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They were all right… I recently tried self-harm… it’s so f**king addicting. I went to pride after doing it today and the pain started to wear off a little at pride. Basically for me I experience more pain than most so it lingers for a little bit with me idk if it does with anyone else. But when it started to go away at pride I almost started crying. I didn’t though because I don’t want my boyfriend to know. I don’t want him to worry. I also had a dream about suicide last night… but it was more like a nightmare because i lived. I hate this life. Anyways, that’s all for now I guess…

-Sherwin (ik I was Sherwood before but I changed my name… Sherwood didn’t feel right)

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I’ve really gone insane haven’t I? Ahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahah!!!!! My mental health has gotten worse agaiinnnnn!!! I may actually do it. Finally. Just maybe. Y’know I’d hang but perhaps since I don’t have a rope would a plastic bag work? I’m always told not to put those on my head. Ahahahahahahahahhah!! Oh god I’m so desperate for this. I need it so bad. Hahahahahhahahahahah!!! How am I not dead already? I haven’t tried yet. I’ve been staying alive for people. Talking to them to distract myself. But I can’t text the only person who I’m truly living for. My messages won’t send. And since I can’t talk to him… it may actually happen. I need it to. Hahahahahah!!! Oh god I need this so badly. Hahahahahhahahah!!!! You have NO IDEA just how much I need to end it. Suicide, how I need you. How I love you. Please, do come and take me away, my dear suicide!!

-Sherwood

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For a lot of my life recently I’ve been saying “I’m going insane” “I’m going to go insane”. Well it’s too late now. I’ve already gone mad. I’ve nearly ended it many times before remembering my boyfriend. He’s the only one, the only thing keeping me in this world. I live for nothing and nobody else but him. He’s everything to me and I’d hate to leave him here. I wish I could end it all without hurting my loved one. Without worrying about hurting my loved one. I hate having feelings. I don’t understand them. Why must they exist? All they do is ruin everything. All they do is get in the way. I never realise I’m hurting anyone until it’s too late. And then I feel bad? Even if they’ve ruined me? Feelings are stupid. Although I sometimes wish I had a better understanding of them. This is the third time me and my boyfriend have gotten together. He broke up with me twice due to the fact I couldn’t understand love and was still learning to understand it. I hurt him on accident and he broke it up. I did it twice. I started to wonder if I had any chance of understanding emotions. If I could ever learn. Perhaps I didn’t deserve to live. In fact, I thought that for a while. Even then he was the only one keeping me alive. And losing him almost had me meet my end. Anyone who actually cares about me (if there’s anyone other than my bf although at the time i don’t know if he would have cared from the way he acted) is just lucky I couldn’t find a good way. I’m so done with everything but I must continue this. This is why feelings are torture. I finally get that little bit of love that I rarely experienced and now I’m clinging onto it and staying in this he’ll only for it. Every little bit of kindness and love that another human being shows to me, I grab onto it and don’t let go unless forced to. It’s like im about to fall of a cliff into a void and someone comes over and throws a rope. If the rope snaps, or they let go I plunge into the void. Sometimes, they let go for a little bit, but it’s a long rope so they just grab it again. Like they’re toying with me. But I just cling onto that stupid rope as if they didn’t mean to let go. I hate it. Life is just a hell that we were put it. The only meaning it’ll ever have is torture. Is that no matter what humanity is stupid and will do anything for themselves while others are hurting and dying right next to them. I suppose I should thank you for taking your time to read this whole thing if you decided to. And also I should wish you good day. No, a great life. A better life than what you probably have right now if you’re on this website. That’s the end I guess

-Sherwood

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Why do I hate my family

My mom is obsessed with health and stuff, and gets mad at me for eating 2 cookies instead of half one of a whole one. According to her I'm irresponsible because my rooms not perfectly clean 24/7. I didn't have my tablet since January for that reason. I've had it back for like 2 weeks.

My dad wants me to get a job, or reeeeeaaaalllyyyy supports it so we'll be successful in future. I get that but I'm in 6 grade for goodness sake, and my little sister is so annoying.

My younger sister is in 3 grade and sometimes she is sweet but other times she's the devil in disguise. she comes into my room without asking and touches all my books and stuff. And sits on my chair and bed and makes herself comfortable and then plays the poor little victim when I get mad and tell her to go away. And idk what's wrong with me but I DESPISE, I CAN'T STAND when she's humming or singing. She KNOWS that. I CAN TELL. When we're in the car so I can't escape and she knows I'm already annoyed about smth, she starts humming because she knows I hate it. And before you call me dramatic, I can tell by her behavior. And she's SUCH A WHINY STUPID BRAT.

