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Justin Vernon about "For Emma Forever Ago"

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Justin Vernon about "For Emma Forever Ago"

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2:55-the end.
Love how he describes his process as excavating his feelings, figuring out what they are and get them to the oxygen so that they can burn away...

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“I exist as I am, that is enough,
And if each and all be aware I sit content. One world is aware, and by the far the largest to me, and that is myself, And whether I come to my own to-day or in ten thousand or ten million years, I can cheerfully take it now, or with equal cheerfulness, I can wait.”

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I tend to write more when I'm experiencing something emotionally challenging.
I'm drawn to vulnerable & melancholic music.
I like to write about/read about/reflect on existentialism (very pretentious hahaha), life, death - a lot of antithesis metaphors about light/dark etc...
I often feel very insignificant - but I also think that is what keeps me sane??

On the flip side I LOVE POP & ELECTRONIC MUSIC but I still tend to go for that sweet melancholy viiiibe hahah :)
I find it really hard to assign myself with an identity. I'm already a gemini so it makes sense but I'm also born very close to being a cancer?! So. many. emotions!!!
This made me think of an amazing text Nick Cave wrote about how not having a fixed identity is actually an identity in itself - (I've posted a quote from it below this post, if you're anything like me it makes you feel SEEN!).
I have to stop writing now hahah!
BYE & thanks for hanging out on my padlet!
<3 <3 <3 <3
/Hedda

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because why not??

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Obviously, without them I would not be alive!!!
But the reasons my parents play a part in my musical identity are:
My dad's a blues/country guitarist & singer. I didn't realise how much him playing country music had seeped into my subconscious until a couple of years ago.
My mum is very musical and has great music taste!! I share a lot of her favourites (Nick Cave, Nick Drake, Kate Bush, Bon Iver) :)

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The only reason I'm a musician is because of my friend Sammy - who I met when I was 12 and they let me join their band even though I only knew 3 chords on the guitar.
We played in different band constellations 2009-2012 and from then until now we've played together as "Lady Sybil". Here's a recent video (from this summer) of a song called "The Wait" :)

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This was in 2012 just before I realised that I was much more into folk/americana/harmony driven arrangements than rock... and thankfully everyone all at once decided to leave the band (divine timing??) except Sammy and we agreed to give our new genre a go!!

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Tbt 2010

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A little dated now but still proud of this one:)

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"Oh, I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
I'm frightened by the devil
And I'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid
I remember that time you told me, you said
"Love is touching souls"
Surely you touched mine, 'cause
Part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time"

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"Only love is all maroon
Lapping lakes like leary loons
Leaving rope burns
Reddish rouge"

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The ocean I've grown up next to is a place I can always come back to and feel a sense of stillness I've haven't really found anywhere else yet.
I'm also a big fan of water metaphors!

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"But, when time pulls lives apart
Hold your own
When everything is fluid, nothing can be known with any certainty
Hold your own
Hold it till you feel it there
As dark and dense and wet as earth
As vast and bright and sweet as air
When all there is is knowing that you feel what you are feeling
Hold your own
Ask your hands to know the things they hold
I know, the days are reeling past in such squealing blasts
But stop for breath and you will know it's yours
Swaying like an open door when storms are coming
Hold
Time is an onslaught, love is a mission
We work for vocations until, in remission
We wish we'd had patience and given more time to our children
Feel each decision that you make
Make it, hold it
Hold your own
Hold your lovers
Hold their hands
Hold their breasts in your hands like your hands were their bra
Hold their face in your palms like a prayer
Hold them all night, feel them hold back
Don't hold back
Hold your own
Every pain
Every grievance
Every stab of shame
Every day spent with a demon in your brain giving chase
Hold it..."

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I love how romantic & at the same time heartbreaking this song is!
"Oh depth over distance every time, my dear
And I may be foolish to fall as I do
Still there's strength in the blindness you fear
If you're coming too"

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“I exist as I am, that is enough,
And if each and all be aware I sit content. One world is aware, and by the far the largest to me, and that is myself, And whether I come to my own to-day or in ten thousand or ten million years, I can cheerfully take it now, or with equal cheerfulness, I can wait.”

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Astrid lives with my parents in Sweden and is growing bigger every day! Absolutely obsessed with monsteras - all around love plants.

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"I think that for some of us it is almost impossible to have a cohesive identity or, rather, there are some whose inconsistent and conflicted sense of self is their identity. There are those who have an identity that is contrary and evolving and forever at war with itself. It is perpetually in the process of challenging its own best ideas. Once an idea of self — a stance, a point of view, an identity — is settled upon, this inner subversive begins the business of dismantling it. Yet, this resistance to a fixed identity could be our greatest strength."

