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Not speaking up when staff members decided to hold a meeting in a room I already reserved. 

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Not speaking up when staff members decided to hold a meeting in a room I already reserved. 

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Who: 2 staff members and myself
What: passive
When: fieldwork experience
Where: client lounge at workplace

*I scheduled an occupational therapy group session in the client lounge at 2PM.*

Staff member 2 to staff member 1: "I am going to set up a family conference in the client lounge at 2PM."

Staff member 1 to 2 staff member: "Okay sound great! I'll start setting up."

Me thinking to myself: "Ugh, I already booked the room for that time. Why didn't they check the reservation chart? Now I have to cancel the meeting because I have no place to hold it! I am so mad!!"

*Staff members cleaning up after meeting*

Staff member 1 to staff member 2: "Oh no, I just caught a glimpse of the reservation chart and saw that our fieldwork student had booked it for 2....I had no idea!  I feel terrible now!"

Staff member 2 to staff member 1: "What? Why didnt she tell us? We could have easily found a different place to go!"

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Who: Myself and OT
What: Passive
When: Observing
Where: Outpatient pediatric clinic

OT: We have a client coming in soon, we will have to make sure it is okay with their parents that you observe.
Me: Of course!
*Some time passes*
OT: It doesn't look like it will be appropriate for you to observe this client today.
*Me thinking*: Oh no! I just need a couple more hours to observe here...what am I going to do now? I feel frustrated. I don't want to have to come back next week.
Me: No worries! I can always come back and observe next week.
OT: Sorry about that!

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Not speaking up when manager put her patients onto me as a tech. 

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Not speaking up when manager put her patients onto me as a tech. 

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As a softball coach, I found out the opposing team was cheating 

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As a softball coach, I found out the opposing team was cheating 

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Who: myself, opposing team's coach, league director
What: aggressive
When: during a softball game
Where: softball field

I realized the opposing team was using a player from a different team in the tournament who was not on the roster.

At first, I was assertive and confronted the coach directly and calmly, with evidence by saying I said "I realized you have a player on your team from another team that is not on your roster. This could lead to disqualification from the tournament which would not be fair to the girls on your team" and he got defensive and said "You're a liar, I do not."

And in turn I got very snappy back as I am a firm believer in following the rules provided to keep the game fair for all. The league director got involved, knowing my side of the story was true but since the opposing coach and him were friends, he disregarded the situation. At that time, I said "Well it doesn't matter now, my team is winning and rightfully so if you aren't going to follow the rules. It's what deserved for not following the rules."

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Not speaking up when my advisor scheduled me to work with a student during my only lunch break

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Not speaking up when my advisor scheduled me to work with a student during my only lunch break

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Who: Advisor, 1 staff member and myself
What: Passive
When: During working hours
Where: Classroom at workplace

*I work all day with a student but we were short staff*

Advisor to myself: "We are short staff today, so I am going to have you work with *student name* from 12-1PM"

*Me thinking to myself*: Thats my only break, so if I do not speak up I wont be able to eat lunch. Ugh, I am going to be so hungry by the end of the work day.

Myself to advisor: "Of course, whatever I can do to help"

Staff member to myself in front of advisor at end of day: "Where were you at lunch today?"

Myself to staff member: " I was working with *student name* to help cover so I did not have time to eat lunch.

Advisor to myself: "Oh, why did you not speak up? I could have had someone with a different break cover"

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Not speaking up when my coworkers/managers were lying on their timesheets about the amount of time they had worked

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Not speaking up when my coworkers/managers were lying on their timesheets about the amount of time they had worked

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Who: 2 senior staff members who I was an assistant to and myself
What: passive
When: 4 summer's ago at a job with a construction company
Where: construction office

*Senior coworker 1 teaches me how to log my hours and then observes as I attempt to log my hours on my timesheet independently

Senior coworker 1: "Oh, c'mon you don't need to put in that you only worked 6.5 hours yesterday. At least include your lunch in your time."

Me: "I didn't think we got paid for our lunch break?"

Senior coworker 2: "Nobody knows how many hours you worked. Just go in and throw in some numbers."

Me: "I don't want to get in trouble."

Senior coworker 1: "Psshh I just throw in a 9 or a 10 everyday. Sometimes I put in an 8 to make it look more realistic."

*Me thinking to myself "Are you serious? I feel like I should say something, but I doubt it will do anything. These guys have worked here for years and I'm sure it wouldn't look good for me to correct them on my first week of work.... uggg I feel like this is so unethical though."

Senior coworker 2: "Gah, what a goody two-shoes. She's not going to change her hours."

Senior coworker 1: "They don't pay us enough for what we do. I just make up my hours so I get equal pay."

