well. it's a shame that you always feel psessimistic about your singing when, in real life, it's really all about confidence! put those negative thoughts aside, for they're what make you feel vulnerable. all the bestin everything

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I am not good at encouraging ppl, well little bit xD but my words arent really great hopefully still cheer you up.
First off Ill start with why you shouldnt ever said you can't sing anymore. Luckily I kind of I dont care person so I dont really get affected by negativity last night, but really?? I've heard you sing many times, Do you remember you hit ailee high notes That i so envy at?? You may not be like Lyn sounds good everytime but we both gotta agreee you can sing by that I mean realllyyy have talent on it, not just like anyone 'can' sing. I hope you stop thinking youre so bad, be strong enough to face hate comments, it might not apply to everybody but when I leave 'dislike' button to any clips I've seen Its because I'm envy especially when I think they don't deserve to be that good, (who am I to judge, but I am human after all haha), so really dont get discourage, Like selena gomez said "Focus on the love."

Secondly, writing, Youuu might not asss good ass those author that have released book but among us, perhaps among any other aspiring writer, You definitely so good and I envy it so much, there is alot in you that I envy and I hope you appreciate that more, its saddening me when you says your writing is bad what makes me then? I definitely don't write as good as you do, 99% behind you. This sincere words I want you to know, not me trying to be nice♡♡

When hards time hit you, don't be bitter, just sleep, it helps Hahahahahah 😂😂

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you're an amazing writer & coverist. you're actually one of the first people that reached out to talk to me and interacted with me as a reader. eventually, i found lme and joined the covering world but honestly, it was all thanks to you. your cheerful and friendly personality brought joy and comfort to my heart and i felt like i was at home with someone who cared for me whenever i spoke with you and the other girls. you've become a role model for me. i can't express how grateful i am to you and the lme community. i was actually suicidal when i first joined the whole covering world and i felt like nobody cared for me and that if i disappeared from the world, nobody would notice. but you, especially, made me feel like i was wanted and cared for. i found so much joy and love within the community that i ended up staying for 3(?) years now. i can't imagine how negative you may feel at times from all the hate comments that you receive from haters, but just know that even though you have haters, you've got more fans. besides, anti-fans are fans too--quoted by nam woohyun (your hubby ahaha) your voice is amazing and i aspire to be able to find the chords to songs and create covers the day that the song comes out, like you do. you're an amazing person and i can't imagine what my life would be like if i hadn't met you. everyone has their bad days, but when you have your bad day, it hurts me too. it hurts to see someone that i care for so much to be hurting and i wish i was able to go over and give you a hug at times that you need comfort. just keep in your mind that you have LOTS of people who love you and care for you and stan you and woohyun (#woomi) lol. i love youuuu~
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dear mel,

i really don't know how to start this off but i'm actually glad that i know you. i do mean it when i said i love you. i mean like, i'm somehow attached to you and i feel like you are dear to me like an older sister. you actually makes me laugh,really. i mean, the fact that you always join the flow whenever i make dirty jokes. it's fun.
when you left the LM Chat back then, the chat really died right after. there's no one as talkative as you and the chat was silent af. you are our little ball of sunshine. i have told you this before that you are my inspiration, my goal as a writer. i am really amazed at how well you can
maintain your pace in writing. i lose motivation so easily in writing and i really wonder how you'd be able to connect one chapter with another. it's amazing,really. and every time you told us that your writing sucks, i want to slap the reality on to your face. come on, you're the only author that i actually read more than one fanfiction. LOL
but really, you tried many genres so far and the fact that you are going to have Crescendity as your last fanfic, it makes me sed because i can't read for free anymore. hHAHAHAHAHAHHAH but yeah, you know i will still support you anyway. so I hope you really will be able to publish your own book someday!! and i kid you not that i will buy that
book!! and promote everywhere. hue.

you know who i am. it's so obvious.

best of luck, mel <3

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Well, you know how bad I am with words and I'm not a fan of letting out my feelings but here goes nothing. First of all I want to say thanks, for a reason you may have already guessed... thank you for trying to talk to me even though I wasn't being very cooperative, and I was hard to talk to, thank you for still taking the time to do it. It may have not seemed like it, but I did appreciate it a lot. I bottle up my feelings and when they get out of hand... I hope you don't see me like that again xD Second thank you for always being an inspiration, thank you for bringing us all together, thank you for all the fun ideas you come up with xD you're very talented in a lot of aspects and I hope to see you succeed in a great many of them. Let's see you become a great author some day 

