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My name is Muhammad Afif Nazran (Hello!)

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I went to the Putra Mosque in Putrajaya JUST for my Visual Art photography work. That right there, is pure dedication. If I didn't get an A+ for Visual Arts, I don't know what to say ;-;

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You probably scrolled right to here the second you entered this Padlet. Or not, who knows.

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As of now, I am considering being a web developer. The reasons are because being a web developer is a very flexible job, meaning that I can do it from my home. It's also a futureproof job (partially), because AI cannot fully replace this profession, and lastly, it's because of my interest, basically.

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I was born in Kelantan in 2010, beofre moving to Johor in 2012, and finally, Negeri Sembilan in 2016.

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THIS is a PICTURE of Zermatt. Can you imagine how it could look like in real life? I would love to visit here when I study abroad, hopefully in Germany.

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Really personal stuff. May or may not be boring / awkward / weird. Sorry.

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I get anxious with the most ridiculous things ever.

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This quote always reminds me that it is completely fine to be different, because I always tried to fit in with others too much.

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I'm an expert overthinker (Like an INTJ I am). I will calculate all the hypothetical possible outcomes of an action I did, and I WILL worry about it, alot alot.

Usually, I overthought before I even start doing something. That "something" may be:

Messaging someone

Asking questions

Everything about crushes

Writing that last point

Writing this post

Writing THAT last point

I'm even currently (30th of April) thinking what would everyone think if this padlet would be presented in front of everyone (hello!).

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My MBTI personality is INTJ, usually known as the "engineer" personality.

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I was an introvert, most of the time. I'd love to talk to people, but I probably would not put a big effort into doing so. Although, I wanted to connect to people, really. The problem with THAT is I was always insecure if some people actually like talking to me, or they just don't want to be rude. :(

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I don't really know what intuitive really means, but apparently it means a way of understanding something quickly without needing to analyze it consciously. I think I am more intuitive than sensing, I guess?

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A thinking personality type make decisions based on objectivity and fact. This one is definitely accurate, I always think a lot when making decisions. In fact, I may or may not even be an overthinker.

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Judging personality type are detailed planners who make logical, absolute, and evaluated decisions. I will say that I do plan most things, but sometimes, you just have to leave it all, do something (that is legal), and see what happens.

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I am currently learning Python, a programming language with the free time I have, and it's HARD.

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Disclaimer: This hobby is the last thing I would usually do, because of the tremendously massive amount of assignments I currently have.

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History is fun. I loved watching Modern European history or 15th century Southeast Asian kingdoms history.

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Although I rarely sketch, when I have the motivation to do it, I can sketch for hours straight.

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Me and the 6 person I care about the most in this world

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Let's start this week's journal on April 5th, around 5 pm. My family took me from college, and we're gonna head straight to Kuala Terengganu until April 7th, where we will then head to Kelantan.

The drive from Seremban to Kuala Terengganu took us around 9 hours. Then our family stayed for a day before heading to Kelantan on Monday.

We arrived in Kelantan at 9 am, where I met my cousins, and my uncles and aunties. Other than that, we just stayed in my grandmother's house on Tuesday.

The next morning, and it's Wednesday. I woke up early that day, cleaned myself, and put on my black Baju Melayu.

Then I had a breakfast consisting of... Mee Kari, which is questionable for a First Raya breakfast, and then go to the nearest mosque for Hari Raya prayer.

I then joined the boys (my cousins) go up to the neighbours house to claim our yearly Duit Raya (and get to know them, of course), when around 20 minutes later, we found another group of boys, which we joined and visited a few houses together.

However, this Raya felt like something was missing. This year's celebration was REALLY small compared to my previous year's experience by a mile.

On Wednesday night (the First Raya Night), we head to Kedah for the next 3 days of Raya. Our family arrived somewhere at 3 am, Thursday.

The morning I woke up, and there are so many people outside of the house. And it was at this moment, that my brain goes full introvert mode. There are 20 people in my grandmother's house, and I only get out of my room a few times...

The third day of Raya, our family visited my father's friend in Penang, and I went to bought my college supplies. See, I didn't really go to a lot of places this Raya, which is a little bit sad.

The last and fourth day of Raya, we first went to a river 1 driving hour away, and then visited my cousins there. During the night, my family packed up our stuff, I stayed up until 3 am to do this Padlet, and then we got in our car heading back to Negeri Sembilan at 4 am.

