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1. "I was too ashamed to admit it at the time, but the fact that she was a black woman, or that she had way too much makeup on, had nothing to do with it. It was because she was a woman." - This connects back to the Big Idea's shame and judgement because he is gay and nobody knows because he is afraid of judgement from friends and family.
2. "He had a look in his eye that scared me but it was his fear, not mine, that frightened me." - This connects to the big idea fear because him and his brother are scared of what will happen while he's in prison.
3. "But on my last night, Rick laid off the advice. We had set aside the time for fun and laughter and enjoying each other's company for the last time." This connects to the big idea happiness.

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1. "I could feel the blood draining from my face. I was afraid to take off my clothes, especially in front of everyone, but I didn't have a choice."  - This connects to the big idea of Parsell being shameful.
2. "So," he said, leaning back in his chair. "Ever suck a dick?" "Fuck, no," I said. "Well you will." "No, I won't." - The big idea is disgust.
3. "A tourist group had kidnapped Patty Hearst, a young newspaper heiress... And then, later on that year, Patty Hearst was arrested for robbing a bank with the very people who kidnapped her. She had become one of them., - The big idea is crime.

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"I didn't want to have sex - and this hardly counted as sex - but I felt like a coward" (pg 89).
Context: Red had forced Parsell into have sex with him, even though he doesn't want to, however he felt weak when trying to oppose.
Commentary: Despite being forced into something, Parsell chose not to fight back in fear. This leads to the big idea of surrender.
"Can you handle my having feelings for you?'... 'I want to know if you can handle feelings'" (pg 112).
Context: While playing basketball with Slide Step, Parsell felt angry and embarrassed that Slide Step had embarrassed him in front of a crowd, therefore he ended up insulting Slide Step in the heat. This leads to the two to have sex right after, and for Slide Step to tell Parsell his true feelings.
Commentary: This leads back to the big idea of confession as Slide Step had admitted to Parsell that he had feelings for him.

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"Was I really gay? Did I actually feel the way I did the night before I came to prison, or was it just a trick I was playing on myself to make what was happening to me in there easier to take?" pg 129

This connects back to the big idea of internal struggle, throughout the book TJ struggles to come to terms with his sexuality and finds himself questioning it often.

"Slide Step, I'd learn, was well respected, and everything in prison was about respect. You either had it or you didn't, and even when you did, it was frequently tested."

This connects back to the big idea superiority because in the book there is a lot of hierarchy and power and some people are more superior than others which causes fear.

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"It was the beginning to feel like some of my choices were quickly being taken away."
(pg 50)

This relates back to the idea of freedom because how slowly he realizes even his freedom is being stripped away and even the smallest decisions he can't do since in prison you are restricted. He sees how different the world is from inside and how it feels to not have freedom.

"they watched me to see how I would react. Stunned and uneasy, I didn't know what to say. I blinked. My brother warned me tested.."

It connects back to feelings of control which show how he is challenged quite often in prison because of his appearance and he has to face these "tests" which in a way shows his reputation in how he stands in prison.

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"Boy, if we were at gladiator school right now - I would have snatched that pussy from your ass two days ago, you snitch-ass bitch." (pg 180).
-Once transferred elsewhere, Parsell meets Nate. While Parsell was away someone had stolen his cigarettes. When Nate asks if Parsell would ever snitch on whoever took his cigarettes and Parsell, tempting to bluff, says yes. However Nate threatens Parsell if he were to ever snitch on Nate for ever taking the cigarettes. This big idea shows the use of fear in order to have control over other inmates. With Nate threatening Parsell, this would cause fear within Parsell not to snitch.

"Was I really gay? Did I actually feel the way I did the night before I came to prison, or was it just a trick I was playing on myself to make what was happening to me in there easier to take? In the past, if I lied to myself long enough sometimes I would start to believe it - pushing the truth so far from the surface that I began to doubt ts existence." (pg 128-129).
- Parsell can be seen asking himself whether or not his is gay multiple times throughout his memoir. However, he goes further in depth that maybe he doesn't have an answer to that because of the struggle he faces if he were to come out. Therefore he chooses to deny/push back this idea. The big idea that can be seen in here is indecision and internal struggle.

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"I wasn't expecting that out of him. I knew I was young, a new fish and all, but I wasn't that naive to believe him." (pg 137).

Since Parsell had admitted to Slide Step that he wanted to "try it" with a younger guy, Slide Step had set him up with another guy, however he wasn't exactly young to Parsell's standards. In this quote, the big idea of disappointment can be seen in in Parsell not only was he disappointed in having to be forced into someone he didn't want to have sex with, but disappointed in Slide Step who, went ahead and proceeded with the idea without consulting Parcell.

"I was always surprised by the different sides of himself he showed when we were alone. He'd share personal things with me, and he liked to cuddle on the floor underneath his bed." (pg 131).

In a way, Slide Step would tend to show a softer side to Parsell usually after sex. This leads back to the big idea of kindness as Slide Step would treat Parsell in a much kinder manner than others previously.