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"The telephone rings. It is the freshman dean, who tells me that Karen and I have to come for a meeting to discuss Nic's suspension for buying marijuana on campus. "His what?" "You mean you don't know?" Nic had never told us. Even after discovering the marijuana two years ago, I am stunned. "I'm sorry, but this must be some sort of mistake." It's no mistake."

This shows that the relationship between Nic and his father has changed since he had discovered Nic was doing drugs. The dad is trying to believe that Nic isn't how he was 2 years ago but it seems as though Nic didn't learn. I feel like the dad is putting too much to think his son is okay and a good person as he is still young. It seems that because Nic does things he likes doing in front of him, it makes the dad think Nic isn't a bad kid. Then when he finds out that Nic's been doing drugs, it surprises him and can't really believe it, like how his parents still don't believe he did drugs when he was younger.

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¨Its hard. I dont know. Everyone drinks. Everybody smokes. Im sick of not having the courage to be an absolute nobody.¨ Nic is having this issue of being heavily influenced by others. His conflict is himself. Hes struggling with this idea as if he is a nobody, and he doesnt want to be a nobody. He uses drugs to not have to deal with inner conflicts. Its a mask, and a temporary solution. When the ¨high,¨ wears off he does more drugs too feel it again. The conflict is Nic using drugs and his addiction. How he self sabotages his own idea of life and himself.
¨I retrieve a crumpled- up piece of paper under the desk. Nic wrote: Im so thin and frail. Don´t care, want another rail.¨ (A quote from the book that I think shows his carelessness towards himself.)

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"When he climbs into the car I smell cigarette smoke. At first, he denies that he has smoked. He says that he was hanging out with some kids who were smoking. When I press him, however, he admits that he had a few puffs with a group of boys who were smoking behind the gymnasium. I lecture him and he promises not to do it again."

By this point, Nic is starting to head down the wrong path and his dad lets it go but doesn't realize that it's only going to get worse and when it does, it will be very hard for his dad

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¨Karen and I stand facing the boys.I look to her for guidance but she is as uncertain as I am. I am shaken not only by the discovery that Nic is smoking pot,but by the even more perplexing fact that I had no idea.¨ This shows how Nics dad doesn't know how to deal with the situation he is lost as well. The dad is also shocked from finding out and it scares him how he didn't know his son was smoking.

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The main conflict in Beautiful Boy is Nic and his dad.  You always gotta be controlling everything all the time! This shows that it annoys Nic, but his dad is just trying to be there for his son.

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¨His reasonableness is disarming, but I take in this information like a punch in the gut, reeling as much from the deception as the drunkness. And yet at the same time I appreciate Nics candor. I think, at least he´s coming clean.¨ In this quote it explains how Nic´s dad appreciates how Nic came clean but still is worried about him being under the influence.

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The main conflict in the film is between Nic and his father. The roller coaster of emotions through relapse and recovery leave both David (Nic's father) and the audience emotionally exhausted. In a report card, a teacher writes about Nic’s “burgeoning sense of kindness and generosity” and concludes, “I wonder at the gifts he will undoubtedly bring to the world.” Teachers and friends describe Nic as a leader who is intelligent and talented in the arts, showing how much promise he had.

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1)"His hair is shaggy and unkempt.There are black circles under his eyes somehow he is grayer his manner alarms me . I detect a simmering sullenness. Finally I ask what wrong." Pg.83

2)This passage revels how alarmed Nic's father feels when he sees him getting off the jet. He worries that Nic has fallen into his addiction again.

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" I am shaken not only by the discovery that Nic is smoking pot, but by the even more perplexing fact that I had no idea."

This demonstrates that Nic did not have a care for what his father had to say and that hes suffering because his child is making horrible decisions when all he wants is the best for him.

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¨I blame my hypocrisy. It makes me wince. How can I tell him not to use drugs when he knows that I have? ¨Do as I say, not as I did.¨ I tell him that I wish I hadn´t used them. I tell him about friends whose lives were ruined by them. And meanwhile, in my mind, as always I blame the divorce. I tell myself that many children of divorce do all right and many children in intact families don´t. Regardless, there is no way to undo what I know to be the most traumatic event of Nic´s life.¨

He feels like it is his fault his son is using drugs because when he was a teenager he used to smoke and use drugs. He blames himself because he feels like it is his fault for Nic´s most traumatic event of his life, which is his parents getting a divorce.