This text soothes me in so many ways, thank you Nick for being a legend!! Highly recommend following 'The Red Hand Files' <3

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Issue #99 / May 2020

ELEONORA, BRUSSELS, BELGIUM

MAX, HAMBURG, GERMANY

Dear Eleonora and Max,

I think that for some of us it is almost impossible to have a cohesive identity or, rather, there are some whose inconsistent and conflicted sense of self is their identity. There are those who have an identity that is contrary and evolving and forever at war with itself. It is perpetually in the process of challenging its own best ideas. Once an idea of self - a stance, a point of view, an identity - is settled upon, this inner subversive begins the business of dismantling it. Yet, this resistance to a fixed identity could be our greatest strength.

Perhaps I inherited this tendency from my father, who had, to say the least, a perverse and contrary view of the world, or maybe it is because I was born between star signs, or it could just be the old boomer in me that continues to have a nostalgic fondness for disruption and chaos, but I have forever felt a horror of being boxed in by an identity and an inflexible opinion, for this allegiance to a single personae can be the very death of creativity.

Maybe, Eleonora, there is some advantage in not having those 'bits fit together'. This lack of cohesion prevents us from being enslaved by absolutes - what is true and what is not true, what is the right way to be and what is the wrong way to be - and affords us the ability to embrace contradictory ideas at the same time.
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For an artist, particularly a songwriter, this ability to be open to influence, to discard personae, gives us the freedom to express ourselves in contrasting ways. When I think about the artists who have had the greatest impact on me, this fluctuating and disordered identity, and necessity to reinvent themselves, is common to most of them. I think this is what I look for in an artist - the ability to change, and to grow, and to confound.

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Nick Cave - The Red Hand Files - Issue #99 - I feel that our identity is a patchwork of desires, choices, affiliation, eccentricity. [ ] I found that, sometimes, those identities that inhabit me are in conflict and it is hard to cope with this lack of coherence. Do you have any thoughts on how to make our inner selves "coherent" or how to let all the bits fit together? Do you think that is necessary?

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MAX, HAMBURG, GERMANY Dear Eleonora and Max, I think that for some of us it is almost impossible to have a cohesive identity or, rather, there are some whose inconsistent and conflicted sense of self is their identity. There are those who have an identity that is contrary and evolving and forever at war with itself.

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The first album I begged my parents to buy for me was "Whitney Houston; The Ultimate Collection" (I think I was 10??) and since then I'm forever obsessed with her!

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Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance With Somebody (Official 4K Video)

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3 iconic siblings who harmonises like they were born for it!!

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The Staves - Blood I Bled (Live for The Sunday Sessions)

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I love going to museums & Matisse is one of my favourites :)

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my favourite flower!!!

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I could make a padlet consisting only of Bon Iver's songs but I will contain myself:)

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Iconic (and harmoniiiies!!)

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Dolly Parton Linda Ronstadt Emmylou Harris - The Sweetest Gift

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Huge fan of this duo, beautiful arrangements, melodies & harmonies <3

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The Milk Carton Kids - Prologue (Full Album)

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“As happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment."

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Swedish royalty

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Robyn returns with Missing U on Later… with Jools Holland

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bad ass

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Hayley Williams - Cinnamon [Official Music Video]

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All around bad ass and queer icon!!

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Christine and the Queens - Mountains (we met) (Lyric Video)

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4-ever <3

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iconic

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Joni has been a major influence on me and the catalyst of me starting to listen back to 60's/70's music

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Gone way too soon, thankful we got at least a bit of his beautiful music!

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Absolutely love this song - a masterpiece!!!

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a game changer

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This is a bit of a niche one but I love Stephen Sondheim with a passion! His compositions and arrangements are out of this world! I studied musical theatre for 4 years and am 100% a musical theatre nerd:):):)

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Company - Original Broadway Cast: Company

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Their harmonies are everything!! <3

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Mountain Man: NPR Music Field Recordings

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Absolute love of my life

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fun fact: Amelia Meath who (kind of) fronts this band is also a member of Mountain Man - we love range!!!

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Just stunning stunning stunning & so special<3

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another banging musical with sweet sweet harmonies

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Absolute love of my life (Acapella version)

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Bon Iver - "Heavenly Father" (Acapella) | Live at Sydney Opera House

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This whole album is THE SHIT but something about the vulnerability of this song hits me deeeep <3

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Hayley Williams – Why We Ever [Official Lyric Video]