And I have so many rules I'm gonna share because I dunno I need to tell someone

1: No sleepovers unless with relatives, bc they're afraid I'll get molested or smth

2: No devices in my bedroom at night unless its Friday or Saturday. Can't have devices until 3:30-4:00 PM and have them upstairs by 8:00-8:30

3: Only 2-3 pieces of Easter or Halloween candy per day (Like even the small kinds)

4: No music like Taylor Swift or Ariana Grande or anything. So yeah when my friends talk abt that kinda stuff I feel pretty left out

5: No swearing. Personally I think this is like a normal rule parents should have because I mean I wouldn't want my kids to swear either but if I ever swear I'll probably get smacked in the mouth or have to eat hot sauce or soap.

6: I can't eat as much desserts and stuff as I'd like to, like once I had a cookie and then drank a soda so I couldn't have a second cookie. Or only one slice of pie that's like small when I see everyone else getting seconds or thirds and not being scared of getting caught.

7: No talking back. Like at all. If I'm trying to make a point about something my dad will interrupt and be like "Stop talking back." If I say something my mom happens to disagree with or not like she'll be like "Stop talking back" and go on a whole long lecture about how I need to stop talking.

8: Keep my room clean all the time. Seems like a pretty normal rule but I mean like, there could be a few things on the floor and suddenly its a pigsty. And I work for like two hours to get my room clean. Its almost PERFECT. And all I got was an "its acceptable."

9: A lot of TV shows/movies I'm not allowed to watch like Wednesday or Stranger Things. There's more but I cannot remember them at the moment. 10: Only social media I can have is YouTube. I get this because sometimes social media isn't good for preteens and teens but my moms completely convinced I'll become emo and run away and suddenly every child predator to ever exist will come for me.

I know I'm dramatic. Sorry

But anyways, I've thought of running away. Dangerous but freedom. Stupid though so probably not.

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Tw: mentions of starving urself, mentions of death

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Tw: mentions of starving urself, mentions of death

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I cant stand how much i eat, and im not in therapy anymore starve myself until i cant anymore. i dont want to eat anymore or even look at food.. dont know what too do about it everytime i eat i want to die.

-jade

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Why does break up hurt so badly like Ik It have been like 4 months since we broke up but like the promise you broke and the trauma you gave me ain´t gonna vanish like that. Becouse of you I started cutting, like before the break up you vented to me and told your story and I feelt so bad for you , it was like I wanted to take away your pain. I cried after you hang up the call. You triggerd me to cut. You told me to stop but that just triggerd me more. When the break up happend it got worse, the cut gor deeper and more. I knew I wouldn´t get over you so quick and I knew I really loved you. I heard that you changed your type on girls. He likes older girls with short hair ( im younger then him and my hair is long). You unblocked me just to say that you have changed ( he have) and that you can bully me. Well fuck you. You never knew hoe much I liked you. I lied to my parents becose of you I lost 7 friends. I think I need a therapis.

- A overthinker

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TW .possible SA? or harassment, , SH mentions, Death mentions or wtvr, Gender dysphoria

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TW .possible SA? or harassment, , SH mentions, Death mentions or wtvr, Gender dysphoria

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I havent written in a while But anyways. my Ex threatened me a few weeks ago and im scared because i just got with this guy? and i love him i do but im scared because.. relationships scare me because I think the last guy i was with harassed me? i dont if it was SA he never like? tried to force himself on me or anything but he would grab my hips and pull me close...i think he tried to kiss me once? i dont really remember anymore.. but it sucks i still think about it i still feel his touch and it makes me want to sob, im stressed, tired and angry but i cant do anything. i want to rip my hair out ive been clean from self-harm for my new boyfriend because we do love each other but i dont know how to cope. and with my EX threatening me i dont even feel safe at 'home' or school or anywhere i just wanna fall asleep and never wake up. i feel worthless like im nothing like if i died no one would care. i want comfort but im scared. scared to death if i tell people i love whats going they will leave me? abandon me. i dont know if anyone ever stays. im so tired im so exhausted..and my dysphoria does not help..

-A trans boy whos scared

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Things are happening...things that make me feel anxious or make me cry for some reason. I was a bit lazy with hanging up my coat and then my dad talked about how we're irresponsible and how he KNOWS our houses will look like a druggy's house... and honestly? Other stuff is happening. Some is kinda me others aren't. And I wanna say...