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This picture was taken in Kelantan while I was with my family

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This one was taken in Terengganu

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My mother and little bro. Looks pretty cool

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Of course, the typical introvert problem. Although, let's actually talk about my social introversion.

Introverts are people who like to be alone. Well I don't. Socialising is one of the best parts of life, and there's no way I'm missing that. But I am an ambivert, because I do recharge by being alone, most of the time.

So the root of the problem here is clearly not my social preferences, it's the lack of confidence. Why, one might ask? Easy, this takes us back to this section's first post, Overthinking.

My overthinking behavior made me think twice every single time I tried socialising. "What if I'm bothering?", "What do they think of me?", "What if I sound random / awkward?"

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Well, I don't think I can. Even if I were to, it would be a lengthy process, so I'll probably be stuck with this problems for God knows how long.

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Now THIS! THIS, gentlemen, is weird.

Feeling left out? For an introvert (ambivert actually)? Now that, is sad.

So how do I feel left out?

Usually, in a group of friends, usually called a circle, I *feel* like I was the one left out. For example, if my circle planned an outing together, I was usually not invited to join them.

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This week's journal entry would be about my Outing experience with 3 other MTPs / Master, that is: Muhammad, Mitesh and Ammar Daiyan, and how we almost got stranded in the middle of Putrajaya.

Alright, let's begin. The morning, the 4 of us head to the entrance of IPG, while thinking where should we go today. It was at that moment, that Muhammad just randomly suggested IOI City Mall, in Putrajaya, nearly an hour (only) away from here. "Well, that's not THAT far, innit?" and boy, will we enjoy our outing there.

The Grab we took to go to IOI alone costed us RM 50, compared to the standard ~20. The first thing we did was getting a fairly priced and good Nasi Lemak, and tea, then to the Popular Bookstore, which we spent almost 2 hours in. I have no idea how.

Then we had lunch, went to Decathlon to get Muhammad some tennis equipments, and it's 4:00, so let's get home.

But... there's a problem. You see, Putrajaya is a very busy city, and in the evening, when people are coming back from work... the traffic didn't go that well.

We had to spend 20 minutes jut trying to get a car, and when we do get one, it costs us RM 110! THAT'S TWICE THE LAST TIME. Thankfully, we arrived mere 20 minutes before the gate closes and we'd be considered late.

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Who knows where YJ, Izaz, Aswad, Haziq, Megat, Adam and TPS was...

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May 8th, this morning we're going to the Bangi campus for a half day Raya celebration (a really late one).

So I woke up early again, for God knows how many times, and dressed up. Then I think I went to the dining hall with Amir, and waited, I think 40 minutes for the bus to arrive.

I'm pretty sure we arrived in Bangi at around 9 am, and then I ate some stuff, typical celebration things, you know.

What I do absolutely love today, though, is the fact that I am just so socially extroverted today. I went around a lot, talking to a lot of people, seniors, juniors, my crush, classmates, as much people as I can.

Everyone did a fantastic job with their performances, the song choices is actually good this time (because almost everyone was listening to MASDO), and the food were pretty good, as usual.

At 2, we hopped on our bus and head back to my home state. Tired, we got to rest in the evening, and that's that.

Nonetheless, I can say that I am pretty proud of myself today.

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This is one of the most overwhelmingly complicated week I've ever had this year. Here's what happened.

It's Friday, May 10th. I joined a group performance for Hari Guru after being politely forced by Sathanaa, although I actually kind of voluntarily joined them.

Saturday, the girls' outing day. I tried indescribably hard not too procrastinate, but my laziness got the best of me. Later that night, our performance group had a group discussion, and some new people joined in: Ammar, Qayyim, Haziq and Aqil (my former social circle). Seeing this, I figured that it's not worth my time participating in this activity, so I left, and it's the biggest mistake I made this week.

Right after I left, Hasnul, Darwisy and Huffaz (all the original members) left with me, leaving the group with just 4 men. I felt terribly guilty, so on Sunday I joined back in. Also, it's outing day!

This month's outing plan was simple: Go bowling for 3 games, buy food supplies, buy our class' Hari Guru presents, and head back before 5. It went... as planned.

Monday, got to meet my crush again, an even busier day. New assignments, practicing my dancing performance, I had social problems, another daily dose of overthinking that no one cares about me. The same goes with Tuesday.

Slowly, the assignment count rose up to 14 at its peak. That, is, an absolute monster of a number. I started questioning if this is what it takes to be an extrovert, because I'm absolutely killing it on socialising this week, man! I reconnected with many people, talked with my crush a lot (but never too much, I acknowledged my limits).

