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Unifieds audition at the Palmer House Hilton

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Unifieds audition at the Palmer House Hilton

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A strange but equally good experience. Auditioning for colleges at these places, in these small rooms has kind of opened my eyes. Im getting to meet awesome people from all over the country all in one place to audition for colleges all over! Getting out and seeing the city/the world for yourself is amazing, I loved it, and I hope to get to do even better next time.

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So not knowing the monologues for class was wonderful. I wish that someone would have at least told me which ones we were going to do, so I could have gotten a better grasp on what were doing. But when I was in it, it was the physcial tension in my feet when I was walking on my toes, or the squatting and the tension in my thighs that really challenged me. It made me feel like some other force was dragging me out of that moment, and I had to fight it.

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Going to chicago and auditioning for millikin in person and being there in the moment was equally stressful and interesting. This is very close to what I will be doing for a majority of my auditions for many things after I leave high school. It is a great learning experience

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Really figuring out about how long certain things last between people is beautiful, difficult and oddly alluring. Today we worked on the rhythm of movement, and being influenced by our surroundings. Having such different reactions and actions from each person was very strange, but equally interesting to physically experience. I was there, I was looking into their eyes, could feel the warmth of their hands and the coolness of their breaths. Especially when me and micheal were on the same grid line, we locked eyes and I COULD NOT look away. It was relaxing and calm, definitely not what I was expecting, but nonetheless the spark of a theatrical moment.

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The grid work in theatre workshop was something familiar to something that I have gone through before. I felt as if at times I was alone, and no one could see me, as if I was a gloom wraith in a fog. Others felt as if I was being marched down a city street to be coronated or executed by the writhing eyes of society. There were clear times of man v. man, man v. society and even man v. nature. When I crawled, I was like a decrepit beggar at the feet of those above me. When I ran, I felt as though I that collision was intense and real.

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The Black Paintings (Spanish: Pinturas negras ) is the name given to a group of fourteen paintings by Francisco Goya from the later years of his life, likely between 1819 and 1823. They portray intense, haunting themes, reflective of both his fear of insanity and his bleak outlook on humanity.

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I want to rip this parasite out of me, this green eyed monster

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I want to rip this parasite out of me, this green eyed monster

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I dont know how to be rid of this green eyed monster that riddles me with sorrow and agony. I think of all these great things and ideas in my brain, but I cannot articulate any of them to into ideas for others to hear, or for myself to use. Sometimes I ask myself, since I am so self conscious, or insecure, or because I am so introverted, awkward, I stutter and slur my words and am just plain absent minded, why did I choose theatre? Or did theatre choose me? I like it,  I know I do, but its as if anyone who does it has a long line of people who are already involved in their families, or they have so many resources to use that I dont have access to. Why am I so upset when I cant do these things? Why do I let it get to me  so easily? I am trying to push past these barriers the best I can. I dont want to be like the everyone else, i want to be different.

Im gonna be changing for a little bit.

Im gonna be fine.

Its gonna help me.

I want to reach transcendence again.

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He is a jerk. Its honestly plain and simple, and it should be pretty simple to understand him. But something that I love doing is playing parts that are far away from who I am.

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Will I be waiting at the bus stop in the rain all night?

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Will I be waiting at the bus stop in the rain all night?

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I fully believe that In waiting for the greatest things to happen to me in my life, I have overlooked better choices that I could have made. Smarter choices. And through my ignorance, I will be making things worse for myself rather than better. I always ask myself why I keep making dumb choices? I really thought that I could rely on them for support, that they would lead me to the right path that would be most beneficial for myself. At this point I can only hope for the best.

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I have to hold on to the rest of the year. I really am trying to get over this sickness that clings to me like a parasite. But I’m gonna have to find the cure soon, to be sure I can live a long and healthy life. Can I fight this plague by myself?

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Understanding your own limits is a skill that everyone needs to have. You are going to fail, you are going to forget and you faith will be tested every single day. Now what determines who is the strongest is who can handle the pressure, and not be shattered under its never ending, always increasing weight of life. Because the world will not slow down for you, and it certainly will not make an effort to pick you back up. You need to decide how you are going to survive the onslaught after onslaught of struggles. Will you lay down, and let it trample you, or embrace it with an open mind and let yourself be painted with scars.
¨ I dont want to die without scars¨-Tyler Durden

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This MAN is a character that Im definitely going to have some trouble with . Im honestly going to have to gear my mind in a totally different way in order to tap into what Im going to need. This is very reminiscent of Oberon in the way that he acts towards others. THE MAN IS A TOTAL BADASS and I want desperately to change.