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12/14 Vocabulary                                                                                                                                                          Pg 270 "I didn't like the popular teacher; he pandered too much to students and often played favorites"

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12/14 Vocabulary                                                                                                                                                          Pg 270 "I didn't like the popular teacher; he pandered too much to students and often played favorites"

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Term: Pandered
Part of Speech: Verb
Definition: To cater to the lower tastes and desires of others

Sentence: The slave had to pander to whomever she was forced to in order to keep the others, as well as herself, alive.

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12/14 Pg 269-302                                                                    Pg 298 "the majority goes on deciding what is "normal" and not, who is irredeemable or not, until one day you also get defined as abnormal...once you become a victim of the state, who do you think will be spearheading the revolution? Probably people like me"

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12/14 Pg 269-302                                                                    Pg 298 "the majority goes on deciding what is "normal" and not, who is irredeemable or not, until one day you also get defined as abnormal...once you become a victim of the state, who do you think will be spearheading the revolution? Probably people like me"

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I particularly enjoyed reading this passage as it is almost aphorism-like, claiming that people willingly alienate and outcast others until they become subject to such treatment themselves. Cruelty can spread rapidly among people as to assure themselves that if they are doing the outcasting, they are with those on top and they therefore, cannot be outcasted as well...until it is in the better interest of those on top to subject them as well, and they then find themselves begging for mercy. Would I agree that they should also be part of this "revolution" that the author speaks of. I'm not so sure it would be so fair, as they were merciless as well, right up until they were put into the same shoes as the other people. But then again, if they couldn't be part of it, then who could.

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12/7 Vocabulary  Pg 109 "Even if the ball had been thrown to the baseman by the time I  got there, my unmitigated determination is running straight to her"                                                                                                          

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12/7 Vocabulary  Pg 109 "Even if the ball had been thrown to the baseman by the time I  got there, my unmitigated determination is running straight to her"                                                                                                          

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Term: Unmitigated
Part of Speech: Adjective
Definition: Not diminished or moderated in intensity or severity
Sentence: His brother's unmitigated aggression caused him to continue making his life miserable, despite his apology.

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12/7 Pg 169-199                                                    Pg 178 "I played it like a game of poker- both sides dealt a specific hand and determined to play their hand better"

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12/7 Pg 169-199                                                    Pg 178 "I played it like a game of poker- both sides dealt a specific hand and determined to play their hand better"

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This quote is very similar to the last quote, but I have begun to notice that Thomas is constantly referring to life as a game. Whether it's competition, love (in spite), or winning over jurors, Thomas has identified the best act to put on for every situation in order to mold people's expectations of her into something that would advantage her. It is especially interesting that Thomas used this analogy of poker to further emphasize the notion that Thomas treats life as if it were a silly game, playing to win and willing to go to extreme measures in order to assure that she wins. She will accuse teachers of sexual harassment, compete for one's love interest, and even goes so far as to manipulate her father to assure herself that she is in power.

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12/7 Pg 103-133                                       Pg 119 "I felt that the label of girl was too limiting to contain my own grandiose conception of myself, and so I mostly ignored it"

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12/7 Pg 103-133                                       Pg 119 "I felt that the label of girl was too limiting to contain my own grandiose conception of myself, and so I mostly ignored it"

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While Thomas claims to have a very inflated ego throughout the course of the story, it is intriguing that referral to her as a girl is something that hurts her ego. While this is partly due to her mother using her gender and good looks to her advantage, it is also due to females simply not being as physically strong as their male counterparts. No matter how hard Thomas attempts to be as a woman, she just cannot get past the more physically daunting appearances that men possess. It is very disappointing that Thomas feels that her gender takes away from her personality and fiery appearance, especially when she has shown that nothing else could hurt her self-esteem.

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11/30 Pg 62-102                                                                      Pg. 80 "I would sometimes get beaten black and blue by my father, but I never reacted...If someone who loves you is hitting you that hard, you have more power than he does. You've provoked a reaction in him that he cannot control, and if you are like me, you will use this incident however it suits you"

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11/30 Pg 62-102                                                                      Pg. 80 "I would sometimes get beaten black and blue by my father, but I never reacted...If someone who loves you is hitting you that hard, you have more power than he does. You've provoked a reaction in him that he cannot control, and if you are like me, you will use this incident however it suits you"

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This is particularly interesting. Normally, children who would get beat by their parents would never even come close to these kind of conclusions. M.E. Thomas is more worried about whose hand the power would remain in, not even minding the beatings as she would use them to her advantage to guilt him. She even goes to comment on how this guilt had more effect on him than the beatings would ever have on her. This sort of manipulation, I guess you could say, really distinguishes her from any other typical person. While others may have only seen hatred in getting beat, she somehow as a child, was able to see love because he was "hitting [her that hard". Odd; I'm also curious as to whether she would ever treat someone similar to that based on the same reasoning.

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11/30 Pg 30-61                                       Pg. 58 "I wondered if the chickens knew which one was the egg eater; and if they didn't, what they would do if they found out"

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11/30 Pg 30-61                                       Pg. 58 "I wondered if the chickens knew which one was the egg eater; and if they didn't, what they would do if they found out"

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This was written right after an incident with the chickens in which one of them had gotten a taste of an egg and then continued to eat them whenever given the chance. I believe this quote relates a lot to the author, who just a few pages ago, received official diagnosis of her sociopathy. In a way, she's wondering what would happen to her if anyone around her found out she was a sociopath. Due to her knowledge of the stereotypes associated with sociopathy, she worries what would happen if her disorder got out. This is also interesting that she expresses concern here while in other stories she has told, she shows she does not care much at all for her own health and safety.