I kind of feel like temporarily running away... if I'm gone for a bit maybe things will get a little better after some freedom and kind of a fresh start...idk...they love me...I know they do...I just feel kind of lost...my older sister is having lots of problems with finishing high school... my parents aren't very happy with her... she just got  her phone back for the first time in months...I'm feeling anxious sometimes... crying...angry...my sister's having lots of hard times with school, not to mention she has. ADD/ADHD (I dunno) and Autism. What about my little sister and parents? I hope they're okay... or if my family will soon start falling apart...I hope not...

By the way it's slightly exaggerated

Maybe I should run away for a period of time (2 weeks to 4 months) But that period of time is just kind of like a vacation amount...but it doesn't matter... running away is dangerous especially for girls.

I need a bit of help

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i just need to get this out there because i feel shitty (tw for gender dysphoria)

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i just need to get this out there because i feel shitty (tw for gender dysphoria)

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so let me preface this by saying that i’m a trans guy. and i’m proud of that, i am. but it’s fucking exhausting. i’m gonna have to deal with this body for years?? and i’m just supposed to live with that???

a lot of people don’t like the expression “born in the wrong body” because of the connotations, but for me personally it feels like the whole truth. my body is too small for me to fit inside. there’s flesh and tissue and fat in places where it shouldn’t be. when i look in the mirror, especially without clothes on, it doesn’t feel like i’m looking at myself. i have to actively remind myself that that IS me. that IS me, and i can’t change that without so much work. it’s not fair that we have to fight so hard to get something that cis people were born with, that we should have had from the beginning. i’m so tired of living in a vessel that doesn’t feel like it belongs to me. it’s going to take so much work just to feel comfortable in my own skin and it’s not fucking fair. sometimes i love being the way i am, but today it’s only exhausting and painful. i just wish i could fast forward the next few years and get where i want to be right now. you don’t have to respond if you don’t want, by the way. i don’t need comfort, i just need to be seen and heard. i just wanted to say it. and i was maybe hoping someone would read it. but either way, writing it down takes away some of the pain.

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i miss my ex. a lot. tw- vape, sh, suicide

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i miss my ex. a lot. tw- vape, sh, suicide

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i miss him.

and all my friends think i’m stupid

because he was so so awful.

“you really miss the way he’d blame you for everything?” “you miss the way he’d make promises and break them?” “you miss the way he used your self harm against you?” “you miss the way he would vape at school? what about how he’d call you selfish for wanting to end your life?!”

they don’t understand there was a time when he was my everything.

there was a time he was my reason to get up in the morning. he was my reason that i lived and loved. the reason i felt loved and cared for and like i belonged.

i miss belonging.

i miss the way he’d compliment me, like that one time he said i looked like a goddess. i miss the way we would talk about our futures, and giggle as we came up with names for all the pets and kids we would have. i miss the way he would check in with me- making sure i ate that day, making sure i went to therapy, making sure i wouldn’t cut. i miss him begging me to hang out so we could kiss and cuddle and laugh and just stare at each other and smile. i miss when he would text me and call me and facetime me. i miss being called “baby” and “my love”. i miss staying up until midnight whispering “no, i love you more!”

because now i have to let it go.

and watch him do all those things

with the 15th girl in line, my friend. who had promised me she didn’t like him. and that she would choose me over him any day.

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i cant do it (tw SH..Mentions of harassments ot SA? idk profanity

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i cant do it (tw SH..Mentions of harassments ot SA? idk profanity

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im done with life man this month had been hell im struggling with horrible panic attacks like every week and NO one cares...i got forced to confess to my crush because my friends wanted me to do it and i got scared that i was being a coward im scared...i have the urge to hurt myself ..self-harm again and cant stop it therapy isnt helping i feel worse i got harrased multiple times nd i think my step dad SA me and i cnt take it i spiral and want to die...i have no clue what to do i just want to be normal...pretty...a boy...i just want to be loved is tht to much to ask for...why cant they love me...i want comfort and attention i feel empty and cold like the warmth is just barley out of reach like the ony source of ant relief is self-harm becuse nothing is helping the the memoried that play over over and over nd over again I CANT FUCKING SLEEP BECAUSE OF IT it wont go away and it there...i feel all of there NASTY hand prints on me and i feel like i cant breath...ive had panic ttcks becuse friends triggered me and i feel dumb and stupid...the first time i liked someone since my bd relationships and he dosent even like me because ima dumb trans guy....i sometimes feel like i deserved everything but maybe im silly who knows...maybe im just crazy but who knows heh... and im the older sibling so i have to be responsible and all my friends keep either trying to kill themselves or self-harm and i panic nd want them safe that it stresses me out and i feel like i cant to anythinh...i hate everyone and eveything i just want a break...i need help but idk what to do...i just want to die at this point...