And finally, Thursday. Happy Teachers Day to you, Mr K. I did a relatively good performance, and so do my classmates (except for Haziq, he messed up a bit). There's also some... mistakes that happened, I am not sure at all. All I know, we didn't get to give our presents, I am absolutely clueless of what we did wrong. This is very dark, so we'll try to not talk about this.

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a picture of me and my performance friends

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It's a solid song, what? Really explosive. Pun intended

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I listen to a lot of Imagine Dragons songs. This is one of the best

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Enemy (with JID) - from the series Arcane League of Legends

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Enemy (with JID) - from the series Arcane League of Legends

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Here are some of my personality traits or habits that may help you understand me better

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I have this really bad habit, where if I really liked an assignment, I'll put most of my energy into that one single work. Now, that is good, IF there was only that one single assignment. The problem, though, is when it's not. I will get so lazy at doing other works other than that interesting assignment, which is bad to gain my marks on other subjects.

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A really bad habit of mine is how I can get jealous SO absurdly easily.

I get jealous of a lot of stuff, like someone being academically, socially, spiritually better than me on certain subjects, anyone who talked to my close friends or someone I like without me, someone's possession or things they have that I don't.

Being so easily jealous is never a good thing if you wanted to have a friendly relationship with people (I guess that's one reason why it's hard for me to get friends).

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March 27th, I was here, the school so many considered to be "for the best of the best". This was the beginning... of everything.

So on the first day, as far as I can remember, I met my roommate in the afternoon, never talked to him, until like, the night, I was extremely introverted at the time.

The next day, I THINK that's when I first met my former classmates, befire we got our actual class based on DIP and PS. And it's also the day we met our homeroom, Miss Yaya.

As far as I can tell, that was pretty much it for the first day. We then had an orientation week, which was fun and all, but to be honest, it's not the greatest way to get me socialized with people at the very first days meeting them.

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I am the captain of my soul, and I'm the master of my fate

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I am the captain of my soul, and I'm the master of my fate

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And nobody could ever, EVER, change that.

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And I will make sure that I stay that way.

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And no men can tell me I'm not

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ok maybe not really

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And I will take responsibilities for my actions

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I am someone who will not run from my mistakes

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I am someone who will not run from my mistakes

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And I will face it like a true man, and never run away from it. Never again.

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My dear beloved (mostly) classmates, I'd like to warn thou to take all the content for in this section as a grain of salt in a mixture of potassium hydroxide and hydrochloric acid. In other words, this section's purely an opinion of me on thyselves.

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The first person on the list. Adam has been with K2 since the beginning, together with Nia, Aswad, Darwisy, and Me.

Adam is quite hard to talk about. He's generally one of the hardest classmates for me to work with, probably because of our different workstyles. BUT, he is relatively friendly, we never had any beef with each other, but I tend to avoid being in the same work group with him (no offense).

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Of course, who doesn't know Aswad? He's also been with K2 since the beginning.

In my opinion, as of right now, Aswad is a relatively fine teammate. Although, I will have to tell him what to do (in my experiences).

He was SO SO extroverted, I'm not even jealous of it. I also think he's quite overdramatic in certain situations (wonder what had happened before).

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The first girl on the list. I knew (and successfully remembered) Ayra somewhere in May 2023, which is LATE because we've been classmates for a few weeks by then (I'm an introvert, what do you expect?).

Personally, I think she's a really really good teammate (in fact, one of the best in my class). Not necessarily at leading the group, but she knows how to do her part REALLY WELL. She's very friendly, she's a beautiful person, and very chill to talk to.

As of my relationship with her, she's probably the closest girl to me so far (likely because I told her too much stuff, I think I trusted her a tad bit too much) other than Sathanaa, which we'll talk about later. But for now, Ayra and I were good pals :)

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Eusoff. Of course. Known for his... tendencies, of asking questions instead of having a proper, more flexible conversation. So I knew him after a few weeks in Bangi, just as a classmate.

When we get really really close, though, is sometime when we're transferred to Seremban. He's a chill dude. A very inconsistent man with his work motivations, usually a pretty good teammate.

As one of his closest and longest-staying friend, I personally think he could really be a tad bit more social with others, as in, showing more expressions while talking, maybe (I'm no extrovert, so take my opinion as a grain of salt).

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So, Nia. I first met her during the first week of orientation, and she's been the not-so-close classmate with me (in my view. I don't know about hers).

