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My philosophy in short, is to live life and have fun. To chase everything that makes me happy, and hold onto it without ever letting go of it. Nothing in life has value if it doesn't make you happy.

Another part of it is my insanity. I genuinely believe in my own capacity as a human and truly believe if I set my mind to something, I can accomplish literally anything. It's an immature, childish, and potentially stupid belief which drives both action and unparalleled confidence, yet also oftentimes arrogance and laziness.

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Whenever I'm asked this topic, I am often unsure what to say, because I really don't fear much, but for once, I'll bring it up because I believe it'll provide insight into my character. Aside from instinctual, momentary fears, I don't truly fear anything aside from two things, the first of which is dying worthlessly. Not death itself, but dying as a husk of the person I could've become and a person who could've changed the world. A person who got so caught up in whatever the heck, and failed to reach a fraction of his true potential and value. The second fear, is somewhat tied to this, but it's the irreversible passage of events and of time. I live my life in fear of the absolutism of life and it events. I fear how the moment I make a choice, that choice is set in stone for eternity, and nothing can ever change it. But moreover, I fear the unstoppable passage of time, every day I fear doing something, and fail to do it, as a day that will never come back to me, and there's absolutely nothing I can do except accept that and move on, yet I can't always do that.

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Andrew is the middle child of our family, but thanks to my mother being aware of middle children being neglected, he's grown up with a whole lotta love. He doesn't have as many achievements due to him being younger, but he is certainly just as gifted and talented.

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This is my family. The people closest to me and have been with me through everything. I love them all dearly and would give the world for them, although I would never tell any of them that.

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I absolutely love cooking and eating. As an american I'm a D1 S tier big-back fatass.

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But of course, all this eating and I don't look that terrible, and that's because I also happen to go to the gym to relieve stress on the side. Although I haven't really been going as of recently, it truly is a healthy and good outlet to expend all sorts of energy.

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OF COURSE, I CAN'T END WITHOUT MENTIONING THE LOML, MUSIC. I listen 24/7, and know how to play the piano and guitar, and previously the violin and cello as well.

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Looking through my gallery, I have literally HUNDREDS of videos of failed attempts 😭

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Say hi to my mother first, Jessica Suarez, born on December 1st, 1972. She is the foundation, the backbone, and the everything of our family. She has sacrificed so much for me and my brothers and we would give the world back to her if we could. She met and married my dad virtually by coincidence roughly 20 years ago, and out came us.

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Then there's big bro #1, David Esfandiary. Smart chap right here, he graduated 1st honors in AdDU SHS, and is currently highest honors at AdDU. He goes to the gym, has a pretty girlfriend, and makes quite a good chunk of change by tutoring people abroad. (Don't tell him this but he lowk my idol I can do better though when i lock in trust)

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Although I have all these hobbies, as a digital citizen/native, the vast majority of my time goes into online media.

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The type of media I consume most is probably music, which happens through Spotify. My pair of headphones and my Spotify app is has what has gotten me through so much, and has been with me through just as much as my family.

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Another primary source of the media I consume is via my television. I often watch video essays, or TV shows I really enjoy with friends or family. Right now, I'm really hung up on Arcane.

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The most time-consuming media, by far, is social media. Whether scrolling through Facebook or TikTok, or looking through the lives with others on Instagram, I spend a whole lot of time on these platforms. Although it can make me sad and waste my time, it also allows me to keep myself updated on the lives of my friends with easy and fun interaction.

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The media I consume hopes to achieve one of 3 goals. To teach me, to allow me to interact with others, and to provide a solace for me, and that is exactly what these forms of media do for me. They provide quick and easy escapes for the hardships life throws at me, they allow me to bond with my friends or make new friends, or they teach me more about the world around me. I love each and every one of these aspects of media equally and they are part of what keeps me going. What else could I possibly ask for? Moreover, it's only natural I grow attached and to love things which have been there to console and be with me through my darkest hours.

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How are these media influencing or affecting me? (my lifestyle, aspirations, attitudes, behavior). Is this healthy? If yes, how come? If not, what steps should you take to change it?

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How are these media influencing or affecting me? (my lifestyle, aspirations, attitudes, behavior). Is this healthy? If yes, how come? If not, what steps should you take to change it?

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These media are influencing and affecting me through a myriad and a plethora of ways. They entirely transform the manner in which I interact with the world around me. The video essays I watch which teach me provides vasts amount of knowledge and perspective on many, even seemingly random things. It enlightens me in countless ways I didn't even figure was possible, about many topics I would never even look twice at.

Even the seemingly childish TV shows I watch to kill time can provide me with new philosophies or eyes to admire and perceive the world through. For example, from Arcane, the series I mentioned earlier, the writing is immaculate, but another thing I want to touch on is its dialogue. A single line changed my entire perspective on everything. "In the pursuit of great, we failed to do good."

As someone with expectations as tall as mountains and ambitions as large as the sea, this really stuck with me.

Or looking at another form of media, social media. It affects the way I see the people around me, the people who make my world unique. It allows me to form greater and deeper bonds with them as well.

However, on the flip side, these sources of media can often inhibit my ability as well. Since the industrial revolution and the modernization of earth, humans and their time have become currency among the elites of the elites, and my time is no exception. Almost everything in the modern world tries to appeal to us to take from us, whether it be our time or our money, and the things which we truly need to do is often far less appealing and far harder to do. THIS is what stops 99% of people from succeeding in my eyes, and as of right now, I am no exception. Every day I waste on media is a day that will never come back, and is a day I could have spent achieving a better version of myself. But again, we can't simply ignore the upsides of Media, so what do we do?

In my eyes, the answer is as simple as it is difficult to truly execute. It is to simply find the healthy balance. For example, as of right now I can admit I do not spend a healthy amount of time on social media, and I need to do better to not waste as much time, which I can try to do by simply properly organizing my day and not allowing myself to take the easy way outs and make compromises. To recognize the value of my time and my existence and to do better for past me, present me, and future me.

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I AM A CERTIFIED YAPPER, SO THANK YOU FOR LOOKING THROUGH ALL OF THIS AND SITTING THROUGH MY YAP, I APPRECIATE IT 🙇