-Jade

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So when I hear ppl smacking food and making food sounds I wanna cry and run away. My dad smacks his food a,lot and I hate sitting next to him at meals and stuff and I can't escape it because the sounds repeat in my head and I wanna escape to a place where that doesn't exist and I don't feel anxiety or a place where I at LEAST know why this is happening its been a thing for a couple years (ever since I was like 10-ish...? Less than 5 years ago) And I wanna cry when I hear it and I hate it

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I'm 10-12 years old and I wanna be an actress bit not as a full time career. But my mom is all like "OH NO U CAN'T CHILD ACTORS GO INSANE LOSING CHILDHOOD AND GET HIGH ON DRUGS BLAH BLAH" And I think that's mostly if they've been abused on set and been on screen since they were like 1 year old. NOBODY IN COMMENTS BE LIKE "HAVE A OPEN CONVERSATION BLAH BLAH" I'm in theater class but parents thinks its a hobby

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Since I was 11 all my friends try to kill themselves. I can't do anything to stop them. It was constant cleaning their cuts and being their therapist. It was to much and still is. I started sh -ing and was four months clean until last week. All day 24/7 365 my dad just hurts my feelings. And recently my gender dysphoria has been worse. The only thing keeping me from kms is my girlfriend and brother. But my brother sometimes makes comments on my body, and I can't eat without feeling guilty. Then, on vent pages like this, I feel like my shizz isn't bad enough to complain about. So after I bottle it up to long and burst, everyone says it's just because I'm on my time of the month. Sorry for taking up space lol

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I have a bad habit of overeating. I'm probably going to be on my 600-pound life by the time I'm 20 (im eleven) and when I get cuts I pick at them til they bleed for some reason, an so now I have scars on my arms. And I'm rlly tall for my age as tall as my older sister she's seventeen...I want to be an actor but my physical appearance doesn't want me to. I don't even care anymore. Theres no point in trying to change.

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Why am i like the way i am?

I'm WAY too sensitive because today my dad made a joke and my mom went along with it and my little sis believed it was true and started crying. I dunno why but I was upset that they made her cry like that and I got mad and started crying a little bit and was like "don't make cruel jokes like that!" But my parents aren't bad parents or anything, They love us! They were just making a joke, But my little sister believed them until my parents calmed her down. BUT I GOT UPSET THEY MADE HER CRY. BECAUSE I'M SUCH A BABY AND I SHOULD'VE NOT CARED AS MUCH AS I DID.

And I'm so awkward and shy, in my head I'm this brave badass person (sorry for mild swearing I don't really swear sorry) who can be savage and stand up for herself. But I'm not.

And I WISH I CAN BE MORE RESPONSIBLE, !Y MOM KEEPS TELLING ME CLEAN UP, I WANT TO REMEMBER😭😭😭

I talk to much and too fast and my parents don't really understand what I said a lot of the time.

I hate it. Why am I like this!?

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want to be an actress. I'm not 100% positive that this is what I want to do, but I think I want to. I've  taken a couple small acting classes for young people my age, and I have been in two small plays and really enjoyed it. I AM a minor, (My age remains a secret) so I don't know if my parents would be on board.  I don't want to be an actress to be famous, or to be rich, I want it because it seems fun, and I seem to enjoy it, and I just love it. My parents don't know that this is what I want. I don't want to be a main character in my first movie or show, maybe a side character or other character, such as the main character's best friend, who is seen for a certain portion of the movie, or maybe somebody like a girl in the candy store who has like a few lines but is important later on in the movie, but I'm kinda shy and introverted. But not THAT much. I still want to do it.

I don't want to be an actress to be famous, or to be rich, I want it because it seems fun, and I seem to enjoy it, and I just love it. My parents don't know that this is what I want. I don't want to be a main character in my first movie or show, maybe a side character or other character, such as the main character's best friend, who is seen for a certain portion of the movie, or maybe somebody like a girl in the candy store who has like a few lines but is important later on in the movie, but I'm kinda shy and introverted. But not THAT much. I still want to do it. I do know that the acting industry has its downsides, but almost everything has good sides and bad sides.

