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I always feel like that an incapable person because I compare myself to other people’s success. He is doing well but I’m not, shortage if efforts. Then I can’t proud of myself. It is easy to say that I am doing well, but I think “what? why?” immediately. There is no evidence that I am doing well.

I think that my environment is really nice. My family, education, my friends, etc. what I’m here is also thanks for their support. I sometimes mistake their support for expectation and feel pressure. I fear that in this environment I will let them down by not being able to produce results and work hard. I tend to think I don’t have to make excuse no achievment. then losing self-confidence, feeling anxious and afraid to show myself to others

the reasons of this are high importance of achievement or result, self-criticism, and placing values on others' evaluation.

Goals: I often tend to focus on long-term goals where it is easy to see what I have accomplished, but I must set short-term goals and recognize my growth step by step, not my accomplishments. It’s necessary to find the standard of my evaluation without other people evaluation.

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Alex Sampson - Cannonball (Official Audio)

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Over the years, I’ve realized that I truly struggle with trusting people and building genuine connections. I’ve always had a tight-knit circle of friends I trust, but over time, that circle has become smaller. Making new friendships as an adult is hard enough, but doing so across different countries has proven even more challenging. Past experiences of friendship fallouts have instilled a belief in me that forming close connections isn’t worth the risk. I often catch myself dwelling on those memories, reliving the hurt, and each time, I find myself adding another layer to my walls, making myself less available to others.

I also tend to attach very deeply to people, so when relationships fade or end, I feel the sting profoundly. This makes me cautious about who I let into my life, even though I know that this mindset might hold me back from the sense of belonging and connection that I, like everyone, desire. I often worry that people don’t genuinely enjoy my company, that they find me boring or are merely tolerating me. Because of these thoughts, I tend to withdraw from social gatherings or events. I've noticed that I've learned to enjoy my own company a bit too much.

Goal: Although we have been working on defusing techniques to eliminate negative thoughts, I recognize that this is an ongoing journey, and I still have areas to improve.

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1. Write more about your struggle:

My biggest struggle is feeling like I always have to achieve good grades. It’s something that constantly weighs on me because I’ve always been driven to succeed academically. The pressure I put on myself sometimes feels overwhelming, and it’s hard to balance that with everything else going on in my life, like my creative work, social causes, and personal growth. It feels like if I don’t get the grades I expect of myself, I’ve somehow failed. This pressure can take away the joy of learning because I’m more focused on the results than the process itself.

Sometimes, I find myself sacrificing other things—like self-care or even time spent with friends—just to make sure I’m studying enough. And yet, I still wonder if it’s ever enough. I know that part of this is me trying to meet certain expectations, but I also know that grades don’t define my worth. It’s just hard to remind myself of that when I’m in the middle of everything.

2. Find a song to express your struggle:

I think a song that really captures my struggle is "Skyscraper" by Demi Lovato. It’s about feeling broken under pressure but still standing tall and pushing forward. I can relate to that because, even when I feel overwhelmed, I always try to keep going. Another song might be "Unstoppable" by Sia, because it’s about pushing through challenges and staying strong even when it feels like things aren’t going your way.

3. What do you want to develop during these classes?

In these classes, I really want to develop better ways to manage the pressure I put on myself. I need to learn how to take a step back and not let grades define my success or my self-worth. I want to focus on developing healthier study habits and better time management so that I can balance my academic goals with everything else that’s important to me.

I also want to shift my mindset—to enjoy the process of learning rather than always worrying about the end result. Building resilience is another key thing for me, because I need to learn how to handle setbacks without feeling like I’ve failed. It’s important for me to grow both academically and personally, and I think these classes can help me do that.

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Demi Lovato - Skyscraper (Official Video)

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After the first few weeks of the minor, I realized what my struggle is in life. I am not sure if there is a word for it already, but I want to call it “intellectual perfectionism”.

When it comes to day to day I don’t really struggle with perfectionism, except when it comes to academic or intellectual stuff. In those moments I want people to know that I’m smart and I want to put my best foot forward. If I’m not showing this side of me, I feel like people will think that I’m dumb and stupid.

So when it comes to school work, I always want it to be on a level that I can appreciate. When I have solo projects, this is not a struggle. But when it comes to group projects, it’s harder. I don’t want my teammates to feel underappreciated, but I also want to strive to a high level. So usually I take my role as a leader, which I have no difficulties with, but this also means that I take on a lot of tasks myself. Because I know that if I do something, it’s on the level I want it to be.

Goal: Redefine my leadership role in group settings, aiming for trust and equitable division of labor rather than control over the quality of all outputs.

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Jessica Darrow - Surface Pressure (From "Encanto")

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Name of my story: 'Loser, you didn't try hard enough'.

The aim I have within this course is being able to make contact with the problem instead of fixing everything. (Don't) ACT upon problems that don't need an answer.

Thought's like:

"you can fix it like this ..." or "what is the solution jasper?" or "unable te crack this one? Loser" or "you didn't try hard anough!"