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"This time he tells us that he has realized that he needs more time in rehab and asks is he can move into the program's halfway house." Nic starts to better himself and becomes honest that he needs more time to recover.

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"when he climbs into the car i smell cigarette smoke."
nic starts doing things that aren't good for him

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''He begins cutting classes, insisting that he knows exactly what he can and cannot get away with.''
Nic starts to skip school and his grades go average

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“A world of contradictions, wherein everything is gray and almost nothing is black and white.”

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"The worst for Nic may be that he feels guilty about a close relationship with someone who is not his mother, which is typical, according to one of the many how-to-stepparent books Karen keeps on her bedside table."

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¨I blame my hypocrisy. It makes me wince. How can I tell him not to use drugs when he knows that I have? ¨Do as I say, not as I did.¨ I tell him that I wish I hadn´t used them. I tell him about friends whose lives were ruined by them. And meanwhile, in my mind, as always I blame the divorce. I tell myself that many children of divorce do all right and many children in intact families don´t. Regardless, there is no way to undo what I know to be the most traumatic event of Nic´s life.¨

He feels like it is his fault his son is using drugs because when he was a teenager he used to smoke and use drugs. He blames himself because he feels like it is his fault for Nic´s most traumatic event of his life, which is his parents getting a divorce.

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"Like many in my straits, I became addicted to my child's addiction. When it preoccupied me, even at the expense of my responsibilities to my wife and other children, I justified it."

This reveals how Nic's dad is struggling to drive Nic away from his addiction. It shows that Nic's dad has invested his time into helping Nic even though Nic isn't getting better anytime soon.

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“I don't really understsand why it's considered normal to stare at someone's eyeballs”

I like his thoughts because he thinks of his own but he dose like to question a lot and understand why people do things that are not considering

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Nic loves movies. Impressed and amused by Nics taste in them a friend who edits a regional magazines ask nic to write an article titled '' Nic picks flicks''

I really like nic hes super chill and sees like hes in his own world

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My friends and I often reminisce about our childhoods, when things were different. It was far more innocent world and a safer one.

He has very strong opinions about the way he sees life and how hes struggling with his views and other personals

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By this point in your memoir, the author's CONFLICT is probably becoming clear.  Usually memoir relies heavily on INTERNAL CONFLICT, since the author is narrating a true story about themselves.

1) Locate/Read a passage revealing INTERNAL CONFLICT
2) Discuss briefly how this passage reveals the inward/psychological struggle of the author

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"Anyone who has lived through it, or those who are now living through it, knows caring about an addict is a complex and fraught and debilitating as addiction itself". In this quote it shows that Nics dad is telling him that it's hard to take care of an addict and it gets him addict by having to make sure Nic is okay and isn't doing drugs

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"I naively believe that if Nic were tempted to try them, he would tell me. I was wrong." This shows that the dad expects Nic to say something because he taught Nic the wrongs of drugs but in reality Nic kept it from him and only said what he really did when the dad found some. This can also show how Nic is as well because he probably was thinking it would disappoint his father from telling him he smoked and drank when he wasn't around since people around him say he's a good person.

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   (Caylin Caro per 8)                    "Karen she is an artist and she and Nic share a deep bond over activities like art and speaking French". Karen loves Nic and worries about him as his addiction grows.   

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   (Caylin Caro per 8)                    "Karen she is an artist and she and Nic share a deep bond over activities like art and speaking French". Karen loves Nic and worries about him as his addiction grows.   

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¨Soon after we rent a place across the bridge in Sausalito so we can have a backyard.Our house is reputed to be one of the oldest in town.A rickety leaky Victorian it is slightly warmer inside than out but not much. We carpool with another family to Nics school in the city. Nic who is now a fourth grader plays,on the local little league team.Karen and I cheer him on.In his green Braves baseball jersey and ball cap, he is focused and poised second baseman.The other boys joke around but Nic is solemn. His coach tells us that Nic is a leader; the other children look to him for guidance. ¨

This passage shows how Nic is a leader becasue of the kids looking to him for guidance.