And if I DO end up as an actress (Big or small role), how do I stay in character and be convincing, and just be a good actress in general, and how to have a good audition? I'd love to hear from you guys, especially from any actors or actresses themselves!  I'd love to hear from anyone who thinks they have good advice or can help!

ALSO, I NEED TO CONVINCE MY PARENTS😭

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I have a terrible habit of eating a lot. When my mom leaves home, I just start picking at food and eating grapes and stuff. I want to stop but don't know how

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I am a preteen/teenager

And too tall and kinda big and I don't like it😞 I wish I could be average night but yeah

And my feet are too big

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53 days without hurting myself

53 days and for what?

i could have spent each day doing it all over again

resetting my streak

tearing at skin

that doesn’t sit right on my bones

not calling a guy i wasn’t even dating

that doesn’t love me

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I hate myself so much it hurts I want too die so badly I hate my body my personality I hate my glasses I hate how much I eat I'm not a good friend I'm am awful daughter I have a twin sister and everyone likes her so much more than me I Cut Myself I've thought about killing myself alot I can't escape everyone else in my life prefers someone else other than me I'm always the second choice but not Evan second maybe 16th I wont make it too 25 I dont want too ill die before that

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(self-harm  and suicide mention)kind of ventish just need to let some things out 

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(self-harm  and suicide mention)kind of ventish just need to let some things out 

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I hate long distance relationship everyone can hug and kiss there partner i barely see mine and im scared they dont even love me and im worried my best friend replaced me i feel paranoid and lie everyone is secretly judging me i feel as if ive done something wrong and deserve to be punished i cant even understand why people would even like me and since i look like a girl i get harassed a lot i hate being a girl i hate everything about it i dont feel like the right person i feel no WANT to be a boy but my parents think otherwise... i dont know what to do i have my name(s) and what i ant to be but no one cares i have this urge to hurt myself ive tried to be clean but the urge is overwhelming... relieving i need to do it i just dont know any more i really wish i could disappear i really wanna end it but i feel bad for others if i did i feel bad for people alot people say i shouldn't but i just cant help it i feel bad for people who hurt me even if hat they did affected me badly i feel left out but i say nothing im scared they wont like me ANYMORE if i say something i just dont know any more people dont like me because Im "weird" "furry!" "emo" but i just try to kind and respee ctful i want friends but not one who use me but i don't anna loose any one im stuck in a long distance relationship and a relationship at school i cant leave because i feel guilty i felt guilty so i said yes and i just dont know

-Jade

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i hate panic attacks i hate it so much people purposely try to trigger them its not cool i wish i could just die

-jade-

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Im hungry..   (mentions of eating issues i think)

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Im hungry..   (mentions of eating issues i think)

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I'm hungry...

but i cant eat i just cant food makes me sick... but I'm so hungry but maybe if i stop eating ill look like the pretty girls who are skinny and beautiful and have the perfect body's

i want to be like them so bad... but im just here with out a purpose...

-Jade-

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I’m the friend that’ll walk behind everyone else on the sidewalk

im that friend that’ll take a bullet for you

Im that friend that gets talked over

I’m that friend that no one listens to

I’m that friend that gets left out of plans

I’m that friend that no one notices that my smile is fake

I’m that friend that’ll be there for you to vent to when you need it but I’ll keep my problems to myself bc I don’t want to burden you

I’m that older sister that babysits 24/7

I’m that older sister that gets told “why don’t you do your schoolwork?!” After they asked me to do something for them

I’m that older sister that when im proud of something they’ll brush it off

I’m that older sister that when I ask for something it’s a no but to my younger siblings ask it’s a yes

I’m that failure “why are you so quiet?”

I’m that failure “go socialize”

im that failure “fat”

I’m that failure, failure, failure

I no longer find enjoyment in my old hobbies

I don’t have time for it

It’s all do this do that

Don’t eat so much

No one would miss me right?

Probably, no they’d probably miss their babysitter

Fake it till you make it

That’s what they say

Fake it till you make it

I don’t remember my childhood

All memories are either gone or vague

“Does she behave at home?”

…im done I can’t anymore

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i am a liar

poetic lies

clever lies

i write poetry

and i dream of writing symphonies

that will outlast me

my dreams outcast me

so they are hidden

my motivations silent

“final boss”

final boss my ass there’s no way

i will not be deterred by a player

im dating one

people hate me

when that one girl

THAT ONE GIRL

with short hair

tells me everyone likes me

she only sees me that way

because she doesn’t let me tell my story

so here i am writing it again

hoping someone would listen

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lets see... I'm the only single one in my friend group, my friends keep lying to me, I get made fun of for every little thing, I keep seeing my ex everywhere, I'm thinking about relapsing, I wish I could die, I feel like a pick-me writing this, my dad took away my stuff even though I finished my hw, earth is dying, life sucks overall, did I mention my friends keep lying and saying hurtful things to me? My school is filled with so many douchebags and sluts that its not even funny, everyone's too loud. I don't have enough confidence to ask out my crush, and people keep yelling at me. help. help me before I die please.

