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Hey Blog Fans, I was in our school’s production called “The Wedding Singer,” and I was the drum set player named Jim. I played for this production all four nights, alongside other members of the musical pit and the cast and crew as well. Overall, this production was an amazing learning experience for me to develop as an overall musician.

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The Fault In Our Stars Identity Crisis Essay

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The Fault In Our Stars Identity Crisis Essay

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Hey blog fans, I have just finished reading “The Fault In Our Stars” by John Green. Overall, the book falls into the realistic fiction genre, which I consider to be my favorite genre of books. After finishing this book, I discovered the reason behind the conflict of the main character, named Hazel Grace Lancaster. If you recall, my character was living with lung cancer, and she went on to date a boy with osteosarcoma. This conflict can be seen as an identity crisis because she knows that she is living on borrowed time, causing a disconnect between her mind and her body. For the rest of this blog, I would like to share a pivotal moment in the book that demonstrates how this conflict causes her identity crisis.

As I mentioned earlier, Hazel started dating a boy with osteosarcoma. His name was Augustus Waters, and he was philosophical and witty in his speech; he was just like Hazel. However, the reason that I say was, is because he dies from his cancer at the end of the book. The scene that best depicts this moment is after Augustus dies, Hazel goes on his wall online and sees people memorializing Augustus posthumously. In this moment, she ponders the reality of life and death by writing, “We live in a universe devoted to the creation, and eradication, of awareness.” (Pg. 266). She then went on to write, “Augustus Waters did not die after a lengthy battle with cancer. He died after a lengthy battle with human consciousness.” (Pg. 266) The author dramatizes both of these quotes through the literary device of repetition, since he uses the repetition of death to symbolize how the concept of death can be viewed at many different angles.

I can personally relate to Hazel’s struggle in one way, since I knew a boy who had osteosarcoma when I was younger. I was 11 years old when my 14 year old cousin got osteosarcoma cancer, which he died 6 months after he was diagnosed. As I was young at the time, I couldn’t understand what death truly meant and how it eliminated his mind from his body. Even now, I still struggle with the concept of death, and how one day everyone will just stop thinking forever. This is my identity crisis, for I feel that nothing matters in the long run, since we will be dead at some point anyways. Consequently, I always wonder what happens after someone dies, whether their consciousness either shuts off or continues after death in some sort of afterlife. My struggles with the concept of death causes an existential identity crisis, which reminds me of those news stories of people claiming they died and saw the afterlife. Just like my view of death, I don’t know if the afterlife that these people talk about is true, or if it is what we want to happen to shield us from the eventual oblivion of our thoughts.

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Today we watched a short film called “Validation.” After watching it, I couldn’t help thinking that the film reminded me of something. It mainly reminded me of the poem we read titled “A Song To Celia,” which discussed a man who has an unrequited love for a woman named Celia. The reason that the themes in this poem were similar to the short film, because they both discussed how an interest in someone can affect a person’s emotions. In the poem, the main character sent a flowery wreath to his crush, who in turn sent it back wilted and broke the man's heart . In similarity to this, the main character in the short film was attracted to a woman working as a DMV photographer. While he was complementary to everyone he met before, he regressed into a depressed state when she didn’t show him kindness like everyone has shown him before, eventually losing his job and his motivation. The reason that this connection between mediums exists, is because they both represent how much one person can affect another. In both of these examples, the main characters wilted like a flower and harbored sad feelings due to the person that they grew fond of rejecting them through negative interactions.

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Today I started reading “The Fault in Our Stars” by John Green. When I was trying to pick a book yesterday, I was wavering between “The Fault in Our Stars” by John Green and “Paper Towns” by John Green.

It was a tough decision. But, I ultimately decided to choose this book because I had never read it before.

More about the book I chose:

1. What genre is it?

a. Realistic Fiction

2. What is another book the author wrote?
a. Looking for Alaska

3. It is a classic read or a modern read?

a. It is a modern read.

4. Has it been made into a movie?

a. Yes

So far, I like it! A quick summary of what I have read so far is that they introduced some of the characters in the book.

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1. Wonder
2. Turtles All The Way Down
3. Looking For Alaska
4. To Kill A Mockingbird
5. Gossamer