There's not that much to talk about her. I've never really chatted or do as much activities with her compared to others. What I can tell is, she's definitely not a bad teammate (Well, everyone kind of are).

For now, my current relationship status with her was pretty neutral. I'm not really trying to improve it, but wouldn't mind anyway.

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Haziq. Now this one, this one's fun.

I've known Haziq on the first day I stepped on KPP, in Bangi, in December 2022, PPCS that year. We got the same course (Mathematical Thinking), and have been coursemates, classmates, roommates, clubmates, circle friends, and God knows what else.

He's very introverted, but not as much as Eusoff is. In terms of teammates, Haziq and Eusoff are at approximately the same level. He's very reliable, but his commitment in group works in so inconsistent, just like Eusoff.

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The first 12 [now 13 (actually, no, not yet)] in 2K2. Met him when we first meet our finalised classmates.

We've spent some time together. Just like all Kedahan people I've met, his jokes are very rude and unfiltered. He's a bit hard to work with as a teammate, but not as inconsistent as Haziq and Eusoff.

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So I first "knew" Maryam sometime a tad bit earlier than Ayra. But the time I really "know" her was very recently, thanks to my new Formula 1 addiction (which was probably influenced by her anyway).

An introvert that does a great job at looking like she got 4 hours of sleep most of the time (just a joke, mate), and a beautiful person. She was also SUCH A GOOD teammate, easily one of the top 5. Working with her was so absurdly easy, just like Sa and Ayra.

Relationship-wise, there's still a lot of improvement (from my side) to be made, but so far the progress is... fine, at best.

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Sathanaa's the absolute best teammate. Boy, is she a good person. That's gonna the whole first paragraph. She was SO SO good at group works, she's very good at leading (and carrying) groups, and most definitely the best one in class.

Now, I'm not sure when I actually remebered Sa as one of my classmates, but I got close to her very very recently, sometime before I knew Maryam and Ayra.

As a friend, she was one of the best people to chat with. I can fully trust this girl and tell her my problems. She's also an introvert, which I guess, makes up for her academic CGPA.

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Izaz joined the K2 family after the PS and DIP classification, and she's not hard to remember, so I knew her quite early, compared to other girls.

I'm not that close to her as I am close to someone like Ayra, though. Haziq's better at that than me, in this case.

This cute girl was a great vice classrep, and could replace Haziq when he was away really really well.

She's a good teammate, does her work really well, very active physically, socially and spiritually, overall a really good student (in my view).

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Knew since the morning of the 2nd day in Bangi, my first morning in KPP, after I reunited with Haziq since PPCS. We've been fairly good friends since.

He was harder to talk about than Adam. As a human being, generally, he's a good person. BUT, when it comes to being teammates, that's the... "bad" part. He was the single hardest classmate to work with, in every. single. subject (except for than one Islamic Education group work).

Other than that, he's known for not being the greatest leader. Even as both a classrep once and an MTP (in my opinion). But, he seems like he cares about everyone, and tried his best to keep a good relationship with them.

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Yun Jie's widely known as just YJ. Known her since the first time 1K2 became a Pure Science class, but never really, ever, chat with her, unfortunately...

Teammate-wise, she's really good at group works. Like, really good.

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TPS!!! Probably the most passive-aggressive member of the 2K2 family. He's already popular since the orientation week, so I've been familiar with him when we first became classmates.

So as a teammate, he was ironically a pretty challenging person to work with. He's basically just hard to talk to, in general.

Socially, I was probably fairly closer to TPS than any other 2K2 boys other than Megat, Uddin and Alif.

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Probably the only reason you're reading my Padlet right now.

Well, as of right now, let's just say that I didn't have any. Well, I had a few before, but right now, there should be no one in my mind. Although, if you want the updated status, you HAVE to ask me personally, and I "probably" will tell you everything, because I have no one to talk to ;)

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Surrounding yourself with the right people makes the right you. If one of your messages was in here, you are officially, undeniably, a wholesome person, no matter who you are, and thank you.

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This was by Sa, by the way

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People said I should stop waiting for people to approach me. They were right. This is the only time I got a "hi afif"

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Someone wanted to hear my thoughts :)

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A song with stable rhythm and volume, not too loud and no sudden change of melody, really good for calming down

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So many people told me to do this one, just because I did this a bit later than others, I don't know why, so here you guys go.

She also joined K2 after the Pure Science and DIP division. At first, she's not hard to forget, just hard to remember (It's two pretty different things).