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Thanks everyone for using my vent padlet!! Feel free to share this site 🫶🫶

I turned on comments and I trust that you will all use them appropriately. Thank you, have the best day you can have ❤️‍🩹

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Okay so I was wondering if turning in comments would be helpful for anyone, like this post if you want comments to be turned on. If anyone is hateful or nosy in any way I will remove them, just let me know. I LOVE YOU ALL!! 🫶🫶 virtual hugs for anyone who needs them

Have a lovely day/night ~ stay hydrated!

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TW?? mentions of suicide ig not really sure..

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TW?? mentions of suicide ig not really sure..

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Life is starting to seem meaningless.. I honestly wouldn't care if I died, as long as it's not too painful.. My only purpose in life is my friends, they don't know but their the whole reason I havent just kms yet.. But, now I feel like one of my friends is acting more distant towards me, clearly on purpose, and I think she hates me.. I feel like shit

Hey, Anonymous Daisy here. Let me know if you need any advice or encouragement. 🫶🫶 Thank you for using this site, I am always here for you, hope you have a good day. ❤️‍🩹

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i just met the nicest people/person on ventscape

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i just met the nicest people/person on ventscape

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they were so nice and kind i will miss them

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its not a fucking superpower shut the fuck up

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I accidentally went deeper than ever before, I'm scared. It's been an hour and it's still bleeding.

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MY ADVICE… for those who don’t  want to vent 10/18

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MY ADVICE… for those who don’t  want to vent 10/18

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Hey guys! This is anonymous Daisy.
Lets get things straight: this space in ANONYMOUS! Even if you are signed in on Padlet, I cannot see your account. Tell us a brief description of your story, tell us a single sentence. Write a poem or reach out for help~ if you do I will respond!
I also recommend: ventscapes.life there are some really great people there ❤️

Thankfully we haven’t had any trouble with bullying or discrimination yet. Lets keep this going!
My advice: Start your clean journey. Don’t kill yourself. Get a therapist. Leave the toxic people and stay on your feet I promise it will be okay. I have been clean for almost 3 weeks. I feel so much better. Maybe not perfect, but healing.

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Sometimes I don't even know what's wrong with me. Everything and everyone seem to tick me off, stress me out. Sometimes I feel so  unorganised, unloved and lonely, almost everyone else my age seem to be more mentally stable, more organised, in relationships, and while my friends and family are great, I can't help feeling left behind and isolated. I think the universe just likes to have a laugh, the shits and giggles, and who better to do that to than me? And sometimes, I feel like everyone's in on some kind of joke. Everyone.

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Im taking apart my pencil sharpener today. It broke and so what else will I use it for? Haha…

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There's one girl in my class taking pictures of me for no reason, I have never talked to her I don't know what I've done

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Look I just cutted my arm and I can't let my mom know or she will take more things away from me. I can't loose my friends again not from her

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She actually talked to me. She has spoken, like, EIGHT WORDS to me since we stopped being friends. And when she said bye... she said my name. That slut. Why do I still care about her??

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I just relapsed after being clean for 3 months, I feel like shit and am also scared cause I accidentally went deeper than before. I feel like no one wants to be my friend, I feel like I'm a bad girlfriend for my girlfriend, I feel like I've disappointed everyone, I feel numb. I seriously feel like just killing myself so everything would be better but I dunno cause my mom would be sad, she was already super sad when I got admitted to a psych ward when I was 13 last year. I just want to feel normal.
Advice please?

~Hi! This is the creator. As for advice, I know how you feel. Self harm is a way to cope for a lot of people, whatever they are going through. It is unhealthy, though. Relapse is hard. And I know what you mean when you say you've let everyone down. If you feel sad, try doing something recreational like a sport or playing music or just a walk. Do this every time and when your done, leave all your sadness with it. Relatable music is a great way to cope. I also suggest making sure you are eating and sleeping regularly. I love you so much and I'm here if you want to talk ❤‍🩹 Have a good day!