*Me silently wishing I had the courage to speak up or bring up the conversation to my manager as it continued to weigh on my conscience

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Being late to my cousins wedding rehearsal due to work (not speaking up)  

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Being late to my cousins wedding rehearsal due to work (not speaking up)  

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Who: boss, me, coworker
what: passive
where: pool shop

Me to coworker: I just realized my cousins wedding rehearsal starts at 5pm Friday and I am on the schedule until 6.
Coworker to me: Just tell our boss, I am sure you can leave a little early. We are never busy during those hours.
Me to coworker: I know we are not busy, but I have had to leave early one other time this week and it is Wednesday. Isn't that a late notice?
Coworker to me: Trust me, our boss is so understanding just tell her what is going on and I am sure you can leave early.
*did not tell boss and Friday comes around*
Boss to me: I saw your cousin is getting married this weekend, are you in it?
Me to boss: yes, the rehearsal dinner is tonight
Boss to me: Oh no, what time?
Me to boss: 5pm
Boss to me: You should have told me so I could have rearranged the schedule so you could have made it on time!

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Who: OT and myself
What: passive
When: shadowing experience
Where: hospital

*patient shadowing was over and I was sitting in office with therapist*

Therapist to me:
"I will be be doing paperwork for the next hour or so"

Me thinking to myself:
"I should probably stick around in case we will see patients after lunch, and skip lunch to make sure I'm here in case she does"

*therapist does paperwork quietly while I sit and wait for a couple of hours*

Therapist to me:
"I won't be seeing any other patients today so you can head out."

Me thinking to myself:
"I could have gone home sooner, ate lunch, and headed to my other job if I knew there wouldn't be anymore patients."

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Not initially speaking up when a 'boss' (a mother) forgot to pay me for time spent babysitting and tutoring.

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Not initially speaking up when a 'boss' (a mother) forgot to pay me for time spent babysitting and tutoring.

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Who: myself and a newly acquired 'boss'
What: lapse of memory in compensating me through virtual means
When: after work
Where: within home, then via virtual communication

*I had only babysat for two times prior, and we had arranged payment via a virtual tool, and she forgot to pay me for the third visit - for sake of not wanting to seem rude and inconsiderate of her full plate, I did not initially speak up about this mistake*

Upon leaving home at end of 'shift', Shelly: "Thanks so much, Madison. I'll pay you via XYZ in a second. We'll see you again next week!"

*two days passed, realized I had never been paid*

"Hmm... Shelly forgot to pay me for those few hours on Monday. Should I text and remind her? I know she's busy with three kids, and her family was coming to town later this week. Okay I'm sure it will come up after my text 'shift', so I'll wait to bring it up until then."

Next week, Shelly: "Oh my goodness, Madison! I totally didn't pay you last time! I wish you would have said something!"

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I asked my apartment complex to come fix a leak in my shower, and they came and replaced the shower head and resealed the entire bathtub (the leak had caused water damage on the tub). However, they didn't fix the leak. I felt too bad to say anything, but 5 months later the leak had damaged the tub again and mold started growing! When I reported it this time, they kept saying they would send someone out, but never did. i finally had to call the health department, and then the complex finally fixed the leak and resealed the bathtub again.

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Not Speaking up when my manager made me stay after hours not on the clock

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Not Speaking up when my manager made me stay after hours not on the clock

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Who: Manager and me
What: passive
When: last year
Where: work

Me: *clocks out*
Manager: Hey why did you clock out?
Me:  I ended my shift 5 minutes ago
Manager: Well you need to stay and clean.
Me: Oh , sorry. I just started work a few days ago and was unaware on how that worked. I can clock back in and help clean!
Manager: Now that you clocked out you can't clock back in, so I am just going to make you sit in that chair and watch until we are done.
Me: Oh, okay I am really sorry I had no idea you wanted me to stay later.
Manager: It's rude to the rest of us when you try to skip out on cleaning. Sit in the chair until we are done.
Me: Ok * sat in chair clocked out for 30 minutes*

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Not speaking and staying in an an environment that was fitted for me when working. 

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Not speaking and staying in an an environment that was fitted for me when working. 

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Who: Manager + Worker
What: Passive
When: Rehab Aide Position
Where: Clinic

*As a new hire, worker #1 was in training and adjusting to the environment noticing how all other workers never voiced their opinion around the manager in fear of putting her in the bad mood and ruining the clinic environment.

Manager: "Worker. I need to you to sit at front desk and answer phone calls/ check people in while taking these two blank and blank through their exercises. I'll be in the room catching up on notes."

Worker: "Okay. Will do!"

*Worker does not say anything and tries to manage checking people in and getting copayments while still doing their best to give quality care to patients as an aide. (This continued for weeks.)

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Not standing up for myself during internship

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Not standing up for myself during internship

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Who: another therapist and myself
What: passive
When: last year
Where: internship

*I was assigned to therapist 1 as their intern and therapist 2 was always making me do duties that were not under my description

therapist 1: "hey will you please grab (certain toy) from the OT closet for me, I would really appreciate it!"
me: yes I can do that!
therapist 2: "no, I need you to clean up this mess from the last feeding session."
*I wasn't even with therapist 2 during the feeding session
me: *went to grab the toy then went to clean up the mess, without a thank you.