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Well, you know how bad I am with words and I'm not a fan of letting out my feelings but here goes nothing. First of all I want to say thanks, for a reason you may have already guessed... thank you for trying to talk to me even though I wasn't being very cooperative, and I was hard to talk to, thank you for still taking the time to do it. It may have not seemed like it, but I did appreciate it a lot. I bottle up my feelings and when they get out of hand... I hope you don't see me like that again xD Second thank you for always being an inspiration, thank you for bringing us all together, thank you for all the fun ideas you come up with xD you're very talented in a lot of aspects and I hope to see you succeed in a great many of them. Let's see you become a great author some day 

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I am not good with words, especially when it comes to letting out how I feel.

So first thing, Melody, you should stop thinking about all those haters and know that despite having them, there are more people who loves you than ones who hates.
Second, you're one of the most talented ones among all of us, one who can compose her own song, write her own lyrics, make a song into her own. You should be proud of that instead of always looking for the faults in yourself. You know you're good, and everyone can see that you really are.
Third,  you are a really wonderful friend, you always have your way with words to motivate and inspire every single one of us. That is one of the many greatest things I could say about you. You really care a lot about us, always there for us, to listen, to give advise.
I hope whenever you have a hard time, you'll always come and find us too like you and everyone else did. Know that we'll always be there for you, for one another.

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thank you for bringing me to meet such a great family through LME. I don't know how God leads me to such beautiful people, you being one of them. When I first met you on AFF, something struck me and just made me feel like I wanted to know you and be your friend. Odd isn't it? I think you could say that was my true first impression of you. I honestly barely remember how it went seeing how it happened about 3 years ago, but one thing that's for sure is that I wouldn't have it any other way. I will never agree with someone who says an online friend can never truly be your friend, because you are the perfect example of being my friend, my sister, my mom and my role model all within the span of a year of knowing you online. What else could bring me to want to meet you (and all other LM Stars)? Honestly, there are times when I clearly know we get mad, annoyed or offended by each other but I deeply believe that every unpleasant experience we encounter together our friendship becomes stronger. We may argue and disagree sometimes. We may not be pleased with how one or the other is behaving, but it has always been overcome. That's exactly why I can say you're one of the closest friends I have in my life. I feel like you're someone I can relate to on many different levels. From our (lame) humor, our spiritual beliefs, our loyalty and much more. It's always led me to feel a sense of comradeship with you. Yes, it may be weird but I just wanted to express this more openly. I've never said it like this before. Maybe you know that I feel this way, maybe you don't, but I really feel like we're true family. I also want to thank you for always being my role model. Frankly, sometimes when you fall into a depressing state and you feel like giving up, it hurts me as well. It's like how we hurt when we watch our idol feel sad. I feel the same thing when I see you depressed. It upsets me. I'm sure you can see that most times I can be harsh and impatient. I'm sorry for being that way. If I were to explain myself, my only reason would be because I truly love you. My true wish is for you to pick yourself up and dust yourself, get back in the saddle (Aye, Shakira reference). But despite all of your downs, the thing that inspires me the most is how you get back up. When you hit the bottom and then you encounter God. Like they say, God reaches out to those who are in need of it the most and He will never leave you alone where you cannot escape. Most importantly, He would do everything in His power to have you keep your faith. I wouldn't say envy but I can't find the right word - there is this feeling I get when I hear about your encounters with Him. Desire? I wish to face Him as you do. I can only imagine how amazing it is. I understand that everyone meets him in different ways, but the way he reaches out and speaks to you so evidently always amazes me. Also, I want you to know how much of an amazing musician you are. I know its supposed to be an encouraging post, but I also want to put my full honesty and heart into it, so I will say - You are not the best singer I know, but you definitely are the most hardworking and constantly improving. Your skills only ever continue to grow, your musicality, your vocal ability, skills etc. Your talent keeps multiplying and you should trash all negative views on yourself about this matter, because no matter what you think you can't honestly deny your improvement. In the end what you think about yourself has the strongest impact on you, but I hope that you can allow us - your friends - to be your mirror and help you reflect all the beauty we see in you back to you so that you may see how great of a person you. I'm so grateful to have you in my life and I will always be here for you no matter what. Never hesitate to lean on my when you need a shoulder to cry on, a friend to celebrate with or a daughter to be delulu with!

Love, Maerin  ♡