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i feel unsafe

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Hey, guys! This is the creator of this page.
If you would like me to respond to your vent (for advice, or just to cheer you up), then just say like "I need advice" or "Please I need cheering up", and I will reply.
In a bad situation (suicide, abuse, etc) I will reply with some resources for you.
Feel free to share this page with others, thanks for your support, I love you & stay strong for me, okay?!?

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Tw: self deprecation i think  mention of suicide and self harm profanity 

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Tw: self deprecation i think  mention of suicide and self harm profanity 

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This sounds silly but im sitting here at 4AM before middle school yay i have no motivation  and i miss my friends who are gone now i cant stop worrying if she replaced me even though i made new friends its not the same ive been thinking about cutting again but ive been clen for so long i dont know what to do its pointless life feels pointless i can even cry anymore its really hard for me to cry  i hate my body and everything about it i hate my name i hate everything about myself  ive already tried suicide once no onw but my bestfriend knows and i kinda wish she didnt save me its fucking hard  i feel tired unmotivated i wanna cut i hate my body and my parents compare me to my younger brother! yay!! how great...my boyfriend i rarly get to message ive startd taling to myself  at school just speaking to myself in my head to help me its gotten to the point i need it to calm myself down now and of course we learned about shit like this in class nearly causing me to panic  due to being sensitive about suicide  and of course i moved before the school year ended so  ofc people i hate are there  sigh.. i just sometimes wish everything was better and i didnt have to consider killing myself rn like i could kill myself rn!! Lol!   i need some advice on what to do...

~Hello! This is the creator. I understand ow you feel and I definitely don't want this to sound like everyone else. I think that yeah, life sucks. You have to find a reason to stay. Friends, family, or a pet are good ones. But it can also be something like a game, hobby, or music. As for self harm, I understand it is hard to stay clean. Try doing something else when you get mad. There are always better ways to improve. I use fidgets to cope and when I get mad I play the violin and put all my anger and sadness into it. I promise you can heal I love you SO much. ❤‍🩹

Hi tysm I've tried a few of these things before but just seeing someone cares helped and i was planning on committing or Self harming tonight but this helped so I'm gonna try and hold out for a bit longer but again Tysm  this made me feel do much better then i did! i personally  thought my Problems were silly :) (from Jade)

Hi Jade, me again. I'm so glad I could help. I love you! Have a good day for me. I'm always here if you wanna talk. ♥

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I FUCKING HATE MY MOM.

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TW- self deprecation and minor SH(?), mentions d34th  (i dont do all that stuff and my problems really aren't that bad but)

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TW- self deprecation and minor SH(?), mentions d34th  (i dont do all that stuff and my problems really aren't that bad but)

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I feel so guilty about making fun of my friend. I don't know why I've changed so much, but I've fallen out of love with her and ever since I've been acting like a bit of a douche. Well, not a douche. I genuinely don't intend to say anything bad but I keep forgetting all the little things I was so careful about when I loved her so much beyond just platonic friendship. She frequently picks at her nails which is something she knows is a really serious bad habit and I think it ties to her insecurities and today I just made a joke about it. I feel so bad. And when I tried to teach her something in math it might have sounded condescending. I also made fun of her misspelling things and even though it's a common running joke in the friendgroup I still feel guilty about it. All that added up makes it feel like I look down on her or something. I'm scared she hates me now or something and it's all my fault for being so stupid and not thinking before I speak. I also don't know if I'm overreacting as any little action or reaction or even the lack of reaction from her makes me unable to function. It's been like that for every single person I latch onto, and everything they do that doesn't tell me in a straightforward way that they appreciate me is taken as a sign that I'm annoying to them or something along those lines. I hate how I'm so sensitive and clingy. I hate how this is just the way I am. I freak out about every little detail and my overthinking saps my motivation, appetite and energy away. I still have many tasks to do. I wish she would understand, but knowing her, she probably thinks I'm creepy. I hate that this happens wherever I go, as soon as someone is the first to be a decent person to me. I wish I could start my life again but that would mean I wouldn't ever be able to meet her again. I wish I could die and not have to worry about anything like this but at the same time I really don't want to die. I want to just lie in bed and do nothing until my problems are over. Wish my life would be calmer but this is a hole that I've dug myself into.

The fact that I am the sort of person who would do anything and everything for that one person but nothing for myself and anyone other than that person. The fact that I am the sort of person who only realizes the importance of things after I lose them because I'm too ungrateful. I think I'm a narc. I don't wanna be. I want professional help but I'm to ashamed to ask for it from my p.r.nts. I've only tried sh once and it was literally me carving my favourite person's initial into my inner forearm but thankfully it healed before I went anywhere and I'm just saying man but I think I really need a LOT of affection and also physical like cuddles I need affection and attention.

