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if you see this El i miss you and hope you are doing good. im sorry for not being on much it's work and more livestock but i love you and hope you are doing good in school and shit, idk what else to say bc i don't even know if you are on anymore but ill check in . <3

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I'll just say it now, lol. I Got into a fight at school :D

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I'll just say it now, lol. I Got into a fight at school :D

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Beat the living shit out of them lmao. I had a lot of anger I needed to release, so I kinda went out :')

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So the whole story is that, I was doing my art project for art in 6th period. And this girl comes up to me asking "hey can I wax your arm?". With me not paying attention because I had headphones in and I was too busy paying attention to my project, I replied with "sure do whatever you want". She then leaves for a few minutes later comes back with fresh hot glue on a popsicle stick. And before I can even say anything- she presses the popsicle stick with the hot glue face down onto my arm and holds it there until it cools down. THEN proceeds to rip it off which gave me a third degree burn plus my skin getting ripped off.

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So I'm in a new relationship. It's so much better than my last one. I'm.glad to be with this new person cause it's an actual relationship and not some weird long distance never going to work got to attached shit. So I'm happy to actually.be able to kiss, hug, and hang out with someone who actually loves me. He is very very sweet, handsome, gentle, polite, and in general a gentleman. Thought I kinda wear the pants in the relationship 😉 I'm glad to have someone there for me

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I think we had a pc tg and were talkin  then I left pad

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I think we had a pc tg and were talkin  then I left pad

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man. not sure yalls remember me, but if ya remember the names shawnin, leslie, and jezreel. then take a guess on who i am.

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man. not sure yalls remember me, but if ya remember the names shawnin, leslie, and jezreel. then take a guess on who i am.

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SLIT WRIST SAVIOR - Graveside Edition – Carnifex

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Needed somewhere to let out mah feels so figured i would come here....... Idk what to do lately life sucks, my school wants to put me in therapy bcs i have been hella sad latley....... they only noticed bcs i had a panic attack in my 2nd hour and the teacher sent me to the office ...... but my mom dont think i need and she told me to suck it up and be an adult btw im only 15....... I think therapy might do me some good but you know it needs a parent signature for it so i think im fucked there...... Me and my bf are on good terms but idk if i can talk to him about this bcs i feel like imma just fuck up our realationship and i really dont wanna do tht then again i feel like everytime i talk imma fuck something up so thts also something im struggling with.......i have really bad cutting problems its kinda hard for me to stop and my anxiety and shit is causing for me to not be able to eat or sleep so im mentally and physically exhausted........ i have also been haing a lot of ptsd from shit i cant remember and it lowkey kinda pisses me off a lil bit but oh well, ik people are prolly going through shit worse........ Anyways thxs for making this i like being able to let out my feels and not have people judge me........ these are my fav types of padlets.

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Wsg people. I’m back for a bit to ether say I’m sorry or fuck you depending on who you are 

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Wsg people. I’m back for a bit to ether say I’m sorry or fuck you depending on who you are 

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my disc is eren jeager#2337

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...just wish certain ppl wouldnt come at me for the littlest of shit

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This is scaring me, pls help

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Lately, I honestly haven't been to hot. I can't decide if I'm actually happy or not, and the medication I have to take to me mentally stable doesn't really help either.  I honestly just wanna be ok- I want to be little again where I could ty junk that life would be easy and that I wouldn't have to worry about anything- But I guess that'll never happen. my family and my past fucked me.up.really bad. Stepdad was abusive ( physically towards my mom and verbally/mentally towards me ). I never really realized what was going on until my mom told me- but her telling me that honestly destroyed how I felt and who I was. She told me too soon- and I was so mad at her that she never did anything... 

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Lately, I honestly haven't been to hot. I can't decide if I'm actually happy or not, and the medication I have to take to me mentally stable doesn't really help either.  I honestly just wanna be ok- I want to be little again where I could ty junk that life would be easy and that I wouldn't have to worry about anything- But I guess that'll never happen. my family and my past fucked me.up.really bad. Stepdad was abusive ( physically towards my mom and verbally/mentally towards me ). I never really realized what was going on until my mom told me- but her telling me that honestly destroyed how I felt and who I was. She told me too soon- and I was so mad at her that she never did anything... 

