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My ideal self is out-going, participates a lot in class, and isn't afraid of what others say.
However, my real self cares and overthinks about what others say about me (ex: if someone says i'm dumb i will try to never participate in that class again or engage with that person/thier friend group). My real self is scared of being wrong (part of why I don't really participate).
I am incongruent because my ideal self and real self are different and have little overlap

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My ideal self wants to get out and make a change in the world

My real self wants to stay within the realistic realm (get good grades in my school), and only do what I think I'm capable of such as doing good on homework. I try to be as realistic as possible, but my real self just focuses on statistics (not many people get far when trying to make a change).
I am congruent in this trait because of a big overlap, however, it's not perfect, but it's bigger than the other traits.

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My ideal self wants to persevere throughe everything and not care if I'm bad or not.

My real self will easily get discouraged. If someone else does something better than me, I will feel like I'm worthless and can't do anything right, and will most likely not attempt whatever I was doing again.
I am incongruent because my ideal self and real self are different and have little overlap

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My ideal self is nice to others and always happy no matter what

My real self is constantly on an emotional rollercoaster. One second I can be really happy, but the second someone says something that hurts my feelings I will either get super mad or start to cry.
I am incongruent because my ideal self and real self are different and have little overlap

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My ideal self thinks about what I'm doing and the consequences.

My real self puts little to no thought in my actions

I am incongruent because my ideal self and real self are different and have little overlap

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An example of me being impulsive is when I asked my mom to go hang out with my friends and she said no so I went to my room and threw things because I was mad. This was impulsive because I basically ruined my room without realizing I'd have to pick it all up, and be in trouble with both of my parents (I also didn't try to calm down, I just acted out of anger).

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I'm constantly self-conscious about what I look like. I don't like it when I can't see myself in the mirror, so I check my phone camera instead. If I have a feeling I might look ugly to someone or if I feel ugly, I will try to hide my face with my hand or putting my head at an angle. I also take pictures at a certain angle which cover my face (only show my eyebrows and part of my eye and hair) to conceal my bad skin and facial structure.

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One day in basketball we were doing a shooting drill (coach puts everyone in teams and everyone has to make a certain amount of shots from different spots on the court), and I didn't have a good shot range as some other girls on my team, so when I kept missing shots, I got discouraged and thought of quitting basketball and thought that I was the worst on the team.

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My parents dropped out of high school, had my brother and I at a young age, and have to work lots of hours to support my siblings and I. This really motivates me to put effort in my school work, try and find the best career path that will give me a stable future. I'm in AVID which helps me look for colleges and college scholarship even from freshman year. I try my best to ensure a good future for myself and my family even if it's too late for my parents.

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When I take naps after school (basically every single day), I always wake up with a bad attitude if someone wakes me up. I will be really annoyed at everything for no reason, and talk back to everyone. However, if there's some really good food that I'm gonna eat, I'll go from mad to happy.

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Reaction Formation- When I don't like someone but have to deal with them (like some people in some of my classes), I act nice to them in class but deep down I really don't like them and have no desire to talk to them at all.

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Regression- going back to my story, when something doesn't go my way (that I really desire),I will throw a tantrum like a 3 year old.
Displacement- If I get into a disagreement with someone from school, I'll displace those angry feelings from that disagreement onto my brother, telling him to shut up and leave me alone.

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Projection- If I don't like someone, I will say that they don't like me either to protect myself from the feeling of disliking that person.

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My impulsiveness is mostly driven by my Id. This is because I'm acting out on something that I want in the moment, and I don't think about the consequences. It couldn't be ego because that would be making a compromise with my mom to get whatever I want. Superego isn't an option either because I would just accept that my mom said no and carry on like normal.

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My self-consciousness is mostly driven by my ego. This is because I'm accepting that I may look ugly to others, but at the same time I'm not totally masking myself from others. I couldn't be ruled by my Id because that would just mean that I wouldn't show up to school at all because I wouldn't want to show my face. Superego wouldn't rule me either because that would mean I would just accept that not everyone perceives me as beautiful and not cover my face (but I do, so I compromise between Id/Superego, leading me to Ego)

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My moodiness is driven by my ego because I'll find a compromise in whatever it is that I'm feeling. For example, if I get mad because someone wakes me up, I'll get up and do what I need to do even though I complain about it(if I was driven by my Id I would just go back to sleep). If I was driven by my superego, I'd just wake up by myself and be my normal, happy self.