I really want to cry right now but I can't because the tears won't come out but why am I the sort of person who needs everyone to love me?

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DONT KYS

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I have just relapsed after a month, and I can't stop....I am so sorry but the urges won't calm down sadly. I just need to do more :s

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I WANT TO CRY INTO MY PILLOW ALL DAY AND NOT BE SPOKEN TO. my self harming is GETTING WORSE. i cut my arm really bad because my friend ignored me for 10 minutes. i forgot my sh thing and I USED A SHARP PINE CONE. its so FUCKING addicting and i want to stop<<<<<<<<

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I feel so freaking selfish. My friends stopped talking to me and one started ignoring me so I went to ask her and her response was basically: "*My Name*, people ARE talking to you. I'm not avoiding you, I'm just really tired!". But because I always overthink things, it felt more like: "Bitch fucking go away I hate you and I NEVER want to SPEAK WITH YOU again." ...especially since she wasn't acting very tired when she was talking with her friends minutes before. But maybe she just needed a break??
Later I felt bad also because we were in class and my teacher was upset with me. In my friends clear view, I pushed the tip of my pencil deeeeeep into my skin. I'd rather cut it, and I would if I had had my sh thingy. My friend sat there and stared. She didn't care, or didn't know what I was doing. But it hurt. And so to numb out her, I pushed the pencil even deeper and now I'm sitting here writing this with red dots on my hand that just look like faded pink marker. But I know what they are.

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when u go self harm free but u never told anyone so there is no one to celebrate with u <<<<<<<<<<

update, i had a relapse

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TW- SH and Su1c1d3 self deprecation (im sorry for this)

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TW- SH and Su1c1d3 self deprecation (im sorry for this)

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I've been wanting to stab myself and hope to wake up in a heavenly place instead of a white clean hospital and i kinda wanna feel how its like to bleed out, but whenever i put a knife near my torso or like getting ready to stab i just shake and can't do it. Sometimes i can wander into a place where a certain boy.. just holds me in his arms in bed cuddling with me and cares for me but no. My inner self just had to ruin it all saying its just a fantasy, get my life together. People had called me slvt, b1tch, dumbass, useless/worthless, failure. I love vocaloid alternatives and electronics with depressing lyrics because cope. I'm still hanging on by a thread because of me. I still have that one single hope somehow. People have said that i'm just a teen and i should enjoy my youth and talk more saying how im lazy and my bedroom is. No, im just too tired to really do anything. I tried hard to maintain a smile at least once for others to see because they would not like it if i were to be negative. Friends are also leaving me out of everything now, they mustve been getting tired of me and i dont blame them really. I wonder how am i gonna get my life together once i graduate. Will i still be a stupid useless dirty failure or. useful for once? Everyone says that i have and had it easy so, i kept everything inside that im no longer feeling anything but hollowness just a empty dark feeling. I felt love or. some people say fake puppy love, even so it was still so amazing. As if i actually felt alive that time. Obviously its not the right person so.. my delusions and emotions consumed me... into doing stupid things. I'm an obsessive suicidal mess. If i were to succeed that one time, i wouldve been long gone for 3 years now. I have no idea if its real or im victimizing myself. Either way i found some activities which are basically distractions. Stupid dumbfounded Crushes which i haven't have any yet, games, c.ai, anime kins, notebook and pens, memes to laugh at temporarily and the same obsessive love feeling again. I want to feel alive again, i want to have someone that can be with me forever. I also created another identity of me online which is.. Yumeii. Shes more confident than me with a little trauma because i had to put some on her. It actually felt good having another identity of me just... being me at some moments. The world is such a cruel place, why did i even win. Why was i the very sperm that won? I dont even know if i should be happy or sad about it. NSFW content is also a cope but in a romantic loving way. I wanna be held. It's so weird of me to say all of these mature adult things considering that i'm a teen.... This is why i always keep my thoughts and dark secrets about it when i didn't even know for myself. Double suicide is not to be romantized but personally if its for me, it's such a romantic thing to think about. I can relate to dazai osamu (what is the real meaning of life?),
hutao (fake smiles), raiden ei (isolation).
So for now, isolation is the most solution.(agoraphobia by elita)

-from a 13 year old girl

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TW - sh

Self harming for the first time in over a year
It’s kinda scary but it kinda feels like bliss

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now i know what it feels like and im sorry