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but Ig I'm ok now- just having "normal" life problems..

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I just got back to padlet but in my most recent relationship my bf was really controlling and he always told me i was overweight and that he is the only person who will love me and that no one else is going to care about me. He was always trying to touch me and always tried getting me to have sex with him and he would always say if you dont do this im going to hurt you. Sometimes he would hit me and it fucked me up and i dont know how im going to love someone normally after and im scared that he is going to try and look for me to hurt me.

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Life for me has gotten better..but I've realized I've been getting some ptsd. I'm having trouble handling it more and more

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Life for me has gotten better..but I've realized I've been getting some ptsd. I'm having trouble handling it more and more

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I kinda fucked my self over infront of my crush. Didn’t take long for me to get into bigger drugs like weed, nic, HTC etc. I’m always carful where I do it when I do it the whole show. I’m in the parking lot smoking a blunt with my brother and buddy’s. I take a sip of corona beer look to my left outside the window and my crush is just looking at me. Not a surprised face  or something but the one face I hate to see in anyone… a face of disappointment. She was somehow into me bc I was “building my self up” by work outs getting “school smart” etc. she saw me in the parking lot found it a good time to ask me out and found me double buzzed looking like shit. All I could do was smile at her look away and finish off the blunt watching her walk alway disappointed. :/ 

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I kinda fucked my self over infront of my crush. Didn’t take long for me to get into bigger drugs like weed, nic, HTC etc. I’m always carful where I do it when I do it the whole show. I’m in the parking lot smoking a blunt with my brother and buddy’s. I take a sip of corona beer look to my left outside the window and my crush is just looking at me. Not a surprised face  or something but the one face I hate to see in anyone… a face of disappointment. She was somehow into me bc I was “building my self up” by work outs getting “school smart” etc. she saw me in the parking lot found it a good time to ask me out and found me double buzzed looking like shit. All I could do was smile at her look away and finish off the blunt watching her walk alway disappointed. :/ 

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Spoke with her later the next day and she explained how she saw so much in me only to see my “lowest peak”. Now I fuck with some blue haired bitch who trades her weed for my D and bit of money.

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I hate my scars, even though I kind of gave you to myself- I still hate them more than anything. And before school starts again, I was so scared that I was going to be judged, I looked at funny, called shit-, and more.  My mom wants me to do procedure where I get my scars lasered off.. But I honestly don't want to. That's because the more my scars made.. The more I want to add them back. My scars are kind of a reminder of what I've done to myself, and a reminder of how much I hated myself after each time i added more to my body. I was honestly really surprised when school started and I didn't instantly get judged. If anything- people actually respect me for it..

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I have a bunch of cutting problems, I try to be happy often but I tend to struggle a bit. I've been cutting for 4 years now and I'm trying really really really to stop idk if I'll be able to... I'm going to keep trying though, because I know people need me in this world and if I were to die I'd only hurt them. They moved into a new school so adapting to everything and making new friends is super hard. I keep my love life together while doing school work, archery, spending time with family, and trying to spend time with friends.

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I have a bunch of cutting problems, I try to be happy often but I tend to struggle a bit. I've been cutting for 4 years now and I'm trying really really really to stop idk if I'll be able to... I'm going to keep trying though, because I know people need me in this world and if I were to die I'd only hurt them. They moved into a new school so adapting to everything and making new friends is super hard. I keep my love life together while doing school work, archery, spending time with family, and trying to spend time with friends.

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i miss my gf i really want her to come back on but i dont wanna rush her nd shit because i want her to get the mental help she needs i want her to get all the help no offense i love her alot and shes been my best gf on pad shes the best honestly and like i just really cant get over her 

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i miss my gf i really want her to come back on but i dont wanna rush her nd shit because i want her to get the mental help she needs i want her to get all the help no offense i love her alot and shes been my best gf on pad shes the best honestly and like i just really cant get over her 