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there is one of me and one of you
or a million of you and one of me

you are built of thousands of expericnaces
a face i can't make out
because there's stories that weren't shared
quarters you may have spent will go without me knowing

and i wont have to know
because i shouldnt know
this is the only conversation we will ever share

i wont know who owns that glint in your eyes
or why you scuffed up your shoes
or why that lady is crying at the bus stop

i can see her through the window, shes looking in every few seconds

maybe her tears are your fault
i couldn't comprehend why that would be
beacuse i don't know what would hurt her

but if i did, would i use it against you?
would i watch as your eyes filled and face dropped?
thankful that you got a taste of your own medicine
or would i cover my mouth and hold you close?
as a begging of forgiveness

i dont know what i would do
because i dont know the relationship i would have with you
and i cant tell you these things
because you would find me strange

maybe sock me in the mouth for being a creep
maybe not
i wouldnt know, i dont know you

i hand you your coffee and change and ignore the glare you're giving
and once you're out the door
we are strangers

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The absence of a pleasant fall brought me to you. You were found in an alley, smoking a cigarette and looking more tired than my dad at age 57. You told me mean things and I let you, I let you because I knew you didn’t mean it. I saw the rough look on your face, the bruises on your arm, a guy that didn’t have it all figured out.

I thought you found me charming, the way you’d only smile at me. I being the only guy that could get a laugh out of you. Although we hadn’t know each other long, we had spent days together. Tangled up in bed or teasing at the coffee shop. The shine of summer warm in your eyes. And as you started to soften, I thought I could read between the lines.

I was ready and asked what had hurt you and watched your demeanor changed. A wave of empty filled your eyes and it turned my stomach. Standing up, you spit out cruel words and avoided being eye level with me. Whether that was our height difference at play or a power move on your end.

Your facade began to crumble, there was no hurt in your eyes, there was no soft secret grin, there wasn’t anything in line with the man that I thought I knew. It’s time I should have betted on, it’s not about the hours we spent, it’s about the experiences we should have had before I spoke.

I thought I knew you, you closed up so much; the small little bit you shared tricked me into thinking I knew much more. Unfairness was in play, not on your end or mine, I was jumping head first while you weren’t even dipping your toes in yet.

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It’s a tough pill to swallow, trying so very hard to get to know someone, and yet nothing you do gets you closer to them.
You understand they may have barriers, boundaries unseen unless you pay far more attention than you ever could. A fear of connection? A sad understanding that maybe you will never fully understand them.

You begin to wonder, who the real problem is, do they think these same things about you? Are you just as hard to befriend as you believe they are?

I believe we all wish to understand one another, be it hatred or love; your reason behind it is irrelevant in the long run. You wish to know their reasoning behind what they do and how they think, do you not?

Should you hate someone with all your soul, you wish to understand why they’ve done the things you despise so much.

And for the lovers? He who desires affection wishes to learn more about his love, be it big or small.

And maybe far in the future you will connect with them, and succeed in the one thing you have come to this place in hopes for; but that day has not yet come, and I cannot be sure that it will.

Best of luck, My dearest friend, may luck smile upon you soon enough.

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Why is it that life tosses and throws me around? Why is it that everyone gets to live while I play pretend? The burdens and insecurities are too much to carry, how could anyone stay afloat? While girls doll up their porcelain face, I peel off the scabs on my cheek. While boys playfully tease with friends, I sit alone watching the fun from afar. Uncovering the expectations my mind created, behind lies the painful reality of heartbreak and betrayal. I was never good enough for anyone. The world chose me. It was me they had decided to drag along the ground while everyone soars above the sky. At least that's what it seems. With life so cruel and uncaring, I lack to acknowledge the truth of it all. Im so caught up in my own despair I refuse to see the rest of life's evil doing. There are other girls with insecurities far worse than me. There are boys just as lonely as me. Everyone suffers just as much as I do. Its not until you scratch beneath surface that you will see the aftermath of what we've done to ourselves.

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My heart thumps against my rib cage
Anxiety carving his name in the walls of my stomach
I gave you everything.
I told you everything.
Even when I thought it might scare you away.
But you didnt flinch
You didnt shy away
I loved you for that
You even listened
Made me feel like someone could hear me
I loved you even more
But now I sit in the dark
Only the blue light of my phone illuminating my face
Thinking after these months of silence
That you would finally break it
I wanna keep coming up with reasons on why you're not there anymore
But I can't keep thinking that you'll let me in anymore
Im tired

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Choose one of the following unique words!!
Here are the two definitions/words
Write something based on the word WOOOOO!!!!

Adronitis (noun): Frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone

Sonder: the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own

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I sit in my room truly pissed
All I feel is adronitist.
To think I knew you for all this time
I only wish that it wasn't a crime.
To get to know you.
But now I see right through you.