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12/14 232-268                                                                           Pg 259 "I pulled over and told her to get out. I remember reaching over her to unlock her door, feeling the precariousness of the city in the drat of outside air...As I looked blankly into her tear-stained face and she gasped for breath through her sobs, her clothes disheveled, as if her wretchedness had seeped into their fibers, it would have been easy to let her go"

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12/14 232-268                                                                           Pg 259 "I pulled over and told her to get out. I remember reaching over her to unlock her door, feeling the precariousness of the city in the drat of outside air...As I looked blankly into her tear-stained face and she gasped for breath through her sobs, her clothes disheveled, as if her wretchedness had seeped into their fibers, it would have been easy to let her go"

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This part was a little confusing to me and similar to what I was saying in the previous post, the author may have just done this in order to take pride in their sociopathia, which sounds a little odd. People in general to seem to want to believe that they are "special" and see outcasting as something "unique", and the author has definitely shown pride in her disorder through the rest of the novel. I say this because the person to whom she is referring to was someone she loves and she claims to have felt no such remorse to ditching her out in the city, yet she has stated before that she has cried from being heartbroken and experienced similar things, so this reaction from the other person seems like something the author would have been smart enough to pick up on long ago.

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11/30 Vocabulary                                                                                                            Pg 16: The stories I tell myself  to explain my actions are self-aggrandizing.

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11/30 Vocabulary                                                                                                            Pg 16: The stories I tell myself  to explain my actions are self-aggrandizing.

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Term: Self-Aggrandizing
Part of Speech: Adjective
Definition: Exhibiting self-importance
Sentence: The soon-to-be tyrant was self-aggrandizing, feeding his pride and deceiving the innocent in order to make his way to the top.

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I chose this book due to my interest in disorders and to see how this sociopathic person's life differs and relates to my own. I find the way that other people think and handle situations is quite interesting. The fact that this is written by someone who actually possesses this disorder and not just a factual book about sociopaths in general also lured me towards this book since biographies are generally among my favorite books.

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12/7 Pg 134-164                                               Pg 138 "If I thought my life was rigged,  I don't know what I'd do, maybe kill myself or others. It's only because I think I can...play the game better than others that it keeps my interest enough to persist in playing it"

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12/7 Pg 134-164                                               Pg 138 "If I thought my life was rigged,  I don't know what I'd do, maybe kill myself or others. It's only because I think I can...play the game better than others that it keeps my interest enough to persist in playing it"

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Thomas seems very centered on the idea that life is a game. As the quotes mentions, she is very competitive and dedicated to being the best. A rigged life would mean that she is "cheating" at the one thing that she fights so incredibly hard for, showing that she was not truly the best. While Thomas claims that her sociopathic behavior sometimes has no limits, it is interesting that this one detail would lead her to want to kill herself, for it would appear that she would be indifferent to this kind of thing. Another thing this quote portrays is how manipulative Thomas is, challenging others ,not to better herself, but rather to prove who is the best. Whether it a teacher, classmate or even family member, Thomas constantly feels the need uphold her status and not be undermined by others.

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11/30 Pages 1-30                                                   Pg 27: "I had grown accustomed to believing my own lies. I would fixate on moments that made me feel normal. A monster would not cry at a sad movie. Her heart would not break from a lover's departure. So my tears were proof that I was normal, as was the pain in my chest, about which so many songs have been written. How could my heart be broken if there was no heart to break? It had been easy to convince myself that I was not the one with the problem"

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11/30 Pages 1-30                                                   Pg 27: "I had grown accustomed to believing my own lies. I would fixate on moments that made me feel normal. A monster would not cry at a sad movie. Her heart would not break from a lover's departure. So my tears were proof that I was normal, as was the pain in my chest, about which so many songs have been written. How could my heart be broken if there was no heart to break? It had been easy to convince myself that I was not the one with the problem"

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I chose this passage due to its contradiction of expectation. This book is about sociopathia. One would tend to believe that a person possessing this disorder would not experience such feelings of love and pain, let alone the denial that the author is experiencing due to her fear of her being diagnosed as such. She is aware of the negativity associated with the disorder and she herself falls victim to some of these false expectations/stereotypes which puts her in such denial. I was also intrigued by the fact that she had "grown accustomed to believing [her] own lies.  She also states that this was in quite easy for her. I believe that this is in part due to her exceptional intelligence (not coincidentally one of the characteristics of a sociopath), that she was able to lie to the extent that she, herself, forgot the truth.

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12/14 200-231                                                            Pg 215: "Try and tell the truth for once and no one wants to hear it. So I've given up, and I tell the truth quite a lot now. In circumstances such as 'What are you thinking?' 'How your ear would feel in my mouth if I ripped it off with my teeth.' 'Haha!' Or the good old: 'Do you like me?' 'I don't give a shit about you' 'Haha!' I tell the truth, and no one believes me"

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12/14 200-231                                                            Pg 215: "Try and tell the truth for once and no one wants to hear it. So I've given up, and I tell the truth quite a lot now. In circumstances such as 'What are you thinking?' 'How your ear would feel in my mouth if I ripped it off with my teeth.' 'Haha!' Or the good old: 'Do you like me?' 'I don't give a shit about you' 'Haha!' I tell the truth, and no one believes me"

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This comment was made by a sociopath (this time not the  author themselves) who found that their thoughts were so blunt and outrageous to the extent that people took their brutal honesty as a joke. This is quite intriguing and frightening as the speaker of the quote reveals some very dark and cruel things and the person to whom it was directed towards responds with a mere laugh, completely blind to the inhumanity of the speaker. I also have come to think that maybe the speaker is just stating this to almost show off and boast his ego as it's not very often that people ask such questions, yet they make it seem as if he gets to respond to such questions regularly.