Teammate-wise, this Kedahan girl's not the best at it with me, our workstyles are fairly distinct, but it's not that bad.

Socially, we're doing fine. Not as good as other 2k2 girls, but it's a reasonable distance between the two of us.

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I'm in an awkward situation with someone, although to be honest, it's not that we're awkward with each other, it's just that I'M awkward with this person, all thanks to none other than my overthinking (Overthinking should be the main star of this Padlet, to be honest)

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Easily the best book I've ever read. It talks about how our habits are formed, from the outcomes all the way to how it shapes our identity. (You can borrow it if you wanted to)

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Uddin's a pretty special kid. He joined K2 when it became a Pure Science class, and I mantained a respectable relationship with him.

He's a very chill kid, compared to other "kids" (no offense) like Alif. He's basically a mixed Megat and Alif. His jokes are awkwardly laugh-cracking, and he can do his work as a teammate pretty well.

Overall, he's a cool little guy.

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Alif is a very smart boy last year (and probably this year too). He was very good in academics, and even managed to get top 10 in Anugerah Pengarah during Majlis Anugerah Pengarah.

As a classmate, he... has a bit of a temper problem. It's very easy for him to get pissed by other students (even lecturers, in some unfortunate cases), and I wish he could improve on that. But, he understands lessons very very well, definitely the most committed student in my Korean class (it was so hard to not sleep during those classes for me).

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Wait, there's only been 16 people mentioned. Who's the last one... oh yeah, me.

Hi, my name is Muhammad Afif Nazran Bin Norhaizal Bin Ramley Bin Mat Tamat (that's as far as I remembered). I'm a member of a very unique and diverse class, 2K2, where we can cooperate as one, or every one of us talk behind each other's backs, or literally shatter into a million pieces (It depends on the situation. Most of the time we're the worst team)

I'm the guy who would collect gossip information as much as possible as a hobby, and I'm the guy who would have a crush on my own classmates and feel awkward afterward (definitely had never happened before, aye?), I'm the type of guy who would try to be cool and chill but then immediately panic when I realised I left my earbuds at class 11.

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Does this Padlet deserve the full 80% marks?

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This is simply the most significant change you would see in me compared to last year, and I'm telling you, I'm disappointed in myself.

My environment forces me to swear in my conversation just so that people would take things seriously.

The normal behavior of the tribe often overpowers the desired behavior of the individual.

- James Clear, Atomic Habits

And now, I've been swearing more than my friends on average, which is obviously, just sad to know.

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I've been reading a bunch of non-fiction books so far, and the best one HAS to go to Atomic Habits by James Clear.

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Welcome to the deepest point of the iceberg.

To be honest, there is a group of people that I hate deeply just because of what they have done to me.

The problem here is, they don't know about it. The root of the problem, is, once again, expectedly, my overthinking. But this time, my overthinking mind is proven to be correct (at least, kind of).

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I'm not sure if you are aware, but there are a few easter eggs in this Padlet, that is kind of like secrets people don't usually know, unless you were very close to me.

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I have absolutely no idea how I missed this one hobby.

I've been watching a whole lot of Formula 1 within the last 2 months, and I meant a lot of them.

But to be honest, I'm still a new person to the Formula 1 community, and there's still a lot more things to learn about.

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Ha, goodluck finishing this whole Padlet.

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It's getting a lot worse. The excessive overthinking is poisoning my relationship with one of my classmates, and I'm not too fond of that.

I'll likely have to leave this conflict for a little while due to exams that are coming up next week, so we will see what happens next.

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There's this one question. I was struggling so hard, it was 4 points on a cartesian plane making a square. I've known all 4 points except for 1.

I struggled SO HARD on finding that last point's coordinate. I'm having such a bad anxiety at the time that I mess up basic arithmetics. But then I realised... I can just take the x from the points beneath the last point and the y from the point next to the last point. Now I have to do the write of shame, finishing the equation and writing the coords of the last point. Haih...

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+Maths (A bit shocking, but expected)

Biology (Also expected)

Bahasa Melayu (Time pressure)

Sejarah ('Alright' spot)

PAI (A bit hard)

Music (unexpected)

Physics (So much easier)

Chemistry (Could do better)

Korean (Nice one)

English Language (Eh, fair enough)

Mathematics (Thank God)

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I think I've spent enough energy on my socials. Wouldn't hurt to close it down significantly for this exam thing, wouldn't it?

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Plus, it'd be a perfect time to solve my self esteem problem