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"I sense that Nic is undergoing a fitful transformation, as if a tug of war is being waged inside him." This tells me that Nic is growing and becoming more.

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¨A teacher writes about his ¨burgeoning sense of kindness and generosity¨ and concludes,¨I wonder at the gifts he will undoubtedly bring to the world.¨ Showin Nic in his purest form. Its tragic too see how of a charasmatic person can fall into the addiction. It bugs me if someone said he was a bad person because he purely isnt. He´s made a bad, horrible choice. However he is kind however is influenced heavily. Maybe due to the divorce he´s a bit more influenced than others. What I notice is he loves music. Its like he uses it as a way to say the things he cant without anyone being able to question him, he uses it as an outlet which the lyrics is quite sad.

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¨Sometimes Karen says that she wishes she was Nics real mother, but she is realistic about the fact that she isnt¨ In this quote it shows that Karen is caring and loving towards Nic. She knows shes not his real mother but likes to think she is.

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" Karen starts telling Nic to put his napkin on his lap, which made him furious" This makes me think that Nic is very impatient.

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"The next few day, I continue to talk to Nic about drugs, about peer pressure, and about what cool really is." He caught Nic and his friends with drugs and is talking about how bad drugs are. He later says that his relationship with Nic has changed.

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“Anyone who has lived through it, or those who are now living through it, knows that caring about an addict is as complex and fraught and debilitating as addiction itself.” "This shows me how hard it is for the family of an addict to go through trying to keep them clean "

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¨I sense that my close relationship with Nic has changed.¨ This tells me that Nic is changed and the person who used to be close to Nic, doesn't feel like its the same.

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"At first, he denies that he has smoked. He says that he was hanging out with some kids who were smoking." After this he admits that he did smoke which shows that he is being influenced badly and isn't the kid he use to be.

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¨I am packing an overnight bag for him and look for a sweater in his backpack. I do not find the sweater, but instead discover a small bag of marijuana.¨ In this quote it shows that he still continues to smoke and not care even after his dad told his own experience and lectured him. This makes me think that Nic is selfish and careless.

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¨He is brilliant and wonderful and charismatic and loving when he's not using, but like every addict I have ever heard of, he becomes a stranger when he is,distant and foolish and self-destructive and broken and dangerous.¨

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"I sense that my close relationship with Nic has changed" It shows that their friendship hasnt been the same ever since Nic changed

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Its eleven and Nic isn't home. I had been so tired, but now in wide awake in bed, feeling more uneasy. It shows that Nics dad cares about him alot and worries about him and is trying to make thing better with him and his son.

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"Nic always was on the cutting edge of popular trends- in their time, Care bears, My Little Pony, Transformers,  Teenage Mutant Ninja turtles, Star Wars, Nintendo, Guns N Roses, Grunge, beck and many others. He was a trailblazer with meth, too, addicted years before politicians  denounced  the drug as the worst yet to hit the nation. In the United States, at least twelve million people have tried meth, and it is estimated that more than half a million are addicted to it". i think that nic was such was good at one point but let everything fall on himself because maybe the crowd he would hang around because it sounds like Nics parents were always very supportive

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''Its eleven and Nic isn't home. I had been so tired, but now in wide awake in bed, feeling more uneasy.'' It shows that Nics dad cares about him alot and worries.

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¨In a report card, a teacher writes about his ¨burgeoning sense of kindness and generosity¨ and concludes, ¨I wonder at the gifts he will undoubtedly bring to the world.¨ This tells me that even if Nic can be moody and mean sometimes he really cares about thing.

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"Sometimes Karen says that she wishes she were Nic's real mother but she is realistic about the fact she isn't." This passage tells me that Karen wishes she were the mother but the dad doesn't like the fact that Karen can discipline him.

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“Anyone who has lived through it, or those who are now living through it, knows that caring about an addict is as complex and fraught and debilitating as addiction itself.” this tells me that people that have gone through addiction and people trying to help an addict have hard times helping them

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Choose a passage from your reading that describes a character. Re-write the passage here and explain what it makes you think about the character.