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My discouragedness is driven by my ego because I never really give up (which would be my Id), I just acknowledge that I need to get better at something. This is not driven by my Superego because if it was, I would carry on with a positive attitude, but I dont; I find a balance between the Id and the Superego which is why this trait is driven by my Ego.

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My ambitiousness is driven by my ego. It can't be the Id because that would be me being lazy and not putting any effort into anything. My superego would be looking for new opportunities to succeed/trying more honors classes/AP. However, I mediate between these (sometimes I don't do my homework, but I still do well on tests/quizzes the majority of the time).

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I have more of a reserved personality when being placed on the Big 5

Openness: I don't really like to try new things, I stick to what I know to save myself from embarrassment (explaining my easily discouragedness, if I fail at one thing I will not want to try it again, so I stick to what I know best)

Conscientousness:I mean in teacher comments I've gotten 'conscientious' which I agree with. I always think about what's gonna come next and how to prepare myself such if I know there's going to be a test in a couple days or a week, I'll make a quizlet and start studying early. Other people also depend on me to know what's going on in class by asking me what the homework was.

Extroversion: I mostly keep to myself except for when I'm with my very close friends, some people may perceive me as extroverted but when I don't know someone as well, I'm very shy. Sometimes I am assertive with beliefs, but other times I'm more reserved depending on who I'm with (explaining my self-counsciousness and sometimes impulsiveness)

Agreeableness: I'm mostly helpful even when I don't want to (if a teacher asks me to help I'll obviously help because a teacher is asking), but if it's someone I don't really like, I'll come up with some sort of an excuse. I also shy towards trusting people with secrets of mine.

Neuroticism: For the most part, I am calm and even-tempered, except for when I am placed in situations that make me happy (thankfully that's not so often). Sometimes when I am mad, I will just listen to music and not say anything which makes people perceive me as calm and normal. However, when this does happen, this causes my moodiness.

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this poem basically describes my self-consciousness because I beat myself up about it then I realize I can't do anything about it (besides plastic surgery but that is not appealing), so I should just accept myself for who I am.

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this explains my moodiness because sometimes I will feel like I'm not good at anything, then think about the positives in life and cheer myself back up

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this is how I feel when I'm discouraged. I basically feel like I will never get back up again and feel like I'm trapped.

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I chose the song roar by katy perry because it basically explains how your success is going to be known and you''re going to work hard for it

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these lyrics are very impulsive (which is why I blurred them out), but they describe me because I don't like to sugarcoat things, I like to tell it how it is and that may seem impulsive for some.

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I have my safety needs met (which also means I have my physiological). I have a place to live, which also includes home security (which makes me feel even safer because some people are crazy). I play basketball with people I know and trust.
I also have good relationships (love/belonging) met because I love spending time with my friends even if we're just watching a TV show together (or conspiracy theories on youtube). I also have a good relationship with my family, and basically tell them almost everything.

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I put them all the way here because I think I look very ugly in them and having them all the way to the right means I don't have to look at them, so enjoy :)

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this is me reenacting how I would react very impulsively by pretending to throw a barbecue sauce bottle

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an example of how i'd cover up my face

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a beautiful video of me demonstrating possible mood swings for me (happy,sad,happy,sad)

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me being proud of having good grades (all a's except chem because she hasn't put in a test grade)

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this is how I imagine my face would look if I was bad at something or got bad feedback

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red signifies anger and blobs are very unpredictable, which symbolize the actions of one that is impulsive.

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I chose a blue teadrop because blue is associated with sadness and being self-conscious makes me sad.

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I chose this image of a rollercoaster because you never know what's gonna happen next. Someone can do something that's going to affect your emotions, and people can't predict my emotions like a rollercoaster.

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feeling discouraged is like wanting to disappear in a black hole because you basically feel embarrassed and don't want to experience that any more.

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I chose this image of a man climbing up steps because reaching your goals is not easy, you're going to have to put effort into it as demonstrated by this lovely photo.